Chapter 55 I Don't Want to Live Anymore 1/15.23.30
Kwon Ji-yong spends more time in Japan, meeting up with his friends there.
Because they had mutual friends, Shuiyuan Xizi often visited, which led to gossip media reporting rumors about them.
At first, it was just a minor incident, and fans didn't believe it, thinking it was just media overreaction.
Later, a media outlet published a report titled "Exclusive Photos! GD and Suwon West Lake Banquet: Intimate Interactions Reveal Relationship!"
The article's content was largely similar to other gossip media, listing Kwon Ji-yong and Suwon Seo-ko's matching couple accessories, their multiple appearances at the same events, and their numerous private dates, etc.
If that were all, it would just be an ordinary report that relies on a series of nonsensical claims to grab attention. However, in one of the series of photos it released, Suwon Seiko and Kwon Ji-yong were arm in arm, their heads gently leaning together, their behavior very intimate.
The release of this intimate photo has significantly increased the credibility of the previous speculations.
At this time, major Japanese media outlets also began reporting on Kwon Ji-yong and Mizuhara Seiko's relationship.
There were clues all along! GD had multiple clandestine meetings at nightclubs in Shuiyuan Xizi!
G-Dragon and Suwon's relationship is shrouded in mystery; they're seen wearing matching outfits and showing off their affection!
Fashion Style of G-Dragon's Girlfriend, Popular Model Mizuhara Nishiko!
G-Dragon's relationship with popular model Mizuhara Nishiko exposed; their shared love of fashion is the bond!
G-Dragon's relationship exposed; a perfect match, fans heartbroken!
Shocking! G-Dragon and Suwon's relationship exposed, their sweet interactions are captivating!
G-Dragon and Mizuhara Nishiko's relationship was unexpectedly exposed; how far can they go?
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VIP was initially calm, after all, there had been previous reports of a rumor with Mizuhara Nishiko, but it had been clarified that they were just friends, so he ignored the rumors. However, after seeing the intimate photos of them cuddling, VIP began to have some doubts.
Although they knew that their oppa wasn't sensitive to boundaries when it came to physical contact, and that it might be just the angle, they couldn't help but overthink it. He hadn't known Mizuhara Nishiko for very long, so why were they so close? And their arms were definitely linked.
Major media outlets then jumped in to report on it, and the more people read, the more convinced most fans became that it was true.
At this time, the media had a great deal of influence over public opinion. The public relied on major media outlets to obtain information, and often what the media said was the truth.
Just like Anjou Feng and Quan Zhilong, the media only reported that they were friends. Even though the two often went out together and had frequent contact, VIPs only regarded them as friends. Even if someone had doubts, it wouldn't cause a stir, and no one would believe it.
Numerous media outlets fueled the rumors surrounding Kwon Ji-yong and Suwon Seiko, leading many onlookers and fans to believe them to a large extent.
Because of Suwon Seo-ja's scandals, and the fact that she's just Kwon Ji-yong's friend, VIPs already disliked her. Now that she might be his girlfriend, their reaction is very strong.
"Oppa is in love! My heart shattered into pieces! How could this happen? No, I can't accept this, I'm unfollowing him!"
"This must be fake! It's definitely fake news!"
"How can Oppa be in a relationship? He's meant to belong to us fans forever!"
"It's like the sky has fallen... I firmly oppose this so-called relationship; it must be this woman deliberately creating hype!"
"What's so great about her? She's got a lot of scandals! She's probably just trying to use Oppa's fame to climb the ladder!"
"She's not good enough for Oppa at all. Oppa is so outstanding, she must have some ulterior motive to hook up with him. How can Oppa not see that!"
"I really don't see what makes her worthy of Oppa."
"What do you mean by a perfect match!"
"The media is actually praising her! Haven't they seen any negative stories about her?!"
"As a model, her performance isn't that great either; there are plenty of models who are much better than her!"
"They don't really resemble the model, except for their distinctive faces!"
"Her face does meet the standards of a model, and it is recognizable, but not very recognizable!"
"She has no outstanding works and hasn't shown any special highlights. She doesn't seem like a good match for oppa at all."
Fans are very resistant to Shuiyuan Xizi, and are dissatisfied with her character, conduct, appearance and professional performance.
Fans were busy criticizing Shuiyuan Xizi, demanding a statement from YG Entertainment, and arguing with casual observers.
The reason why he argued with passersby was because some media outlets were trying to muddy the waters and play dirty tricks, wanting to gain both current and future traffic.
These media outlets know about real couples. So, they came up with a good idea.
The report only used one photo, a picture taken in front of the graffiti wall of Kwon Ji-yong and Suwon Siji, which was taken at a private dinner party of LV. Anjou Feng was also in the photo.
The article does not mention the names of Kwon Ji-yong and Suwon Seiko, but only uses "the two" or "she" or "the woman" instead.
The entire article is based on "according to so-and-so's revelations"... "according to what the reporter saw"...
For example, according to a certain source, the two were riding bicycles together, with GD carrying the woman. However, the bicycle wobbled along the way, looking like it was about to fall over at any moment, so in the end the woman took over carrying GD.
For example, as the reporter saw, GD was teaching a woman how to skateboard, intending to show off his skills and look cool in front of her, but unexpectedly a cat suddenly darted out, and GD almost fell.
At first glance, it looks like a single, fabricated image. In reality, the seemingly sweet details are actually real interactions between Kwon Ji-yong and An Joo-fung, as seen by the media when they were following Kwon Ji-yong.
In the photo in this article, there are three people. Kwon Ji-yong is leaning towards Shui Yuan Xizi, and Shui Yuan Xizi is also looking at him, but Kwon Ji-yong is standing closer to An Rufeng.
When fans saw the photos, they recognized An Rufeng and knew she was Kwon Ji-yong's friend. They noticed her in the photos but overlooked her, focusing instead on the deep gaze between Kwon Ji-yong and Shuiyuan Xizi. That was the main point.
The average person wouldn't know who's famous and would recognize them. Most of them only know Kwon Ji-yong. In the photos of this article, there are two women. They immediately spotted An Ru Feng, who is tall, has long legs, and is beautiful and radiant, and assumed that she was Shui Yuan Xi Zi.
Seeing that fans were criticizing "Shuiyuan Xizi" as worthless, and knowing nothing about her character or conduct, they couldn't see that she was unworthy in terms of appearance, figure, and temperament, so they couldn't help but speak up.
"What's wrong with Shuiyuan Xizi's face?! You fans shouldn't be so picky!"
"In this photo, Shuiyuan Xizi looks like a supermodel just by standing there! She looks like a model everywhere!"
"She herself exudes the aura of top-tier luxury! With that kind of presence, wouldn't the products she endorses and the overall image of those products be elevated?"
"Every shot is a masterpiece! Where is the expression lacking? Your expectations are too high!"
When the fans saw this, they were furious that someone was actually praising it and setting such high standards.
"This doesn't look like a supermodel at all! Are you blind?"
"This is considered good-looking?! Where's your aesthetic sense?! Where's your taste?!"
"What kind of temperament is that? It's just blind and delusional!"
"Your standards for blockbusters are way too low!"
The two sides argued for several rounds until the unsuspecting passersby realized they had mistaken the person for someone else and were just following the wrong story.
"You're telling me the guy in black on the left is an ordinary person?!"
"If it's the person she's rumored to be dating on the right, then the requirements are indeed a bit too high."
"What! The one on the right is the rumored girlfriend?! Uh, I saw the person on the left at a glance and naturally assumed she was Mizuhara Nishiko, I didn't even notice the person on the right! Sorry, I mistook her for someone else!"
"If GD is dating this non-celebrity, fans don't need to be so resistant. She's really beautiful, isn't she? She's not in the entertainment industry, so you don't need to worry about her using this relationship to climb the ladder."
"Compared to the water source, Miss An is quite good, but the fact is, it's not her!"
"Miss An is not allowed either! Oppa, you're not allowed to date!"
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The onlookers backed down, and the fans naturally stopped pressing the issue, eventually ending the flame war.
Kwon Ji-yong, seeing the rumors about himself and Suwon Seo-ko, didn't want to be associated with other women and asked his company to clarify the situation.
President Yang agreed, but didn't intend to clarify quickly. Anyway, it wasn't true. The media was handled by Shuiyuan Xizi, and they had a topic without spending a penny. They just happened to release a single to increase the hype.
When Kwon Ji-yong saw that his company was slow to issue a statement, he initially wanted to clarify things himself, but he quickly changed his mind.
The "cuddling photos" released by the media looked quite intimate. Kwon Ji-yong was afraid that An Ru-feng would misunderstand after seeing the photos. Although he knew what was going on, he was afraid that An Ru-feng would not believe him.
He immediately thought of an explanation, anxiously waiting to explain to her, but An Rufeng didn't even mention the scandal.
He breathed a sigh of relief, thinking she hadn't seen it yet. With more time, he could explain better. But she never mentioned the scandal, so he had other ideas.
She doesn't care about rumors? But she doesn't mind those intimate photos either?
Didn't she see the rumors? But the rumors are getting so much attention.
However, whether you don't see it or see it but don't mention it, it's a sign of not caring.
When she's free, she talks to her friends more than he does. He's busy with work and can't pay attention to her, so he doesn't say anything when she doesn't contact him.
But her boyfriend had a scandal, and she didn't ask him about it, which made Kwon Ji-yong feel that An Joo-bong didn't care about him.
In particular, Kwon Ji-yong deliberately reduced the frequency of his contact with An Ru-feng, but she didn't notice and continued to have happy gatherings with her friends, seemingly unaffected. This made Kwon Ji-yong feel even more that An Ru-feng didn't care about him.
The neon lights of the nightclub moved about like ghosts, and the music, like a raging beast, made the air tremble.
After finishing his phone call with An Rufeng in a quiet place, Kwon Ji-yong returned to the booth and sat alone in the corner.
Several bottles of beer lay scattered on the table in front of me, their foam struggling and breaking weakly at the rim of the glass.
The pungent smell of alcohol, mixed with perfume and cigarette smoke, filled the small space.
The colorful lights shimmered on Kwon Ji-yong's face, his eyes were somewhat unfocused, his gaze wandering among the swaying crowd, yet he seemed to see nothing at all.
Taeyang glanced at Kwon Ji-yong and sensed something was wrong. He felt that Kwon Ji-yong had hung up the phone with Ru Feng rather quickly, only a few minutes had passed.
In the past, a phone call with Ru Feng would have lasted a long time.
Moreover, no matter how busy he is, Zhilong will always call Rufeng to keep in touch. Now, even when he's not that busy, he doesn't contact her.
My mood is visibly bad. Could it be that I'm tired of it, and the freshness has worn off? That can't be right.
Thinking of his recent scandals, Taiyang sat down next to him: "Did you and Rufeng have a fight? Because of the scandals?"
The maknae, who had just returned from the dance floor, echoed Taeyang's words, "Yeah, hyung, did you and your wife have a fight?"
Since he started dating his sister-in-law, Brother Zhilong still goes out to parties, but not as frequently. It's not so easy to invite him to a party anymore, but lately he's been accepting party invitations a bit too quickly.
Kwon Ji-yong didn't say anything, took a sip of wine with his head covered, feeling extremely annoyed.
They didn't even react, let alone argue.
“The photos in the scandal do look intimate, so it’s normal for Ru Feng to be angry. Ru Feng doesn’t seem like an unreasonable person. Just talk to her and explain things properly. Don’t argue or let things get tense,” Tai Yang suggested, patting Quan Zhilong on the shoulder, knowing that he wasn’t good at handling practical issues in relationships.
The youngest member also said, "I will tell my sister-in-law that she will make sure you drink less when you go out in the future, so that you don't get drunk and get taken advantage of."
Kwon Ji-yong didn't want to talk much with Tae-yang and the others, so he nodded, which meant he accepted their suggestion.
Everyone around her thought that rumors were something to be taken seriously, and that she should be angry about them, but what did she do? She didn't even ask about them, let alone get angry.
Kwon Ji-yong took out his phone, swiping the screen repeatedly, and opened her social media. The latest post was a sharing of him drinking with friends.
Looking at An Joo-feng's smiling face in the photo, Kwon Ji-yong felt as if his heart was being gripped tightly by an invisible hand, causing him great pain.
Doesn't she feel anything when they contact each other less often?
An Rufeng didn't feel anything at first, after all, Quan Zhilong was busy with work and it was normal for him not to contact her sometimes.
But over time, you start to feel it.
Then, during another chat, when Kwon Ji-yong was about to hang up the phone in a hurry, An Ru-feng couldn't help but frown.
She stopped him, saying, "Wait a minute, are you free right now? I need to talk to you about something."
Kwon Ji-yong paused for a moment upon hearing this, then asked uncertainly, "Now?"
"Yes, I want to talk to you now. Do you have time?" An Rufeng asked calmly.
Kwon Ji-yong was in a break from his schedule and did have some time. After hesitating for a moment, he still gave out the filming location.
Anru Feng arrived shortly afterward.
In the private dressing room prepared for them by the production team, An Rufeng's eyes were immediately fixed on Kwon Ji-yong as soon as she stepped into the dressing room.
Kwon Ji-yong was wearing a stylish performance outfit with his collar slightly open and his hair a little messy, but he still looked very handsome.
Anjou smelled a faint scent of smoke mixed with a light fragrance in the air.
When Taiyang and the others saw An Rufeng, they understood immediately and made excuses to leave.
In the blink of an eye, the once lively lounge fell silent, leaving only the two of them.
Kwon Ji-yong tried to avoid An Ru-feng's gaze, but he didn't. Instead, he smiled at An Ru-feng and spoke first, his voice tinged with a hint of probing: "You... what brings you here so suddenly?"
“It’s nothing,” An Rufeng sat down next to Quan Zhilong, thought for a moment, looked at Quan Zhilong, and said slowly, “Well, I feel that we have less contact lately. Recently, I feel neglected in our relationship, and I feel a little sad and lost.”
"No!" Quan Zhilong was stunned and surprised when he heard An Rufeng recount her feelings.
Kwon Ji-yong was about to say something when An Ru-feng paused and then spoke again, "I feel like you've been actively reducing our contact. I hesitated to say this because I was worried you might think I was overthinking things."
Kwon Ji-yong looked flustered upon hearing this.
There really are people actively reducing their spending? An Rufeng looked at his expression, surprised that her intuition was correct.
Weren't they doing fine? Why did they suddenly do this...?
An Rufeng couldn't understand, and finally asked, "You don't want to be with me anymore?"
Anru Feng wasn't questioning; she was simply confused and puzzled.
She couldn't think of any other reason why Kwon Ji-yong would do this.
No! Quan Zhilong was stunned, his heart pounding in his chest, utterly terrified!
"How is that possible!"
He was just having a minor emotional outburst! How did it become such a big deal?!
Kwon Ji-yong was caught off guard by An Ru-feng's words. He hesitated for a moment, organized his thoughts, and then revealed his true feelings: "I did this not because I wanted to break up. I was just expressing my dissatisfaction in a small way!"
I was afraid you'd misunderstand because of the rumors about me and I had already planned how to explain it to you, but you didn't mention it at all. You don't seem to care at all about the rumors about me and other people.
I feel like you don't care about me, and I also feel ignored and unimportant in our relationship. I'm feeling anxious and uneasy.
In that case, Kwon Ji-yong, who will experience more and achieve greater success in the future, certainly wouldn't say that.
Even now, it is a rare find.
Although he often acts coquettishly and has a sweet tongue, he usually makes requests. He rarely speaks frankly and openly about his feelings.
Kwon Ji-yong appears humble, but he is a typical Leo man with a strong sense of self-esteem. He would not show weakness or appear inferior, especially in front of his sweetheart.
But Anru Feng opened up to him without reservation, sincerely expressed her thoughts, showed him her vulnerability, trusted him, and was not afraid that he would hurt her.
In addition, although An Rufeng has a rather romantic personality, and may even seem a bit immature to those who don't know her, she is indeed older and more mature than Quan Zhilong. At this time, Quan Zhilong is flamboyant and unrestrained, but he also has the naivety of a young man. His personality is mostly cheerful, cute and lively, and he has less psychological burden. With the right timing, location and people, the words came out naturally.
"So you deliberately ignored me because you felt I was ignoring you?"
Kwon Ji-yong hesitated for a moment before nodding.
An Rufeng didn't think much of the rumors, but Quan Zhilong's heart was stirred up by them.
An Rufeng said, "I didn't mention the rumors because I trust you. I don't think you would betray me, and I don't think you're the kind of person who would cheat on me."
So when I saw the media reports, my first thought was that they were just making things up, and I didn't take it seriously at all.
Kwon Ji-yong was pleased with her trust and affirmation, but he still had doubts, so he told her everything today: "But we look so close together in the photos, aren't you uncomfortable?"
You never care about me, and you never ask me to keep my distance from the opposite sex.
I should keep my distance from the opposite sex, but you don't seem to care. I often feel like I don't mean much to you, and that worries me.
Anru Feng didn't expect him to be so insecure in this relationship. She said, "Aren't you used to skinship? That's your habit, and I respect your habit."
Even though I do feel a little uncomfortable, based on trust and respect, I won't ask you to change anything for me.
I love you, but you are free. You don't need to cater to me. If you like going to nightclubs, go to nightclubs; if you like drinking, go to parties with friends who also like drinking.
Intimate skinship is how you show closeness to your friends; it's how you live comfortably and is part of your self-expression.
These are the parts that make you up, and I don't want them to wither because of me.
An Rufeng hugged Quan Zhilong and said slowly and softly, "To be honest, I'm really happy that you realize you need to keep your distance from the opposite sex and want to change your habits for me. I can truly feel that you love me."
Partners are a couple, and feelings between people are mutual. It was my oversight that made you feel like you didn't feel your girlfriend's care and concern. Thank you for forgiving my neglect before.
I'm sure I care about you. Everyone expresses and feels love differently, and there must be a way in this world for two people to feel loved. I can feel your love, and I think I need to find a way for you to feel my love too.
"I felt it." Kwon Ji-yong hugged An Joo-bong tightly.
"Um?"
"I can feel your love for me. That's good."
After a while, Kwon Ji-yong said again, "Don't you think I'm being too sensitive?"
"It's okay to be sensitive. That's part of your personality, and there's nothing wrong with it."
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