Chapter 199 The Incense is Broken
Xiao Zhenwu, sitting aside, finally spoke. His voice was low and helpless, as if he was trying to smooth things over for his wife: "Your mother wants to ask, is your current condition...possible that it is a misdiagnosis?"
Guo Huaqin nodded immediately, her eyes instantly reddened, and she added anxiously, "Yes, a few days ago I took your father to see an old Chinese doctor. The old doctor took his pulse and looked up a prescription. He said your problem might not be as serious as you think. He also believes that your illness may not be a terminal illness, but just a result of yin deficiency and physical weakness. As long as you take proper care of yourself, there is still hope in the future..."
Xiao Zhiyu gently put down the cup in his hand, without much emotion on his face.
He was silent for a while before he slowly spoke: "A few days ago, I did take tonics like Xianlingpi, and I feel that aspect seems to have recovered a little."
Ruan Chuxia's heart moved when she heard this, and she couldn't help but look up at him, with surprise and some indescribable emotions in her eyes.
But Xiao Zhiyu quickly added, his tone firm, as if he didn't want to raise anyone's hopes too high: "But none of you understand what happened that day."
He paused, his eyes gradually darkening as he seemed lost in memory. "That accident not only injured me, but also destroyed my 'seed'. This means I will never be able to have children again in this lifetime... This is the result of my personal examination. I can't help but believe the doctor's words."
After these words were spoken, the air seemed to be held down by something, heavy and no one spoke.
After hearing all this, Guo Huaqin couldn't stop her tears from falling, but she didn't let her emotions get out of control. She just quickly raised her sleeves and wiped the corners of her eyes.
She gently held Ruan Chuxia's hand and said softly, "It's okay...it's okay. We already have Xiaojun, and he is our most caring grandson. No matter what others say, as long as we are a good family, that's enough."
"Mom, how about... you two have another child?"
Xiao Zhiyu's voice was very soft, as if he was afraid of disturbing something, but as soon as he said this, the atmosphere in the room seemed to suddenly freeze.
This ordinary-sounding sentence, when spoken by Xiao Zhiyu, was like dropping a heavy bomb on the calm lake.
Guo Huaqin had just picked up the cup when she heard her son say that. She froze and the cup almost fell out of her hand.
Her expression suddenly became extremely complicated. Originally, she was sad about her son's infertility, but now it turned into astonishment, confusion, and even a little embarrassment.
That look was as if someone had revealed a secret deep in her heart that she couldn't tell, and she was so shocked that she was speechless for a moment.
"What nonsense are you talking about, kid? Your father and mother are so old, how can they still have children?"
She spoke with forced calmness, but there was a barely perceptible tremor in her voice.
She didn't understand why her son suddenly talked about this. Did he notice something?
Thinking about the incident between her and her husband, which was casually mentioned by her own son, her face immediately turned red.
She lowered her head and adjusted the clothes at hand, as if trying to hide her embarrassment and shame.
Xiao Zhiyu didn't look at his mother. He still sat there with an expressionless face, staring at the ground with a somewhat empty gaze.
"I'm serious, I'm not kidding."
His voice was not loud, but extremely firm.
In fact, he had kept these words in his heart for a long time. Every time he saw his parents hesitant to speak, and saw the suppressed loss in their eyes, he felt very sad.
Because of my health problems, the family’s incense has been cut off.
He felt he owed it to his parents.
That's why he suggested that his parents have another child, even if the price was that he had to leave the family.
Xiao Zhenwu, who was standing aside, finally couldn't stand it anymore. His face instantly became extremely gloomy and his anger surged up.
"What did you say? Are you hoping your mother will die soon? Is that what you mean?"
He almost gritted his teeth when he said this, his voice filled with suppressed anger, but it couldn't hide the anger and heartache.
"You know nothing! Do you know how much suffering your mother went through to give birth to you?"
"If your grandfather hadn't sought help from many people and found the most famous obstetrician and gynecologist in the country, your mother would have been gone long ago!"
Xiao Zhiyu was shocked, his pupils suddenly constricted, and he looked at his father in shock.
This was the first time he had heard these words. No one had ever told him these things before. He only knew that his mother had always been in poor health, but no one had told him that it was because of him...
"Mom...I'm sorry, I...I didn't know, I shouldn't have..."
His voice was hoarse and his eyes began to turn red. The self-blame and guilt in his heart almost overwhelmed him.
His original intention was just to do something for his parents so that they wouldn't suffer from not being able to hold their grandchildren, but...
He didn't even know that his mother almost died because of him.
Guo Huaqin felt sad when she looked at her son. She knew that Xiao Zhiyu didn't mean it.
She sighed, reached out and gently stroked her son's shoulder, her tone much gentler: "Mom is not blaming you, Mom, having you two brothers in this life is enough for Mom."
As she spoke, her tone paused slightly, and a trace of pain flashed in her eyes: "It's just a pity for your brother..."
Her voice suddenly choked, tears welled up in the corners of her eyes, and she sobbed softly before gently wiping away her tears with a tissue.
"Forget it, let's not talk about the past... Fortunately, I still have Xiaojun now, and that's enough."
Xiao Zhenwu on the side nodded with a complicated expression. He did not blame his son anymore, but sat back on the sofa in silence.
Faced with his parents' tolerance and understanding, Xiao Zhiyu felt as if his heart was being cut by a knife, and his sense of guilt deepened.
He looked at his parents' graying hair, his throat choked up, and after a long time he whispered, "Dad, Mom, will you... blame me?"
When Guo Huaqin heard this, tears welled up in her eyes and she didn't know how to answer.
If she really had to blame someone, she blamed her son for losing the chance to be a father in order to save Ruan Chuxia, and she also blamed the disaster that should not have happened.
She gently wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, feeling empty inside: "If I really have to blame someone... I don't know who to blame..."
She shook her head, a barely perceptible sadness flashing across the corners of her eyes, and she said softly, "Mom doesn't blame anyone. Sometimes in life, you just have to accept your fate."
Although these words were spoken calmly, they seemed to carry a thousand-pound weight, hiding the grievances, helplessness and unspeakable frustration that a mother had buried deep in her heart.
The atmosphere in the room suddenly became heavy, as if there was an invisible barrier in the air, and even breathing became heavy.
At this time, Ruan Chuxia looked up at Xiao's father and mother. Her eyes were calm, but she couldn't hide the alienation in them.
"Zhiyu can actually have children, but only if we get divorced."
"What did you say?"
As soon as Ruan Chuxia finished speaking, Guo Huaqin suddenly raised her head and asked anxiously, her voice filled with shock and disbelief.
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