Chapter 549: Humanity can only rely on itself for salvation (4500)
"Shen Lijun! Someone is looking for you downstairs!"
Hearing the dormitory manager's shouting again, Shen Lijun slowly opened her eyes.
It was still the familiar dormitory, exactly the same as when I first reincarnated.
Shen Lijun stood up subconsciously, pushed open the screen window, responded to the people downstairs, and then froze.
Huh? I can control this body?
Shen Lijun didn't comb her hair this time. She simply gathered her hair, stood up, and went downstairs to the dormitory.
"Lijun, the Youth League Committee is having a dinner party tonight, I have to go."
Shu Jianfeng looked at Shen Lijun anxiously.
Shen Lijun looked at Shu Jianfeng's face in a trance.
Is it still not over?
I have completely given up, but you still won't let me go?
What exactly is the path to redemption that the voice is talking about?
"Lijun?" Shu Jianfeng saw that Shen Lijun hadn't spoken a word, and fear appeared on his face.
"If you don't agree, I won't go. Please don't be angry, okay?"
Shen Lijun came back to her senses and looked at Shu Jianfeng's expression with complicated eyes.
So, am I so scary?
It turns out that you were just afraid of me.
"The teacher in charge of the Youth League Committee's dinner is also going today, so let's go."
Shen Lijun controlled her emotions, took a deep breath, and smiled.
Shu Jianfeng was stunned for a moment, then an expression of disbelief and surprise appeared on his face: "You agree?"
Shen Lijun nodded and looked at Shu Jianfeng quietly: "I will be assigned a job soon after graduation. It would be good to participate in more social activities."
Then Shu Jianfeng remembered something and murmured, "Uh, there's one more thing. I heard Gao Lan is going too."
Then, Shu Jianfeng quickly made amends: "I swear, there is nothing going on between her and me. We are just ordinary classmates."
Seeing Shu Jianfeng's anxious expression, Shen Lijun looked calm and said, "I know. It's okay. Go ahead. I'm going to the English Corner tonight as well."
Shu Jianfeng asked cautiously: "Are you angry?"
Shen Lijun smiled and said, "No, I'm not angry at all. I'm not that petty."
Shu Jianfeng still found it hard to believe, and looked Shen Lijun up and down.
Since he was a child, many girls have had a crush on him, and he has had contact with some of them, but almost every girl who dated him would fall in love with someone else.
There is only Shen Lijun. Although Shen Lijun is not very beautiful, she is also pretty.
What is more important is that Shu Jianfeng can feel that Shen Lijun really cares about him.
The other party may even be jealous and cry for a whole day if he says a word to other girls.
Although he sometimes feels annoyed and thinks the other party is unreasonable, this gives him a strong sense of emotional security.
Maybe this is true love?
Since I can't find the one I love, it would be nice to find one who loves me.
But now, Shen Lijun's performance was completely beyond his expectations.
Lijun actually agreed?
Doesn't she love me anymore?
In addition to being afraid that Shen Lijun would be angry, Shu Jianfeng actually felt a little anxious and worried.
"Are you really not angry?"
Shen Lijun also gradually adapted to her rebirth, feeling both angry and amused: "I'm really not angry. I'm about to graduate, so it's a good thing to socialize more."
Seeing that Shen Lijun's expression did not seem fake, Shu Jianfeng let out a long sigh and showed a happy smile: "Okay, then I'll go."
After that, Shu Jianfeng took the initiative to stretch out his arms and gave Shen Lijun a hug.
When she smelled the scent on Shu Jianfeng, Shen Lijun almost cried.
In his ten lifetimes as a human being, this was the first time that Shu Jianfeng took the initiative to hug her.
The girls from the teachers' college who were passing by looked at the couple with smiles on their faces.
Although Fang Yu and Shen Shuyao were not born at that time, in a sense, college students of this generation were much more open-minded than those more than 20 years later.
Shu Jianfeng in the dream did not notice anything unusual about Shen Lijun. After letting go of Shen Lijun, he waved happily and turned away.
After walking a few steps, Shu Jianfeng came back again, his face showing hesitation: "How about you come with me?"
Shen Lijun was startled, and a warm current she had never felt before flowed through her chest.
It turns out that as long as I can be a little more considerate of him, he will care about me.
What have I been doing all these years?
Shen Lijun squatted on the ground, crying.
"Lijun, Lijun, what's wrong with you?" Shu Jianfeng hurriedly helped Shen Lijun up.
"You are still angry. I won't go, okay?"
Shu Jianfeng said nervously.
"No, I'm not angry, I'm happy." Shen Lijun wiped the tears from her face and showed a sincere smile.
Time flies, and in the dream, Shen Lijun and Shu Jianfeng got married again a year after graduation. Two years after their marriage, their daughter was born.
After having a child, the family is filled with a lot of laughter and joy.
Although quarrels and arguments were inevitable, these years were the happiest years in Shen Lijun's ten lives.
She almost forgot her past life, and those days that kept her awake at night with regret every time she thought about them.
Sometimes she even felt that if she lived her life like this, it might be God's forgiveness.
But occasionally, Shen Lijun still feels a little lost.
Because the daughter is not Chen Shuyao.
Although Shu Jianfeng's father still named the child Shu Yao, the child had no resemblance to Shen Shuyao in either personality or appearance.
On the contrary, she looks very much like Shen Lijun of the past.
In fact, in these ten reincarnations, the children she gave birth to were different each time, but in the past few reincarnations, she simply did not pay attention to the children.
"Nannan, stop watching TV! You'll be late for school! Eat breakfast quickly!"
Similar to most families with children, when Shen Lijun and Shu Jianfeng woke up in the morning, they were like fighting a war. One was busy packing things for their daughter to take with her, and the other was busy making breakfast for her.
"I don't want it! I told you last night I want a sunny-side-up fried egg with soy sauce and sesame oil! Why no sesame oil?"
The little girl with a ponytail was in a bad mood and looked unhappy as she sat on the dining chair.
Shu Jianfeng coaxed his daughter: "We are out of sesame oil at home. Dad will buy some after get off work today, okay?"
"No! You don't love me! You're just pretending! You can't even remember what I said!?"
The little girl pushed the plate off the table and onto the floor, breaking it into pieces.
Shu Jianfeng bent down with a helpless look on his face and picked up the broken pieces of plates on the ground.
"ah!"
Shu Jianfeng didn't pay attention and the sharp fragment scratched his finger, and bright red blood flowed out all of a sudden.
"It's useless. I can't do anything right."
The little girl curled her lips in disdain.
“Bang!”
The little girl covered her face in disbelief and looked at her mother who had always been kind with fear.
"Who taught you to treat your father like this!? Apologize to your father!"
Shen Lijun's eyes were spitting fire as she glared at the little girl.
"Wow~" The six-year-old girl burst into tears.
"She's still young and doesn't understand. Why are you hitting her?" Shu Jianfeng was frightened and quickly picked up his daughter and held her in his arms: "Don't cry, don't cry."
"Ignorant?" Shen Lijun laughed in anger, "When Shu Yao was her age..."
Having said that, Shen Lijun suddenly stopped and stood there.
"Shu Yao? Isn't my daughter Shu Yao?" Shu Jianfeng looked puzzled. "Wife, what are you talking about?"
There was a hint of sadness in Shen Lijun's eyes, and her nose was slightly red. After standing there for a long time, she waved her hand: "You send her off today. I feel a little uncomfortable."
Under Shu Jianfeng's surprised gaze, Shen Lijun returned to the bedroom, locked the door, and burst into tears.
At that moment, she recalled everything she had done to Chen Shuyao in her previous life.
Before the divorce, I would beat and scold my daughter. After the divorce, my personality became even more violent. No matter in life, study, feelings, or even work and rest schedules and habits, as long as my daughter disobeyed me in the slightest, I would fly into a rage at best, and even threaten to kill myself at worst.
The slap she gave to Xiao Shuyao was actually given to herself.
The happier her current life is, the more guilty she feels towards her daughter in her previous life and the more she misses her.
"Shu Yao, my Shu Yao, where are you, my daughter..."
"Why haven't you been in my reincarnations for so many times? Mom knows I was wrong. I really know I was wrong. Let me look at you again, okay?"
Shen Lijun knelt on the ground, clutching the bed sheet tightly with both hands, crying heart-wrenchingly.
Just at this moment, she felt that some solid framework in her mind was completely shattered with a snap.
The white light instantly submerged her consciousness, and in a flash, Shen Lijun's consciousness reappeared in the thick fog.
But this time, the voice did not appear. The dense fog rolled violently, and all the fog gathered together to form a portal made of smoke.
The space that was originally filled with smoke and nothing could be seen seemed to be covered by a transparent cover. Outside the cover, countless stars were twinkling like breathing.
Shen Lijun stared blankly at the starlight outside the cover.
These starlights seem far and near, as if in this space, the concept of "distance" has disappeared.
The moment she saw this door, there was no explanation, but she immediately understood that as long as she stepped through this door, she would end this cycle of reincarnation.
"Thank you." Shen Lijun's consciousness bowed to the air.
"Humanity can only rely on itself for salvation."
That calm voice appeared again.
Just as Shen Lijun was about to ask something, she felt her consciousness involuntarily thrown into the portal.
The world was spinning, and Shen Lijun felt lost.
it's over?
No, it’s not over yet. I still have things to do.
"Mom! Mom! Nurse, my mom is awake!"
"Lijun? Lijun?"
In a daze, Shen Lijun seemed to hear someone calling her name in her ear.
There seemed to be many instruments beeping around.
There were also many chaotic footsteps sounding around him.
The air smelled of disinfectant and plastic.
"Director Han, my mom's awake. Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, please check on her. Is there anything wrong with her?"
Shu Yao? Daughter?
The voice that I had wanted to hear again so many times in my dreams now rang in my ears, a choked, real, and anxious cry.
Shen Lijun opened her eyes with difficulty, and seemed to be able to see many figures vaguely.
She tried to move her fingers, but it was like moving a piece of frozen wood.
My throat felt as dry as burnt sandpaper. I wanted to call out for help, but only a few sounds came out.
She was in a coma for nearly two days longer than Shu Jianfeng, and her physical condition was worse than Shu Jianfeng's. Her condition after waking up was much worse than Shu Jianfeng's.
Even with the nutrient solution, ten days of bed rest and not eating or drinking had reduced her ability to control her body to the lowest level.
After her pupils gradually adapted to the light in the room, Shen Lijun finally saw the figure in front of the bed clearly, and her eyes instantly burst into a brilliance she had never seen before.
“Shu Yao…” Shen Lijun raised her hand with great effort, wanting to touch her daughter’s face.
Was what happened before just a dream?
Or is the current scene just a dream?
For a moment, Shen Lijun could no longer distinguish between illusion and reality.
But no matter whether it was fantasy or reality, she was already very satisfied to be able to see her daughter again.
"Shu Yao, I'm sorry, Mom... was wrong."
Shen Lijun's vocal cords seemed to be rubbed by sandpaper. She spoke with difficulty, tears flowing from the corners of her eyes to her ears.
"Mom, don't say that. How do you feel? Are you okay? I'm so scared. I'm so scared that you're gone like this..."
Chen Shuyao grabbed her mother's hand and burst into tears.
"You've just recovered, so you should let the doctor check you out first, and then drink some water."
A familiar gentle voice came from my ear.
Shen Lijun tilted her head slightly, looking at the familiar yet extremely unfamiliar face with a complicated expression.
"Jianfeng..."
But seeing Shu Jianfeng's eyes, which were completely different from those in his last life, Shen Lijun suddenly smiled with relief.
No matter how happy the previous life was in the dream, you still missed the happiness of the first half of your life in reality.
Now that you have missed it, don't force it.
The nurse next to her carefully fed her some glucose, and two doctors massaged her numb limbs and performed various examinations on her.
What surprised Shen Lijun was that Shu Jianfeng didn't seem to hold any grudge against her for dying together with him. He seemed like a different person, and his words and actions no longer seemed as timid as before.
"Jianfeng, I had a very long dream..."
After recovering a little, Shen Lijun looked into Shu Jianfeng's eyes, but saw that her ex-husband's eyes were not dodging, but also looking directly at her face.
"I guessed it."
Shu Jianfeng interrupted Shen Lijun with a sigh on his face.
Shen Lijun's body trembled slightly: "You too...?"
Shu Jianfeng nodded silently, then sighed: "The only one who can redeem us is ourselves."
Shen Lijun's eyes were dazed for a moment.
Chen Shuyao looked at her parents in confusion and blinked.
What's going on? Why are both of them talking nonsense after waking up?
However, how long has it been since I saw my parents getting along so harmoniously?
I was worried that my mother would lose control again after she woke up and saw my father. Now it seems that this accident has brought great changes to both of them.
"Shu Yao, can you give me your cell phone?" Shen Lijun struggled to get up from the hospital bed.
Shen Shuyao pursed her lips, picked up her phone, unlocked it and handed it over.
"Mom, you don't have your phone with you. It might still be at my dad's house. Use mine first."
Shen Lijun took the phone, gave her daughter a difficult smile, then pressed the dial pad and dialed three numbers.
After the call was connected, Shen Lijun was silent for a moment before she said, "Hello, hello, I want to surrender..."
Chen Shuyao snatched the phone from her mother's hand, hung up the call, and looked at her mother in astonishment.
"Mom! What are you doing?"
"Give me the phone." Shen Lijun looked at her daughter seriously.
"No! Do you know what you're doing!?"
Chen Shuyao angrily took two steps back with her phone.
Shen Lijun's eyes were calm: "I killed your father, I should pay the price."
Shu Jianfeng, who was standing next to him, jumped up and said, "Lijun, don't be impulsive. I never blame you."
"It's not a question of whether you blame me or not." Shen Lijun took a deep breath, "This is my redemption for myself."
Hearing Shen Lijun say this, Shu Jianfeng was silent for a moment, sat next to Shen Lijun, and held her left hand.
Shen Lijun turned her gaze to her daughter, her eyes gentle: "Originally, I thought that if you had a criminal record, it would have a bad impact on you, but you didn't want to take the civil service exam in the future, and your current career is also very successful, so Mom is relieved."
"People should be responsible for their own actions."
At this time, the 110 call came back to Chen Shuyao.
"Give the phone to mom. Mom will be fine."
Shen Lijun stretched out her right hand, her eyes determined.
(End of this chapter)
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