Chapter 860 Not Everyone Has a God's Perspective
Nan Yan felt as if she was suffocating all of a sudden.
She could hardly believe her ears, and stared at Zhu Feng's tall back with wide eyes. At this moment, she even felt that her vision was a little dark.
After an unknown amount of time, Zhu Feng slowly turned around.
When Nan Yan saw the expression on his face, she felt chilled to the bone.
This is not Zhu Feng’s current expression, but the expression he had when he first learned the news.
From body to heart, I was completely cold.
Nan Yan suddenly shuddered.
Qin Ruolan.
She actually——? !
I couldn't believe it. I always thought that she was the subject of a fight between Zhu Feng and the prince, but it turned out that she had nothing to do with the prince from the beginning to the end.
She was going to enter the palace and become Emperor Gao's woman!
And Zhu Feng touching her was equivalent to—
Nan Yan's voice was hoarse: "How could this happen?"
"how so……"
Zhu Feng also repeated softly: "At that time, I also asked myself countless times, how could this happen?"
Nan Yan said anxiously: "Concubine Ning, does she know?"
“…”
"Did she think she would marry the prince, or—"
Zhu Feng sneered, turned to look at her, and said, "Silly girl, you are still the same, only thinking the best of others."
Nan Yan suddenly shuddered.
Her whole body turned cold, and she whispered softly: "She..."
"Of course she knew," Zhu Feng said. "Entering the palace, or marrying the crown prince, there's no way Qin Zhengqi would have kept this a secret from his daughter. She knew it all from the beginning, even from a long time ago. She knew that after her aunt, the then Imperial Concubine Qin, passed away, the Emperor Gao missed her terribly, and her father had planned to have her enter the palace when she was older to ease the Emperor's longing."
Nan Yan shuddered and said, "So she—"
"She deceived me."
Zhu Feng said solemnly, "She deceived me like this and made me foolishly fall into her trap."
“…”
"When I was imprisoned in the prison, looking at the small skylight above my head, I kept asking myself, how could this happen?"
“…”
"But, no one answered me."
“…”
"Later, I stopped asking."
He said this lightly, with a nonchalant feeling, but Nan Yan knew that this kind of nonchalant feeling was only achieved after he had experienced countless tears and countless excruciating torments.
It's not that he is calm, but that he has made himself accept the fact that he has nothing.
Nan Yan just felt her eyes burning.
She seemed to understand why Zhu Feng had such deep feelings for Qin Ruolan.
This kind of feeling is not just the love of youth and mutual affection, but also the despair and helplessness after being betrayed by the loved one. This is almost a devastating blow to anyone.
Some people may really not be able to hold on, so they just give up on themselves and let their lives be shattered.
And Zhu Feng persevered.
It is precisely because he persisted that a deep scar will inevitably be left in his life, and even in his heart, and the scar is filled with the three words "Qin Ruolan".
What she brought him were memories of love and memories of hate.
After a long time, Nan Yan whispered, "So, what did the emperor go through in prison?"
“…”
Zhu Feng was silent for a moment, then said, "I don't remember."
“…”
"After all, I was released from prison."
"Emperor Gao, I still forgive you."
"Perhaps, it was simply because my reputation in the north was already very high, and the Emperor Gao was old, and the generals who had followed him through thick and thin were also old. He needed someone to guard the north and pacify the border for him."
Hearing these words, Nan Yan felt sad.
If he were the Zhu Feng of the past, he would definitely feel that he was still appreciated by Emperor Gao.
However, after being betrayed by Qin Ruolan, he no longer dared to believe that his father would appreciate him, but only thought that he was of use to him.
How much deep sorrow and painful self-denial can lead to this kind of temperament?
Nan Yan continued, "Then, King Wei..."
Zhu Feng's eyes turned cold again.
After a moment of silence, he said, "I was in prison for two whole months. When I was released, they told me that she was pregnant."
“…”
"So, I married her."
It turned out that Zhu Chengxuan came that night.
Nan Yan finally understood why Zhu Feng didn't like him.
This child has a kind and gentle temperament, unlike him, and prefers medicine rather than military strategy. These are not reasons for a father not to like his son.
The real reason is that this son was born that night.
That night was a humiliating one for Zhu Feng. It was a memory of being betrayed by the one he loved and of excruciating pain. And this son was born on that very night. It was really too cruel for him.
Every time he saw the child, he would think of everything he had experienced.
It is tantamount to tearing open one's own wounds, making them bloody.
Nan Yan felt like tears were about to burst out. She subconsciously turned her head away, and the tears slid down and dripped onto the ground with a plop.
Zhu Feng looked down at her.
He said in a hoarse voice, "Do you feel pity for me?"
Nan Yan wiped the corners of her eyes and turned to look at him.
She really felt sorry for him, but she couldn't say it out loud.
Zhu Feng has been going through all these years like this. He is stronger than anyone else. A strong man like him does not need anyone's pity.
Nan Yan said softly: "Your Majesty, I..."
Zhu Feng didn't seem to want to listen to her and interrupted her directly, saying, "I don't feel sorry for myself."
"yes……"
"I just feel that I am hateful."
"emperor……"
"Knowing that powerful enemies were everywhere, they still let their guard down and even easily trusted the prince's faction."
“…”
"I deserve it!"
He almost gritted his teeth when he said this.
Nan Yan felt her heart break. She stepped forward and said, "Your Majesty, please don't say that. In this world, there is no such thing as 'knowingly'. No one is God and cannot open the third eye. Even if you do open the third eye, you have no right to scold others, because not everyone has it."
“…”
"Judging from the perspective of hindsight is inherently unfair to yourself at the time!"
Zhu Feng looked down at her.
Nan Yan said seriously: "The emperor once used his true heart, there is nothing wrong with that."
“…”
"The one who is wrong is the one who deceived you."
Zhu Feng suddenly hugged her in his arms. Nan Yan felt his arms trembling for the first time. All along, it was his arms that gave her strength, but this time, he seemed to want to gain strength by hugging her.
He said in a deep voice: "Why didn't I meet you at that time?"
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