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Ji Shengsheng didn't want to believe the results of this calculation and kept searching for relevant information on her phone to find evidence to refute it. Only when she felt Xu Yu's gaze did she look away from her phone screen.
Xu Yu's expression was gentle and she looked very relaxed; it seemed that the gaze she had just received was just her imagination.
At 2 p.m., they all returned home.
Xu Yu helped her fasten her seatbelt and asked for her opinion.
"Shall I take you home later?"
Ji Shengsheng nodded frantically.
"I have a gift for you." Xu Yu felt very comfortable with her reaction.
"What gift?" Ji Shengsheng asked curiously.
I won't tell you.
Ji Shengsheng said with annoyance, "...Then I'm going to have to keep thinking about it the whole way."
"Think about it."
When she arrived at the hotel, she saw the "gift" that Xu Yu had given her.
Xu Yu not only knew how to use those leather belts and armbands, but also put them on over his gray shirt with great skill.
Xu Yu already had a great figure, but now...
The image was so striking that Ji Shengsheng almost dropped his phone.
Seeing Xu Yu like this, she didn't dare to act rashly.
My stomach growled at an inopportune moment.
Are you hungry?
Ji Shengsheng saw Xu Yu put on leather gloves but didn't say anything.
What would you like to eat?
"I don't really feel like eating..." Ji Shengsheng avoided Xu Yu's gaze, but couldn't avoid it. "Want some wine?"
She doesn't drink alcohol, and as far as she remembers, Xu Yu never drinks either.
However, she wanted to try something to bolster her courage.
After calling the front desk, the drinks were quickly served.
They sat at opposite ends of the coffee table, and Xu Yu poured a little bit into her cup.
Ji Shengsheng took a sip.
"It's so bitter..."
This wine tastes awful. How can anyone drink it?
Whenever she drinks alcohol, her neck feels itchy and she can't help but want to scratch it.
"What's wrong?" Noticing her unusual behavior, Xu Yu put down the wine bottle.
"I think I was bitten by a bug yesterday." Ji Shengsheng endured it, pretending nothing was wrong, and stopped scratching. "I don't want to drink anymore."
"You want me to drink?" Xu Yu looked into Ji Shengsheng's eyes.
He could always immediately understand the unspoken meaning in her words.
"Mmm!" Ji Shengsheng nodded vigorously. "Just a little bit?"
They seemed quite worried about his alcohol tolerance.
Xu Yu smiled helplessly.
Ji Shengsheng always thought too highly of him.
He just doesn't drink, not that he can't drink.
Otherwise, knowing that she was gone, how did he get through that most difficult time?
Relying on burying oneself in work? That's a long way off.
Ji Shengsheng watched Xu Yu drink a cup, and said worriedly, "Xu Yu..."
Xu Yu only drank one cup.
He absolutely cannot listen to the songs he listened to during the period immediately after Ji Shengsheng left.
Even after so much time has passed, even after she has returned, just hearing a certain melody can still evoke the pain of sudden loss and helplessness, an pain that cannot be severed.
He never imagined that alcohol could have this effect.
Ji Shengming was right in front of him, yet he felt as if he had completely lost him.
"Xu Yu?"
He almost staggered as he knelt at her feet, cupped the back of her head with his hands, and tilted his head back to kiss her.
That's strange.
For her, wine is bitter.
What Xu Yu conveyed to her was a sweet and refreshing feeling.
As if atonement, Xu Yu was very gentle and caring towards her, even more considerate than before.
But... even though it should have been a happy occasion, she empathized with Xu Yu's pain.
He was in pain.
He was in so much pain.
She was preoccupied with her own problems, but she tried her best to comfort them. Then, she felt something wet on her neck—tears.
Xu Yu took her home at nine o'clock in the evening.
When they got downstairs, Xu Yu helped her adjust her scarf and hat, and told her to go upstairs first. He would wait downstairs for her to get in safely before leaving.
"I don't want you to leave." Ji Shengsheng hugged Xu Yu's arm. "...I've been thinking about you since this very second."
Sweet words always sound so nice. Xu Yu was very pleased.
Even a long embrace downstairs couldn't ease the longing.
Only when her phone vibrated repeatedly, signaling a call from her mother, did Ji Shengsheng reluctantly let go of her hand.
"Does that mean we won't have to separate anymore once we get back to Lucheng...?"
"Do you really think so?" Xu Yu was surprised by her behavior tonight.
Although Ji Shengsheng often says these things, today is different.
For the first time, he truly felt her reluctance to part with him, and it even made him feel heartbroken as well.
“I can stay here with you.” Xu Yu put the gloves that Ji Shengsheng had taken off halfway back on her. “If you miss me, just look at me through the window.”
Ji Shengsheng shook her head: "Then I don't want it."
How could she possibly let Xu Yu stand downstairs all night?
"Xu Yu, I promise you, I will work hard at drawing and come back to you before Valentine's Day."
"real?"
"Of course, then we'll live together, travel together..."
Do what every normal couple does, and live like every normal couple.
"good."
When the final ultimatum arrived at 10 o'clock, Ji Shengsheng said goodbye to Xu Yu and ran upstairs.
Unlike before, when they would never hear from each other again after parting ways, Ji Shengsheng would occasionally share her artwork with him and report on her progress.
Xu Yu didn't leave until dawn.
Ji Shengsheng did not look at him through the window.
That's fine.
The purpose of his standing here is precisely to prevent Ji Shengsheng from thinking of him even once, only to find that she can't see him.
At least.
At least that didn't happen.
That would be best.
At 6:30 a.m., Xu Yu parked his car in the hotel parking lot.
He will be returning to Lucheng in five days.
For the past five days, he had no idea what Ji Shengsheng's plans were or when he would be able to see her.
He could only wait.
I entered the hotel room, but I couldn't fall asleep at all.
After taking a shower, Xu Yu sat on the sofa and looked out the window.
He had never felt so lonely and bored in life before, when Ji Shengsheng was not by his side.
The person I truly don't want to be apart from for even a moment is him.
Just then, the doorbell rang.
On the screen outside the door, he selected the "Do Not Disturb" option.
Xu Yu didn't move; he wasn't in the mood to negotiate with anyone else.
The doorbell rang again, relentlessly.
He remembered seeing Ji Shengsheng the night before last.
The second time, he already knew he had crossed the line.
He saw Ji Shengsheng's tears and her cheeks flushed red.
I even felt her lower abdomen and thighs twitching several times.
...so I can't stop.
At times like these, Ji Shengsheng has no energy to be distracted or think about other people's affairs.
At such moments, Ji Shengsheng could only feel him, could only think of him.
This is the only thing Xu Yu can be certain of.
The doorbell rang for the third time. The person outside was unusually persistent.
Xu Yu stood up and opened the door. The person wearing the familiar orange sweater immediately jumped into his arms like a fluffy ball.
Xu Yu took the opportunity to put his arm around her, and to prevent her from slipping, he supported her and helped her up.
"I miss you so much..." Ji Shengsheng nuzzled against his neck.
Xu Yu felt his heart instantly fill up. He longed for Ji Shengsheng's passionate expression.
Gently patting Ji Shengsheng's back, Xu Yu closed the door.
Wanting to hold her a little longer, wanting to savor the warmth a little longer, Xu Yu didn't sit down. Instead, he held Ji Shengsheng and slowly paced in front of the door: "How much did you miss me?"
"I miss you so much, I want to come find you as soon as I open my eyes."
"Really?" He loved hearing it; he could never get enough of it.
"Waaaaah..."
Ji Shengsheng sobbed on his shoulder.
Xu Yu gently rubbed the back of her head: "What's wrong? Did something upset you?"
"You have to praise me, waaaaaah..."
Ji Shengsheng cried so bitterly that Xu Yu chuckled and asked, "What happened?"
“…You praise me first!” Ji Shengsheng was still crying.
"good……"
"Let's not praise her anymore..." she said, feeling embarrassed.
"You really won't listen?" Xu Yu coaxed patiently.
"I won't listen..." Xu Yu was kissing her.
He kissed her until she was too weak to continue, and she leaned on his shoulder. Only then did Xu Yu whisper in her ear, "Do you like this, baby?"
Ji Shengsheng felt a surge of heat rush from her neck to the top of her head. Her face was already flushed.
She seemed to have never heard Xu Yu say anything romantic.
"like……"
What about yesterday?
Ji Shengsheng didn't dare look Xu Yu in the eye, leaning against her shoulder and trying to hide behind her: "I like it..."
What about the day before yesterday?
There was some violence the day before yesterday...
"I like it too..."
Which time was your favorite?
"I like it now..."
What do you like about now?
"...I like it when you hold me, I like it when you whisper in my ear."
"Then you'll definitely like what happens next."
Xu Yu didn't know if he was qualified to "praise" Ji Shengsheng.
He always thought that praise or evaluation was something that superiors did to subordinates.
It would be more suitable for Ji Shengsheng to do it to him.
Therefore, he couldn't bring himself to say he liked her or loved her. He often felt unworthy.
Despite this, in his view, Ji Shengsheng was kind, innocent, optimistic, and even compassionate and saintly.
She is very talented, focused, persistent and tenacious.
She is cute and easily embarrassed.
Her eyes were very round, and whenever she looked at him at this time, they were like two lakes with surging waves.
She loves to laugh, and when she laughs, you can see two little dimples. She looks beautiful when she laughs.
Xu Yu turned his head and gently kissed her calf on her shoulder.
She has long limbs and straight calves.
Her voice is clear and pleasant, and her tone when speaking and singing is like a kitten hopping on piano keys.
Hmm...and his stamina is also very good.
"Sound after sound".
"……Um?"
"Praise me."
"...You're amazing."
Just four words seemed to be a tremendous encouragement. Xu Yu gave it her all, and soon she had no energy left to think.
After the last one finished using it, Xu Yu carried her to take a bath.
Ji Shengsheng leaned against Xu Yu's chest, looked up and met his gaze: "Xu Yu, I want to be here."
"Now?"
"...No." Fearing that Xu Yu might misunderstand, Ji Shengsheng quickly explained, "In the future."
"I'm afraid that won't work."
The bathroom is wet, making it easy to slip and fall, which is not safe.
"All right."
Ji Shengsheng didn't ask for the reason, nor did she think of one. Xu Yu said no, so she accepted it.
"How will things be after we return to Lucheng?"
"Okay." Ji Shengsheng nuzzled against Xu Yu's chest.
Seeing Ji Shengsheng's smile, he felt at ease.
If there is no better way to prevent accidents, he will consider tubal ligation.
Why are you crying?
When Xu Yu brought up this matter, Ji Shengsheng felt very sad again and almost cried.
She wanted to spend time with Xu Yu during the day, but she also needed to find time to paint, and there was a curfew at home.
She was conflicted because she spent a lot of time traveling every day.
After drinking that day, she felt deeply for Xu Yu's pain.
She thought that perhaps she hadn't expressed enough or done enough, which was why Xu Yu felt so insecure.
She hopes to do more, even if it's just to spend more time with others.
After much deliberation, she lied to her mother, saying that she had enrolled in an intensive art training course.
Why would she need intensive exam preparation? It was a clumsy lie, but she couldn't think of a better one.
In her memory, she had never lied to her parents. She was afraid of being discovered, afraid of being exposed, and felt guilty and regretful... all these emotions surged up and tormented her.
Her mother believed her lie and even helped her pack her things.
She felt even worse.
He had been suppressing his emotions until he met Xu Yu, at which point he finally let them out.
Xu Yu tilted his head and looked at Ji Shengsheng.
Her face was covered in tears, and she frantically wiped them away while describing the incident to him incoherently.
She's so cute; even when she cries, it's so touching.
Draining all the water from the bathtub might also work.
"Why are you up...?"
"It's exactly what you think."
...
...
Whether from exhaustion or from crying too hard, Ji Shengsheng fell asleep quickly after being carried back to bed.
Xu Yu looked at the message sent by Ji's mother.
It was a reminder to take good care of Ji Shengsheng and an instruction to not let Ji Shengsheng drink alcohol.
Xu Yu replied to the message, glancing at the allergy medication on the table.
He bought it at the pharmacy on his way home that morning.
Ji Shengsheng wasn't bitten by insects; it was an alcohol allergy.
She must need a lot of time to paint during the day. Xu Yu opened the door and brought in Ji Shengsheng's backpack.
I set up a table big enough for drawing, and then took the computer out of Ji Shengsheng's bag and charged it.
A stack of drawings fell out behind the computer.
Xu Yu picked it up, then froze.
Last night, Ji Shengsheng looked at him from upstairs.
More than once.
After tidying up everything, Xu Yu lay down next to Ji Shengsheng and gently stroked her cheek.
"You saw me last night?"
"Um!"
She seemed to be sleeping lightly. When she heard him speak, Ji Shengsheng shifted from side to side and soon buried herself in his arms.
Why didn't you tell me?
"I'm afraid if I tell you, you'll be even more reluctant to leave..."
"It's very cold..."
"I'll stay with you..."
After muttering to himself for a while, Ji Shengsheng stopped talking and his breathing quickly became even.
Xu Yu looked at Ji Shengsheng as she slept and gently stroked her eyelashes.
Does she love him?
Was it during those moments when he had doubts that Ji Shengsheng was also genuinely in love with him?
He wasn't sure.
He wanted to be sure.
Sheng Sheng, do you love me?
He confirmed it silently.
“Xu Yu…”
"Hmm?" Xu Yu pulled Ji Shengsheng closer, resting his chin on the top of her head. "What's wrong?"
"I love you."
His climax finally arrived at this moment.
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