Chapter 547 Life Reflection Simulator
Shen Lijun felt light and floating, drifting aimlessly in the thick fog.
Where is this?
Am I dead?
Where is that ungrateful and heartless man?
Is this the world after death?
It’s better to die, it’s better to die, it’s all over.
But why do I still hate it so much?
Why is there no feeling of relief?
Am I going to be trapped in this endless fog forever?
Is this a punishment for me?
No, I'm not wrong, it's that ungrateful person who is wrong!
I was so nice to him!
Totally devoted to him!
But he!
But they don't care about my efforts at all!
Even if I was wrong...it was only because I trusted him too much!
That's why I surround him with so many women!
If I had known earlier...
If I had known this earlier, I should have cut off his contact with all women from the beginning!
In the dream, Shen Lijun spoke with a bunch of exclamation marks.
If there is a next life, I will definitely...
"Do you think so?"
Who is speaking?
Shen Lijun looked around in confusion, and a loud, emotionless voice came from the thick fog.
"In that case, do as you wish."
“Remember, the road to salvation is right under your feet.”
What does it mean? Before Shen Lijun could react, she felt dizzy and a dazzling light burst out in front of her eyes.
Hmm... After an unknown amount of time, Shen Lijun opened her eyes with difficulty, her eyes were dazed.
I could faintly hear singing coming from somewhere.
The sound of the waves remains? Does anyone still listen to such an old song now?
Where is this? Why does it feel so distantly familiar?
There was a wooden door covered with tinplate, and behind the door hung two bath towels, a bunch of keys and a white coat.
There were four iron beds pressed against the wall in the room, and under each bed was a cement platform with a wooden desk on top.
On the table were a tooth mug, an enamel basin, medicated oil, an English dictionary, piles of textbooks wrapped in calendars, and a diary also wrapped in a calendar with its corners curled up.
The wall is painted white with green paint one meter above the ground. This is to prevent people's clothes from rubbing against the white paint on the wall.
There was some mold at the corner where the roof met the wall, and the green paint on the wall was mottled.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is……
This is my own college dorm!
Shen Lijun's gaze fell on the celebrity calendar on the wall, where Sally Yeh was seen with a charming smile and beautiful eyes.
However, Shen Lijun had no intention of reminiscing about these familiar scenes. The numbers at the bottom of the calendar made her dizzy.
3038!?
What’s going on!?
Am I reborn?
Shen Lijun trembled as she tried to pick up the diary with curled corners, but found that she couldn't lift her hands at all.
"Shen Lijun! Shen Lijun! Someone is looking for you downstairs!"
The voice of the dormitory manager downstairs came from the window.
Is someone looking for me? Who is looking for me?
Before Shen Lijun could react, she felt her body standing up uncontrollably. She picked up the comb and rubber band on the table and began to tie her hair in a hurry in front of an oval mirror.
Through the mirror, Shen Lijun saw her youthful face from more than 20 years ago.
There was a shy look of joy on her face.
Why can't I control my body?
Shen Lijun watched herself comb her hair, then took out a white plastic bottle from the locked drawer, carefully squeezed out a dollop from it, and carefully applied it to her face.
Dabao SOD honey?
I miss it so much. At that time, in order to prevent my roommate from stealing my Dabao, I would lock it back in the drawer after each use.
There are no good people in her dormitory. The other three people always get together to say bad things about her, thinking she doesn't know.
hehe.
Shen Lijun's consciousness followed her body as she trotted down the stairs. As soon as she walked out of the dormitory door, she heard herself shouting happily: "Jianfeng!"
Then, a familiar yet unfamiliar face appeared in her sight.
It was him! That ungrateful bastard! That heartless man! That shameless man!
Anger rose in Shen Lijun’s heart.
Yes, that's right, I had already started dating this man, but he was still talking to those female classmates and junior students!
"Lijun, the Youth League Committee is having a dinner party tonight, I have to go."
Shu Jianfeng's voice was very gentle and his expression was a little nervous.
I remember now! I remember now!
It was this event, and he met Gao Lan at this event!
Because of Gao Lan, I had so many fights with this unfaithful man, and he actually told me that we were just ordinary friends!
He said that nothing had ever happened between him and her. Haha, so nothing happened too late, right?
Don't I know what that woman is thinking? You know her intentions, why don't you just scold her and leave?
Are you blaming yourself for being suspicious? Would I be suspicious if you didn't do anything to make me suspicious?
I was so stupid back then that I actually agreed to let him attend this dinner party.
No, I must stop it!
Shen Lijun tried her best to control her body, but she couldn't even control a little finger.
Feeling that the younger version of Shen Lijun nodded slightly, as if she was about to repeat the mistakes of the past, Shen Lijun's consciousness let out a silent roar.
I can't agree to that!
"No, we agreed before that you would accompany me to study tonight."
The young Shen Lijun said firmly, staring sternly at Shu Jianfeng's unbelievably handsome face in front of her.
?????
Just refused?
I should have agreed at that time!
Could it be that...
Shen Lijun's consciousness suddenly became excited, and she began to silently recite
Shu Jianfeng was stunned, his face showing embarrassment. "Lijun, but this is a Youth League Committee dinner. We're about to graduate, and the teacher in charge of assignments will also be there. And I'm a member of the Youth League Committee..."
"That won't work either!"
The young Shen Lijun looked Shu Jianfeng up and down and said disdainfully, "What I despise most is a man who doesn't keep his word. Either you shouldn't have agreed in the first place, or you should keep it if you agreed!"
Shu Jianfeng was startled, took a step back slightly, and stammered, "Okay, okay, don't be angry, I'll tell them right now that I won't be going tonight, okay?"
Done!
Shen Lijun’s consciousness almost let out a cheer.
It really works!
Although I can't control my body, I seem to be able to influence my younger self's mind!
This time, I will never let the tragedy happen again!
"Jianfeng, you have to know that in this world, I am the only one who truly loves you and treats you well."
The young Shen Lijun's tone slowed down a little, and when Shu Jianfeng on the opposite side heard Shen Lijun say this, the expression on his face gradually became gentle again.
"When you study in the evening, bring your phone book. Oh, and the yearbook, too."
The young Shen Lijun adjusted Shu Jianfeng's collar and said gently.
It really works! Shen Lijun's consciousness was extremely excited.
I was definitely able to influence my younger self’s thinking!
What's the point of bringing a phone book and a yearbook? Haha, of course, to cross out all the women's contact information!
After ten reincarnations, Fang Yu was promoted to an eighth-level arcane wizard. After mastering the essence of primary enchantment, he integrated the theories of the four major schools of prophecy, spells, enchantment, and transformation, and created a fourth-level ritual spell by drawing on the AI model architecture.
Fang Yu thought that this was the most difficult and sophisticated spell model among all the standard four-ring arcane spells.
It is also the offensive spell with the smallest camp deviation created by Fang Yu.
Because the purpose of this spell is not "harm" but "salvation".
People forget a lot of things, but these things do not disappear from the brain. Instead, they are stored in the neural network of the human brain in the form of memory fragments.
This spell will piece together the memory fragments in the human brain. The missing parts will be supplemented through prophecy and AI-generated methods, constructing an extremely realistic dream world in the recipient's dream.
The recipient will experience his or her life from a third-person perspective in dreams over and over again.
This third-person perspective is not exactly like watching a movie, but is more like a video game, where the subject's thoughts and decisions during the experience directly affect their behavior in the dream.
This spell can also be named "I'm Surrounded by Dreams" or "Life Reflection Simulator".
Since Shen Shuyao's birthday, Fang Yu has secretly observed Shen Lijun several times and analyzed her spirituality.
Shen Lijun's personality disorder structure is extremely typical, with obvious mixed states of paranoid and borderline personality, accompanied by obsessive-compulsive personality traits.
This type of person cannot be described as good or bad. The motivations behind their behavior are based on emotional reactions and attribution logic that are different from those of ordinary people.
For example, Ding Hai in The Greed of Man is a typical example of paranoia and borderline personality disorder.
Outsiders think Ding Hai is a bad guy, but Ding Hai thinks he is a Buddha to all families.
In fact, most bad people know that they are doing bad things when they do bad things, but people like Ding Hai and Shen Lijun don’t know. They live completely in their own logical world.
In modern psychiatry, these three personality disorders are independent of each other, but in reality they often coexist in a mixed form.
These two personality disorders are basically unsolvable, mainly for two reasons:
First, although paranoia and borderline personality disorder do not seem as serious as mental illnesses such as schizophrenia, and patients have normal behavioral and thinking abilities, these two disorders are deep-seated psychological structural problems, and schizophrenia is a problem of neurotransmitter dysfunction.
Second, and most importantly, this type of people lack one of the most basic human abilities, which is normal empathy.
Shen Lijun can only construct cognition based on her own feelings and does not have the ability to integrate emotions from the perspective of others.
In a state where subjective feelings dominate everything, any behavior can be interpreted as "harming me" or "denying me" in their eyes.
In other words, no matter how the psychologists guide them, patients with this type of psychological disorder find it difficult to put themselves in other people's shoes and consider problems from their perspective, let alone acknowledge that they have problems.
This state is not equivalent to simple selfishness.
Many patients with paranoid personality disorder have a strong sense of altruism and willingness to sacrifice. They are willing to give their all for their loved ones, the collective, and the country. However, once these contributions are not recognized or questioned, they will become extremely distrustful and hostile.
No matter how great a psychologist is, the patient’s condition can only be improved if he or she cooperates with the treatment and wants it.
The patient doesn't think there is anything wrong with him, so even if Freud comes, it will be useless.
Moreover, compared with other modern medicine, the development of clinical psychology is close to metaphysics. Many psychologists who have obtained doctorates for more than 20 years charge hundreds or thousands of dollars for consultations per hour, but have never cured a single patient in their entire career.
Shen Lijun is exactly the kind of person who "doesn't think there is anything wrong with her at all."
Some researchers who specialize in paranoid disorders believe that people like Shen Lijun have extremely closed cognitive perspectives and find it difficult to develop true self-reflection capabilities.
If we want to improve the psychological condition of such people, we can only let them shift their perspective to an objective third party so that they can discover their own problems and repair their character flaws.
This is just a hypothesis, and the proposer himself is not sure about it.
Because there is no technical means that can allow patients to shift their perspective to a third party, not even hypnosis.
But the arcane works.
In the dream, Shen Lijun realized that she could actually influence her younger self's thinking, and she was very excited. That night, she blacked out the contact information of all the women in Shu Jianfeng's phone book.
In the following days, Shen Lijun was even more vigilant and did not give Shu Jianfeng any chance to contact other women.
After graduation, Shen Lijun strictly forbade Shu Jianfeng from attending any class reunions.
Class reunion, class reunion, break up every couple. If you care about me, why would you attend such a dangerous party?
Under Shen Lijun's control, Shu Jianfeng enjoyed it at first, but not long after, Shu Jianfeng began to become more and more silent.
Because Shu Jianfeng did not participate in any social activities, he was not assigned to the Xiguan Finance Bureau after graduation. Instead, he was assigned to a small state-owned store.
Within a year or two, the state-owned stores went bankrupt and Shu Jianfeng was forced to leave the port, where he drank to drown his sorrows every day.
Just three years after graduation and the fourth year of their relationship, one ordinary afternoon, Shu Jianfeng disappeared without warning.
It wasn't a quarrel, it wasn't a fit of anger, and there wasn't even a note left.
It's like he disappeared from the face of the earth.
"Why!?"
"Why am I so good to you? Why do you still want to hurt me?!"
"Oh right, we're not married yet. The longer a relationship lasts, the easier it is to break up! I shouldn't have given him so much time to daydream! That must be it!"
Shen Lijun's consciousness watched her younger self smashing everything in the house, muttering to herself.
"are you sure?"
The voice that she hadn't heard for many years appeared in Shen Lijun's mind again.
"I'm sure!" Shen Lijun's consciousness shuddered, and she was extremely excited. "This time, I will marry him after graduation! Make him give up completely!"
"As you wish."
The emotionless voice said four words, and then Shen Lijun felt dizzy. When she opened her eyes again, it was already the graduation ceremony, and the dean of the Normal College was giving a speech on the playground.
"Jianfeng, let's get married!"
As soon as the ceremony was over, the young Shen Lijun found Shu Jianfeng who had already started working.
This time, under her pressure, Shu Jianfeng and she got married right after graduation. After the marriage, Shu Jianfeng came home later and later, and the quarrels between the two became more and more frequent.
Finally, two years later, when Shen Lijun was just pregnant, Shu Jianfeng disappeared again.
"No, this is impossible, this is impossible, it must be because of Chen Jiao, he is the one who led Jianfeng astray!"
"Next time, I will definitely not let him continue to associate with these bad friends!"
"As you wish." The emotionless voice appeared again.
In the third reincarnation, Shen Lijun completely controlled Shu Jianfeng's social circle. Regardless of gender, Shen Lijun did not allow Shu Jianfeng to have more contact with them.
As a result, this time, after only one year, before the two graduated, Shu Jianfeng, unable to tolerate this kind of surveillance, personally proposed a breakup for the first time.
(End of this chapter)
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