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Ji Shengsheng sat down on Xu Yu's lap and watched him finish drawing the rest of the picture.
"When did you start learning to paint?" She had wanted to ask this when she received Xu Yu's letter last time.
“After you left,” Xu Yu said, “when I miss you, I study. When I’m painting, I can concentrate very well, and time flies by. It makes missing you less painful.”
"Then I'm really sorry." Ji Shengsheng kissed Xu Yu's cheek, as if remembering something, "Xu Yu, you also think I cheated on you, right?"
Xu Yu remained silent.
This is a minefield in their relationship. At least, that's what he thinks.
If it's true, once it's exposed, things can't continue. If it's false, he doesn't know how Ji Shengsheng will view this.
Therefore, he never speculated in detail, nor did he bring it up with Ji Shengsheng.
"Why aren't you saying anything?" Ji Shengsheng looked into Xu Yu's eyes. "Are you avoiding this matter?"
"Xu Yu, is it because you thought I cheated on you and still wanted to be with me that you've been carrying this burden?"
Everything seems to make sense because of this.
Xu Yu remained silent.
Ji Shengsheng could feel the stiffness in his body.
"...Are you scared?"
Xu Yu felt that Ji Shengsheng's voice was very soft, but it felt very heavy on him.
He doesn't even deserve to say "I'm sorry".
"I find it quite surprising that you would view me this way and not trust me."
Ji Shengsheng calmly stated, "I never considered this possibility, so I've never understood where your indifference comes from."
"At least you should have asked me... I wouldn't lie to you."
"I always thought that indifference meant dislike, and it hurt me a lot."
Xu Yu heard Ji Shengsheng sigh in his arms.
He did something wrong and should atone with his death.
"Xu Yu".
Ji Shengsheng called his name.
"Now I know. I have to tell you, I didn't cheat on you, so don't feel guilty."
Feeling Ji Shengsheng's fingers intertwined with his, Xu Yu almost immediately gripped her hand tightly.
"Don't be afraid. I'm not blaming you. I was just checking. Everything's alright now."
His filth and filth were forgiven. Ji Shengsheng will forever illuminate his dark corners.
Xu Yu often found it strange.
How could someone like him possibly win Ji Shengsheng's favor? He was a wicked ghost destined to live in the dark, damp corners of society; how could he deserve Ji Shengsheng's selfless redemption?
Seemingly even more worried than him, Ji Shengsheng reassured him, "You won't lose me because of something like this, you won't."
"...What would make me lose you?" Xu Yu felt a chill run through her body again.
“Betrayal…” Ji Shengsheng pondered, “Then it cannot be forgiven.”
"I will not betray you."
He inherited his father's bad genes.
If one day he betrays her, let him die.
"Don't be so serious..." Ji Shengsheng didn't know how to comfort him.
Xu Yu looked sadly at Ji Shengsheng's face.
He always hoped to die when he was most in love with Ji Shengsheng. That would have been the best life he could have lived.
Ji Shengsheng didn't know how to help Xu Yu get better. They hugged each other for a long time, and Xu Yu didn't say a word.
"...Don't do this, I'm very worried."
"sorry."
“…Don’t apologize anymore.” Ji Shengsheng patted Xu Yu’s back. “Although it was a misunderstanding, you were still hurt by it, weren’t you?”
"These years must have been tough for you too."
Ji Shengsheng put herself in Xu Yu's shoes and thought about it for a moment, then felt very tired: "Won't there be other people talking about you behind your back, saying bad things about you because of this?"
Xu Yu did not respond, and Ji Shengsheng did not press the matter.
"It's my fault for not explaining things clearly to you... I also have a problem with this. Xing Xing and I are too familiar with each other; other people might think we're dating."
"I will keep my distance from now on. I will explain things clearly to those who have questions so that they will not misunderstand you."
They misunderstood Ji Shengsheng, not him.
He wanted to interfere in Ji Shengsheng's life.
It was only because of Ji Shengsheng's innocence that his innocence was unexpectedly proven.
He knows very well what he's thinking.
"Sound after sound".
Ji Shengsheng heard Xu Yu call her name.
"Um?"
"Thank you."
Thank you for being in my life.
Thank you for coming to my aid and saving me time and time again.
"You're welcome."
Ji Shengsheng took the initiative to kiss Xu Yu's cheek, but just as Xu Yu responded, they heard a knock on the door.
Ji Shengsheng quickly stood up to open the door.
It's Grandma Sheng, our neighbor.
Grandma Sheng's son went abroad many years ago and usually comes back every year. Ji Shengsheng isn't home, so I don't know much about it. Grandma Sheng has been living alone since her husband passed away.
"Grandma Sheng, what's wrong?" Ji Shengsheng walked out the door.
"Sheng Sheng, do you know how to fix a gas stove? It won't turn on."
She knew nothing about gas stoves. She usually cooked with electric appliances.
"Shall I take a look?"
Ji Shengsheng followed Grandma Sheng into the house, went to the kitchen, squatted down, and began to study.
After investigating various possible causes, Ji Shengsheng checked each one one by one and finally found the problem with the gas meter's battery.
"The batteries must be dead." Ji Shengsheng stood up. "I'll go buy some batteries."
Xu Yu called Ji Shengsheng to inquire about the situation.
"I'm going out to buy batteries. Wait for me, I'll be right back."
It was already dark and cold outside, so Xu Yu suggested, "I'll go buy it."
Ji Shengsheng glanced at Grandma Sheng.
Grandma Sheng and her mother have a very good relationship. If Grandma Sheng sees Xu Yu coming from her house... then her mother might know that she brought Xu Yu home.
"It's okay, I'll leave it at the door, you can come and get it later."
Knowing her concerns, Xu Yu comforted her, "Don't worry."
"good."
After a while, Ji Shengsheng received a message from Xu Yu and went to the door to get the battery.
Even after installing the battery, it still won't start.
She had already investigated all other possible causes.
Seeing that she hadn't replied to his messages for a long time and hadn't returned, Xu Yu gently knocked on the door next door.
"Hello, I'm Ji Shengsheng's friend," Xu Yu greeted the grandmother who opened the door politely. "I'm here to help fix the gas."
Grandma Sheng quickly invited him inside.
Ji Shengsheng is anxiously undergoing a follow-up examination.
Upon seeing Xu Yu, she recounted the findings of her investigation. Xu Yu completely trusted what she had checked and did not repeat it, instead seeking out new questions.
After removing the battery, Xu Yu touched an oily, sticky liquid.
"It must be from a leaking battery." Xu Yu wiped away the slime, reinstalled the battery, and the gas stove worked again.
Grandma Sheng kept thanking them and wanted them to stay for dinner.
Ji Shengsheng glanced at Xu Yu and then gently refused.
"What a good child." Grandma Sheng looked at Xu Yu. "If my grandchildren could come back this year, I wonder if they would be as good at taking care of people as you are."
Yes, it will.
Ji Shengsheng was surprised that Xu Yu was so cooperative.
They all knew that if they didn't come back to visit their elders during the Spring Festival, then the probability of them coming back at other times was probably very low.
Grandma Sheng saw them to the door.
Under her watchful gaze, Ji Shengsheng took Xu Yu's hand and went home together.
"You're not worried anymore?"
"I'm worried too. But we can always find a solution."
After closing the door, Xu Yu put his arm around Ji Shengsheng's waist from behind: "Yes, it can always be resolved."
"Xu Yu, if my mother continues to reject you, what are you planning to do? Or, what do you want me to do?"
Everyone has different likes and dislikes. She knew that even if her mother didn't like Xu Yu, it wasn't Xu Yu's fault.
"I hope you can stay in a good mood, and I hope it won't affect your relationship." Xu Yu could feel Ji Shengsheng's warmth through her clothes. "The worst outcome is that I don't have to appear in front of them."
"Sigh..." Ji sighed.
"What if it happens to be New Year's Eve or a birthday later?" Ji Shengsheng turned to look at Xu Yu.
"You stay with them first, I'll wait for you at home."
"What if I wanted to be with you too?" Ji Shengsheng stroked Xu Yu's hand, feeling sad just thinking about it. "I can't always leave you alone."
"Then I'll wait for you at the door, downstairs, in the car... After you've finished with them, I'll come and keep you company."
“Oh, let’s not talk about these unhappy things,” Ji Shengsheng wiped her eyes, “…I’ll wear a red dress for you to see.”
"good."
Feeling Ji Shengsheng slip away from his arms like a little fish, Xu Yu instinctively reached out to chase after her, only to touch the hem of Ji Shengsheng's clothes.
Then, the hem of his clothes slipped away from his fingers again.
Xu Yu looked at his fingertips.
There was still some temperature reading on it.
It disappeared very quickly.
"It's a bit too big..."
Ji Shengsheng couldn't reach the zipper, so she had to come out and ask Xu Yu for help.
She has lost a lot of weight in the past few years.
This size, which used to fit perfectly, is now loose in the chest and waist, and the fabric is barely hanging down on the shoulders.
"Help me pull." Ji Shengsheng walked up to Xu Yu with his arms crossed and turned his back to him.
Xu Yu did not move.
"Ji Shengsheng, you're not wearing a bra."
Ji Shengsheng: "?!"
She was in such a hurry that she only realized something was wrong when she walked out of the bedroom, but she didn't quite understand what it was.
“…I deliberately didn’t wear it.” She couldn’t always be at a disadvantage, so Ji Shengsheng simply let go of her hand.
Xu Yu grabbed her arm to prevent her clothes from falling completely off.
“…Sheng Sheng.” Xu Yu said helplessly, “I’m not as blinded by lust and unable to distinguish the occasion as you think.”
Ji Shengsheng pretended not to understand.
"He's not as upright and gentlemanly as you think."
Ji Shengsheng felt ashamed: "...We haven't seen each other all day. We finally get to spend some time together, don't you want to kiss me or hug me?"
Xu Yu tilted her head, watching Ji Shengsheng lift her skirt slightly.
Like a little devil plotting something bad but having no idea how, and then being discovered by accident.
Feeling Xu Yu release her arm, Ji Shengsheng was a little unhappy: "...Eh?"
She's already said it, but no one's responding.
"I'm going to brush my teeth and wash my hands."
Remembering some utterly exhausting night, Ji Shengsheng didn't dare look at him: "...Are you going to do that again?"
"Um."
"cannot……"
"cannot."
"...Didn't you forget to bring that?" Ji Shengsheng suddenly thought.
"Yes." After a long while, Xu Yu put the disposable toothbrush into a trash bag next to him, preparing to take it with him when he left.
Then he picked up Ji Shengsheng and carried her away, letting her clothes fall to the ground.
“…Why didn’t you bring it?” Ji Shengsheng leaned on his shoulder. “If you had brought it, would you still be able to…”
“Sheng Sheng,” Xu Yu sighed, “only a pervert would carry that kind of thing with him wherever he goes.”
If it happens that frequently...
He didn't like children, nor did he have any intention of "leaving an offspring" to continue his life. If Ji Shengsheng were as determined as he was, he would consider other methods.
Having reached a conclusion, Xu Yu gently placed Ji Shengsheng on the bed.
I felt a soft mattress against my back.
I could feel warm breath on the tip of my nose.
Lips and teeth are interdependent, like lips and teeth.
She could feel Xu Yu's breath and hair on her neck, and it was very itchy.
Then, you can gently grab his hair; it's fluffy and soft.
My fingers could reach his nose as far as they could extend, but he bit my fingers.
She found it hard to stay in bed.
Later, Xu Yu hugged her from behind, quietly feeling the remaining flutter in her heart.
After a long while, Xu Yu heard Ji Shengsheng softly ask, "...Do you want me to help you?"
...It must have been very painful.
"No need." There was nothing she could do to help him.
"But I want to... help you."
“Sheng Sheng,” Xu Yu unusually did not accept her opinion, “you will only make things more complicated by helping.”
"..."
"I really can." Ji Shengsheng got up and pointed to the bookshelf behind her. "I really can."
Ji Shengsheng is furry.
Her hair was soft, her nose was soft, her fingers were soft, everything about her was soft.
She nuzzled against his collarbone and chest like a little animal.
It annoyed him.
"You'll really make things worse by trying to help," Xu Yu commented on her.
"Has it not helped?" Ji Shengsheng asked, puzzled. "But... that's how it's depicted in comics."
What else was drawn in the comic?
Ji Shengsheng heard Xu Yu's voice become restrained and hoarse.
"...and also drew..." Ji Shengsheng's gaze was shifted to another place, and she remembered what else she had drawn.
She had other ways to help Xu Yu relieve his pain quickly, just like Xu Yu had done for her.
Seemingly knowing what she was about to do, Xu Yu stopped her.
"No." "It's dirty."
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