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"…Whether you are a good person or not is not up to me to decide."
Xu Youling whispered that he didn't understand why Pei Zhi asked this. After all, his current bad behavior was already known to everyone, not to mention the cruelty that was about to come in the future.
So why did Pei Zhi think that he regarded him as a good person? Although he might have thought so briefly in his heart, why did Pei Zhi also think so?
Is it that obvious?
Xu Youling then reached out to touch his face, feeling panicky.
"What's the final say?" Pei Zhi stared at him. "Is it your stupid guide brain?"
"I'm not stupid..." Xu Youling said weakly.
He wanted to explain, but felt that the more he said, the more mistakes he would make, so he simply shut up and looked at Pei Zhi with tears in his eyes.
"What?" Pei Zhi lowered his voice. "Do you want to see it?"
"I want to see...what do you want to see?" Xu Youling stuttered.
"My spiritual realm." Pei Zhi answered patiently, almost coaxingly. "Didn't you see it when we first met?"
The frozen wasteland, the falling cold snow, the warm blood...
"Yes, I have." Xu Youling replied honestly, "But it hurts a lot."
"That was an accident, but it won't happen this time." Pei Zhi promised in a low voice, "I will control it, really."
Xu Youling grumbled, "Hmm." Just when Pei Zhi thought he was about to refuse again, Xu Youling spoke in a strange, cautious yet bold tone, stating something everyone knew: "I heard that the White Pagoda guides write reports after their counseling sessions."
"Yes." Pei Zhi confirmed.
"I also have a counseling qualification certificate." Xu Youling swore that he was not bragging.
Pei Zhi's voice sounded a little amused, "I know."
"If I... wrote a report, it would be convincing," Xu Youling said seriously, "and it wouldn't be worse than theirs."
"So?" Pei Zhi pinched the back of Xu Youling's neck again, so that he could look at him straight in the face. The whites of his eyes were still a little red, which made him look both beautiful and pitiful.
"So, if you really want me to read it." Xu Youling learned to bargain, "You have to allow me to write a report and submit it to the White Tower."
Pei Zhi's expression remained unchanged: "Do you trust me so much?"
"I don't know..." Xu Youling answered dreamily.
He vaguely felt that he was at a disadvantage, as if he shouldn't beg like this to help others, it sounded stupid.
But if the other party is Pei Zhi, it seems understandable.
Once he comes to power, don't even think about begging him, you will be killed before you can even see him.
"Aren't you not very good at it?" Pei Zhi's voice was very deep, and he seemed to move closer, so close that it was scary.
Xu Youling swallowed hard: "Then teach me, okay?"
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"Did it take you a long time to find me today?"
Pei Zhi said this at the end and slowly loosened his hands that were tightly holding Xu Youling's shoulders. The latter was dizzy and could only nod, so he asked again and got the same answer.
"Will you come to see me again in the future?" Pei Zhi's voice was much calmer than when he first drove the medical staff out. "You know, I'm very dangerous. If I don't have a guide, I'll go crazy like I did when we first met."
"There must be other guides in the White Pagoda." Xu Youling said in a low voice.
"No, their counseling is useless. I might die." Pei Zhi sounded sincere and didn't seem to be lying. "You heard what they said, too."
"Just say, 'Pei Zhi, I'll come see you next time,'" he said softly. "Is that hard for you to say?"
"It's not difficult." Xu Youling said, "I'll come to see you next time."
Pei Zhi was finally satisfied, but he didn't seem to intend to let him go immediately. He pinched his shoulders twice with his fingers and said in a humble and learning tone: "What if you can't find me next time you come?"
"I've memorized the way." Xu Youling insisted.
"The location of the cell will change. I'm here today, and I might be there tomorrow." Pei Zhi's expression remained unchanged. "Then what will you do?"
Xu Youling stammered, "It's a little troublesome..."
"How about I give you a mark?" Pei Zhi said, "Not that kind of mark. This kind is given to you because you are too stupid. I will draw out a strand of my spiritual power and let you hold it. You can find me wherever you go."
"Can you find me through it too?" Xu Youling is very privacy-conscious.
"I could have found you at any time." Pei Zhi frowned. "I'm a sentinel."
Xu Youling felt confused whenever he thought about these things. He felt that this world was really not that great. Living here and having to learn so much abstract and strange physiological knowledge was really a troublesome thing.
So he let Pei Zhi fiddle with the mental powers that he himself didn't understand, and sat quietly by the bed waiting for it to take effect.
"Okay." Pei Zhi said hoarsely.
Xu Youling stood up and touched the German Shepherd, which had fallen asleep with its eyes closed in comfort.
"Then I'll go." He whispered, "I'll come to see you again."
When leaving the White Pagoda, Xu Youling's steps were a little unsteady, and he didn't even pay attention to the dissatisfied meows of the orange cat at his feet.
His talent for mobilizing guiding abilities was too weak, but the ability itself that was sufficient to be mobilized was like a deep pool of water. As long as Pei Zhi casually hooked his fingers, it would naturally stir up splashes.
Enter Pei Zhi's spiritual vision and fly over the vast snowfield.
I feel his pain and sadness, and it's hard to detach myself from it.
At the end, Pei Zhi held his shoulders, looked into his vacant eyes, frowned, and said he needed to rest. Xu Youling did need to rest. He thought he was increasingly understanding what he had read in the book while preparing for the exam: "After the combination, the sentinel and the guide are almost destined to live and die together."
When emotions are completely hanging in another person's brain, at least Xu Youling herself finds it difficult to completely cut off ties with him smoothly.
Although they didn't get together... No, it's better not to get together forever.
"Meow!" the orange cat yelled anxiously.
"What's wrong?" Xu Youling squatted down and hugged it.
Fortunately, the spiritual body does not feed on physical objects. As a solidified extension of the spirit, it will basically maintain this form forever, which means that it will not get fat again.
The unfortunate thing is that it will never get any thinner.
Holding the small half-hook, Xu Youling walked out with a grumble. After passing the gate where the soldiers had checked when he first came in, they looked at him suspiciously, then looked away.
"I have finished my work for today, but I will come back later." Xu Youling explained carefully, although the other party might not want to listen more at all.
After leaving the gate, I felt a little more relaxed, but my mind was still foggy and chaotic.
There was only a thin but clear string hanging above his head, one end hanging him and the other hanging Pei Zhi in the distant cell.
Saving Pei Zhi is the path home, and getting closer to Pei Zhi is getting closer to the intersection of the old life and the new life. It is vague but not difficult to understand, reassuring and terrifying.
After returning home, Song Qi had not yet finished get off work, so Xu Youling found the equipment to write a report - the technology in this world would show novelty in some small aspects, although Xu Youling did not think it was very convenient.
"Report……"
He let out a sigh.
"Investigation Subject: Lieutenant Colonel of the Expeditionary Force, S-Rank Sentinel Pei Zhi.
"Time...place..."
"Specifics: The subject has not been formally paired with a guide, and has been in a state of prolonged mental agitation and confusion, affecting their judgment and behavior. Mind fragments indicate that the subject experienced severe emotional fluctuations at the time of the incident, but there is no indication that these fluctuations were caused by hatred towards the team members.
"At the same time, the subject's consciousness retained a blurry image of the incident, which has been attached. This image shows that far from killing the team members, the subject made every effort to save them, which was somewhat successful."
"Conclusion: The subject's mental state is severely damaged and he is unfit to continue serving. Other testimonies are insufficient for accurate reference. Please consider carefully."
Xu Youling leaned heavily back in his chair, looking out the window at the sky which had already completely darkened.
He faithfully reflected everything he saw when he entered Pei Zhi's spiritual realm, which could not be hidden or changed. If Bai Ta had any doubts about his confession, he could always appoint other staff members to enter his mind and search for those clues.
Of course it’s better not to do that.
But the most important thing is that during this forced snooping, Xu Youling discovered the glimmer of kindness that still existed in the spiritual realm of the future villain Pei Zhi.
As long as they still exist, the possibility of guiding Pei Zhi back to the right path still exists. This makes Xu Youling feel a limited sense of peace of mind.
He submitted his report to the White Tower.
Too far away from Pei Zhi, the pulling line is no longer so clear. But you can still feel its presence.
Seemingly there and not there.
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While Xu Youling continued to run his stall business, he also took time out to visit Pei Zhi in the White Tower cell as a spiritual beautician.
Pei Zhi was still very cold. Every time he arrived with great difficulty, he would not call out to anyone. He would not let Xu Youling call him "Pei Zhi" until he gave him a look, which would make Xu Youling sit down on the edge of the bed actively and obediently.
It was strange. Counseling was actually a very intimate thing, two people exchanging all the secret stories in their heads, all the memories, feelings and ideas, but both of them sat there in a very reserved and silent manner.
Just let the mental energy flow back and forth in your mind.
Xu Youling still wasn't very good at controlling his mental power. When Pei Zhi and others got anxious, they would come and hold his hand, without any hesitation. Xu Youling felt that there was no need to be too pretentious. If he wanted to hold his hand, then hold it, if it would help his recovery.
But what really worried him was his own mind.
His own spiritual barrier - not to mention Pei Zhi, it would probably be unobstructed for Song Qi. Looking in without any obstacles, he would probably be able to see clearly his life after coming to this world.
Especially things like bathing other people's spirit bodies, which made Pei Zhi inexplicably angry.
But what he feared most was what lay hidden deep within his consciousness, those memories from real life. Would Pei Zhi unearth them? Would he discover his own abnormality? Would he realize that the guide before him couldn't use his abilities not because he was innately weak, but because... he was an outsider?
When Xu Youling thought of this, his throat would tighten. When he opened his eyes to look at Pei Zhi, he would always worry that the latter might suddenly look at him with distrust at some point, just like he looked at everyone else.
Although there hasn't been any so far, Pei Zhi just remained silent and let him go to accompany the German Shepherd.
But with such anxiety and excessive work, Xu Youling still fell ill.
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