Chapter 33 Chapter 33 It turns out that the slowness of love is the most unsolvable...
Si Qi had a faint smile on his lips, as if he really didn't care, and then he turned around and asked about his experience.
It was as if a tiny spring had opened in Si Ruxu's heart, from which a tiny stream of water flowed, wrapping around her heart. She felt a slight discomfort, a dull one, barely conscious for a moment. She simply attributed it to the extreme mental strain of the past few days of the crackdown.
"I think dragging it out is the greatest cruelty to you. If there's no love, you shouldn't stop someone from meeting someone new." Si Ruxu's voice was gentle, but Si Qi felt like she was sinking into an ice cellar. She'd imagined countless answers, even thought Si Ruxu would make up a hardship to deceive her.
But Si Ruxu was too open. She didn't think the sudden, abrupt breakup was wrong. She had never considered how much she would have to work to get over the year she loved Si Ruxu the most, and then be able to appear before her openly.
Si Qi held back the tears in her eyes. She saw Si Ruxu's gaze lingering on the wounds all over her body for a while, and finally looked away nonchalantly. Her voice was muffled, but she managed to maintain her original tone.
"But Si Ruxu, do you understand what love is?" Si Qi had never said this to Si Ruxu, and she had originally planned not to say it in her life.
"It takes too much energy and time. There's nothing wrong with not loving someone anymore, but after that, you need to take the time to put an end to the relationship, rather than simply deleting the friend and deleting the chat history to clear everything up."
Anything can be formatted, and traces of another person in the room can be slowly cleared away, but memory and sincerity cannot be formatted.
Si Ruxu couldn't understand this. In her world, love and not love were clearly defined. She felt that she had never owed Si Qi anything when she loved him, so when she stopped loving him, it was natural for her to leave without any reason.
She looked into Si Qi's eyes, and a hint of confusion finally appeared in those indifferent expressions: "Are you angry about this?"
This sentence was like a basin of water that watered Si Qi's blood. She lowered her eyes gently, and a tear fell from her left eye into her collar and disappeared, like an illusion. Soon, she raised her head and put on a formatted smile.
"I'm not angry anymore."
She really wasn't angry anymore.
Si Ruxu no longer cared. Only she tossed and turned day and night, only she was trapped in the night, trapped in dreams, trapped in the moonlight that fell on her when she was young.
Time passed by little by little, and at the last moment, the space around them twisted, and the bodies of the former her and the former Si Ruxu who were lying on the ground dying became blurred and disappeared on the spot.
The things in front of Si Qi finally felt tangible. The wind rustled the fallen leaves on the ground. Si Qi heard deliberately light footsteps behind her. She turned around and the footsteps suddenly became unsteady and chaotic.
Meeting a pair of amber eyes, the peach blossom eyes were slightly upturned, and the corners of the eyes were slightly red, as if they had been crying for a long time. Si Qi pursed his lips and smiled lightly, not trying to read the complex emotions in those eyes.
"I thought you would go back to the research institute." She took out a wild fruit from her clothes, wiped it, and was about to put it in her mouth when Si Ruxu grabbed her arm.
The familiar fragrance enveloped her whole body, and Si Qi tilted her head in confusion.
"Do you want it?"
As soon as she finished speaking, a bottle of milk and a piece of bread were stuffed into her hands.
She was stunned for a moment, then smiled lightly and said politely and restrainedly, "Thank you."
The only sound in the air was the sound of Siqi chewing bread. She was indeed hungry. Eating fruits for several days in a row made her mouth feel astringent. At this time, the bread and milk almost saved her life.
There was no need for her to reject Si Ruxu. Apart from being lovers, they were now just strangers with a common goal.
Si Ruxu looked at her, her cheeks bulging with food. She remembered that Si Qi had always eaten like this since they met again.
After the end of the world, the situation of ordinary people became increasingly difficult, often going hungry, and groups like women, the elderly, and children were particularly bullied.
Si Qi must have been hungry for a long time. Because he knew how precious food was and was afraid of being snatched away, he stuffed his food mouthful by mouthful.
Si Ruxu didn't know how to bring up the topic with Si Qi. It was a sunny day, but she always felt like it was raining in her heart, with layers of dark clouds surrounding her, making it impossible to get through.
"How did you find this place?" Si Qi finished his meal, took a sip of milk and swallowed it before looking at Si Ruxu.
"I...followed the traces of your supernatural powers."
Si Qi pursed her lips. Si Ruxu had always been very sensitive to her superpowers. Perhaps it was because she had been injecting superpowers into Si Ruxu to replenish them. She saw that Si Ruxu's body meridians were filled with purple lightning superpowers, the same as Luo Fenghe's.
Is it true that a psychic whose power core is shattered will die, but one who has been exposed to special powers will not?
"I saw you in the first massacre, but I couldn't get in, so..." Si Ruxu sounded helpless for the first time, like a child who had done something wrong.
Si Qi felt a little puzzled. If he couldn't get in, he couldn't get in. Why should he explain to her?
"If you can see it, you can see it. What does it matter if you can get in or not?"
Cold and emotionless, not as gentle as in memory, nor as awkward as when they first met.
"If I go in, you won't have to get hurt so badly again." Si Ruxu was stunned for a moment before slowly speaking, "Can we still go together?"
Si Qi blinked, struggling to process Si Ruxu's words. He wanted to go in, but didn't want to see her get hurt? = She still had value, she couldn't die here.
"I won't die for a while, and the wound will heal on its own. You don't have to worry about me here because of a deal or what you want me to do."
Si Qi took off his coat, and the clothes underneath were stained with blood, sticking to his flesh and blood: "I will do the right thing."
"There are countless ways to save humanity. I admit that Si Luoheng's first step saved humanity from total extinction and saved human civilization, but I don't agree with her subsequent actions."
Si Qi clearly distinguished Si Ruxu from Si Luoheng, and it was highly likely that Si Luoheng and Si Ruxu parted ways because of their different ideas.
"The world doesn't just belong to humans; it belongs to all living things. She studies zombies and mutant plants, calling them failed creations. If the Creator is cruel and created zombies to attack humans, then what's the difference between Si Luoheng creating these to attack other creatures and the Creator?"
"I know!" Si Ruxu said hurriedly, not wanting Si Qi to misunderstand her. "I knew Luo Heng's idea a long time ago. We had a big fight at that time, and I left the institute to find another way out."
Si Qi heard this and laughed softly: "I know."
Those three gentle words soothed Si Ruxu's anxious and confused mood a little. She looked at Si Qi, her words tinged with uncertainty and uneasiness: "Then can we still... go together?"
"Why do you want to go with me?" Si Qi still didn't understand Si Ruxu's thoughts. The two of them should have obviously separated. Even though Si Ruxu saved her, she was in trouble because of Si Ruxu.
"You provided me with resources to upgrade my powers, allowing me to survive, but I also protected you during the massacre. You can use them as you wish. You saved me when the black hole was about to swallow me, but it was because of you that I was put in danger, and you also allowed your powers to be free from the limitations of the power core."
Si Qi counted every word carefully without saying a word, and Si Ruxu's face turned even paler.
"So, Si Ruxu, we're even now. You don't have to follow me, and I won't look for you again. From now on, we'll go our separate ways, and live happily ever after."
When she said this, Si Qi felt relieved. She realized that when someone no longer loves someone and parted with them, they wouldn't even give them extra emotions.
It is the relief of getting rid of burdens, the freedom of being alone from now on, and not having to accommodate others.
"Si Qi!" Si Ruxu's face was pale, and she clutched the corner of Si Qi's clothes tightly. The great panic made her lips tremble slightly. She drooped her eyelashes, and tears fell at this moment, warm in the palm of Si Qi's hand.
"Don't let us even... You can use me, okay? I can do anything." Si Ruxu lowered her head for the first time. She was incoherent. The feeling of impending loss was about to drive her crazy, and she was willing to throw away her self-esteem.
"I'm sorry, I was wrong before. Can you give me another chance?"
Si Qi still didn't understand. She was confused about Si Ruxu's emotional structure. She asked tentatively: "Do you like me?"
As soon as she finished speaking, she shook her head secretly. Si Ruxu liked her, which was more unreliable than a sow climbing a tree.
"I love you." Si Ruxu spoke softly, firmly and solemnly, and for a moment it struck Si Qi's heart, causing a hint of bitterness.
She hadn't heard Si Ruxu say this for a long time.
Her teenage years were filled with self-abasement, darkness, gray and bruises.
She was afraid to say love, she wrapped herself in indifference, airtight, isolating herself from the outside world's kindness and freezing herself in the body of a walking corpse.
Until Si Ruxu appeared, she told her that she liked her without any fear, and her tone was sometimes relaxed, sometimes tentative, sometimes uncomfortable, and sometimes expectant.
She remembered the day they were together. She was on her way home from her part-time job. It was raining heavily. She accepted an umbrella from a female colleague and walked home with her side by side.
After arriving home, I saw Si Ruxu, who was soaked in the corner. She was holding a raincoat and a closed umbrella in her hand. She was standing there wet, like an abandoned cat.
When she saw Si Qi, she stuffed a can of something warm into Si Qi's arms, turned around and walked into the rain again. Si Qi looked down and saw a bottle of hot milk.
She chased after him, took Si Ruxu's hand, and ran back. Si Ruxu didn't resist at all, but just followed her without saying a word.
"Why are you standing here? Are you cold?" Si Qi quickly helped her into the house, took off her coat, and found a dry towel to wipe the water droplets off Si Ruxu's hair.
Si Ruxu still didn't say anything, so Si Qi took down her raincoat and umbrella. Suddenly, he thought of something and looked at her with a bit of amusement: "You came to pick me up and saw me with someone else, but you didn't even open your umbrella and followed me all the way in anger?"
Si Ruxu didn't say anything, turned her head to the side and ignored Si Qi.
Si Qi gently moved closer to Si Ruxu, his warm breath hitting her cold lips, inexplicably feeling hot. Si Ruxu subconsciously shrank back.
Si Qi chuckled and was about to step back, but the next moment, someone hooked her neck and Si Ruxu tiptoed to kiss her, her lips tender and soft.
"Well, you guessed right." Si Ruxu looked at her without blinking, with a hint of mist in his eyes: "So, classmate Si Qi, what do you want to do with my love?"
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The author has something to say: They really loved each other in the early days.
You can substitute it into a redemption story, where the person who redeems the protagonist no longer loves him later [scatter flowers][scatter flowers][scatter flowers]
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