The moment their eyes met, both of them were visibly stunned.
The next second, Xu Lai's tears flowed uncontrollably.
He Songling composed himself, placed the things he was carrying on the table, and took them out one by one.
Soon, the table was filled with dishes, and a small cake was also placed on it.
He Songling strode over to the bedside, squatted down in front of Xu Lai, and said gently, "Let's eat. I made it myself; it's all your favorite dishes."
Tears blurred Xu Lai's vision, making the familiar face in front of her indistinct.
She heard herself struggling to speak, "Who are you?"
He Songling paused for a moment, then finally closed his eyes in anguish, "I'm sorry..."
Xu Lai shook her head uncontrollably, her emotions gradually becoming agitated. "Don't say sorry... Tell me, what they said is all false, they're all lying to me. You are He Yu, just He Yu! Tell me now!"
"I'm sorry." He Songling slowly opened his eyes, his deep gaze fixed on hers. "Lai Lai, I did lie to you. The name He Yu was something I made up on the spot, because meeting you that day was the luckiest thing that ever happened to me."
"But I promise you, from now on I will never lie to you again. I will step out of the darkness and live with you in the sunlight."
Xu Lai closed her eyes in despair. "You can go now."
“Lai Lai…”
"I wanted to see you to confirm this, and now that it's confirmed, you can leave."
"Lai Lai, don't be willful."
"I'm willful?" Xu Lai opened her eyes, not angry but laughing, "You think it's my willfulness that led to all of this happening today, right?"
“I didn’t say that.”
"So what do you mean?"
He Songling held her hand. "Lai Lai, I know you're angry. Calm down, go get something to eat, and we can talk while we eat, okay?"
Xu Lai's face gradually turned cold. "Why do you think I would have dinner with a murderer?"
He Songling was taken aback!
"And you didn't just kill strangers, you killed your own parents and younger brother." Xu Lai slowly withdrew her hand. "You're too cold-blooded, too terrifying..."
"You only know one side of the story." He Songling's face also turned cold. "Do you know why I killed them?"
“I know,” Xu Lai said. “I asked the bodyguards, and they all told me. Your parents’ actions were wrong. Giving birth and not raising the child, even throwing away the infant in swaddling clothes, is tantamount to murder. But even so, you shouldn’t have killed anyone. How are you any different from them? And your brother, he wasn’t even born when this happened. What did he do wrong? You just ended his life like that. You’re not only bad, you’re also psychologically twisted!”
"Why didn't I see your true colors sooner? Why did I rely on you and love you so wholeheartedly? I was so blind... Mrs. Zhan is right, it's a good thing I didn't marry you, it's a good thing we didn't have any children, otherwise my child would be the child of a murderer, and might even carry the genes of your family of murderers in their bones..."
"Enough!" He Songling shouted angrily, startling Xu Lai!
“The reason I didn’t deny it was to be completely honest with you, to tell you that from today onwards, there are no more secrets between us, not so that you could humiliate me,” He Songling said, enunciating each word clearly. “Do you think I wanted to have my hands stained with blood? Do you know that before I killed them, I couldn’t sleep for nights on end? Because as soon as I closed my eyes, I would imagine the scene of them abandoning me. I could only fall asleep with the help of sleeping pills. Once, I lost control of my emotions and accidentally ingested too many, which almost killed me!”
"Later I understood, this is a mental illness, and only a mental illness can cure it. I must kill them to heal my mental illness and live." He looked at Xu Lai, "Tell me, either I die or they die, what should I choose? Should I be like a saint and let myself die for such scum!"
"You only see that I committed unforgivable murder, and you can feel sorry for someone like that, so why can't you feel sorry for me? You say my so-called brother is innocent, but am I not innocent too? What did I do wrong that I was born to be killed by them! Don't forget, if I hadn't been lucky enough to be discovered, I would have died long ago. Do I deserve to die?!"
Xu Lai was speechless and could only silently shed tears.
He Songling held her hand, his voice softening slightly, "Lai Lai, I know you are a very kind person with strong moral values. Logically, I shouldn't have admitted it; I should have insisted that Qiao Wanwan was lying to you."
“But I think we’re going to get married, and couples should be honest with each other, so I chose to be honest with you because marriage is not just about accepting the good side of your partner, but also about accepting their dark and embarrassing parts.”
"You killed someone." Xu Lai looked at him, puzzled. "Why do you think killing someone is as insignificant as stepping on an ant? It's a crime, it's a crime that lands you in jail..."
He Songling's gaze deepened. "You say I killed someone, but where's the evidence? The police determined that the family of three died in an accident, not by human intervention. The police can't just arrest me based on your one-sided story, can they?"
Xu Lai stared at him, her eyes wide with shock. "So you're trying to escape legal punishment?"
He Songling spoke slowly and deliberately, “I did not kill anyone, and I do not need to be punished.”
Xu Lai was completely stunned and stared at him.
He Songling took her hand again, but felt that her hand was even colder.
He Songling said with heartache, "Can we stop talking? Let's go eat. Today is my birthday, listen to me."
"Even your name is fake, so how could your birthday be real?" Xu Lai smirked. "Tell me, is today really your birthday?"
“For me, yes.” He Songling said firmly, “I was taken in by the people at the orphanage, I have her surname, and she chose this birthday for me. Today is my birthday, do you understand?”
Xu Lai took a deep breath, withdrew her hand, and said coldly, "I believe that the person who took you in was out of kindness. She must have hoped that you would live well, grow up healthy, and become a useful member of society, not a murderer."
"Guess how heartbroken she would be if she knew you were a murderer, how much she would regret taking you in, because people like you are a cancer on society..."
"That's enough!" He Songling shouted angrily, standing up abruptly and looking down at her. "I'll ask you one more time, do you want to come over for dinner?"
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