Chapter 858 I really like her
Nan Yan looked at him and said in a desolate voice: "There are many, many things that I haven't figured out. Just like -"
Zhu Feng asked, "What?"
Nan Yan said softly, "For example, why did she hurt the Emperor? Why did the Emperor hate her? If the Emperor really hated her, why didn't he kill her? Why did he keep him here, preventing them from recognizing each other for all these years?"
Zhu Feng asked, "Is this all the questions you want to ask me?"
Nan Yan looked at him quietly.
The two stared at each other like this for an unknown amount of time. In the quiet Chen Qian Palace, her almost ethereal voice rang out: "Actually, what I want to ask most is - does the emperor still love her? If the emperor still loves her, what about me?"
Zhu Feng slowly stood up from the bed and walked towards him step by step.
Instead of answering her, he looked down at her almost red eyes.
Not only were there several days and nights of sleeplessness, and the skin was covered with red bloodshot, but it also looked as if tears were about to well up, and it was slightly red from being burned.
Zhu Feng raised his hand and stroked her cheek.
Then he said, "You ask these questions, do you think that everything I told you in the past was a lie?"
"The Emperor would not lie."
Nan Yan said softly, "The Emperor will only, not tell the whole truth."
“…”
Zhu Feng frowned again.
Nan Yan looked into his eyes and said seriously, "Just like the relationship between Concubine Ning and King Wei, just like—just like your past with Concubine Ning. These things have always been on my mind, like a thorn, a knife, piercing my heart."
"Nan Yan..."
"Your Majesty, if you don't pull out this thorn, this knife, I don't know when the pain will become unbearable and I will die."
“…”
"Your Majesty, Your Majesty once said that I could be jealous, but in fact, from beginning to end, I am not jealous of anyone, I just -"
"Just what?"
"I just want the truth."
As she spoke, tears began to glisten in her eyes.
Seeing her like this, Zhu Feng was silent for a long time. Finally, he sighed and said, "Okay."
He looked back at the King of Wei who was lying on the bed with a high fever and unconscious, asked someone to come in and take care of him, and then took Nan Yan out of the room.
Outside Chengqian Palace, it still seemed very deserted.
Even though Zhu Chengxuan had returned, the place was still bustling. There was only the rising sun, faintly shining in the corners.
Zhu Feng walked forward and said, "You know, I was once a prince who was not favored by Emperor Gao."
"I know."
"But in fact, I am not only disliked by the Emperor Gao, but also disliked by my brothers."
“…”
Nan Yan was stunned for a moment.
Thinking back to Prince Ning and Prince Jing's attitude towards him, it was really unimaginable that they also disliked Zhu Feng.
However, when I think about it, the appearance of him that I have seen is that he has already won hundreds of battles and become the god of war King Yan in the north. He has even become the emperor of Yan after ascending the throne. But I really don’t know his past.
"Ever since I was old enough to understand, they almost never brought me along when we played together. Even if I did go, I felt like I wasn't accepted and was an outsider."
“…”
"For so many years, I have always been like this."
Nan Yan looked up at his back.
Zhu Feng is very tall and has broad shoulders. Every time I walk behind him and look up at him, I feel like I am looking up at a mountain.
But today, when I saw his back, I was shocked by his loneliness.
He has always been someone others rely on.
However, few people know that he also needs to rely on others sometimes, but he can't say it.
Nan Yan whispered, "Why don't they like you?"
“…”
Zhu Feng let out a deep breath, as if he was holding something back, and didn't say anything.
Nan Yan said: "Why don't you like you? There must be a reason, a right or wrong. You can't alienate the emperor for no reason and dislike you."
Zhu Feng did not answer.
He remained silent, took two steps forward, and then said, "But when Qin Ruolan appeared before me, it was different."
“……!”
Nan Yan's heart suddenly sank.
Finally, we are talking about Qin Ruolan.
It also talked about her "difference" and her "specialness".
Nan Yan's voice trembled slightly: "Why, different?"
"She was the daughter of the Crown Prince's Junior Tutor and the niece of Concubine Qin. Although Concubine Qin had long since passed away, because of this relationship, she often entered and exited the palace and played with us brothers."
“…”
"She didn't distance herself from me."
“…”
"From the day we met, she has always been very gentle to me. At that time, I was only seventeen or eighteen years old, and I was...very fascinated by her gentleness."
Nan Yan didn't say anything, but just clenched her fists tightly.
The nails were about to pierce the skin and dig into the palm.
The slight stinging sensation made her try hard to suppress herself. After a long time, she said softly, "Really?"
Zhu Feng continued, "Later, as we grew older, we began to develop romantic feelings."
He suddenly stopped and turned back to Nan Yan.
He said to her with a serious and unguarded look: "At that time, I did fall in love with her."
“…”
"I really like her."
“…”
Nan Yan was speechless.
Her palms ached, her heart ached, but she had nothing to say.
It should be said that in that situation, it is difficult not to fall in love with Qin Ruolan, such a beautiful girl, being together every day, and, moreover, she is the only person who is gentle to him in the cold imperial city.
Just imagine, even if it was me, if there was a person like him who appeared when I was suffering in the Si family, I would probably fall in love with him.
But, that's what I think.
When he spoke, his voice trembled slightly because of sobs: "I understand."
Zhu Feng looked at her deeply.
Nan Yan took a deep breath, but turned her head away, avoiding his gaze, and then said, "So, what happened next?"
“…”
"Why did she say again that she was sorry to the emperor and that she had hurt him?"
At this moment, Zhu Feng's eyes also trembled slightly.
As if some old wound had been torn open, he slowly turned around, continued walking forward, and then said, "Do you still remember what I told you about Ye Quan?"
"certainly."
Ye Quan is Ye Zheng's brother.
He was originally a person sent by the then crown prince to the Prince of Yan's Mansion in Beiping to monitor him, but because Zhu Feng saved Ye Zheng, he also regarded Zhu Feng as his benefactor and did not leak any information about him to Jinling.
And then, he died.
Zhu Feng said, "Before he died, he told me that he wasn't the one who leaked the information to Jinling. I knew then that I had spies around me."
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