45
Ji Shengsheng couldn't sleep.
The image of Xu Yu kneeling kept flashing through her mind.
...just so she could touch his head.
Her advice was useless.
Xu Yu promised her that she would leave after she came back to rest, and only then did she lie back down on the bed.
But I've been worried about it.
The situation is truly extreme and difficult.
Three hours have passed.
Xu Yu should have already left?
Ji Shengsheng got up and felt inexplicably cold, so she wrapped herself in the blanket and got out of bed.
When the door opened, Xu Yu was still kneeling there.
Ji Shengsheng squatted weakly in front of Xu Yu: "Go back to sleep, okay?"
"Sheng Sheng, I don't want to be apart."
Ji Shengsheng couldn't persuade him, so she could only try to put her hand under his knees.
The floor was cold and hard, and she was afraid that Xu Yu's body would not be able to take it if this stalemate continued.
"Sheng Sheng, let's not separate, okay?" Xu Yu grabbed her wrist to stop her.
Ji Shengsheng: "..."
"Okay?"
"If I don't agree, are you going to keep kneeling?" Ji Shengsheng asked helplessly.
She didn't want others to see Xu Yu like this.
"But you didn't do anything wrong."
...She just felt that constantly trying to outdo each other was painful and wanted to calm down.
"Let's not separate, okay?"
"But you'll mind... I don't know how to completely avoid contact."
She can control herself, but she can't control other people's behavior.
She couldn't guarantee that this wouldn't happen even once, in case Xing Xing came over to talk to her.
For example, one evening, when Xing Xing's close high school classmates came to visit, they mentioned her, and Xing Xing called to ask if she wanted to go out together.
She refused. But if Xu Yu overheard this call, wouldn't he overthink it?
"I will change."
"...Get up first."
She didn't want to torment him.
"Sheng Sheng, let's never be apart, okay?"
No matter what she did, it was no use; Xu Yu remained unwilling to get up.
Xu Yu had several bruises on his knees, which saddened Ji Shengsheng.
"Please don't do this, okay?"
"Are you sad for me?" Xu Yu gently ruffled her hair, comforting her, "Sheng Sheng, don't cry."
The bite marks on Xu Yu's shoulder were very obvious; it must have hurt a lot.
They remained deadlocked.
Ji Shengsheng felt that time was passing very slowly, and every second was agonizing.
Finally, she softened and hugged Xu Yu.
Xu Yu was filled with anxiety about her relationship with her, as if she couldn't accept her attention shifting for even a moment.
She is responsible for all of this.
"Are you going to stay here overnight?" Ji Shengsheng looked at Xu Yu's knees with concern. "Or should I take you back?"
Do you still want to see me?
Ji Shengsheng couldn't bear to look at Xu Yu's face; just seeing it made her feel heartbroken.
"If you want to see me, I'll stay."
"So, you want me to stay, right?"
"Sheng Sheng, answer me."
"……yes."
"Thank you."
"Thank me for what?"
Thank you to her for accepting his atonement.
Finally back in her bedroom, Ji Shengsheng felt a little more relaxed.
"...Let me check it."
He stopped because he sensed that Ji Shengsheng was injured, and that her walking posture was also somewhat problematic.
"No, thank you... I'm fine."
She couldn't stand Xu Yu's gaze.
"good……"
As long as Xu Yu speaks to her nicely, she can never refuse.
The swelling and tearing were obvious results, and he could hardly deny responsibility. As for Ji Shengsheng's chest... his gaze swept over it, then quickly looked away.
He should be punished.
Cheng Yu had erythromycin ointment in her small medicine box. Xu Yu helped Ji Shengsheng apply it, and then lay down beside her.
"what's on your mind?"
Seeing that Xu Yu had his eyes open, Ji Shengsheng turned to face him.
I'm thinking of you.
"...What are you thinking about me for?"
I miss her... so close yet so far.
This is the third time Xu Yu has experienced the feeling of "losing" Ji Shengsheng.
He had it but didn't cherish it, repeatedly creating unnecessary suffering for himself. If he hadn't spoken out, none of this would have happened tonight.
He thought he could use his body as leverage to force Ji Shengsheng to stay by his side. He was overthinking it.
“Xu Yu…”
Ji Shengsheng took his hand and touched her cheek, ears, collarbone... without any other meaning.
“I am real, I will not disappear into thin air, you truly possess me.”
So don't feel so insecure, so distrustful, or so depressed.
She didn't mean anything by it; this simple physical contact doesn't mean he didn't.
"Hey—aren't you going to sleep yet?"
How could he possibly sleep with her lying next to him completely naked?
"...Don't you like kissing?"
“That is indeed liking…” Ji Shengsheng did not object, “but one cannot like someone forever…”
Why not?
...
The night before, almost everyone except Xu Yu and Cheng Yu had drunk alcohol.
So only they got up on time in the morning.
Cheng Yu had originally planned to secretly swindle Xu Yu, which is why she didn't go to the indoor swimming pool on the first floor and deliberately went to the underground pool. Unexpectedly, she actually ran into Xu Yu.
“You’re even more cunning than I am…” Cheng Yu almost immediately noticed the two bite marks on Xu Yu’s shoulder.
He was certain that Xu Yu must have angered Ji Shengsheng to suffer this misfortune.
Based on his understanding of Ji Shengsheng, he would never get angry for no reason.
After swimming two laps and being lapped twice by Xu Yu, Cheng Yu, panting heavily, climbed ashore.
"Xu Yu, I don't mean to be nosy, but I think you've really forgotten your original intentions."
"Back then, I thought you could swallow your anger and be a mistress for love when Ren Jisheng had a boyfriend. Now that she's a perfectly innocent young woman, you're the one making people angry."
He deliberately teased Xu Yu, thinking that Xu Yu would tell him to get lost as before, but Xu Yu just remained silent.
That matter is probably quite serious.
"Dude, I was just kidding. You didn't actually take it to heart, did you?"
Xu Yu ignored him and simply put on a short-sleeved shirt to cover the bite marks on her shoulder.
When Cheng Yu finished showering and was about to go upstairs for dinner, Xu Yu was already teaching Ji Shengsheng to swim.
Cheng Yu scratched his head, seemingly not as if something bad had happened.
“I’m afraid of water…” Ji Shengsheng grabbed Xu Yu’s arm. She had only stood on the steps when the water was above her knees, and she was already scared.
"Then you won't learn it?" Xu Yu didn't force her.
Although he liked the way Ji Shengsheng clung tightly to his arm because she was afraid of water.
He enjoys this dependence.
Only at this level does he feel safe.
“…Give me some time, I’ll try my best to overcome it.” Swimming, like driving, can be considered a survival skill, and she shouldn’t reject it.
"good."
That would be perfect.
Xu Yu is a very good teacher.
At first, she only dared to go into the water when Xu Yu was completely beside her; she needed his assistance. Then, she was able to submerge herself and swim a short distance. Gradually, she dared to lift her head to breathe and could swim a considerable distance.
Every time it ended, she would panic, and Xu Yu would always reach out his arm for her to grab.
"So tired..."
Xu Yu sat on the shore, allowing Ji Shengsheng to lean against his back.
Does it hurt?
Ji Shengsheng knew what Xu Yu was asking.
When Xu Yu woke up in the morning, the wound had already healed. She was probably worried that the wound would reopen.
"...Would you like to have it checked?"
"May I?"
Xu Yu really carried her to the bathroom to check.
Fortunately, it didn't crack again.
It's just that every time Xu Yu finishes his examination, it's really embarrassing when we look into each other's eyes.
Xu Yu carried her back to the edge of the pool, and Ji Shengsheng splashed the water with her legs.
"Xu Yu, what did it feel like when you held me?"
"Very soft."
I wanted to hold him even tighter.
Ji Shengsheng rubbed her cheek against Xu Yu's chest.
"And you?" Xu Yu stroked the stray hairs that were flying up on her head.
"I just think you're amazing, you can lift me up with one hand so easily."
Xu Yu fulfilled all her fantasies about having a boyfriend.
"Xu Yu, about yesterday..."
She didn't know if she should bring it up again.
"What's wrong?"
"Although I said those things in anger yesterday and needed to calm down, if you agree, I might go to see you first thing this morning."
"You also said 'maybe'."
"I do not accept breaking up. Sheng Sheng, no matter when, no matter how short the time."
"What if I become particularly bad?"
I will forgive you.
For a moment, he even understood his mother.
During the first few years of his father's infidelity, his mother did not choose to divorce him. As a result, he and his mother had their first cold war.
That was the beginning of their deteriorating relationship.
If one day... he doesn't know if he can be as resolute as he was in persuading his mother back then.
"I won't become bad. I don't want to lose you either."
"I trust you."
After breakfast, Ji Shengsheng went to find Du Meiyan and met up with the group of girls at the KTV room.
Xu Yu and Cheng Yu seemed to want to discuss work, so they went their separate ways.
Ji Shengsheng looked at Xu Yu with concern.
His shoulders and knees didn't look good.
I soaked in the pool water for a long time, I wonder if it will cause infection or leave scars.
Ji sighed repeatedly.
Sensing that she was preoccupied, Du Meiyan pulled her aside and had her read tarot cards.
"Sheng Sheng, is there anything you want to ask?"
Du Meiyan was very sensible; if Ji Shengsheng didn't say anything, she wouldn't make assumptions.
"Me? Let me think about it."
She had no questions for the tarot cards. The tarot cards couldn't resolve her inner turmoil.
“Then let me calculate how well our company is doing,” Du Meiyan said. Xiao Chu pushed open the door and added, “And also, please calculate when my soulmate will arrive.”
Hearing the sound, Ji Shengsheng looked past him and saw Xu Yu and Cheng Yu walking in together.
When Cheng Yu saw that Du Meiyan wanted to calculate the company's development, Ling Zhen suggested, "Why don't you calculate Boss Xu's career development? Wouldn't that be more direct?"
Du Meiyan dared not.
"It's alright, forget it." Cheng Yu pulled up a chair and sat down opposite Du Meiyan.
Whether Cheng Yu can surpass Xu Yu in his lifetime depends on Du Meiyan's hand.
As time went on, Du Meiyan became increasingly silent.
Mr. Xu's career is thriving, but his love life is full of twists and turns.
...When romantic relationships are going well, health suffers.
"Why do you look so serious?" Cheng Yu knew that even if fortune-telling yielded a bad result, it was best to just say it out loud, so she blurted out, "Could it be that Xu Yu died young?"
Du Meiyan's silence led to everyone else's silence.
Cheng Yu frowned and took out her phone to check what age "dying young" meant.
“20-50 years old, and some say 25-45 years old.” Cheng Yu got up and walked towards Xu Yu, patting him on the shoulder. “That means after 45, I will have the possibility of surpassing you. In order not to be surpassed by me, you have to exercise hard and live a long life.”
Xu Yu couldn't hear a single word.
He didn't care about dying young. Twenty years was enough.
But... even if he died young, Ji Shengsheng could not be with Xing Xing.
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