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Thinking of this, Ye Wenyu felt even more pained. Without Lin Tingfeng's care, she would fall ill again due to overwork. Since she had already collapsed on the street the first time, she would definitely fall ill on the street again. Her impoverished life was like a cycle. The first time, because Lin Tingfeng had arranged for someone to follow her, he appeared in time to take her home. The next time, because she had said that after returning to the country, the two of them would be even and would never see each other again, he, such a proud and busy person, would naturally not appear again. So, she only had one way out: death.
Although the last time she encountered thugs on her way back to school from her night job, and was almost raped by them, it was Lin Tingfeng's deliberate arrangement, there are bad people in this world. News of girls being raped while walking at night and being killed while taking a taxi alone comes every year. She can't be lucky enough to never encounter bad people, nor can she have the good fortune of not having to work at night to earn money. Therefore, she will definitely encounter bad people in the future.
If she encounters bad people again, will she be lucky enough to escape danger again? Even if she really has the luck to win the lottery, and she can live a peaceful life without getting sick or encountering bad people, support herself with the money she earns from part-time jobs, graduate smoothly, and find a satisfactory job, what will her life be like?
Ye Wenyu closed her eyes and imagined her future life, her heart aching as if pierced by a thousand arrows.
Three and a half years later, she graduated smoothly, found a job smoothly, met someone she loved and who loved her, and who was willing to marry her. They got married and bought a house.
Speaking of buying a house, Ye Wenyu's heart clenched painfully, and her hands trembled uncontrollably at her sides. The house prices in S City are astronomical. Without her parents' help, how many years would it take her and her partner's meager salaries to save up for a down payment on a house?
By the time she can save up enough for a down payment on a house, she'll probably be thirty years old, married for a few years, have a home and a house, and then she'll be ready to have children. But the mortgage will still be a heavy burden on her back, like a mountain, and she'll have to keep paying it off until the day she retires.
Having and raising children costs money.
In short, as people get older, there will be more and more places where they need to spend money, and the pressure will snowball and become greater and greater.
This plan assumes everything goes smoothly in her life. What if she can't find a job after graduating from university, or can't find a high-paying job? What if she can't find a compatible partner? What if she suddenly loses her job while paying off her mortgage?
Only those with enough good fortune can live a peaceful and uneventful life. A simple and peaceful life is a blessing, but life is full of unexpected events, and many people who want a peaceful life cannot achieve it. For example, her mother and her father were in love, but after she was born, they divorced because her father cheated on her. Then came the difficult life of a single mother that lasted for more than ten years.
If there's just one unexpected event in life, all the plans for a happy life for an ordinary person can vanish into thin air. Like dominoes, just one falling domino can cause an entire life to collapse.
They will get stuck in the mud and suffer greatly.
Life is truly tough. Is working really that meaningful? Finding a job, working nine to five, starting from the bottom, climbing up step by step through hard work, enduring the boss's abuse, guarding against colleagues' exclusion, and the backstabbing and infighting of connections and backdoors—she has no money, no connections. How long can she rise in the workplace? Perhaps she'll reach the career ceiling at 30. It's invisible, but it definitely exists. No matter how hard she tries, she can't move forward anymore. She'll stay in that position until retirement, only then will she have time to relax. By then, she'll be old, her children will be getting married, then there's buying a house, raising grandchildren. Life is like a rolling wheel, and she's like a tiny ant in the rut—
Just like her mother, to live a peaceful old age like this is already a wonderful life. For example, her mother only found a bad man and divorced him not long after giving birth, which led to the tragedy of her life.
So Ye Wenyu thought that her plan in her mind was to graduate from university smoothly, find a job, and live a peaceful life. However, the process was full of dangers and various uncontrollable factors. Most people in this world cannot go through life without any difficulties and live to old age in peace.
Thinking of this, a wave of despair washed over her, and tears silently streamed down her face like pearls from a broken string. She thought painfully, if she weren't herself, but a young lady like Lin Tingyue, her life wouldn't be so difficult. Alas, did she have a choice? It seemed she had none. Leaving Lin Tingfeng meant a predictable tragedy; she would repeat her mother's path. Perhaps with luck, she would have a slightly smoother journey, but perhaps with bad luck, she would be even worse off than her mother. After all, her mother had met Uncle Wang and married him, and according to him, she was quite happy. But if she didn't leave Lin Tingfeng, she would be his mistress, forever trapped in darkness, without light or freedom. Leaving was impossible, staying was impossible—it was a truly agonizing dilemma.
Just like when she decided to go abroad with Lin Tingfeng, listening to his answer was also a gamble, with a 50/50 chance of a good ending and a 50/50 chance of a bad ending.
Thinking of this, Ye Wenyu felt as if her heart was being pierced by needles, and tears streamed down her face like a small river.
But she was determined to leave him! Because she had unknowingly fallen in love with him, and once she fell in love with him, she absolutely could not tolerate the reality of being his mistress. How can a relationship be maintained when you love someone who treats you with contempt?
Therefore, no matter how bitter or difficult it is, she must leave Lin Tingfeng!
Ye Wenyu had made up her mind. She forced herself to be as firm as iron and stopped overthinking. However, tears still kept welling up in her eyes, streaming down her face.
Lin Tingfeng, sleeping beside her, silently observed all of this without uttering a word. Her tears were plentiful, as if she were made of water, soaking both pillows. A wave of guilt washed over him; he knew her tears were for him, yet he was powerless to help.
If I don't tell her the truth now, and she finds out later and does what most men do, she'll probably be even more heartbroken than she is now.
Lin Tingfeng stared silently at Ye Wenyu, who was pretending to be asleep, and let out a deep sigh in his heart. For the first time, he tasted the feeling of powerlessness.
After the long flight ended and the two got off the plane, Lin Tingfeng personally drove Ye Wenyu back to school. He packed all the clothes, bags and shoes he had bought for her in a suitcase as a gift, but Ye Wenyu did not accept them. Instead, she got out of the car as soon as she arrived at the school gate.
She said coldly, "Farewell." She couldn't say goodbye, for fear he would misunderstand and think they would meet again.
"Xiaoyu—" Lin Tingfeng, who had been silent all along, finally spoke, calling out to her. He stared at her, his eyes filled with anxiety, helplessness, and pain.
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