Chapter 196 He is Zong Si
Nymph couldn't help but think of that day.
When I ended my relationship with him, the word "ombre" suddenly came to my mind. It means the fire will never go out and will never cease to be born.
She also hopes that her children in the future will not be as cold as him. The word "fire" in their names also reflects her expectations.
Zong Si closed his eyes, not knowing what he was thinking.
Under the quilt, she hooked the legs of the man lying next to her and said, "My dear, when we have a child in the future, how about naming him Jin?"
Zong Si didn't even open his eyes, not caring much, still looking cold and indifferent: "My child will inherit the palace in the future, how can I name him so casually?"
"My child, I can't make the decision anymore." Ning Fu retracted her legs and no longer clung to him. In her heart, she only blamed him for being a cold-hearted man.
It would be better not to have a baby.
She turned over and ignored him.
"We'll see after we have a child." After a long time, the man changed his tone.
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Nymph came back to her senses.
"Madam Lu, how did you know this name?" she asked with a smile, but she did not directly deny that there was such a person in the palace.
Shuiying said: "I heard Lord Lu mention it."
Nymph's smile gradually faded.
He seemed to know more about the private affairs between her and Zong Si. Apart from other things, she and Zong Si had no children. How could Lu Xingzhi know the name Zong Jin that she mentioned casually?
She was a little absent-minded, thinking back to what he had said to her, how he sometimes felt inexplicably sad, and how he had asked her to call him "husband" when he was drunk in Yongzhou.
Nymph had a guess in her mind.
"Crown Princess" Shui Ying saw that her face was a little pale, and looked at her with some worry, "But I shouldn't ask this."
Ning Fu shook her head, wanting to say something, but she said nothing, "Madam Lu, what you told me today is something you and I know. Don't tell Lord Lu that you mentioned it to me."
Shuiying couldn't help feeling a little uneasy, but then she thought again, no one outside had ever mentioned the name Zong Jin, maybe it was a taboo in the palace.
She didn't dare to ask any more questions and felt uneasy, but when she saw that the Crown Princess had no intention of mentioning it again, she felt relieved.
Ning Fu seemed to have never heard of this matter, but if she saw Lu Xingzhi again, she would deliberately avoid him. Sometimes even Dongzhu felt that it was too deliberate.
"Did Lord Lu have a conflict with the Crown Prince?" Dongzhu asked curiously.
Nymph lowered her eyes and said nothing.
For example, when her carriage passed by him, she, who had originally leaned out to look, quickly shrank back into the carriage.
Lu Xingzhi pulled the reins of the horse, sat on it, and frowned.
She had never been so repulsive in front of him.
That day, Lu Xingzhi went to Nymph's courtyard.
I don't know when the swing was taken down, and the whole yard seemed a lot emptier.
Ning Fu did not show up, only Dongzhu politely sent the guest away and said: "Lord Lu, the Crown Prince's Consort is going to rest."
This is because I don't want to see him.
Lu Xingzhi was silent for a long time, and said: "It's not suitable to drink mung bean soup when it's cold. Tell her not to be greedy. She shouldn't stay at home all the time. It's good to walk around when she's pregnant. If she's weak, she'll suffer during childbirth. If there's an emergency and the prince can't make it, Miss Dongzhu can send someone to Hexian to find me. Hexian is not far from here."
Dongzhu didn't dare to respond, as this was clearly an act of crossing the line, so she just said, "Master Lu, please go back quickly. The Crown Prince is not here now, and the Crown Prince's wife is afraid that someone will gossip about her."
"Tell her to apologize for me. It was all my fault in the past." Lu Xingzhi said seriously, word by word. "Now, everything has changed completely compared to the past. I only wish her the best."
Dongzhu looked up at the man in front of her. He was as handsome as ever, but for some reason, he seemed a little lonely at the moment.
Maybe it’s because this yard lacks vitality.
Dongzhu returned to the house and relayed Lord Lu's words to her daughter.
Ningfu didn't say anything at first. She was conscientiously embroidering the Suzhou embroidery to pass the time. But when the thread broke, she suddenly lowered her head and covered her face.
Her thin body couldn't stop trembling slightly.
It seemed like there were countless grievances that I couldn't bear any more at this moment.
What was she doing during those unbearably lonely nights and those complaints of staying alone in an empty room? She seemed to have lived a new life, but it also seemed like she had not lived it. She thought she had gotten rid of her cold husband from her previous life, but he was still silently by her side.
But she had really suffered grievances, how should she deal with it? She could not blame Zong Si in this life, but facing her former husband, how could she treat those experiences as a passing cloud?
So when she heard Lu Xingzhi say that it was his fault, she felt heartbroken.
That was their past experience. In her previous life, she waited for him to bow his head for a very long time, but in the end, she never waited for him to do so.
She had imagined countless times that if she was a little cooler and didn't push him too hard, he might feel guilty and ask for her forgiveness, and try to comfort her by saying that he was an incompetent husband.
She actually forgave him for everything.
Life is full of regrets.
When I finally got there, everything and everyone had changed.
"Crown Princess." Dongzhu hurried forward to see if she was pricked by the needle.
Nymph kept covering her face and cried for a long, long time, so long that the man outside the house could not just leave, but walked in instead.
"Lord Lu!" Dongzhu couldn't help but stop him with a pale face. How could a foreign man enter the bedroom of a married woman?
Lu Xingzhi said calmly: "Go guard outside the door."
Nymph couldn't help but stiffen all over.
"If you don't go, if the prince knows what I did today, it will be your daughter who will be in trouble." Seeing that Dongzhu refused to speak, Lu Xingzhi glanced at her and said, "I just have a few words to say to your daughter. I have no intention of offending the prince's wife."
No matter how reluctant Dongzhu was, she had no choice but to go. She was afraid that Qu Yang would come back and see what was going on, so she closed the door.
Nymph began to cry silently, feeling a little awkward because of his presence.
He was clearly the most familiar person, but now he is worse than a stranger.
Lu Xingzhi sighed, squatted in front of her, and whispered: "Too much emotional ups and downs, it's not good for the child."
Nymph ignored him.
"Afu, can you please look at me?" Lu Xingzhi wanted to see how she was doing at the moment.
"Please don't disturb me again, Lord Lu." Ning Fu said sullenly.
Lu Xingzhi couldn't help but smile bitterly and said, "I never thought about disturbing your life again. I just want to see you happy. I deserve your hatred and resentment. He did a good job, but it doesn't mean that I can be forgiven for my bad deeds."
He wanted to say a lot, but he couldn't say it out loud, let alone tell him his true feelings.
Lu Xingzhi was even more unwilling to disturb her and Zong Si's life.
Her tears flowed more and more violently.
"Afu, don't cry, look forward, because I am sad, but it's not worth it. I don't deserve happiness, so even if I die, it's not a pity." Lu Xingzhi whispered.
But because of this sentence, Ningfu suddenly raised her head and looked at him.
Her eyes were red and her face was pale, as if she had suffered a great injustice. She looked confused, and a hint of fragility was revealed in her eyes.
Lu Xingzhi was so heartbroken.
He hugged her impulsively.
Just like in the previous life, but at that time, he relied on his status as her husband and never thought that there was anything wrong with it.
Right now, there is a little more restraint.
"I know that once you guess it, you will be disgusted and hate me, so I won't appear in front of you all the time." Lu Xingzhi stroked her hair, which made him feel somewhat familiar, as if she had acted coquettishly to him in the previous life.
Ning Fu lowered her eyes and said, "Master Lu, please go back. In my heart, Master Lu will always be...only Master Lu."
Lu Xingzhi paused for a moment, regained his senses, and let her go. After a long moment, he smiled and said, "Okay."
But I still looked at her a lot.
There may not be another opportunity in the future.
"I'm leaving now," he said, "I won't bother you again."
Nymph didn't look at him, but he still stayed for a while.
But when he turned around, she said: "I still hope that Lord Lu can live his life well and live a happy life, without trapping himself because of the guilt of the past."
Nymph still hopes that he will live a long life.
The man paused slightly.
Then he quickly walked away.
On this day, only the children playing and fighting on the street saw Lord Lu’s red eyes.
"Lord Lu is crying."
“It’s true.”
"Why do you say that?"
"Maybe he lost something, maybe he couldn't bear to leave. My dad couldn't bear to leave my mom when he went to join the army, so he cried." The child said, "My dad is not afraid of death, but he is afraid that he will never see my mom again."
Separation between life and death is forever.
Men don't shed tears easily, but if I could never see you again, the pain would be unbearable.
Look up again.
There was no sign of Lord Lu.
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