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Ye Wenyu paused here, because if she continued, her voice would tremble with pain. Once she regained control of her emotions, she continued vehemently, "Yes, I am poor, I am miserable, and I have no competitive edge in the marriage market, but that doesn't mean I can settle! Precisely because no one loves me, I need a man to love me wholeheartedly!"
She glanced quickly at Cai Wenchuan, her hands clenching into fists at her sides. In that instant, all her gratitude and admiration for him vanished, replaced by icy indifference. She continued coldly, "Even if he's ugly, even if he's poorer than me, it doesn't matter. As long as he loves me wholeheartedly, I'll love him! But if he can't love me wholeheartedly, if he has another woman in his heart, then, I'm sorry, I won't accept his feelings!"
Cai Wenchuan was stunned, his heart felt like it was being squeezed, and his handsome face was as pale as a corpse. Now, he finally understood why she was cold to him. She was such a smart girl; she knew his motives before he even came to her, so she rejected him before he could speak and told him her reasons: she was poor, but she was proud.
He felt like a thief caught red-handed, extremely nervous and fearful.
Cai Wenchuan was at a loss, everything was in chaos. Guilt made his handsome face flush red, like a boiled lobster. Before he came to her, he never thought she would know the whole story, that she would coldly refuse him. A sharp pain pierced his heart, and hot blood kept rushing to his face, his neck, and his shoulders. He said apologetically, "Xiaoyu, the camphor tree, my dad cut it down." His voice was hoarse, as if his throat had suddenly developed a serious throat ailment.
What? Ye Wenyu was somewhat surprised, not expecting that Uncle Cai would suddenly cut down the nearly century-old camphor tree. She wondered if it was because last time, when she tearfully scolded Cai Wenchuan and returned the gold bracelet his mother had given her, the Cai family elders realized their plans had come to nothing, and so Uncle Cai, in anger and disappointment, cut down the camphor tree.
Ye Wenyu didn't know, and she had no interest in knowing now.
Uncle Cai cut down the camphor tree, hoping that Cai Wenchuan would sever his emotional ties and cut off the past.
She wished Uncle Cai's dreams would come true, and she also hoped that Cai Wenchuan could get rid of his inner demons, but it had nothing to do with her. She didn't want to be anyone's backup plan, nor did she want to be anyone's cure for their heartache.
As the weather gets colder and cold air arrives frequently, just like in this world, only by loving yourself well will you one day meet someone who truly loves you.
Because no one loves her, she must love herself even more. Like a cat, even if she is a stray, she must keep herself clean and beautiful, and live a wonderful and free life.
Therefore, she remained silent, thinking that she had made her feelings very clear, and Cai Wenchuan should be able to leave soon. It was late at night, the dew was heavy, and a cool breeze was blowing. She was tired and wanted to go back to her dormitory to sleep early.
If this man truly loved her, would he bear to let her stand in the winter rain for so long? Thinking of this, she felt even colder.
It's strange. I used to feel joy and warmth whenever I saw Cai Wenchuan, and my eyes would shine like stars in the sky. But now when I see him, I feel no emotion at all, and my eyes seem to be covered in ice and snow.
Perhaps it's because she truly doesn't love anymore, or perhaps her love is very direct and fragile; she only loves someone if the other person loves her very much. If she knows the other person doesn't love her, she won't love them. Maybe she's too pitiful to receive love, so her body and mind have trained her to love in this way as a form of self-defense.
Her love was humble, her wishes were small, and she was easily satisfied.
Good, good, that way you won't get hurt.
Thinking of this, Ye Wenyu felt a sense of relief.
Cai Wenchuan didn't leave, and continued to ramble on, "Xiaoyu, after that camphor tree fell, I suddenly realized that what I've been trying to grasp all these years is the moon in the sky!" His tone was full of sadness.
Memories are like sugar, so sweet; they are also like ice, so cold.
At this point, his eyes reddened. He composed himself and continued, "But the moon in the sky can never be grasped. I'm like an ignorant child, unable to understand or see through it all, crying and making a fuss, unable to get out of it." His voice choked with emotion, his attitude was very sincere, and his pair of watery peach blossom eyes were red, like the eyes of a rabbit.
He remained silent for a long time before continuing in a hoarse voice, "Last time at the hospital, she was so good to Jiang Zhiming, and that made me completely realize that I was confused before and hurt you. But I know I was wrong, and I want to start over. Please give me a chance, and I will make it up to you, okay?" After saying that, he looked at her sincerely.
A gust of wind blew, and the camphor tree leaves overhead fell like rain, reminding Cai Wenchuan of the scene when he and his son chopped down the camphor tree in the yard. The tree trunk collapsed like a mountain, and then the fallen leaves and broken branches flew everywhere. His heart felt like an eighteen-wheeled truck overturning.
His first half of life seemed to vanish in an instant.
When Ye Wenyu saw Cai Wenchuan speaking words of sober repentance, but then suddenly looking at the falling camphor leaves with a soul-stirring expression, she knew that this man was beyond saving!
He wanted to escape his misery, but he was still powerless to control himself. Perhaps the magic of love was too great, or perhaps his willpower was too fragile, like glass, unable to withstand any impact. Who knows?
Ye Wenyu was utterly heartbroken, yet incredibly grateful for the decision she had made long ago. She hadn't expected Cai Wenchuan to pull this stunt today. His actions had truly confirmed Lin Tingfeng's prediction: his initial approach to her was merely a ploy to use her to forget Lin Tingyue; he saw her as a lifeline. Now, he was showing her affection, wanting to get back together. Did he truly love her, or was he still treating her as a lifeline, using her to forget Lin Tingyue, just like before? Looking at his blank stare at the camphor tree leaves, she guessed it was still the same old story.
This was his original intention! He didn't say it, but it broke her heart and angered her even more! It turned out to be a lie from beginning to end, which broke her heart. She was already pitiful enough, so why did he have to bully her?
Ye Wenyu was so angry that her hands and feet turned ice cold.
He said Lin Tingyue was the moon in the sky, unattainable. Was she mud on the ground, to be summoned and dismissed at will, to be trampled on and humiliated by anyone?
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