Chapter 3381 It would have been better if I had known it was you earlier
Nan Yan asked, "What's wrong?"
Zhu Feng muttered softly, "If only I had known it was you earlier, it would have been better."
In fact, he should have known it was hers.
The nightmare that had haunted him for more than ten years was like a poisonous snake. Even with Qin Ruolan by his side, and even with someone as close as Xu Miaoyin, he couldn't escape from that nightmare.
Only this little woman, who stayed by his side for the first time, dispelled all his nightmares.
Should have known this earlier.
Hearing him mumbling "early" over and over again, Nan Yan immediately understood and couldn't help but smile.
She knew Zhu Feng must have some regrets. If they had known each other earlier, perhaps they wouldn't have wasted so much time. But in fact, in her opinion, they really didn't waste any time, they just messed around.
But now, she has become his concubine, with a son and a daughter. Even if she has wasted some time, what does it matter?
So she leaned into Zhu Feng's arms and said softly, "It's not too late to know now."
“…”
Even though Zhu Feng couldn't see her, he reached out and grabbed her face accurately. However, at this time, he didn't have much strength and only twisted it lightly.
“You…”
After saying that, he held her tightly in his arms.
The two of them just snuggled up to each other, and in such a quiet night, they could even hear each other's heartbeats clearly. Nan Yan was quiet for a while, and then another idea came to her mind. She pressed against Zhu Feng's chest and whispered, "Your Majesty, Your Majesty even remembered this, then-"
She didn't finish her words.
Because just as she said this, she heard Zhu Feng's heartbeat pause under her chest.
Nan Yan subconsciously propped herself up and clearly saw that Zhu Feng's expression suddenly darkened under the faint moonlight.
She immediately shut her mouth.
“…”
After a brief silence, Zhu Feng seemed to have sensed something. He spoke in a hoarse voice, "I only remember a little bit."
“…”
"I've forgotten everything else."
Nan Yan said: "Your Majesty..."
Zhu Feng glanced at her again, then said, "Okay, I'm a little hungry. Go to the kitchen and see if there's anything to eat. I—I want to drink some hot rice soup."
“…”
Normally, if he was hungry, he would just call someone over and give them instructions.
Now, let the imperial concubine go and see it in person.
Besides, this is Yumen Pass, where would we find a kitchen?
But Nan Yan didn't say much. She stood up obediently and reached out to tuck his quilt a little tighter. Then she said softly, "Then I'll go down and take a look. Your Majesty, please rest first."
After saying that, she walked out.
When opening the door, Nan Yan subconsciously looked back and saw Zhu Feng still lying on the bed with his hands stretched out and covering his eyes.
Nan Yan said nothing, walked out and closed the door.
She didn't actually go to the kitchen. She just called someone over and told them to prepare some hot rice soup. Then she wrapped her clothes tightly and paced in the open space outside the door.
The cold moonlight seemed to have condensed frost all over the ground.
She took one step at a time, feeling as if she were walking on thin ice. Some chills rose from the soles of her feet, and some chills seeped out from her heart.
Even if Zhu Feng didn't say a word, she had already guessed in her heart the truth buried by the sandstorm at Yumen Pass and the death of the old uncle. And Zhu Feng's attitude now only made her more certain of her guess.
Princess Tana did die at Yumen Pass that year.
But she did not die at the hands of the old uncle and Empress Xiaoci.
Instead, he died at the hands of Emperor Gao.
Because anyone who kills Princess Tana in front of Zhu Feng will only make the child hate, but will not drive him crazy. Only when a close relative draws a knife against someone will a child collapse and go crazy.
As for why Emperor Gao wanted to kill Princess Tana personally...
Nan Yan didn't want to think about it too much, but when she realized this, she already had the answer in her heart.
Perhaps, it is to leave the mother and keep the child.
A princess of the Kingdom of Dang
Or perhaps, Emperor Gao simply didn't want anyone to know that he had such an experience with the princess of the Dian Kingdom.
In fact, Emperor Gao had too many reasons to kill Princess Tana. Even if Princess Tana did not die at his hands, based on what she had done, she would eventually die at the hands of the people of Dian, that is, her own relatives.
This is probably the price.
The price of giving up everything for love.
She once risked her life for love and even betrayed her family and country. If she knew that this would be the result of giving up everything, would she still rush into such a dead end like a moth to a flame?
Thinking of this, Nan Yan couldn't help but smile bitterly.
Although she ordered the kitchen staff to prepare some hot rice soup and told them not to rush, as she wanted to give Zhu Feng more time to calm his pain, the people below had no idea about this. They just listened to the imperial concubine's orders and went to work busily. After a while, they brought up a bowl of steaming rice soup.
Nan Yan took it personally and was hesitating whether to bring it in when the door opened.
Zhu Feng, also wearing a thin coat, slowly walked out.
He was obviously tall, but at this moment, he looked so thin that his entire body seemed to be just a thin sheet. Nan Yan hurried over and held his arm with one hand, saying softly, "Why did the emperor come out? You should go back and lie down."
Zhu Feng shook his head: "I've been lying down for too long, and my body hurts."
“…”
"I want to come out and take a look."
Nan Yan had no choice but to help him sit on the small stone block under the eaves, and immediately went into the house to get a windbreaker and put it on him. Zhu Feng was sitting there, holding the bowl of steaming rice soup in his hands and drinking it mouthful by mouthful.
He usually spoke and acted in a bold manner, and even eating was like going to war. But for some reason, the way he drank the rice soup in small sips at this moment was completely different from before.
Like a lonely child.
There was also an inexplicable air of worldliness about him.
It was as if the whole person fell from the clouds to the human world.
He seemed to have finally gotten rid of something, but it also seemed like something had completely disappeared from his body.
Nan Yan walked over and gently placed the wind cloak on his shoulders. Zhu Feng looked up at her. Nan Yan said softly, "Your Majesty, please return to your room as soon as you finish drinking. It's cold outside. If you catch a cold again, the fever won't go away."
Zhu Feng smiled.
This smile also reveals an indescribable fragility.
He said, "Don't worry, I know what's going on."
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