She seemed to be recalling that time, feeling a bit amused and helpless.
"I still feel confused as to how I ended up falling in love with him and getting married."
Chi Shu asked again: "You seem to be very good at loving people. Did you fall in love first?"
Su Yan nodded.
There is a hint of sadness in his eyes.
Chi Shu-yu became nervous. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked. It must not have been a good process."
“The process was indeed not good…”
Su Yan smiled. "I used to think that if you don't think about some things, they will gradually fade away as time goes by."
"When you ask me, I find that everything about him is very profound."
"The others, on the contrary, seem bland."
Chi Shu could feel that when Su Yan liked Shao Yuting, she must have been beaten to a pulp.
“Is it worth it?”
Su Yan: "㫧㫧, nothing is worth it. Love is not a test with a standard answer, or right or wrong."
"If you think it's possible, then it's worth it. Even if it hurts when you think back on that time, you won't regret it."
"In fact, love ultimately depends entirely on conscience. Nothing is constant."
“You can’t set a good outcome and then give up if you feel you can’t achieve it.”
"In life, the process is what matters most. The outcome is always the same."
Chi Shu drove quietly and didn't speak for a long time.
Su Yan didn't try to persuade her any further.
"Let's eat roast duck."
Chi Shu: "Okay."
…
The two of them sat down at the most famous restaurant and ordered their meals. Chi Shu asked, "Sister Yan, don't you want to get your head broken and bloodied?"
"I think that's the ending I want."
Su Yan asked back: "Why don't you trust He Chengyun?"
Chi Shu couldn't say it.
At this time, next door.
He Chengyun and Shao Yuting took their seats.
This is a large pack spaced out.
If you don't make a reservation or specify this large package, it will be separated on weekdays.
Su Yan had booked this weekend in advance, and she requested that they be separated.
Chi Shu didn't know that her words could be heard by people next door.
Next door, ordering is done on the phone, so when the waiter comes in, don't make any noise, just serve the food.
However, Chi Shu was silent, and He Chengyun could not hear her true thoughts.
…
Su Yan poured water for Chi Shu.
"That's understandable."
She glanced across the partition and continued, "When I first arrived at Shaw Brothers, I was in the sales department, and I needed money urgently."
"When Shao Yuting transferred me to the secretarial department and made me his personal secretary, I thought he liked my type."
"We signed a one-year agreement, but when it expired, he didn't say he wanted to marry me. Not only that, he gave me away and got engaged to a foreign leader."
Chi Shu's eyes suddenly widened, and he quickly held Su Yan's hand. "Sister Yan, you don't have to be like this. He Chengyun and I are in different situations. Even if you reveal your scars, I may not understand. Don't say it."
Su Yan smiled and shook her head. "I didn't make this up. These are all my experiences. Even though it still hurts, I can't say it's too painful."
Chi Shu covered his ears and said, "I don't want to listen."
Su Yan laughed out loud because of her teasing, "Then I won't say anything."
Chi Shu put down his hand this time and poured water for Su Yan, "If you want to drink, I can accompany you."
"real?"
"real."
Waiter Su Yan brought the wine.
Chi Shuyu can't drink much, and she doesn't like being unconscious.
Some things are out of control.
But Su Yan has done this much, and she will not feel at ease if she doesn't do something.
"Thank you, Sister Yan."
"You have to learn to be polite with me."
Chi Shu clinked glasses with her and said, "I'm just being polite."
"Okay." Su Yan smiled, "I'm not polite."
…
The dishes came up one after another.
Chi Shu and Su Yan drank and ate, and were very happy.
On the other side, the temperature was below zero.
Ever since Su Yan told that story, Shao Yuting's face turned cold.
The air pressure all over the body is extremely low.
He Chengyun really wanted to get up and leave.
It was not he who caused their misfortune.
It seemed as if he was destroying their relationship.
Furthermore, Su Yan had many ways to persuade Chi Shuyu, but she insisted on talking about that embarrassing past. He felt that Su Yan might be reminding Shao Yuting on purpose.
He couldn't say anything, he felt so frustrated!
…
Chi Shu's alcohol tolerance is not as good as Su Yan's.
After a few drinks, I can't take it anymore.
"Sister Yan, I don't know why I don't believe He Chengyun."
"How can I put it? I can sense who is well-intentioned and who is malicious. No matter which one it is, I won't respond."
"This is a very difficult thing. Malice is okay, but good intentions..."
"I envy you, you, He Chengyun, you both have the confidence to act recklessly, but I don't..."
"I've also thought about having a good relationship with He Chengyun. Even if I don't know how to love him and don't have the ability to love someone, I can still learn."
"It's just that I didn't know at the time that I had saved him. If I had known, I wouldn't have wanted to start by marrying him first."
"Sister Yan, analyze this. He hid it from me and didn't tell me that I saved him. He didn't give me a chance to choose. He teamed up with Chi Zhan to marry me. Doesn't he know clearly that he can't tell whether it's gratitude or love for me?"
Su Yan met her confused yet serious eyes and felt distressed.
She recalled the time when she and Shao Yuting were at their most critical juncture.
She wished he was dead, but she had no way to kill him.
In the end, she was so desperate that she threatened him with her own life to let her go.
There was more of a plea amidst the threats.
For a superior like him, even expressing love is like giving orders.
He has a tight control over everything about her.
But it was this person who knelt before her and cried.
She still remembers what he said then.
"Su Yan, I can only make concessions, I can't change my personality."
"All I know is that I can't lose you, and I can't die. Tens of thousands of people depend on me for their livelihood."
"You can't die either. You have to be responsible for the people you rescued."
"Including me."
…
When Su Yan saved Shao Yuting, it was just a matter of convenience.
So many rich children have been kidnapped, and their parents have plenty of ways and money.
She was an orphan and just happened to be passing by.
Shao Yuting had been thinking about her for a long time, and she was surprised when she knew that she had saved him.
The mood is also complicated.
"Su Yan, if you save me, you have to take responsibility. I don't know what love is, but I can't live without you. I think that's love."
…
Su Yan smiled.
Chi Shu was dizzy and didn't know why she didn't speak for a long time, crying and laughing at the same time.
"Sister Yan, are you okay?"
She raised her hand to wipe Su Yan's tears, and suddenly a large shadow fell on her head.
Before she could see who it was, Su Yan was carried away.
In her blur, she could only see the tall and cold back.
"Sister Yan..."
"She was taken home by her husband."
“…”
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