Chapter 175 Why do you always think about running away?
Shui Xian's gaze swept inch by inch over Yi Xingyao's neck, over the pulse that throbbed slightly with his breath.
Just a moment, just a precise stab...
She could easily pierce her delicate skin and blood vessels by picking up the hairpin hidden in the crack of the bed!
But then what?
She glanced at the closed door out of the corner of her eye. Although some assassins had left due to the chaos of the day, she didn't believe there weren't any assassins left in the courtyard.
If Yi Xingyao were to die, or even just be injured, those people would rush in without a second thought.
At that point, she won't even have a chance to struggle; she will surely die.
Yi Xingyao's worthless life is not worth much, but her life is precious!
Therefore, even though she hated and wanted to kill Yi Xingyao, Shui Xian still held back.
This is by no means a wise move.
In a flash, Narcissus had made up her mind.
She quietly loosened her grip on his hand, and when she looked up to meet Yi Xingyao's deep and obsessive gaze, her face now wore a timid expression of shock.
Shui Xian subtly avoided Yi Xingyao's outstretched hand, and gently pressed her forehead with her hand.
"I don't know if it's because of the drug I was given earlier, but I... I'm just a little dizzy... No, I didn't mean anything by it..."
Yi Xingyao looked down at her, his sharp gaze seemingly judging the truthfulness of Shui Xian's words.
He didn't speak immediately, but gently stroked the back of her hand with his fingertips.
Yi Xingyao did not mention the sleeping pills, but instead gently comforted her:
“I know you’re scared… This place is not good for you.”
He tried to touch Narcissus's cheek, but she lowered her eyes and avoided it.
Yi Xingyao paused for a moment, but still pinched her chin. He never allowed her to refuse, and it was the same now.
"Be patient for a few more days. Once I've dealt with all the troubles in the capital, we'll head to Jiangnan. It's warm there, perfect for you to recuperate."
His words sounded gentle, but Narcissus noticed that within that gentleness lay a wary scrutiny.
Yi Xingyao still didn't believe her, but all of this was within Shui Xian's calculations. If Yi Xingyao suddenly believed her, Shui Xian would also become suspicious.
She was confident that she could gradually lower Yi Xingyao's guard.
In the following days, Narcissus put on a show that even she almost believed.
She was like a young girl in love, showing only admiration and dependence towards Yi Xingyao, never mentioning anything about the palace, as if she had truly resigned herself to her fate.
Yi Xingyao didn't believe it at first, until he noticed that the collar of the faded coarse cloth shorts he had changed out of earlier was worn out.
When Narcissus noticed, she didn't even ask him anything, and spontaneously used the plain thread she had taken from her cotton skirt to mend his clothes.
When she did these things, she looked virtuous and gentle, like a virtuous wife taking care of her husband who was away making a living.
Occasionally, when Yi Xingyao didn't know what he was doing and came home late, she would keep a bowl of porridge warm on the stove, waiting for him to return.
When Yi Xingyao returned, Shui Xian didn't ask anything, but just sat quietly beside him, keeping him company while he ate the bowl of porridge.
Yi Xingyao saw all of this.
These days, aside from not allowing him to touch her, Narcissus is practically his dream concubine, except... her unsightly belly!
The reason Narcissus wouldn't let him touch her was that she was now too heavy and didn't want him to see her.
Yi Xingyao didn't want to see her pregnant by another man.
The two of them achieved an almost bizarre balance regarding intimacy.
That day, Yi Xingyao dined with her. As he watched Shuixian holding a rough white porcelain bowl and sipping her brown rice porridge, Yi Xingyao suddenly sighed softly.
"If you're willing to stay like this... I'll be satisfied."
Suppressing her discomfort, Shui Xian allowed Yi Xingyao to be somewhat intimate with her.
For example, when he reached out and held her hand, Narcissus felt uncomfortable as if his hand were crawling on her like a venomous snake, but she still forced herself to endure it.
She loved him.
Narcissus brainwashed herself, and her actions became increasingly flawless.
"Don't call me General anymore, call me... Xingyao."
Yi Xingyao stared intently at her with burning eyes. Shui Xian pretended to be shy, but still slowly opened her lips.
"...Xingyao".
A fervent light ignited in Yi Xingyao's eyes, and the curve of his lips grew ever more blissful.
And so, two or three days passed in this seemingly peaceful manner.
Narcissus stroked her increasingly heavy belly, and the two little lives inside seemed to sense their mother's unease, moving more and more frequently.
She knew she couldn't wait any longer.
That night, after Yi Xingyao returned, Shui Xian did not immediately serve the dishes. Instead, she sat opposite him, her hands clasped nervously. She remained silent for a long time before finally raising her head as if she had made up her mind.
"Xingyao... I've figured it out."
She raised her hand and gently pressed it against her lower abdomen, her expression complex, seemingly reluctant, but mostly resolute.
"For the future, for our sake... this child really cannot be kept."
When Yi Xingyao saw that she had finally agreed to the abortion, he was overjoyed and was about to speak when he heard Shui Xian continue, "But... but I have been feeling that the pregnancy is not very stable lately. If I rashly use those strong medicines, I am afraid that I will have a lot of bleeding and damage my body."
"How will we be able to bear your children in the future?"
She observed Yi Xingyao's expression and saw that he was looking at her with deep eyes, so she continued sincerely, "I have vaguely heard people mention that there is a doctor named Li outside the city. It is said that he has inherited his skills and is most good at treating women's illnesses with mild medicine."
"If you can find a way to get him to take a look at me and confirm the prescription, I... I will take the medicine without any objection."
Yi Xingyao stared into her eyes for the time it takes to drink half a cup of tea, as if trying to see through those clear eyes to understand her truest thoughts.
Shui Xian let him gaze at her. Her deceptive skills had been honed to perfection through repeated trials in the harem. Not to mention Yi Xingyao, even she herself couldn't tell whether she loved Yi Xingyao at this moment.
She's already in the thick of this game, deceiving herself before deceiving others.
Finally, Yi Xingyao slowly nodded.
"Okay, I'll go find it. You stay inside and don't go anywhere until I get back."
Not long after Yi Xingyao disappeared outside the courtyard gate, Shui Xian's heart was pounding so hard it felt like it was going to burst out of her chest.
She knew this was her only chance, and even though the hope was slim, she had to try!
Although Shui Xian hasn't asked these days, she's not blind. Recently, Emperor Zhaoheng's secret guards may be getting closer and closer, and Yi Xingyao is becoming more and more careful, taking a large number of assassins with him every time he goes out.
As she had done the previous two days, Narcissus came out to take a walk in the courtyard.
There was a corner, unguarded by any assassins, and in a blind spot, which was perfect for her to pull off some sneaky tricks.
Narcissus appeared calm, but her heart was pounding as she moved to the corner of the yard against the wall.
The mud walls here have indeed become a bit loose due to the rain a few nights ago. Shui Xian had tested them before, and now with a little effort, she was able to push some bricks and mud aside.
This mud wall, which was probably added later, isn't very sturdy, and it's precisely where the daffodils have been searching for so long for a source of life.
She squeezed through that narrow gap little by little with great difficulty!
The rough paint on the wall scratched the back of her hand, causing a burning stinging pain, but she didn't care.
Although she has been taking walks in this secluded corner for the past few days, if the assassins come to check, they may find that she has disappeared!
Having finally squeezed her way out of the yard, she didn't even have time to catch her breath before running towards the side yard of her neighbor, which she remembered.
I still remember the day Yi Xingyao brought me here, and I saw that enthusiastic woman here trying to find out about their affairs.
This place is inhabited; I'm sure of the narcissus!
If we could notify the neighbors and ask them to inform Emperor Zhaoheng's people...
However, just as she raised her hand to knock on the door, a stench mixed with rot and blood suddenly wafted out from the crack in the door!
this……
Narcissus's heart sank instantly!
An ominous premonition gripped her.
With trembling hands, she forcefully pushed open the slightly ajar courtyard gate...
The scene before my eyes was nothing short of hell!
In the courtyard, her aunt, who had once greeted her warmly, and the man who should have been her husband, lay dead by the well, their clothes soaked with dark red blood that had already dried.
Not far from them, two small bodies of different ages lay stiffly on the brick ground...
Narcissus quickly covered her mouth to prevent a scream from escaping!
Upon seeing the horrifying scene in the yard, she felt a wave of nausea wash over her, and she almost vomited!
It's to silence them!
Judging from the tragic state of this family, it is reasonable to assume that Yi Xingyao had already brutally murdered this innocent family of four on the night he brought her here!
Perhaps it was because his aunt was curious and inquiring, or perhaps it was because he ruthlessly eliminated the threat!
That madman!
Cold sweat soaked the back of her clothes; Narcissus had never imagined she would witness such a cruel sight.
All I could think about was getting away from here!
However, as soon as she turned around, she froze on the spot.
At the courtyard gate, a figure had appeared silently without anyone noticing.
Yi Xingyao stood there, a cold smile playing on his lips, his ambiguous gaze sending chills down Shui Xian's spine.
"I encountered Emperor Zhaoheng's men, and had to change my plans and return, but I never expected..."
He sneered, his gaze toward Narcissus growing increasingly crazed. "How did you end up here?"
Yi Xingyao approached step by step, his pace unhurried yet carrying a playful, cat-and-mouse-like quality.
Behind Narcissus lay the corpses of a family; she had nowhere to hide.
Reaching out to Shui Xian, Yi Xingyao suddenly reached out and grabbed her wrist with such force that he almost crushed her bones.
"tell me."
He lowered his head, his forehead almost touching Narcissus's, his eyes filled with utter madness and uncontrollable rage.
Why do you always think about running away?
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