Chapter 43 Chapter 43 What do you want?
There is no moon tonight.
After the beginning of winter, the autumn atmosphere in City A becomes even more dull. The roadside trees have become bare with only branches left. The dim street lights standing alone seem even more stubborn and unyielding.
No matter how strong the wind was, it was still unable to merge the two non-intersecting shadows and make them touch together.
Su Tu held the phone in his hand, thinking about the unread message "Where is it" that still appeared in the dialog box, and his heart was filled with mixed feelings.
He gave her a chance.
She could have made things clear in advance, but she chose to ignore it because she wanted to solve it herself or even deliberately cover it up.
So now, she couldn't explain at all. If she hadn't been caught in the act, she would have never intended to tell him that she would meet Cheng Huai tonight or in the future.
But he didn't say a word from beginning to end.
After paying, he just looked at her to let her know if she wanted to leave, and then led her to the parking lot in silence.
Su Tu was very aware of his mistake and wanted to make amends, so he took out his keys early, forced a smile, and tried to find a topic to talk about: "Why... are you here?"
Shi Shu was carrying a bag full of food and said truthfully, "I'll pack it for you."
“…”
Su Tu suddenly felt even more uncomfortable. He came to pack food for her, but she deliberately left him out because she was having dinner with another man.
She took a deep breath: "Did you eat it yourself?"
Shi Shu didn't say anything and didn't stop walking.
Su Tu then reached out and grabbed his clothes, then looked back at the fish restaurant sign: "Do you want to go in and eat something together?"
Today's matter is definitely not that easy to resolve.
Sitting down and talking it out is the best solution she can think of right now.
Shi Shu passively stopped and looked into her eyes, but he showed no emotion: "Haven't you eaten yet?"
Already eaten with others.
Can you still eat?
Su Tu wanted to say that she really didn't eat much, but she felt so guilty that she couldn't say it at all, because no matter whether she only took a bite or finished the whole plate, the essential fact would not change.
She couldn't argue, so she could only lower her head and apologize in the most primitive way: "I'm sorry."
Shi Shu's eyelids trembled slightly.
The next second she said, "I just said that on purpose to piss him off."
He was stunned: "What?"
Su Tu thought he had heard her, and soon, with a blushing face, she whispered softly, "It's about... using you as a shield again. I said that to piss him off."
-I said that on purpose to make him clear about my position and to show that you and I are “us”.
-Do you get me?
But to Shi Shu, this was the only thing that could comfort him the whole night, but it was also the part that she thought needed to be clarified.
-I said that on purpose to piss him off, not because I really meant it.
-I hope you can understand what I mean and don't be so self-indulgent.
My ex-boyfriend, who I broke up with for many years, finally returned to China. I needed to avoid others and have dinner with him alone. I couldn't help but test each other's feelings at the dinner table. Before leaving, I deliberately used the "third party" to stimulate his emotions.
Shi Shu's heart was filled with chill, and he spoke again in a voice that was extremely tactful: "What's going on?"
Su Tu looked up, a trace of surprise flashed in his eyes: "..."
Shi Shu's gaze was cold and distant, a change from his usual tough demeanor. It was hard to tell whether it was a question of loss or self-mockery: "Do you still need me to send you off?"
“…”
Su Tu didn't understand what he meant. Was he still angry and needed her to coax him, or was he so disappointed that coaxing was useless? Her face turned from red to white in an instant.
His lips were parted, but the sound seemed to be stuck in his throat and he couldn't get it out for a long time.
You don't want to send it off?
After a moment of silence, Shi Shu's gaze passed over the key tightly clenched in her hand. He finally reached out to take it and said quietly, "Let's go."
It was not until he arrived in front of the car and opened the passenger door that his expression, which had been frozen for a long time, froze slightly.
He turned around and asked bluntly, "Is it for me?"
Su Tu followed behind him in a daze, not knowing how to reverse the sudden cooling of the situation. When he saw the huge package of underwear, he immediately nodded decisively as if he had grabbed a life-saving straw: "Yes——"
Thinking of something, he quickly shook his head: "No..."
Shi Shu looked at her calmly from beginning to end. If one had to say there was any change, it was probably just that a faint light of rekindled light flashed in his eyes, and then quietly disappeared.
Su Tu saw it and became even more anxious to prolong the light: "Yes, it's for you, but can I give it to you in two days?"
Shi Shu didn't say anything.
Her heart tightened, and her trembling eyes were already pleading: "Or, or you can turn around first, I will sort the things inside, and then give it to you right away, okay?"
He still didn't speak.
She also vaguely realized that what she said seemed a little outrageous.
The gifts have already been bought, but they still need to be sorted before they can be given away. It sounds like some of them are for him, and some of them are for others.
She didn't know how to explain it, nor could she turn the contents over to him right then and there. Finally, she made up her mind and took out the bag and personally handed it to him.
With a serious expression and tone, he said, "This is for you. All of it is for you."
Shi Shu took it, but his expression still did not relax.
Even though this is the gift I finally got after waiting for several days.
But perhaps this is the essence of the candy that someone else offered to give to him voluntarily, which is different from the candy that someone gave to him reluctantly after he asked for it.
The former can make people feel relaxed.
The latter only seems more pathetic.
Su Tu could see that he was still unhappy. Although he was still nervous, he felt a little relieved because he had already given the gift.
I just feel that when he goes back and sees what's inside with his own eyes, he will definitely understand what I mean.
So he stopped trying all kinds of treatments and said some confusing nonsense to himself.
She took a deep breath and watched him put the things in the trunk before turning around and getting into the car. She reached out and closed the door, thinking that if she got home as soon as possible, she would have a place to stay as soon as possible.
But in just a second, his mind suddenly tensed up again...
She had been in the car when she came here and didn't feel much. It was not until she came in from outside that she suddenly realized how strong the smell of men's cologne was lingering in the car.
Shi Shu never wears perfume.
So it goes without saying who left this aura behind.
She hurriedly opened the car window and looked up to stop the people outside from getting in, but the driver's door was opened from the outside.
Shi Shu leaned in, and the moment he sat down, his body paused visibly.
Su Tu: “…”
He smelled it, but said nothing.
But when he started the engine, he lowered his eyes and closed the passenger window to block out the cool night wind, then he obeyed her intentional cover-up and opened the two rear windows halfway.
Then lightly step on the accelerator.
Let the silence spread towards the end.
Su Tu had been suppressing his emotions all the way, but in the end, he couldn't bear the torment anymore. Before he pushed the door open and got out of the car, he grabbed the man and asked in a stumbling and uneasy voice, "Can I...explain?"
Shi Shu seemed to have no temper at all, and as usual, he let her do everything. He sat back quietly, eyes lowered, waiting for her next words.
Cheng Huai was right about one thing.
She is the kind of person who only avoids problems and doesn't want to solve them.
Especially when she was stared at by those unfathomable black eyes, which were completely emotionless, she was actually a little scared and wanted to cry and run away.
But in the end, I still have hope and don't want conflicts to take root and make everyone unhappy.
She tried hard to suppress her panic, and under his gaze, she slowly organized her words, "Well, that morning when I went with you to look at the materials, I went to measure a room, and the other party immediately said they needed to add a 'no refund' clause. And before that, you had already introduced me to orders twice in a row."
"So I naturally assumed that was the client you introduced to me, and I signed that kind of contract with him."
"It wasn't until this afternoon, when I went to their company to discuss their needs, that I discovered that the person who asked me to design it was actually Cheng Huai. He deliberately didn't show up and deliberately signed that contract with me just to make it easier for him to control me later."
"I originally wanted to go to dinner with you after we finished talking, but he left me alone for two hours, saying he had a meeting. He only showed up when I was about to leave and told me clearly that if I wanted to hear your needs, I had to go to dinner with him. If I didn't go today, he might not be available another day."
"So I had no choice but to go with him. Even the things we said at the dinner table were because he was the only one who would listen to those things. I had to go along with him first so that I could achieve my goal as quickly as possible, complete my plan, and sever ties with him."
"I didn't reply to your message because he was staring at me at the time, and I really hadn't figured out how to explain it so that you wouldn't be angry."
"I really didn't mean to ignore you..."
Perhaps because she spoke so sincerely, Shi Shu's frown finally relaxed a little.
At least.
She was still willing to "explain" to him at such a lengthy length.
Su Tu thought he had listened, but he just couldn't fully accept it for a while. After all, if his ex-girlfriend suddenly came back and inexplicably dragged him out for dinner...
She certainly won't calm down so quickly.
So she didn't force him to express his opinion. When the elevator went upstairs and the door opened, she reached out to pull him back just as he was about to leave. She pointed at the food in his hand and said in a friendly manner, "I'm not full."
"Can you give me that?"
Shi Shu looked down at her, as if he didn't think she really needed it.
Neither yes nor no.
Su Tu pursed his lips, and finally couldn't help asking: "Are you still angry?"
Shi Shu didn't deny it: "Yeah."
Su Tu was a little discouraged because he had tried very hard to coax him, but it seemed to be of no use. After a while of silence, he asked him in a muffled voice: "So... what do you want?"
She felt that if he was willing to talk more, he could try to calm her anger down faster.
If there is any request, she can agree to it.
But he still just stood there quietly, his eyes fixed on her neither lightly nor heavily, as if this was a question she should think about, so how could she ask him?
He didn't want to get angry and was waiting for her solution.
In the silent eye contact, Shi Shu saw her tense face gradually turning red, until the sensor light went out with a "snap", and then she mustered up the courage encouraged by the darkness.
Suddenly she reached out and hugged his waist.
His eyes froze as he felt the sudden warmth and fragrance in his arms. He could even hear the thumping of his hearts.
She seemed to be holding her breath, keeping her eyes tightly closed, and persisted until she ran out of breath, then suddenly let go and hurriedly snatched the food from his hand.
Turn around and go into the house and close the door!
Only his silent sight remained, gradually losing focus in the darkness.
-
Two hours later.
Shi Shu returned to his villa in the suburbs and sat alone in the empty living room when he received the first unsolicited message from Su Tu, which had nothing to do with work: [Are you home yet?]
He lowered his gaze, the pent-up emotions in his eyes difficult to separate: [Hmm]
Su Tu paused for a moment before asking cautiously and subtly, "Have you tried on the clothes?"
Shi Shu raised his eyes.
He glanced at the bag on the sofa with an indifferent expression: [Hmm]
The other end took even longer, nearly five minutes, before sending another message: [Do they all fit?]
Shi Shu: [Hmm]
Su Tu seemed to realize something was wrong: [Don’t you have anything to say to me? ]
Shi Shu's eyebrows and eyes were gloomy: [Go to bed early]
Su Tu: [……]
He said this to her, but he stayed awake until dawn.
Just as my stagnant mood was becoming increasingly hopeless, I received her first active invitation: "I have time this afternoon. Do you want to continue looking at the materials?"
He rarely loses his spirits: [Maybe another day]
Su Tu: [Are you busy? ]
Shi Shu: [Hmm]
Su Tu waited for a while, but there was no follow-up. There was no explanation of what was going on, and no new report.
She vaguely realized something and could understand his retreat in this situation, but she couldn't help but confirm it again on the third day: [Zhao Xuan gave me two movie tickets, a sports movie]
【Would you like to go together tonight? 】
He responded to every sentence, but every sentence was cold: [Next time]
Although he is innately cold, silence is his label.
Su Tu was not so stupid as to not be able to tell the difference between the past and the present, so on the fourth and fifth days, he stopped disturbing others and causing trouble.
…
Admittedly, there was nothing wrong with her explanation that day.
It was indeed a case that I took on passively and a dinner that I had passively.
But she refused to take off the bracelet for a moment; she subconsciously hid it from him when meeting someone, and her first reaction after being discovered was still to cover it up; when helping him choose clothes, she did not forget to give others some, so much so that when she hurriedly gave him the bracelet, her expression was still so conflicted and reluctant.
How else can it be explained?
Of course he could feel her affection for him, and it had even slowly changed from passive to active, but he could also feel that he was not the only one she had feelings for.
As a result, the breath that was stuck in his chest became more and more difficult to breathe, as if it was going to suffocate him, and it spread explosively to two extremes.
Or accept that there is always someone in her heart.
Or just be her mistress.
He couldn't reconcile himself and was in no mood to open a gift that was meant for both of them. He also didn't know how to face the fact that she still had another person in her heart and was embracing him.
He had emotions before, but this was the first time he felt so overwhelmed.
But since he didn't smoke or drink, he could only soak himself in the swimming pool, retaliating by wearing himself out. He stayed in the villa for five days straight.
On Saturday, Han Yicai came over because he couldn't contact anyone. When he entered the room, Shishu just came out of the swimming pool.
When Han Yi saw that the man was not dead, he immediately started cursing and scolded him all the way from downstairs to upstairs, and only stopped when the man went into the bathroom.
After a while, he went outside and accidentally saw a large bag of clothes on the sofa in the living room. He took them out without saying a word.
I thought to myself that being in a relationship would be different. I would start shopping for clothes and dressing myself up. I was just about to see how that guy was going to dress me up and spread out the clothes one by one.
Suddenly, two pieces of restricted clothing material fell in front of him...
He was dumbfounded and stood there for a long time until someone came out of the room, holding a pair of lace men's underwear in one hand. He looked at the person with an indescribable expression and asked, "So what is this..."
"Your taste, or Teacher Su's???"
Shi Shu's expression froze, and he subconsciously asked, "Where did it come from?"
Han Yi scoffed and glanced at the scattered clothes on the sofa. He felt that he was asking a question that he already knew the answer to. "Where else could it be from? You don't even know what you bought yourself?"
“…”
Shi Shu was stunned for a few seconds, and his thoughts, which had been in turmoil for many days, suddenly collapsed. He walked forward and grabbed the underwear in his hand, and took a look at all the other clothes.
I was surprised to find out...
All in his correct size.
A flash of lightning flashed through his mind, and he recalled the day when she gave these things to him. She had said "yes" very confidently, but then seemed to suddenly remember something and said "no".
And then there was the entanglement and embarrassment of "Can you send it in two days?", "Or you can transfer it first, I will sort the things inside and then send it to you right away."
And in the end, because he was clearly in a bad mood, even if it would expose his true feelings and even lead to social destruction, he still resolutely compromised: "This is for you, all of it is for you."
Then, after a serious explanation, a suggestive hug, and several days of proactive inquiries, she asked him if he had tried on the clothes, if they fit him, and if he had anything to say to her.
Ask him to look at the materials and go to the movies with him...
Although she was so timid, she still mustered up the courage to get closer to him again and again, until she felt his alienation, and finally left sadly.
What did he do?
Shi Shu seemed to have lost his memory and could not remember anything at all, but his Adam's apple rolled heavily and an unprecedented panic surged in his heart. After he came to his senses, he immediately picked up the key on the coffee table and turned to walk towards the elevator.
He pressed the down button twice in succession, but felt it was too slow, so he strode towards the stairs again.
As he walked quickly down the stairs, he unlocked the dial with trembling fingertips. The call was disconnected after a few seconds of beeping.
He didn't give up and called again, but was hung up again.
By the third call, as if sensing his persistence, when the call was finally connected, he acted as if it had happened suddenly, and in his haste, he couldn't even organize his words properly: "Su Tu, I——"
He was stuck for a while, and just when he was afraid that she would hang up if he delayed any longer, a voice came from the other end, soft and firm: "Don't come to me."
"Stop chasing me."
Shi Shu: “…”
It was not until this moment that he finally felt the same way. It turned out that when she was talking calmly to her ex-boyfriend at the dinner table that day, her seemingly gentle and submissive tone actually revealed such indifference and alienation.
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