Chapter 3142 Becoming a Monk
Thinking of this, Nan Yan couldn't help but roll her eyes.
But she had to save face, so she followed Zhu Feng to the door and watched him walk out. Xiao Shunzi followed him, then she knelt and saluted: "Farewell, Your Majesty."
After they walked away, Zhu Feng waved at them and said, "It's windy outside, so you two shouldn't come out. Stay here and talk."
After saying this, he walked away.
Nan Yan then stood up and turned around to see Xu Miaoming standing behind her, looking thoughtful. When she looked up at her, she immediately lowered her head: "Your Majesty, do you have any other instructions?"
Nan Yan smiled and said, "Please sit down. Now that the emperor has left, we two shouldn't be more reserved."
"Thank you, Madam."
After saying that, Xu Miaoming walked back to where he had just been and sat down.
Although she was not very reserved, she had nothing to say. Nan Yan also understood that if she had always had that kind of thoughts, she really would have nothing to say to herself. Zhu Feng deliberately asked her to stay when he left, definitely to annoy her.
Thinking of this, she couldn't help but roll her eyes in her heart.
He deliberately asked, "Second Master Jian, have you been here with the Taoist priest all these years?"
Xu Miaoming probably knew she would ask about Jian Ruocheng, so he was not surprised and said respectfully, "Yes. After the incident with the Jian family, he wandered around for a while and finally followed Zhu Chengjin to Xingluo Lake. I knew he came from a scholarly family and didn't want to be associated with those people, so I told my eldest brother—oh no, I told them—to let him stay at my house."
Nan Yan smiled and said, "It's good that you protect him."
Xu Miaoming said, "Your Majesty, that's too much. I only did what I could. All other major matters were decided by him."
Nan Yan smiled deliberately and said, "Among you two, is he the one who makes the decision?"
“…”
Hearing this, Xu Miaoming was stunned for a moment.
After all, she had been a nun since she was young, so she didn't understand many worldly terms. However, she was also a perceptive person. After thinking about it, she understood what Nan Yan meant. She immediately stood up and said, "Your Majesty, I cannot bear the consequences of your words."
Seeing her like this, Nan Yan was a little surprised.
From the scrutinizing look she gave him when they first met at Empress Renxiao's funeral, to when Ruoshui later told her that Xu Miaoming once chanted the poem "Horizontal silk, vertical silk" in front of a handkerchief, to how the two of them have been getting along over the years, Nanyan was almost certain that Xu Miaoming had feelings for Jian Ruocheng.
If that’s the case, why does she act like someone’s been stepped on after I said that?
Shouldn't we just go with the flow?
Her behavior made Nan Yan feel a little embarrassed, as if she felt that both parties were willing, but was embarrassed to be kicked out when she went to propose marriage.
She said, "There are only you and me here. What can we say?"
“…”
"I have served the Emperor in the palace for many years and have received much care from Empress Renxiao. Although she is gone now, my affection for her remains. If you have any problems, you may as well treat me as your sister. If you need me to make a decision for you, I will do my best to help you."
“…”
Xu Miaoming fell silent for a moment, and his slightly cold eyes looked at Nan Yan again.
After a while, she smiled faintly.
"Thank you, Your Majesty."
"and you--"
"Your Majesty, I understand what you mean. I won't hide it from you. In the past, I did have some feelings towards Mr. Jian."
Nan Yan smiled and said, "That's perfect. If you don't feel comfortable raising the issue, I can ask the Emperor to raise it for you. I think he would be happy to do so."
Xu Miaoming shook his head: "I am talking about the past."
"In the past? Then what are you doing now——"
"People always change. I have become a monk and have practiced for so many years, and I haven't gained nothing. I have long been indifferent to these things."
"But you and Jian Ruocheng, you guys, over the years—"
Xu Miaoming said calmly: "I helped him, just to help him. Now, I also want to be with him, but not the kind of being together between a man and a woman. I want to convert him to become a monk."
"What?"
This time, Nan Yan opened her eyes wide in surprise: "You want him to become a monk?"
Xu Miaoming nodded and said, "Given his experience and his current temperament, it's not a good idea for him to stay in this bustling world. One day of seeing the fireworks of the world will only make him think more about what he has lost. It's better to let him have some peace and quiet, including the officialdom. I think he is not suitable to return to the court to serve."
Hearing her say this, Nan Yan couldn't help but nodded.
Xu Miaoming was indeed thoughtful. Jian Ruocheng had experienced all these changes, and although he had avenged his great hatred now, it was impossible for him to let it go given his character. After all, he had lost an entire warm family, and this kind of injury could not be compensated even if he cut his enemy into pieces. Returning to the court to serve was indeed not a good destination for him. Nan Yan understood the affairs of the officialdom very well. Jian Ruocheng was, after all, a scholar, and it would undoubtedly be too much torture for him to go back to the officialdom.
Thinking about it this way, maybe becoming a monk is really a good choice.
However, this also depends on his own choice.
Nan Yan asked, "Is he willing?"
Xu Miaoming said, "I mentioned it to him before. He didn't seem to object, but said he had to prioritize the bigger picture. Now that the bigger picture is over, I'll bring it up again. If he's willing, I'd like to become his fellow cultivator. That way, I'll fulfill my wish."
Nan Yan nodded.
Although she cannot make decisions for Jian Ruocheng's life, and the choice should of course be made by him, but as an outsider, or someone who cares about him, perhaps becoming a fellow practitioner with Xu Miaoming may not be a bad thing.
She thought for a while and said, "Then, do you need me to do anything for you?"
“…”
Xu Miaoming did not answer immediately, but raised his head and looked at her with a complicated look.
It can be seen that she has something to say.
Nan Yan said, "Just say it."
Xu Miaoming was silent for a moment, then said, "I'll be frank. As for him, it's fine if your Majesty doesn't do anything."
“…”
"If your Majesty is determined to devote herself to him, then—you only need to take good care of yourself and live a peaceful and smooth life. That will be enough."
“…”
"He won't be distracted by the Empress anymore."
These words sounded gentle, but were a bit sharp when you thought about them carefully. However, they were full of truth. Nan Yan was speechless for a long time after hearing them.
After a long time, she smiled slightly.
He said to Xu Miaoming: "Although you are a monk, you are very knowledgeable about many things."
Xu Miaoming lowered his head and said, "I'm overstepping my bounds."
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