Chapter 156 Embracing the Moon
Gu Xizhou's arm stretched over Su Nanzhi's knees, and her whole body was pressed in Gu Xizhou's arms, with the sound of Gu Xizhou's strong heartbeat in her ears.
With the help of moonlight, Su Nanzhi saw the man's strong and muscular upper body, broad shoulders and narrow waist, well-defined muscles, and some scars of varying depths.
Su Nanzhi's face turned red in an instant. She struggled to land on the ground. Gu Xizhou grabbed her knee and exerted force. Su Nanzhi's upper body crashed into Gu Xizhou's arms again, and then a big hand with thin calluses covered her lips.
"Be quiet."
Gu Xizhou's low voice sounded in her ears, and the warm breath made Su Nanzhi tremble all over.
"There's someone outside."
Not caring about the ambiguous distance between her and Gu Xizhou, Su Nanzhi nodded nervously. The uneasy feeling of being suspended in the air made her put her hand on Gu Xizhou's shoulder awkwardly.
Gu Xizhou lowered his eyes and looked at Su Nanzhi's lips which were slightly opened due to panic. His throat tightened and the hand that was holding Su Nanzhi's knee unconsciously tightened a little.
Su Nanzhi was held tightly in Gu Xizhou's arms, and the only sound she could hear was Gu Xizhou's heartbeat.
Soon there was the sound of a door opening outside the yard, followed by footsteps.
The footsteps came closer and closer until they stopped in front of Gu Xizhou's room.
Su Nanzhi's heart stopped. Could it be that someone had just seen her talking to Gu Xizhou?
She was so nervous that she didn't notice that she unconsciously shrank into Gu Xizhou's arms.
Su Nanzhi was wearing a white cotton nightgown. The neckline of the nightgown was a little loose due to the pulling just now, revealing a piece of snow-white skin.
Gu Xizhou couldn't help but rubbed Su Nanzhi's lips with his hand slowly a few times, and the look in his eyes when he looked at Su Nanzhi was so dangerous that it made people's heart flutter.
"Brother Lin? Are you asleep?"
Ying Yuan's voice came through the wooden door, breaking the beauty in the room.
Su Nanzhi no longer cared about how ambiguous the relationship between her and Gu Xizhou was at the moment. The fear in her heart prevailed.
Did Ying Yuan see her chatting with Gu Xizhou just now?
Will it affect the mission that Gu Xizhou is carrying out?
Even she herself didn't know how much she could touch anyone's heart when she was wearing a white nightgown and looking at Gu Xizhou with a look of help.
Gu Xizhou looked at Su Nanzhi with only one thought in his mind.
If only time could stop at this moment.
Seeing that he was just staring at her, Su Nanzhi's original nervousness turned into embarrassment, and then anger.
She glared at Gu Xizhou, waiting nervously for Ying Yuan's reaction outside.
"Brother Lin?"
Seeing that there was no sound from inside the door, Ying Yuan spoke again and even knocked on the door.
Gu Xizhou frowned slightly, listened to Ying Yuan knocking on the door a few more times, and spoke in a low voice.
"Are you looking for death?"
It became quiet outside the door instantly, and after a while, Ying Yuan's trembling voice was heard again.
"Lin...Brother Lin, I like you."
Gu Xizhou frowned even more tightly. After moving into the Su family's old house, he noticed Ying Yuan's special feelings towards him, but he thought it was just a little girl's affection for a good-looking man.
He didn't expect that this little bit of affection would make Ying Yuan knock on his door late at night to show her goodwill.
"roll."
Gu Xizhou said this in a clear and concise manner, echoing the gangster's character.
The next second, Ying Yuan's sobbing was heard outside the door, followed by the sound of footsteps jogging away.
Silence returned to the room, leaving only the breathing sounds of Gu Xizhou and Su Nanzhi.
Su Nanzhi finally reacted. She was still in Gu Xizhou's arms. The posture was so ambiguous that her face, which had just calmed down, was once again
She struggled to land, but found that Gu Xizhou's hand holding her did not loosen, and even tightened a little.
Noticing the body in his arms suddenly stiffened, a hint of reluctance flashed in Gu Xizhou's eyes, and then he put Su Nanzhi down.
"Sorry, it was an emergency."
Su Nanzhi nodded helplessly and stuffed the small ceramic jar that she had been holding tightly in her hand into Gu Xizhou's arms.
"For you."
She paused slightly and said, "I hit you just now. I'm sorry."
With so many people staring at her just now, she naturally couldn't show her fear, and she had to act like she was not someone to be trifled with. Although she held back when throwing the things, she still saw the red marks on Gu Xizhou's naked upper body and shoulders in the moonlight.
Gu Xizhou was a little slow to react at first. Not to mention the injuries he suffered on the battlefield, even the scratches he got during training were much more serious than being hit by a watering can.
"fine."
The atmosphere became awkward again. Su Nanzhi nodded, turned around and wanted to leave, but Gu Xizhou's voice sounded behind her.
"Are you and Xue Wen together?"
Gu Xizhou stared at Su Nanzhi's back, not even willing to blink, trying to see a hint of impossibility in Su Nanzhi's expression.
However, Su Nanzhi's expression was extremely calm, and there was no sign of anything unusual. However, she did not give Gu Xizhou a definite answer.
"Does it have anything to do with you?"
Su Nanzhi looked calm and showed no emotion.
She couldn't deny that she was still a little moved by Gu Xizhou, but this little bit of affection was not enough to make up for the fact that she loved herself more.
After Gu Xizhou rejected her, she slowly withdrew her feelings.
"The man is unmarried and the woman is unmarried. The marriage was arranged by our parents. Isn't it normal for me and Brother Wen to be together?"
Gu Xizhou's eyes darkened and he tightened his hands on his side.
"You deserve better."
Su Nanzhi looked at him with a smile.
"Better?"
"Is it you, Captain Gu?"
Gu Xizhou was speechless. He was not worthy of Su Nanzhi. To be more precise, he was not even as good as Xue Wen.
Seeing that Gu Xizhou didn't say anything, the originally calm Su Nanzhi felt an unknown force coming up.
"After all, even if Captain Gu is a gangster, there are still female comrades who are secretly attracted to him."
"How can any decent gay man have such charm as you?"
Gu Xizhou naturally heard the sarcasm in Su Nanzhi's words. He explained without hesitation: "I didn't know Ying Yuan would come to see me so late at night."
Su Nanzhi curled her lips and said, "I don't care about square or circle, square or triangle. These have nothing to do with me."
"If you are really so enthusiastic, just give me a big red envelope when Brother Wen and I get married."
After saying this, she turned around and was about to leave without waiting for Gu Xizhou's reaction.
Just as she raised her foot, someone grabbed her wrist.
Gu Xizhou looked at Su Nanzhi's thin but firm steps, and felt that if he did nothing this time, Su Nanzhi would move further and further away from him.
He could only watch Su Nanzhi marry another gay man.
Whenever he thought of this scene, he couldn't control the emotions surging in his heart.
Su Nanzhi turned her head and looked at Gu Xizhou with a puzzled look. When she saw his hesitant expression, she seemed to realize something and raised her eyebrows.
"Captain Gu, according to your thinking, you can't have children, so you can't be considered a man."
"Brother Wen may not be as good as you in other aspects, but at least he can give me a child."
"Isn't this much better than you?"
"After all, the purpose of marriage is to have children. Only then can my children take care of me when I am old and let me spend my old age in peace."
"The more children I have, the better. There will be more people to support me in the future."
"So, I'm still better off than a sow. After all, sows give birth to more piglets, but the piglets won't support the sow in her old age."
Su Nanzhi's words were full of irony, but Gu Xizhou's face turned pale as he listened.
He wanted Su Nanzhi not to say such things, but he found that these words were exactly what he wanted to say to Su Nanzhi in his heart?
But when these words came out of Su Nanzhi's mouth, he couldn't bear it.
The saying "raising children to provide for old age" is, in a sense, demeaning. It is absurd to pin your hopes for the rest of your life on a child who doesn't even exist.
But he subconsciously thought that Su Nanzhi was such a worldly person.
Seeing the confusion on Gu Xizhou's face through the moonlight, Su Nanzhi let out a long breath and pulled Gu Xizhou's hand away.
"Gu Xizhou, I used to think you were different from other gay men, but later I discovered that you are the same."
"Raising a son to support you in your old age? No one knows when tomorrow or an accident will come."
"Maybe I'll die tomorrow. How can I count on my children who don't even exist yet? I just want to live in the present."
"Gu Xizhou, you and I are really not suitable for each other. Let's just be strangers from now on."
A flash of disappointment flashed across Su Nanzhi's eyes. She thought Gu Xizhou would be different, but she forgot that in today's era, raising children to provide for one's old age is the basic principle. After all, even in later generations, how many families can say that having children is not for the purpose of raising children to provide for one's old age?
Gu Xizhou's face turned pale, and when he heard Su Nanzhi talking about death, he clenched his fists again.
He never dared to think about this possibility.
But he also didn't want to be a stranger to Su Nanzhi.
Gu Xizhou lived for more than twenty years before he realized that he was such a greedy and selfish person.
He wants Su Nanzhi to live a good life, but he can't bear to see Su Nanzhi being with other men.
Su Nanzhi actually didn't blame Gu Xizhou. Just as she said, Gu Xizhou was a good person, but they were not suitable for each other.
"If I regret it now, is it too late?"
The moment Su Nanzhi opened the door, Gu Xizhou couldn't help but ask this question.
Su Nanzhi did not answer. She was stunned for a moment when she pushed the door open, and then left quickly.
Making assumptions about things that have already happened will only cause trouble but will not change anything.
Without waiting for Su Nanzhi's reply, Gu Xizhou's heart was already overwhelmed with regret.
Even if it was selfish, he wanted to embrace the moon in his arms.
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