In the past 27 years that Yan Yue had grown up, he had never been so close to someone.
He had no memory of his childhood, and wondered if his mother would hold him tenderly and lovingly in her arms. But it seemed that since he could remember, he had never been so close to anyone without any barriers.
Yan Yue hugged Lu Lingxi tightly. The boy's body was soft, and the faint fragrance of plants and trees surrounded him. Perhaps because he was too surprised, the boy didn't even react to push him away. His lips were pressed against the boy's earlobe. From this angle, he could see the boy's delicate collarbone and a large area of white skin. He touched the boy's waist somewhat uncontrollably. The skin under his palm was soft, like the best white jade. The wonderful feeling made his body tremble with excitement. The impulses and desires that he had tried so hard to suppress during this period swept through his body like a storm.
Yan Yue felt that he could no longer suppress his feelings. He knew that this was wrong, but the boy would not understand how much of a storm had been stirred up in his heart by that one glance. From the moment he uncontrollably kissed her, he had no way out. In this case, Yan Yue simply had a fierce determination to risk his life.
His lips left the boy's earlobe and found the place he had always longed for. The moment their lips touched, Yan Yue felt as if he had arrived in heaven.
It was not until this time that Lu Lingxi finally reacted and began to struggle frantically.
To Yan Yue, Lu Lingxi's struggle was nothing. The boy was completely powerless due to his posture. Yan Yue easily held the boy in his arms. He pinched the boy's chin with some trembling, half-forcing him to open his mouth, and kissed him obsessively in the boy's confused, shy, resentful, and puzzled eyes.
Unlike the light kiss before, this kiss was a kiss in the strict sense. Although this was Yan Yue's first kiss, he was quite self-taught, without any experience at all, just relying on instinct to drive in, carefully tasting the sweetness of the boy. This kiss poured all of Yan Yue's emotions, crazy and trembling, with an indomitable momentum, and a ruthlessness that left no room for retreat.
Lu Lingxi's reaction was very slow. Although Yan Yue had no experience, he still had theories. He had neither theories nor experience. Almost forced to open his mouth, Lu Lingxi felt Yan Yue's breath in a daze. Unlike the calm and reliable person he knew, Yan Yue at this moment was a completely unfamiliar person to him. He was a little scared, but more of a sense of being controlled. Lu Lingxi's face began to turn red, and he gradually became a little breathless.
Yan Yue keenly sensed the abnormality of the boy in his arms, and reluctantly let go of Lu Lingxi. He was worried that if he continued to kiss him, the boy would suffocate because he couldn't breathe. His eyes fell on the boy's ravaged red lips, and his eyes were fierce, wishing to taste them again.
Lu Lingxi finally came back to his senses, breathing heavily in Yan Yue's arms. He tried to push Yan Yue away feebly, but Yan Yue held him tightly in his arms.
"Xiao Xi, please don't be angry." Yan Yue's voice was trembling, with a hint of pleading, "I know I'm wrong, but I like you and I can't control my feelings at all."
Lu Lingxi lowered his head and said nothing. Yan Yue was a little scared. He was afraid that Lu Lingxi didn't understand his feelings, and even more afraid that Lu Lingxi understood but refused to accept it. If that happened, he would definitely be unable to resist forcing the boy to be imprisoned, ignoring his wishes and resistance. He didn't want to go this far. He wanted more, and was more greedy.
"Xiao Xi, don't hate me." Yan Yue sighed: "You don't understand how much I like you. I can't help liking you from the first sight of you. Dahei, Micro Gardening, everything is my excuse to get close to you. I want to see you, want to be by your side, want to hug you and kiss you like now. I don't know if you understand this feeling. I have been telling myself to endure it desperately. I am afraid of scaring you, but feelings are really hard to control. I never thought I would like someone this much. No, it's not like, it's love. Xiao Xi, I love you."
Lu Lingxi in his arms moved slightly, and Yan Yue immediately noticed his softening. He softened his tone and coaxed more patiently: "Ye Kang is a psychologist, Xiaoxi, you know? I have had serious psychological problems since I was a child. Ye Kang said before that I was a robot, and he suspected that I had no feelings at all. I also always thought that I lacked emotions, but when I met you, I realized that it's not that I don't have emotions, but that I only have all my emotions for you. Xiaoxi, you are my switch, the switch that turns me from a robot into a human."
"Xiaoxi..."
Lu Lingxi finally raised his head. His expression was a little aggrieved and a little embarrassed. He bit his lip slightly and said puzzledly: "But we are all men."
In the education he received, including the TV and movies he watched, it was always a man and a woman together. Is it also possible for two men to be together?
Lu Lingxi's question was like a ray of light to Yan Yue. He thought he was going to be executed, but suddenly someone told him that there was a general amnesty and he could go home. That was really how it felt. Yan Yue didn't expect that the boy's dilemma was this. He tried his best to suppress his excitement, just like a big bad wolf in sheep's clothing luring an innocent and pure little lamb. He patiently coaxed in an extremely calm and reliable tone: "Xiao Xi, apart from the fact that we are both men, do you hate me holding you? Do you hate me kissing you like this?"
Lu Lingxi looked away a little hesitantly, and the tips of his ears turned slightly red. Although this feeling was strange and his heartbeat was as if it was going to jump out of his throat at the next moment, he didn't seem to hate it. Moreover, Lu Lingxi thought of last night's dream a little inappropriately. Brother Yan was in the dream, was he like this too?
"Xiao Xi, you don't hate it, right?" Yan Yue cunningly replaced "like" with "don't hate it" and continued to ask.
Lu Lingxi nodded somewhat embarrassedly and said honestly: "I don't hate it, but..."
Before he finished saying the word "but", Yan Yue had already covered his face again. To Yan Yue, "I don't hate you" was already Lu Lingxi's answer, so the subsequent twists and turns were not important.
Lu Lingxi: "... Yan..."
All the unfinished words were blocked by Yan Yue's kiss. Unlike the first kiss, this kiss was more soothing, gentle and lingering. Yan Yue kept kissing until Lu Lingxi was almost suffocated. He looked at Lu Lingxi with worshipful eyes, with an infatuated expression. The boy's cheeks flushed and his eyes were blank. He approached carefully and reverently, resting his forehead on the boy's head, and repeated in a low and firm voice: "Xiaoxi, I love you."
Lu Lingxi came to his senses and pushed Yan Yue away awkwardly, "You..."
He couldn't say anything more. He just said he didn't hate her, but before he could finish, Yan Yue took his words out of context. He was a little angry, but he didn't know why he was angry. He was more embarrassed and didn't know how to face Yan Yue.
The way Lu Lingxi turned her head away and refused to pay attention to him made Yan Yue's eyes even more obscure. He understood the desires of his body. He wanted to overwhelm the boy, possess him, and force him, but the last bit of rationality held him tightly. His harvest today was already beyond his imagination. He couldn't push the boy too hard. He should give him some time to adapt. To adapt to him, and also to the changes in their relationship.
Yan Yue took a deep breath and suppressed all his crazy desires. He half-knelt in front of Lu Lingxi, looked into Lu Lingxi's eyes sincerely, and apologized: "Xiao Xi, I was wrong. I should have listened to you. But I was too happy. I thought you would hate me. I was afraid that you would be unhappy and disgusted with me, but you said you didn't hate me. You don't know how happy I was and I couldn't control my emotions at all. Xiao Xi, are you angry? If you are angry, you can beat me or scold me, and Brother Yan will never resist."
Yan Yue's policy of pitying others had a good effect, and Lu Lingxi softened his heart, "I'm not angry. It's just..."
"Just what?" Yan Yue asked patiently.
Lu Lingxi was a little embarrassed. "I just feel it's very strange that we..."
Yan Yue keenly sensed what Lu Lingxi was going to say, and spoke first: "Xiao Xi, look, two men can be together. I'm not lying to you, there are many people like us. We are no different from others. We like each other the same way, we are in love the same way, and we live together the same way. Xiao Xi, I love you, and you don't hate me either. Are you willing to give me a chance, and we can try to be together?"
Lu Lingxi hesitated. He didn't hate Yan Yue. On the contrary, he liked Yan Yue very much. But was his liking the same as Yan Yue's? Yan Yue said they should try to be together, like Brother Dong and his girlfriend?
"Xiao Xi?"
"But I don't understand." Lu Lingxi said honestly: "Brother Yan, I think I like you too, but I don't understand if it's the kind of love you said. Is this okay?"
"Of course." Yan Yue hugged Lu Lingxi in ecstasy. He was a little afraid that what he heard was an illusion. Only by hugging Lu Lingxi could he feel the reality. "Xiaoxi, it doesn't matter if you don't understand now. We can learn slowly. Brother Yan didn't understand it before, but he learned it after he met Xiaoxi."
Lu Lingxi was a little shy, but still nodded slowly.
Yan Yue looked at Lu Lingxi's expression and felt his heart swell. He didn't expect that he could survive after risking his life. The moment Lu Lingxi agreed to him, he really felt that the inheritance rights of the Yin family, the Yan family, and Hepu combined were not as much as a hair of the boy. He just wanted to do nothing from now on and stay by Lu Lingxi's side. It would be best if there was a rope to tie the two together, so that he could take the boy with him wherever he went, and they would never be separated.
"I'll carry you back."
Lu Lingxi said "hmm" and suddenly thought, "Where's Dahei?"
There was such a big commotion outside, why didn't Dahei come out yet?
Yan Yue curled the corners of his mouth and said nothing.
Inside the room, Dahei was concentrating on gnawing on two braised chicken legs, and from time to time he would twitch his ears to listen to the noise outside. Animals don't have as many complicated thoughts as humans, and since it recognized Yan Yue, it naturally wouldn't be wary of Yan Yue.
Yan Yue carried Lu Lingxi into the house, and Lu Lingxi saw the chicken leg on the ground at a glance. He looked at Yan Yue accusingly, and Yan Yue had a righteous expression, as if he knew nothing. He gently put Lu Lingxi on the kang, lowered his head and kissed the boy's forehead reluctantly. "You go to sleep first, I'll go clean up."
Lu Lingxi nodded somewhat embarrassedly. While Yan Yue was out, he quickly took off his shorts, then took the sheet and wrapped himself up like a cocoon, with only his head exposed. His actions were completely subconscious, and Lu Lingxi's face suddenly turned red.
When Yan Yue came back from washing up, he saw Lu Lingxi wrapped up straight. He lay down beside the boy with a somewhat amused look, stretched out his hands and held the boy in his arms.
"Brother Yan, you..." Lu Lingxi said with a somewhat embarrassed look.
"Be good, I won't do anything. I'll just hold you and sleep." Yan Yue coaxed in a low voice.
Lu Lingxi moved his body uneasily, somewhat uncomfortable with such closeness.
Yan Yue saw his reaction, patted his back patiently, and slowly coaxed and persuaded him. Lu Lingxi was a little tired after a day of hard work, and fell asleep in Yan Yue's arms unknowingly. Yan Yue looked at his peaceful and serene sleeping face with satisfaction, and the turmoil in the depths of his heart slowly calmed down. The void that had been festering since the age of six was finally filled with something.
After a deep sleep, Yan Yue slowly opened his eyes after daybreak. When he woke up, his first reaction was to look for Lu Lingxi, but the kang was empty, and there was no sign of Lu Lingxi. Yan Yue's face instantly darkened, and he almost thought that everything that happened last night was a dream.
Yan Yue quickly put on his clothes, without even bothering to wash up, he pushed the door open and started looking for Lu Lingxi everywhere.
The flower garden is gone, the courtyard is gone, even Dahei is gone.
Yan Yue was a little scared. He was afraid that he would wake up and find that last night was all a dream. He was even more afraid that he would see regret and disgust on Lu Lingxi's face when he woke up.
His car was still parked in the yard. Lu Lingxi didn't know how to drive. Yan Yue took a deep breath and decided to go to Uncle Li's place. After walking a few steps, he suddenly froze and looked ahead in disbelief. The old willow tree that was split in half by lightning last night actually came back to life. Countless buds sprouted from the charred branches, and the new soft willow branches swayed gently in the wind. There were birds perched on the trunk and chirping, and the whole tree was full of vitality.
Lu Lingxi stood quietly in front of the willow tree, with Dahei squatting at his feet. Hearing the familiar footsteps behind him, he turned his head and curved his eyes towards Yan Yue, smiling slightly.
Yan Yue's heart calmed down instantly. He took a step forward, held Lu Lingxi in his arms, and lowered his head to kiss her fiercely.
Author's Note: I have something to say about this chapter.
Everyone should be aware of the current harmonious situation, so I was a little nervous when writing this chapter, and I kept hesitating whether to just mention it. But in my heart, this chapter is very important, it is a turning point in the relationship between Yan Yue and Lu Lingxi. Especially Yan Yue's reaction, which is a summary of his previous perverted behavior. If I just mention it, I always feel that something will be missing, and there is an indescribable regret.
So despite my concerns and hesitation, I still wrote it out in detail without skimming over anything.
I beg the girls who have read this to not report it. I think I wrote everything above the neck, and there is nothing prohibited. Thank you~ Please try not to mention the specific content when you reply, and try to downplay the theme of this chapter. Thank you very much~
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