Chapter 14 "Some people's fate is destined to be..."
Xu Baizhu looked somewhat dazed, recalling the past as if it were a lifetime ago.
Those gentle, calm eyes seemed to have traversed through layers of time, reaching back to that year.
She was the only daughter of the Xu family, a recent graduate in the prime of her youth. She disliked the cutthroat world of business, preferring instead the gentle beauty of willows and a life of reading.
The Xu family remained standing, and their only daughter indulged her desire to travel and enjoy life.
Her posture was dignified and elegant, and her voice was melodious and gentle.
Her suitors were as numerous as carp crossing a river.
The good times didn't last long, and the Xu family business was thrown into turmoil. The group fell into a huge crisis, Xu Baizhu's father became seriously ill, and his mother also fell ill from overwork.
A thousand pieces of gold have fallen to the mortal world.
At a high-society banquet, she wore a cheongsam that accentuated her slender waist, and her gentle smile was captivating.
By chance, he met Lu Yu's father.
Lu Gaohan.
One is a young, ambitious, and aloof heir to the Lu family fortune; the other is a stunningly beautiful but fallen heiress.
The plot unfolded as naturally as possible.
He fell in love at first sight and took the initiative to propose marriage. After her father passed away, she agreed to the marriage for the sake of the company.
But the story never unfolds as we wish.
Lu Gaohan loved Xu Baizhu with all his heart, but Xu Baizhu rarely smiled after they got married.
No matter how hard he tried to please her, she remained unmoved.
The Xu Group is revived, and the once tender young woman begins to learn business skills, takes over the company, and becomes as cold and indifferent as a different person.
With Xu Baizhu deliberately avoiding them, the two met less and less.
When we get to this point...
Xu Baizhu's voice was like a murmur: "Xi Xi, do you know that there are too many things in life that are beyond our control? At that time, I only felt that I had lost my freedom and my father, and all I could think about was how to become strong as quickly as possible."
"so……"
She remembers clearly that just as she was deciding to divorce Lu Gaohan, she found out she was pregnant.
At that moment, she felt no joy of becoming a mother for the first time.
What she was thinking was that she didn't want to continue to endure it, and the Xu family's position was not yet secure enough.
She didn't want the child.
But since it was still a child in her belly, she couldn't help but feel sorry for it.
Even during her pregnancy, Xu Baizhu did not stop working hard.
People were flying between countries, holding all sorts of teleconferences and video conferences.
It's never going to end.
She had hesitated when Lu Yu was born.
Shouldn't she also be a good mother?
But the moment she saw Lu Gaohan, she abandoned that idea.
She recalled how she had gotten to where she was today.
She is Lu Yu's mother.
But she wants to be herself more.
Xu Baizhu never forgot that Lu Gaohan had helped her. Without Lu Gaohan, the Xu family would not be among the world's leading families today.
Now she has restored the Xu family name, settled her mother, and has everything her father had hoped for before his death.
But she lost herself.
They lost Xu Baizhu, the one who once made them so proud.
She doesn't love Lu Gaohan.
I don't like this self that's compromising and yielding.
Everything fell apart completely when Lu Yu was five years old.
She signed the divorce agreement and pushed it in front of Lu Gaohan, calmly informing him that she wanted a divorce.
Xu Baizhu still remembers Lu Gaohan's reaction at that time.
The proud Lu Gaohan's eyes reddened, and he said to her with a frantic and resolute tone, "If you step out of the Lu family, you will never see your son again in this lifetime."
Xu Baizhu stood quietly and peacefully in the sunlit doorway, carrying her few belongings.
Just like when Lu Gaohan first saw her.
But she only glanced back at the young, cute, and innocent Lu Yu.
His eyes seemed to hold regret and a deep sigh.
Little Lu Yu said, "Mommy, hug me."
Tears welled up in her eyes, and she resolutely turned around, grabbed her luggage, and left without looking back.
Once they left, several years would pass.
As she recounted these past events, Xu Baizhu remained calm, though her slender shoulders trembled slightly.
It wasn't until she talked about little Lu Yu asking for a hug from his mother that she couldn't hold back her emotions and burst into tears, covering her face.
Meng Xi's feelings were somewhat complicated.
She didn't know how to judge the matter.
For Aunt Xu, marrying someone she didn't love was painful, giving birth to a child she didn't want him to be born was heartbreaking, and losing herself was even more painful.
But she was, after all, Lu Yu's mother.
As a normal woman, no mother doesn't love her child.
For Uncle Lu, it was painful that the woman he loved would rather not have children and never look back at him for the rest of her life; it was painful that he could never warm Aunt Xu's heart; and it was painful to lose the person he loved.
What about Lu Yu?
What did he do wrong?
Born into a wealthy and noble family, envied by thousands, with no worries about food or clothing.
But he lost his mother when he was young.
Perhaps for him, having a complete family is more important than money.
Meng Xi recalled Lu Yu's always indifferent and aloof demeanor, and suddenly felt a pang of heartache.
So arrogant and overbearing, he was just an ordinary person.
Thinking of this, Meng Xi turned her head and asked softly, "So... is it because Lu Yu didn't have your company since he was a child that he's become so distant and estranged from you?"
Xu Baizhu's expression grew even more distressed, her slender fingers clenching the clear glass tightly: "Lu Gaohan..."
Meng Xi subconsciously felt that what she was about to hear was probably not good, and her heart trembled slightly.
"He vented all his resentment on Xiaoyu."
Xu Baizhu's body trembled even more violently, her eyes filled with boundless darkness.
“Xiaoyu was afraid of the dark since he was a child, so he locked him in a dark room over and over again, for who knows how long… A year later I received an email, which was full of Xiaoyu’s hysterical crying.”
"Xiaoyu kept crying and calling, 'Mommy...Mommy...'"
"But I can't find where Lu Gaohan is keeping Xiaoyu, I can't find Xiaoyu..."
She cried her heart out, gasping for breath: "At that time, I really regretted it. I even begged Lu Gaohan to remarry me and begged him not to abuse our son."
"But he said it was too late."
Xu Baizhu's eyes were incredibly red, filled with self-blame and despair as she reminisced.
Meng Xi's heart clenched tightly; with her keen sense of empathy, tears welled up in her eyes as she listened.
It fell down in the blink of an eye.
After a long while.
Xu Baizhu smiled sadly and helplessly: "Five years later, I finally reconnected with Lu Gaohan."
“He has a new girlfriend and told me I can contact Xiaoyu now.”
"Xiaoyu, who is 11 years old, is already a big kid. When she looked at me, the unfamiliarity in her eyes scared me."
"Uncle Gu told me that Xiaoyu has some mental problems. She is easily angered and can hardly feel any positive emotions. She will fly into a rage whenever she hears news about me and Lu Gaohan."
...
Upon hearing this, Meng Xi's pupils contracted slightly.
No wonder Lu Yu's temper is so unpredictable, now I know...
Xu Baizhu smiled wryly and said, "Because of this, I rarely come back to see him and try to play a transparent role."
Meng Xi hesitated for a moment, then asked cautiously, "Can't it be cured?"
Xu Baizhu gently shook her head: "I've consulted the best psychologists, but they still can't cure it. Over the years, the treatment I received as a child, combined with my age, has improved things a bit, but I still can't handle any stimulation."
"Uncle Gu told me that he recently discovered that Xiaoyu still has severe headaches at night, and I'm really worried about her..."
Her eyes held a hint of despair: "If I could, I would even be willing to suffer for Xiaoyu."
"But I can't."
...
Lu Yu's disgust and hatred for Xu Baizhu was so intense that she couldn't even speak a single word calmly to her own son.
Meng Xi suddenly felt a pang of sadness in her heart.
This story made her feel a sense of despair, like drowning at the bottom of the sea.
There was no light of day, no hope.
What kind of childhood did Lu Yu have?
No one is born without the ability to laugh, or without worldly emotions.
But Lu Yu felt only despair and pain, not love.
Perhaps this is one of the reasons why Lu Yu frequently changes girlfriends.
Meng Xi suddenly recalled the countless indifferent figures Lu Yu had left her with.
She felt a surge of impulse.
I want to hug him.
I want to tell him that he needs to learn to be happier.
However, this feeling was only fleeting.
Meng Xi rationally understood the distance between her and Lu Yu.
It's only suitable for being a stranger you don't know very well.
It's better to leave such intimate things to his girlfriend.
After saying goodbye to Aunt Xu, Meng Xi returned to her bedroom.
She lowered her eyelashes and thought for a moment.
Having lived in the Lu family for four years, I was fortunate enough to receive care from Aunt Xu and Uncle Gu, and I grew up without any worries about food or clothing.
I had thought about repaying the Lu family before, but it ended in an unpleasant way.
It's a bit of a shame.
I don't know why.
After hearing this story, she suddenly stopped being afraid of Lu Yu.
She once publicly stated that she and Lu Yu would live peacefully together as before, without disturbing each other.
I'm afraid I'll have to break my promise.
——
"Some people's fates are destined to be intertwined."
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