An'an had never been so happy as she was today, and she happily played on all the rides in the children's playground.
Seeing her joyful expression, Song Mai also smiled.
Chu Yunxing was still holding An'an's coat in his hand, sitting quietly next to Song Mai.
"How long has it been since you brought An'an to the amusement park?"
The two chatted casually.
Song Mai pondered for a moment, then sighed helplessly: "It's been a long time since I brought her here. She's been clamoring to come and play all this time, but I just haven't had the time."
"Where is her father?"
When Chu Yunxing asked that question, he was filled with trepidation.
Seeing Song Mai deep in thought, he assumed she was unwilling to speak, so he tried to smooth things over on his own.
"I don't mean to pry into your privacy."
Song Mai smiled and shook her head, looking completely indifferent: "To be honest, I don't know who her father is either."
These words left Chu Yunxing with a look of surprise and a complicated expression.
In that instant, countless thoughts flashed through his mind.
He didn't want to think about the worst-case scenario, but he couldn't help but have many speculations in his mind.
His hesitant expression amused Song Mai. She gently tossed her hair and said, "What are you thinking about? It's because I lost my memory, so I don't remember her father."
Chu Yunxing breathed a sigh of relief, pondered for a moment, and said in a low voice, "I see."
"I've only heard about him from other people. He was a violent and unpredictable man with a volatile mood. Perhaps it's a good thing that I've lost my memories of him."
Song Mai spoke in such a calm tone, as if she were recounting someone else's story, that Chu Yunxing was momentarily at a loss for words.
"Do you really remember absolutely nothing about him?"
Chu Yunxing still harbored a sliver of hope, wondering if An'an was his daughter.
"I don't remember. When I woke up, An'an was about to give birth. Only Feng He was there for me, helping me through the difficult time." Song Mai sighed with her head down. "Luckily, he was there, otherwise I don't know what kind of hardship my daughter and I would have gone through."
"sorry."
Chu Yunxing's casual apology made Song Mai frown in surprise, finding it amusing.
"We've only known each other for a short time, why are you apologizing to me?"
Because I wronged you, if it weren't for what I did back then, you wouldn't be in so much pain now.
But these were just thoughts in Chu Yunxing's mind; he didn't have the courage to say them out loud.
He didn't know if Song Mai could accept him again, and he dared not gamble again.
Based on the timeline, An'an is definitely not his child.
But he refused to believe that Song Mai was already married, nor did he want to believe that she had given birth to another man's child. As long as he didn't do a paternity test, he could continue to deceive himself.
"It was just a sigh."
Chu Yunxing subconsciously took out a cigarette, but suddenly realized that this was inappropriate, so he immediately smiled and put it back.
"This stuff is bad for your health," Song Mai said with a smile, but took the cigarette from her hand.
She lit it without a care in the world and put it in her mouth.
The fluid movements revealed Chu Yunxing's surprised expression through the smoke.
"How could you..."
"I'm sorry for ruining your image of me." Song Mai looked at the heartache in his eyes. "Over the years, I've struggled alone with An'an, and it's inevitable that we've encountered many setbacks."
"Everything is slowly getting better."
Chu Yunxing snatched the cigarette from her hand and put it in his mouth as if no one else was around.
“This kind of thing is bad for your health.” He repeated what Song Mai had just said.
The two exchanged a smile, both seeing the helplessness and unspoken understanding in each other's eyes.
After playing around, An'an ran to Song Mai's side, covered in sweat.
"Mom, there's a carousel over there, let's go ride it together."
Without saying a word, she pulled Song Mai towards the carousel, but then suddenly realized she had forgotten someone and turned back again.
He held Song Mai's hand with one hand and Chu Yunxing's hand with the other.
At that moment, they looked just like a real family of three.
Chu Yunxing thoroughly enjoyed this moment of peace, as if it made him forget the distance between himself and Song Mai.
A grown man, sitting on a carousel for the first time.
Looking at the mother and daughter with their smiling faces, a smile that he rarely showed also appeared on his face.
The carousel turned gently, and Song Mai's flowing hair flew everywhere.
Her face still radiates the same vivacity as before, surpassing all the beauties in the world.
But the joy was fleeting. When the carousel stopped, An An got off, still feeling a bit unsatisfied.
After a day of fun, she inevitably looked a bit tired.
Before she could even share her joy of the day while sitting in the car, she fell into a deep sleep in Song Mai's arms.
Song Mai gently stroked her hair and whispered, "Thank you, An'an is really happy today."
Why thank me?
“An’an has always longed to have a father, something I was unable to give her. Your appearance today has finally made her dream come true.”
Chu Yunxing pondered for a moment and then said something completely nonsensical.
“If you’re willing, I can be her father anytime…”
The last five words were not spoken.
He suddenly realized that he had absolutely no identity or excuse, and even a small joke was too offensive.
Song Mai was still waiting for him to continue, but she saw Chu Yunxing shake his head with a helpless smile: "I can still bring her out to play in the future."
"Then I'll thank you in advance on An'an's behalf."
It was getting late outside, and Chu Yunxing unconsciously slowed down as they were about to reach Song Mai's house.
How are things between you and Ji Feng?
“Same as before.” Song Mai tilted her head. “Why are you suddenly asking about this?”
"You two have been together for quite a while now, haven't you ever thought about getting married?"
When Chu Yunxing said these words, he couldn't help but feel uneasy.
He wanted to probe Song Mai's thoughts, but he was also worried about hearing an answer he didn't want to hear.
"Perhaps I've thought about it before."
These words brought a hint of surprise to Chu Yunxing's face. He suppressed a smile and asked again, "Why do you say that?"
"After returning to China, I found that we weren't as compatible as I had imagined. Perhaps it wasn't meant to be, or perhaps I wasn't ready."
The car stopped outside Song Mai's door, and Chu Yunxing watched with reluctance as Song Mai carried An'an out of the car.
Even though I feel reluctant to part, I have to suppress my emotions so that we can meet again in a better way next time.
Back home, Song Mai received a call from Ji Fenghe.
"I told you about going home before. I happen to have some time tomorrow. Would you like to come to my house for dinner?"
Song Mai looked down at the sleeping An An and suddenly realized that An An had always hoped to have a father.
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