Zhou Fang noticed that the person in his arms was motionless.
After making sure she was asleep, he gently placed her on the bed.
Then he washed her hair with hot water and wiped away her tears.
Then he went into the bathroom, took a quick shower, threw back the quilt and lay down, holding her in his arms.
......
I had a very long dream.
From the time I met my grandma, she spent those days with me.
More kidnappings, explosions...
But my grandma passed away, and I didn't even get to see her for the last time.
Who should I blame?
Blame Lu Shiyan?
But in the end, I have myself to blame.
It was my own lack of ability that prevented me from protecting them.
Grandma is, and the child is.
child……
"Aruan..."
I heard Zhou Fang calling me. He was standing not far from me. He looked at my lower abdomen with sadness in his eyes.
His tone was the most humble I've ever heard.
"You really don't want our child?"
I quickly put my hand on my belly and said, "What are you talking about? Our child is still here..."
But Zhou Fang seemed to be unable to hear me at all.
"Forget it, if you don't want it then don't have it. I just want you to be happy."
I wanted to explain, but darkness fell all around me.
The scene before my eyes was spinning.
Then I saw a little girl.
She called me mom and asked me why I didn't want her.
I opened my mouth to explain, but no sound came out.
She cried and moved further and further away from me.
It was exactly the same scene as the one where my grandma left in my dream.
I hurriedly chased after him, shouting "No" all the time.
But no sound came out, I could only watch her getting farther and farther away from me, until she disappeared.
"don't want--"
I woke up with a start. "Child! My child!"
The next second, my hand was held.
Zhou Fang tidied my sweaty hair and tucked it behind my ears, then touched my head to comfort me.
"It's okay, Ruan, the child is here."
My vision gradually became clear, and I found that there were many people standing in the room.
Professor Qin, who was standing at the front, had his hands covered in blood.
My pupils suddenly shrank and I quickly touched my lower abdomen.
Zhou Fang patted my back gently and said, "You lost a lot of blood, but the child is fine, don't worry."
Professor Qin asked the medical staff to clean up.
After the medical staff left, he said to me, "Miss Ruan, although the child is fine this time, we can't stand the pain anymore. I know it's hard for you to accept the death of Old Madam Shen. For the sake of the child, I hope you can calm down."
"If it happens again, I'm afraid I won't have the ability to help you keep the child."
Even though I already knew that my grandmother had passed away, hearing it out loud still pierced my heart.
I slowly tightened my fingers, clutching the clothes around my abdomen.
I want to do something, but no matter what I do, I can't bring grandma back to life, and it may even cause me to lose the baby in my womb.
His hands clenched tighter and tighter, and the clothes wrinkled in his hands.
My nails dug into my palms, and I suddenly started shaking uncontrollably.
Zhou Fang held me in his arms, kissed my forehead, and soothed me in an extremely gentle voice: "Aruan, don't embarrass yourself like this. If this child is not meant for us, forget it. We will still have children in the future."
"It doesn't matter if we don't have children."
"You are the most important to me. I just hope you can be kind to me."
I remembered the dream I had just had.
Zhou Fang should be uninhibited and unrestrained. He always appears to be casual on the surface, but is actually ruthless in his bones.
Even if you love me and obey me, you shouldn't be humble, and you shouldn't break your own back just to make me happy.
We can't just let him be the one who compromises forever.
And I know he is looking forward to this child, who is related to us by blood.
I also promised him that if I got pregnant, I would give birth to the child.
"I'm fine. I will protect this child and won't let anything happen to her again. Besides, I just had a dream. The baby in my belly is a girl, a very cute girl."
Zhou Fang saw me curling the corners of my lips, and he curled his too.
I know, we're all unhappy.
There is no way to be happy, I can only relax.
Especially me.
"Please help me wash, I feel uncomfortable."
Zhou Fang nodded and got up to get some hot water.
Professor Qin and Chi Zhan left the room.
Jiang Lai came closer, and said with red eyes: "I'm sorry, Ruan Ruan."
I held her hand and said, "Why are you apologizing to me? It has nothing to do with you. The reason you hid it from me was because of me."
…
After Zhou Fang finished wiping me, I felt drowsy again.
After a while, he fell asleep again.
Only get up to eat after you have rested enough.
Zhou Fang handed me the chopsticks, but his eyes didn't move away from my face.
I pushed the food towards him and said, "Eat it too. My body needs it, and yours needs it too."
Zhou Fang pursed his thin lips slightly.
Didn't say anything though.
At nine o'clock in the evening, the boat docked and, under Zhou Fang's arrangement, we went straight to the hospital.
When I reached the door of the morgue, my steps froze.
When I was on the boat, I was so anxious that I even wanted to fly back directly.
But at this moment, I backed off.
I was thinking, if I didn't see my grandmother's body, does that mean she wasn't dead?
But I know very clearly that this is impossible.
Zhou Fang held my shoulders, leaned down to my ear, and whispered, "Let's see tomorrow. You need a night's rest."
I shook my head and pushed the door open and walked in.
Zhou Fang accompanied me, and Jiang Lai and the others were waiting at the door.
I walked to the freezer, but Zhou Fang didn't move. I asked, "Which freezer?"
Zhou Fang squeezed my palm and said, "Aruan, I know that grandma's death must have been a huge blow to you. If you can't bear it, you can tell me. Don't just try to tough it out."
I tried to appear relaxed, "I'm fine, I've accepted it."
"I know that even if I die, I can't bring grandma back. And I also know that grandma doesn't want anything to happen to me. She told me in my dream."
There was deep heartache in Zhou Fang's eyes.
This is definitely not the way it looks like everything is fine.
But he also knew that after all, he was facing his grandmother's death, so how could he be completely safe?
After a slight hesitation, he opened the freezer.
I reached out to zip up my clothes, but Zhou Fang stopped me.
He reached out and slowly pulled it open, and grandma's face gradually came into my sight.
It was extremely desolate and freezing cold.
Those eyes that were always full of love when looking at me were tightly closed and would never open.
I don't know why, but I can't shed a single tear at this moment.
I reached out and traced Grandma's eyebrows and eyes, tidied her hair, and said to Zhou Fang, "I want to take care of Grandma's funeral."
Zhou Fang asked Qiao An to make arrangements, but Qiao An really couldn't stand it anymore and had to be given an IV drip.
Chi Zhan took over this matter.
Jiang Lai hesitated for a moment, but still followed him.
Zhou Fang and I were preparing to take grandma to the crematorium when someone suddenly called me at the door.
"Zhizhi, are you back?"
My mother is here.
In my impression, she is beautiful, elegant, generous and loves to smile.
It always exists like a painting.
Every frame is art.
Every day.
She looked pale and was wearing a fairly fitting hospital gown. When she stretched out her hand to me, I saw the scars on her forearm.
The whole person looked like a flower wilted by a storm.
"mom!"
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