twenty one

It is impossible for him to stay in the confinement room for seven days. Even if Grapapa's physical condition can really hold up, the organization will not tolerate such a wasteful behavior.

Therefore, this time is also enough for Grappa to check his body, especially his brain, which can be simply understood as debugging the status of the weapon.

So some things can't be hidden, although Noel didn't intend to hide them.

"What's going on with this trace?!"

After the bandage was forcibly removed, the deep red mark on his body immediately attracted Murakami's attention. His originally gentle face twisted in an instant and he asked in a sharp voice.

"What on earth have you been doing all this time!"

He questioned, as if something of his had been damaged without his knowledge.

"Can't you do your own research?"

After saying this, Noel lay down on the operating table skillfully. Murakami adjusted his breathing to calm himself down before he began to fiddle with a bunch of complicated instruments and asked his assistant to fix Noel's body.

It seemed that he was frightened by the previous incident. Noel felt the tightness coming from his limbs and thought regretfully that the people in this laboratory knew their own physical conditions best, so they were extremely cautious in these aspects.

It seems that next time I can punch him again before he has time to react when he first arrives at the lab. Although the consequence of this is likely to make me face the fate of being used as experimental material, maybe the organization will consider directly scrapping him without the main person in charge...

There was a sudden sharp pain in Noel's head, which instantly brought him back to his senses. He didn't know when he could no longer see anything. There must be some instrument covering his eyes, and all his senses were stretched to the limit. Noel could clearly feel that there were three people surrounding him, and the one on his left was the annoying Murakami.

"Didn't you take your medicine yesterday?"

Noel heard Murakami ask that, and it was obvious that he knew the answer without having to answer the other party himself.

Noel felt his mouth being forced open, as if countless things were being stuffed into it, and then his mouth was closed and he swallowed them directly. The obvious nausea in his stomach made him feel a little uncomfortable.

Capsules? Is this your own medicine?

Some of it was squeezed directly in the mouth and turned into tiny particles. The familiar bitter taste was very familiar. It was obviously the medicine I took every night. And judging by the familiarity, this time there were at least ten pills.

Aren't you afraid that I might get poisoned by the drugs? Noel was still in the mood to think about this, but soon his consciousness began to blur and he felt crazy and sleepy.

This made Noel a little confused. After all, he had always been very sober in previous experiments. Could it be that this time he finally woke up to some humanitarianism and just let himself sleep and be done with it?

[Noel, Noel! ]

[Don't sleep, this is the effect of the medicine, it contains......]

Noel couldn't quite hear what Xiao Hei was saying, but it seemed like he was trying to keep him awake.

But unlike his strong physical constitution, his spirit was not as strong as Xiao Hei thought, Noel thought with amusement, and then let his consciousness drift under the influence of the drugs and was dragged deep into the sea.

When he woke up again, Noel saw the bleak ceiling and the nutrient solution hanging high above it. He felt a little dazed, as if he had returned to the days when he was thrown into the laboratory after he had just regained his memories and was thrown into the laboratory because of his defection. This was the scene he saw every day when he opened his eyes.

Humans seem to be able to get used to anything. At least during that period of time, from the initial pain to the final numbness, the process seemed to take only a moment.

At that time, I even thought that it was not bad like this. If I couldn't die, I could just become a doll. It would be nice not to have to think.

Why did it come out?

It seemed as if Shirley had let me out, and at that time, I recalled the memories of summer countless times in my mind, reviewing the broken fragments over and over again, until finally, I was so madly eager to see them that I forced myself to stand up.

As for the organization, he didn't hate it that much. After all, apart from conducting some messy experiments on his body, the organization didn't do anything like kill his father or make him his enemy. Instead, it was the place where he had food to eat when he was a child.

[This isn't hatred. 】

【Oh, it's you, Xiao Hei. 】

【I've been talking to you. What's wrong with you?】

During this period, Xiao Hei was exhausted and shouted frantically, but there was no response. Noel was like a toy that locked himself in a box, without any response to the outside world.

【I didn't hear...】

Noel responded in his head, but his voice sounded a little unfamiliar, as if he hadn't spoken to anyone for a long time.

[Medicine, there is something wrong with the medicine! ]

Xiao Hei immediately started talking about what he had not finished last time, but heard Noel asked doubtfully:

[Medicine, are you talking about the psychiatric drugs I take every day? ]

[Yes, he has the effect of suppressing your spirit. ]

[And it can influence you to a certain extent, that is, it is used for brainwashing! ]

[During the time you were unconscious, he had been implanting various hints in you...]

Xiao Hei quickly told the information and waited nervously for Noel's answer, but found that the other party sounded indifferent.

【Oh, I know that.】

[You know you're still eating? ]

Xiao Hei no longer wanted to think about how many dirty words he had said since he followed Noel. He just wanted to pry open this guy's brain and see what was inside.

[It doesn't really matter. To me, there is not much difference between being controlled by the comic book author and being controlled by drugs or organizations.]

Noel's tone was full of indifference. He was already used to being controlled, and he clearly understood that he would never be able to get rid of it. It was nothing. When he was a child, he joined the organization in order to survive, and he had already given up his freedom.

[Actually, there is nothing wrong with being manipulated. You don’t have to use your brain.]

Noel might have a working brain, but he didn't want to think at all. Thinking was painful for him, just like he could close his eyes but insisted on opening them to see the hell he was in.

[And if you don't eat, your brain will be very excited, and then after a while you will feel exhausted. ]

Noel had just discovered this, because when he first got the medicine, he often forgot to take it because he was not used to it. As a result, he suddenly had no strength at all during a mission. At that time, he just thought that there was something wrong with his physical condition. After all, he didn't know how many side effects he had at that time, so he didn't realize that it was the effect of the medicine.

Furthermore, this drug is likely to be addictive.

Noel soon figured out some things, but even so, he couldn't muster the mood to resist.

[In short, you have two choices now. Just give up and stay in the lab. You won't die anyway. And if they find out that you have the ability to repair even fatal injuries, you know what they will do to you.]

[Come on, cheer up now. When we get out, try to quit taking the drugs. Otherwise, if you continue to take them, you will completely become this guy's puppet. I guarantee you won't die. So if you want to die, at least be aware of it.]

【Don't be afraid. 】

Xiao Hei has already used provocation and even threatened death. Whether Noel gives up voluntarily or is controlled by drugs, it is not what he wants to see.

[Xiao Hei, you said Xia Tian, ​​you and I are really the same person. ]

Noel's voice suddenly asked after a period of silence.

[Of course, otherwise how do you get the memory in your head? ]

[Of course...? ]

Xiao Hei's tone clearly revealed his guilt. He didn't know what Noel heard, but he really couldn't deny it at this moment. Even if it was a false light, it was better than sinking completely into the abyss.

What about Noel? If he didn't have those memories, he would have grown up according to the education of the winery, and accepted all the messed up education on the three views. Not only would he not resist, but he would slowly enjoy it, enjoy killing, enjoy darkness. He had become a member of the code name when he was young, and would never defect to enter any laboratory because of suicide. He would live in the darkness and enjoy it, and finally die in that corner, or somewhere in prison. He would not repent, would not feel guilty, he simply did not know what was right, it had nothing to do with him, he would only complain that he was unlucky, and would not feel the slightest bit of guilt for his behavior of depriving lives.

But he had those memories, and thought he was Xia Tian, ​​and knew what was right, but when he reflected on it, he found that his hands were bloody.

In fact, it doesn't matter. He can continue to endure it. If he were Xia Tian, ​​he certainly wouldn't let down his father and mother's teachings. Since he has done all these things, he should naturally face death in the end. This is a punishment for himself.

But if it wasn’t summer...all the struggles and resistance seemed like a joke, like a rat that should have huddled in the sewer thinking it was a cat. Is that a ridiculous comedy?

[Just pretend that I am Xia Tian, ​​otherwise I will die of laughter. 】

Noel said so.

[Xiao Hei, I kind of want to eat the food Xiao Guang made. ]

[Hold on, let's go out to eat. ]

[Forget it, I don’t want to see him for the time being.]

Noel originally wanted to meet Hikaru one day with great pride after completing the Bourbon mission, let him know what he had paid for, and then watch him guiltily cook a table of food for him while he praised him excitedly... But now he has failed. He is still Grappa, the real wine of the winery, and Rei Furuya is still Bourbon. He doesn't know that his childhood sweetheart is still alive and wants to kill Grappa.

It's so embarrassing. There's no way I'm going to see him.

[You have to stand up for me. It's too painful to fall down here. Think about what else you want to do?! ]

【What I want to do...】

【Didn’t you say before that you wanted to draw comics? 】

[After hanging up the nutritional liquid for so many days, don’t you want to go out for a barbecue? 】

[You haven't even seen what Conan looks like! ]

【Well, that’s a good reason. 】

A week later, Noel left the lab.