I was so desperate that I wanted to die.

But I didn't expect that the person who pulled me out of the abyss would be the person I hated the most.

I have hated Yun Mo since I was a child. The reason is childish and ridiculous: she is beautiful.

Among her peers in Jiang City, she is always the best looking one. No matter where she goes, everyone's eyes are always on her.

Just because she has a pretty face.

If she was both good in character and academic performance, and modest and low-key, I might not hate her so much.

But she has nothing good in her other than her looks. She easily steals everyone's attention just because of her pretty face. What's more, she behaves in a very flamboyant way, which makes me really uncomfortable.

A good family background and the love of my elders and brothers have made me a simple and straightforward person. My likes and dislikes are always clearly shown on my face.

But I never expected that one day my innocence and straightforwardness would be exploited by others and eventually push me into an endless abyss.

After that incident, I hated Yun Mo so much. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have suffered the insult from Li Zhijie. At the same time, I hated Yun Yao, the culprit, even more.

During that time, I thought about committing suicide countless times.

The huge sense of shame made me afraid to go out and I didn't want to see anyone. I felt dirty and disgusting. The pain made me feel worse than death. Only death could bring me relief.

So, when my mother told me that Yunmo came to see me, my first reaction was to refuse.

She must be here to laugh at me! I will never let her see me in such a state of disgrace!

But to my surprise, instead of laughing at me, she apologized to me.

At that moment, all the resentment I had towards her collapsed in my heart like a building without its foundation.

Actually, if you think about it carefully, she hasn't done anything too excessive to me.

It was me who wanted to laugh at her and make fun of her situation. It was me who wrongly trusted Yun Yao. It was clearly my own fault that I ended up like this. I can't blame anyone else.

It's so strange. We were sworn enemies before, but we would start quarreling after just three sentences when we met.

But after I encountered misfortune, we were able to talk about the future and ideals like friends.

That was the first time I felt that I had never understood her.

She vowed to help me, but I didn't know whether I should trust her.

But the strategy she proposed was so ingenious that it could not only protect my reputation, but also bring that bastard Li Zhijie to justice.

I couldn't resist such temptation.

We succeeded! Li Zhijie was sentenced to eight years in prison for robbery and wounding.

Through this incident, I finally understood what true friendship is like.

I let go of my worries and tried to trust Yunmo and be a true friend to her.

We study together, and when we are tired we lie on the bed and discuss topics between girls, or go out shopping and eating.

With her company and encouragement, I gradually walked out of Li Zhijie's shadow, and we became inseparable good friends.

As we get to know each other better, I feel more and more that she is like a superhero who can do everything.

Faced with the ridicule and mockery from those around her, she fought back with astonishingly good transcripts.

Seeing her being maliciously slandered and framed, I was anxious like an ant on a hot pan, but she, as the person involved, remained calm and composed.

Rather than a friend, she is more like my life mentor. She teaches me to distinguish right from wrong and good from evil, and helps me solve various problems and difficulties.

I admire her more and more, adore her, and can't live without her. Even when she makes friends with other people, I will secretly feel jealous.

But I didn't dare let her find out.

I pretended to be friends with Xie Xia as if nothing had happened, but I didn't know if Xie Xia saw through my thoughts, and she was always distant and cold to my advances.

I don't care either. Anyway, I don't really want to be friends with her.

In this way, Xie Xia and I maintained a superficial relationship, and I accompanied Yun Mo to study, play, and do everything that friends would do.

Time flies, and as the college entrance examination approaches, I become more and more anxious.

This anxiety did not come from grades, but from the worry of being separated from her.

When I thought about how we would go our separate ways after the college entrance examination, she would have new friends, and I would slowly fade out of her circle of life and be forgotten by her, I became so anxious that I couldn't sleep or eat.

I secretly found Xie Xia and asked her to help me improve my grades.

After the college entrance examination, I lost a lot of weight. Everyone thought that I had a hard time during that period, including Yunmo.

Actually, it is not.

I was full of fighting spirit every day while preparing for the college entrance examination. Although I slept no more than 5 hours a day, I slept very peacefully and soundly every night.

Because every minute and every second I work hard, I am getting closer to her.

My efforts paid off, and I was admitted to a university in Beijing as I wished.

I can finally go to school with her again!

I was ecstatic and almost crazy with joy.

Everyone thought that I got admitted to Beijing Foreign Studies University, but that’s not the case. I’m not that ambitious. It doesn’t matter what school I go to. I just want to continue to be with her.

I know Xie Xia has the same idea as me, but she is not as lucky as me.

She could have studied in the same school as Yun Mo, but she chose to study abroad.

I was extremely puzzled, yet secretly delighted at the same time.

Finally, I am the only good friend left to Momo.

But my happiness did not last long. Momo soon made her first friend at Peking University, her name was Zhong Xiaochen.

But I soon felt relieved because Momo's friendship with Zhong Xiaochen was just an ordinary classmate relationship, and I was still her best and only friend.

I'm in trouble again.

But I wasn't that scared because Momo was there.

I have never had such a feeling before. I am afraid of and want to meet a person of the opposite sex at the same time. It is so contradictory.

At that time, I didn’t know that this feeling was called goodwill.

He always seems to be around, and I inexplicably enjoy this feeling.

He actually asked me to walk her dog every day. How shameless!

His dog is docile and adorable, and nothing like him.

Although I went to his apartment every day, I actually saw him very rarely. I couldn't help but wonder what he was doing and why he didn't come home.

Oops, I paid too much attention to him and even forgot Momo's birthday! I blamed myself and was terrified. How could I ignore my best friend because of Shen Zhen?

I bought Momo's birthday present and sincerely apologized to her, but she smiled and asked me if I had a boy I liked.

Facing her clear and penetrating eyes, I had no where to go, but was filled with fear and cowardice.

How can someone like me be worthy of him who is as bright as the moon in the sky?

Momo led me into the greenhouse, pointed at two pots of flowers and asked me which one I liked better.

There are two pots of Phalaenopsis orchids. One has lush branches and leaves and verdant flowers, while the other has only a lonely branch and only two or three flowers.

I chose the second pot.

Although the flowers in the first pot are blooming luxuriantly, they look ordinary. Although the flowers in the second pot are withered, they have a unique feeling of loneliness and coldness like frost, and have a unique beauty.

Momo told me that the two pots of flowers were grown from the same seedling.

The second pot fell, and not only were the leaves broken, but half of the roots were also broken. But in the end it still survived tenaciously and grew into its current shape.

Two pots of flowers are like two completely different lives.

A flower that has not experienced setbacks may be beautiful but has no soul. However, the flower that was dropped, because it had suffered a devastating disaster, finally grew stubbornness and resilience.

Fangfang, if it were you, which flower would you choose to be? Fangfang, even if you have encountered misfortune, you don’t have to feel inferior or self-pitying.

Just like this flower, falling into the dust is not its wish. As long as it strives to face the sun, it will bloom into a beautiful flower one day.

Fangfang, you will always be unique and irreplaceable in this world. If he looks down on you because of your past, it means he has no vision and is not worthy of your love.

Someone who truly loves you will like all of you.

At that moment, I let go and decided to face my emotions.

But I didn't expect him to be such a coward.

I decided to listen to Momo and attend the social gathering.

Actually, I just wanted to give it a try and see if he would come to me.

As expected, he came. When I saw his car parked on the side of the road, all the grievances and sadness in my heart disappeared.

Maybe he is like me, and has experienced some bad things, so he is unwilling to open his heart easily.

I'm sad that Fake died.

I am sad not only because Fake is dead, but also because I am sad because of his sadness.

I don’t know how to comfort him. I wish I were as smart as Momo.

I stayed by his side all the time and accompanied him wherever he wanted to go. This method was clumsy, but it was the only way I could think of to do it well.

He took me to the beach and I learned about his older brother.

He has been feeling guilty about his eldest brother's affairs, restraining himself and even breaking up with his family. He tortured himself in such a stupid way in an attempt to atone for his sins.

He was going to the army and asked me to wait for him.

I told him my story and he kissed me.

That was my first kiss.

I don’t know if it was his first kiss too, but I don’t care.

Just like Momo said, only flowers with experience can grow into a unique look. I like him in all his looks.

The days of waiting are very hard to bear, but fortunately, I can go and help him take care of Brother Shen often.

Brother Shen looks a lot like him. Every time I see Brother Shen, my longing for him is relieved a little.

I met the old man of the Shen family.

He liked me very much and always asked people to send me delicious food and fun things. I returned the favor and often used my rest time to play chess and go fishing with him.

The fishing process was boring, but I had a lot of fun because the old man would tell me about Shen Zhen's childhood.

Completely different from what I remembered, Shen Zhen was very well-behaved, cute and pretty when he was a child, so much so that he was often mistaken for a little girl.

The change happened the year Shen Zhen's mother died.

The marriage between Shen's father and mother was arranged. Before marrying Shen's mother, Shen's father actually already had a first love, but they were forced to separate for various reasons.

After the marriage, because she was separated from Shen's father for a long time and her feelings were not reciprocated, Shen's mother gradually suffered from depression and eventually committed suicide.

After Shen's mother died, Shen's father got back together with his first love by accident.

At that time, Shen Zhen had not yet recovered from the pain of his mother's death. He accidentally learned the true identity of his stepmother, and concluded that his mother's death was caused by his father and stepmother. Then Shen Chen was injured and unconscious. This series of events was too much for even an adult to bear, let alone the young Shen Zhen.

Hatred, self-blame, guilt, all these emotions eventually evolved into the young man's rebelliousness.

After learning about Shen Zhen’s past, I felt very sad and I secretly went to see him where he was serving.

He became much darker, but his physique became stronger, and his eyes became firm and steady, like a real man.

He acted very indifferent towards my arrival, which made me feel lost and wronged for a while.

After being apart for so long, doesn’t he miss me?

After all his comrades left, he seemed like a different person and pressed me against the wall and kissed me.

We cuddled for a long time, and my lips were swollen from his kisses, but I felt extremely sweet in my heart.

"Little Fatty, I miss you so much."

He lazily nestled in my arms and said, at that moment, all my waiting and longing were worth it.

"Shen Zhen, let's get married."

He didn't expect that I would propose to him, and he was stunned for a long, long time, so long that my hand holding the ring became numb.

"no."

He rejected me and I cried.

He hugged me and coaxed me, "This kind of thing should be done by men, silly girl."

He made a ring out of dogtail grass and knelt down in front of his comrades to propose to me.

We held a simple engagement ceremony in the army. There were no flowers or cakes, but there were warm applause and blessings.

A year later, I got pregnant. My family scolded me severely and stopped helping me plan the wedding.

Seven months later, Shen Zhen and I became parents and welcomed our first daughter.

My daughter has his eyes and nose, and mine is her mouth and chin.

My daughter inherited my greedy habit. She stuffs everything she can get into her mouth, which never gives me peace of mind.

Shen Zhen was in the army most of the time, so I could only take the children to play with Momo. Momo's little Maodou was one year older than my Tangtang, and the two children got along very well.

Shen Zhen performed very well in the army and had great potential for promotion, but he chose to retire and opened a restaurant near Beijing.

After graduation, I chose to stay in school for graduate studies, and now I work as an assistant teacher in the Chinese Department of Beijing Foreign Studies University.

We bought a big house near Beijing, decorated it the way I liked it, and lived a warm life as a family of three.

When Tangtang was two and a half years old, her younger sister Tiantian was born.

Compared to me and Shen Zhen, Tiantian is more like her uncle Shen Chen.

When Tangtang was one year old, Shen Chen woke up. After more than a year of recuperation, he is now no different from a normal person.

The Shen family regards me as a lucky star, believing that I will bring prosperity to the family and bring blessings to the Shen family.

In fact, they don’t know that this blessing was brought to me by Momo.

She is my salvation.

I really want to arrange a marriage between my daughter and Momo's little boy, Xiao Maodou, so that Momo and I can be closer for the rest of our lives.

But Momo was unwilling, saying that she didn't want to add constraints to the children too early.

I respect Momo's idea.

Anyway, I have three daughters.

Yes, I am pregnant again, six and a half months, and it’s still a daughter.

I believe that one of my daughters will be able to win Ling Weiqing or Ling Weian and become Momo's daughter-in-law in the future! (End of this chapter)