Chapter 1538 I thought I met the right person
Nan Yan looked at her for a long time, then slowly said, "Then, what do you think I should choose?"
"I?"
Ran Xiaoyu was stunned for a moment.
Her eyes flickered as she hesitantly said, "Your Majesty has always been a very opinionated person. Why do you ask this servant?"
"Opinion?"
When Nan Yan heard these two words, she smiled bitterly.
She said: "Independent opinion is something that can only be developed when one has enough confidence in oneself."
“…”
"But now, I can't believe in myself."
“…”
"I thought I had chosen the right path, I thought I had met the right person, but now it seems that none of those were true."
“…”
"I don't even know how to take the next step."
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"I'm afraid if I take a wrong step, I'll be back to that time, that situation... I, I really don't want to..."
Hearing this, Ran Xiaoyu felt a sharp pain in her heart.
You know, even when she was still a palace maid or a female official in the Shangbao Palace, her life was as precarious as a mayfly and she was in danger of her death at any moment, Nan Yan had never been so hesitant and worried all day long. It can be seen that the love and sorrow that Zhu Feng gave her this time has hurt her heart.
Even now, the emperor's care and compensation for her cannot make her heal.
Ran Xiaoyu reached out and gently held Nan Yan's hands.
Her palms were not as broad as Zhu Feng's, and her palms were not as warm and scorching as Zhu Feng's, but such hands had accompanied Nan Yan through countless storms and even life-and-death moments. When Nan Yan held her hands, she felt a warmth in her heart.
She looked up at Ran Xiaoyu.
Ran Xiaoyu said: "My Lady..."
“…”
"Your Majesty, don't worry. No matter what decision you make, I will be by your side, accompanying you and protecting you. Even if I can't prevent all disasters, I will—I will accompany you and bear everything!"
“……!”
Hearing her say this, Nan Yan's eyes turned red.
She slowly leaned over, put her face on Ran Xiaoyu's shoulder, and choked up, "Xiaoyu..."
The two of them hugged each other like this.
After a long time, she finally calmed down her fluctuating emotions. Nan Yan slowly raised her head and smiled with red eyes, "Look at me now. I'm embarrassed to tell others that I'm a concubine."
"Don't say that, my lady."
“…”
"Everyone has the right to lick their wounds after being hurt, everyone has the right to protect themselves, and more importantly—"
Having said that, Ran Xiaoyu paused.
Nan Yan looked at her: "What?"
“…”
Ran Xiaoyu rarely showed hesitation on her face, her eyes flickering slightly. After a long while, she said, "I have the power to find out the truth."
Nan Yan took a deep breath: "Xiao Yu..."
Ran Xiaoyu said, "I can't make a decision for Your Majesty, but in my opinion, the reason Your Majesty didn't completely oppose the Emperor going to Yumen Pass is probably because she wants to clarify some things, right?"
“…”
Nan Yan glanced at her.
After a long time, he sighed deeply and said, "You are right."
“…”
"The reason why I'm so indecisive and hesitant is precisely because I also need to go there and figure some things out."
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"But with my status as a concubine alone, it's impossible."
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