I have a secret.

I fell in love with my best friend.

I am born to be an emotionally indifferent person, whether it is towards my parents, siblings, or friends around me.

I really enjoy this feeling, not being swayed by emotions and being able to remain calm and composed in any situation.

In fact, I have known Momo for a long time. Jiang Shi is neither older nor younger than me, and we are of the same age, so we always run into each other in various occasions.

In my initial impression, she was a beautiful and spoiled girl. I had no feelings for her and never paid much attention to her, but I always heard stories about her from other people.

They are nothing more than jealousy or sarcastic words, with no nutritional value.

Until the real eldest daughter of the Yun family came back, she fell from her high place to the dust, becoming a fake who was despised and ridiculed by everyone, and was even forced into a mismatched marriage by the Yun family.

Instead, I paid more attention to her.

I was very curious about how a beautiful and bright girl like her could survive in a swampy and muddy environment like a slum.

Clearly, the Yun family had given up on her, but somehow she managed to get the Yun family to help her return to school, and she performed admirably in the city-wide examination.

Quite interesting.

Many people suspected that she cheated, but I don't think so.

If you don't have the ability, you won't be able to get a good score of eighth in the city even if you copy the answers.

My curiosity about her grew, which was not a good sign, but I didn't realize it at the time.

I have never been a nosy person, but I felt sympathy when I heard that she had suffered injustice.

She lived up to my expectations and got back the honor and achievements that belonged to her.

I never thought that getting good grades was something worth bragging about, but when I heard her results, I was really happy, and I couldn't take my eyes off her bright and pretty figure for a long time.

Her bright smile lights up my heart.

Momo and I became classmates.

Momo and Yang Huiying became deskmates.

For the first time in my life, I envied my classmates.

I was oblivious to what was happening outside and started to lose focus during class. My eyes always uncontrollably fell on Momo.

Her hair was black and smooth, tied into a low ponytail at the back of her head with a crystal hairband, revealing her slender, snow-white neck, with a kind of fragile beauty.

The clothes she wears are simple in style, elegant in color, and elegant in appearance.

She doesn't eat much, likes sweet dishes, and likes to eat some fruit after meals.

She likes to brew various scented teas in a thermos cup.

She always has a fresh and pleasant fragrance on her body, like the jasmine covered with dew in the morning, and the gardenia blooming in the evening.

Although I come from a prominent family, I have always behaved in a low-key and calm manner. However, when I heard the gossip against her, I couldn't control my temper and stood up for her.

I realized that something had taken root in my heart and was slowly sprouting.

I invited her to take a ride with me, and she thanked me with a bright smile. I responded lightly that it was just along the way, but my mood felt like flying into the clouds.

That night, I couldn't sleep for the first time in my life.

As soon as I closed my eyes, all I could think of was her smiling face. I could even smell her fragrance, which was so refreshing.

She invited me to play, and I was excited when I went there, but I was afraid she would see through it, so I simply brought a set of test papers with me as a cover-up.

Doing exercises can make me calm and cool, but this method doesn't work in front of her.

I have never felt that time is so long and unbearable.

Until Zeng Fang arrived.

Zeng Fangsi held Momo's arm intimately and chattered endlessly.

Zeng Fang became the second person I envied.

Momo wanted to have a dog, so I used the pocket money I had saved for three years to exchange for two Husky puppies from my brother.

Momo was very depressed when she received the dog. Her cheeks were slightly pouting, which made people want to rub her so cute. I suddenly felt that the money was well spent.

I invited her to my house, and for the first time in my life, I was filled with excitement.

I asked the nanny to clean the whole house inside and out in advance, and prepared various fruit snacks according to her taste.

I've always been calm and indifferent, but I always lose my composure when it comes to Momo's affairs.

My thoughts were obvious, even my parents noticed.

I can't go on any longer, I'm sober.

If I have to make a choice, I would rather be friends with her for life.

We can only be friends.

The road to study in a foreign country is long and lonely, with unfamiliar environment, unpalatable food, drastic cultural differences, and interpersonal relationships that need to be re-established. Communication with Momo became my only spiritual support.

She often sent me handmade postcards with simple landscapes or lovely flowers and plants.

I treasure each one of them as if it were a treasure and keep them carefully.

I have a room that no one ever steps into except me, and it’s filled with gifts that I want to give her.

She always asks me when I will return home, either by phone or in letters.

God knows how much I want to go back, I want to go back like crazy, but I can't.

I was afraid that the feelings growing like weeds in my heart would cause her trouble.

I'm afraid we can't even be friends.

I learned about her recent situation through various channels, and I felt relieved knowing that she was doing well and happy.

In fact, I have completed my studies long ago, but I am homesick and afraid that it will ruin all the hard work I have put in over the years.

But in the end, I couldn't resist the strong longing for my hometown and her.

Momo is as beautiful and charming as before, her face is filled with happiness, and her eyes are more gentle and charming than before.

She hugged me happily and said she missed me very much.

I can finally hug her openly.

We went out to play and cooked simple and delicious meals by ourselves. It was as if we were back in our carefree high school days, as if the five years of separation had never existed.

Momo's pregnancy signs were not good. She suffered from insomnia, morning sickness, irritability, decreased appetite, and she lost a lot of weight.

I can finally accompany her openly, but I feel heartbroken for her increasingly thin appearance. If possible, I would like to bear all these sufferings for her.

The child was finally born, and both mother and child were safe.

I am like a migrating goose, flying over thousands of miles of mountains and finally resting on the lakeside under the setting sun.

"Sister Xia, when are you going to consider your lifelong event?"

When Maodou turned one year old, Momo asked me jokingly.

I guessed that she was following my mother's instructions. Since I returned to China, my mother has arranged countless blind dates for me, both openly and secretly, and I either dodged or pushed them all.

But my mother came to Momo, and I knew I had to face reality.

I met several heirs with similar family backgrounds, showed their photos to Momo, and asked her to choose one for me.

Momo laughed, "How can I do that? It's not like I'm going to live with them. If I make the wrong choice, it will hurt you."

"I trust your judgment," I said.

Seeing my seriousness, Momo carefully investigated and understood each person in the photo, analyzing their personality and strengths and weaknesses.

Three months later, I had a grand wedding with the heir of Longhua Communications.

In Momo's eyes, Zhao Sicheng is not the most suitable candidate for my marriage, but my marriage with Zhao Sicheng can promote a major cooperation between Longhua and Excellence, and this cooperation will have significant development for Excellence.

For me, it doesn’t matter who I marry, because there is only one person I want to protect.

Zhao Sicheng was restless before marriage and the same was true after marriage, spending his days in debauchery and having affairs with women on all sides.

Although I tried hard to hide it, Momo soon found out about my marital status.

She held my hand and blamed herself, thinking that she had harmed me.

She asked someone to collect evidence of Zhao Sicheng's infidelity and advised me to divorce Zhao Sicheng and find a true lover to spend the rest of my life with.

How could I possibly find it?

I felt bitter in my heart, but I smiled and nodded and agreed to her.

Two years later, my epic divorce battle with Zhao Sicheng finally came to an end.

I took away half of Zhao Sicheng's property and became the richest woman in Beijing.

Momo happily threw a grand bachelor party for me. I snuggled in her arms under the influence of alcohol, feeling a peace and happiness I had never felt before.

If only time could stop.

In the following years, I had four relationships, but they all ended in failure.

When I was thirty-two, I gave birth to a daughter.

I told Momo that it was the result of my one-night stand without taking proper precautions.

In fact, it is not true. Yueyue was born through in vitro fertilization that I secretly did abroad, and I don’t even know who her biological father is.

Yueyue's full name is Xie Yaoyue.

She is the moon that is forever out of my reach.

Maybe it’s because Yueyue has been poor and has never had fatherly love since childhood, Momo treats Yueyue as well as her own daughter, and sometimes even I feel jealous of her.

But more often than not, I am happy inside.

I was very busy with work, so Yueyue was almost raised by Momo. She was even more attached to Momo than to me, and always liked to nestle in Momo's arms and listen to stories.

I always sit quietly by, imagining that we are a family of three, secretly enjoying a moment of unspeakable happiness.

Fate never seems to be on my side.

When Yueyue was three years old, I was diagnosed with breast cancer.

I told no one and gave up treatment.

The long years of seeking but not getting what I want have already exhausted my desire for life. Although I am not old, my heart has already become like that of an old man.

Death may be my only relief and salvation.

I worked, lived, ate, slept, and discussed the children's future with Momo as if nothing had happened.

I cherish every moment I spend with them, and I gaze at their faces greedily.

Before my death, I wrote a suicide note, asking Momo to raise Yueyue for me.

In fact, Momo would do the same even if I didn't mention it.

But there aren't many words I can leave for her.

I divided all the property under my name into three parts, one for Yueyue, one for Momo, and the remaining one for my parents.

The moment I closed my eyes, I felt a sense of relief I had never felt before.

Goodbye, Momo, my girl.

(End of this chapter)