Chapter 118 Let's have a child!
Seeing that Quan Zhilong was spacing out, An Rufeng didn't disturb her and continued with her own work.
After an unknown amount of time, Kwon Ji-yong slightly raised his eyes and looked at An Yeo-feng, who was quietly doing her work not far away. A sense of peace washed over him.
A ringtone sounded; it was Kwon Ji-yong's phone.
An Rufeng stood up, walked to the sofa, picked up Quan Zhilong's phone that he had casually tossed in the corner, and glanced at it.
It's the president.
Anru Feng turned on the speakerphone and answered the call directly.
"Yeboseyo?"
There were two particularly painful situations when she and Kwon Ji-yong switched bodies.
One is the emptiness and loss that comes from suddenly being pulled away from the joy of a concert and the celebration of thousands of people.
One reason is prolonged high-intensity work, which keeps the mind constantly under high tension, leading to psychological exhaustion, a "mental and physical shutdown," low material desires, low sensitivity, low curiosity, and a reluctance to communicate with anyone.
However, even when one is unusually sensitive to the slightest stimuli and daily conversations become a burden, there are still things to do, and one still has to force oneself to concentrate on work.
Kwon Ji-yong is now with the latter.
The president's phone calls were either bad news or just empty talk, so An Rufeng simply handled them for Quan Zhilong.
An Ru Feng sat next to Quan Zhilong.
"Yes, President, this is Ji-ryong."
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"Okay, I understand."
Kwon Ji-yong, who was leaning against the sofa, lay down on his side on An Joo-pung's lap, wrapped his arms around her waist, and closed his eyes.
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"Yes, President, I'll get it done as soon as possible."
After hanging up with the president, An Rufeng answered several calls from staff members on behalf of Quan Zhilong.
Because An Rufeng and Quan Zhilong often swapped bodies before, the team members were used to asking An Rufeng for help when they couldn't find Quan Zhilong to make decisions. They've already gotten used to it, and An Rufeng is now just answering a few calls from staff members, which isn't a problem.
Kwon Ji-yong's solo album was completed with songwriting and track selection at the end of April.
The album "KWON JI YONG" with Kwon Ji Yong has a total of five songs.
Super Star.
Middle Fingers-Up.
Bullshit.
Untitled (2012).
The Divine Comedy (Divina Media)
Kwon Ji-yong frowned as he looked at the album's song arrangement on his notebook.
He originally wanted to release "Bullshit" and "Untitled (2012)" together as singles, but "Bullshit" was too sharp and not suitable to be singles.
Kwon Ji-yong looked at it for a while, then finally picked up a pen and wrote down the new album song order in a flamboyant style, putting "Super Star" as the third track.
Middle Fingers-Up.
Bullshit.
Super Star.
Untitled (2012).
The Divine Comedy (Divina Media)
An Rufeng looked at Quan Zhilong's handwriting, which was so strong it seemed to penetrate the back of the paper, and knew that he was angry.
A few days ago, he was quite annoyed to have added back the lyrics that had been cut from "Middle Fingers-Up": "Although I have many precious gemstone rings, I don't have a ring to wear on my ring finger."
Although Kwon Ji-yong tried to distract Tap, he was very angry with him. He was angry that Tap didn't care about the group, angry that he did such a thing, and angry that he was the eldest brother but acted without considering the consequences.
"Bullshit" is one of the songs he wants to sing.
The songs on the album "KWON JI YONG" align with Nietzsche's philosophical ideas of the "three transformations of the spirit" (camel-lion-child) and the "Übermensch".
Nietzsche used three images—camel, lion, and child—to represent the three stages of spiritual development.
The camel represents the first stage, symbolizing the burden of tradition, obedience, and patience.
The "Lion" represents the second stage, symbolizing a sacred negation of traditional values and a rebellious spirit in the fight for freedom, questioning, criticizing, and breaking free from constraints that are taken for granted.
"Childhood" is the third and final stage, representing a new affirmation after negation—a complete acceptance and affirmation of life itself, the earth, and one's own will. It doesn't say "no," but "yes." It is not tainted or bound by the past, freed from the burdens of history, no longer defined by the objects of resistance, truly starting anew, accepting the freedom won by the lion, and using that freedom to build, not to continue destroying.
The "Übermensch" is an ideal being envisioned by Nietzsche, transcending the current human condition. He is the complete creator of value, the master of his own destiny.
The original first song on the album "KWON JI YONG," titled "Super Star," served as the starting point for the "Camel" and the introduction of the "Lion."
"Middle Fingers-Up" and "Bullshit" represent the rebellious phase of the "lion".
Untitled (2012) represents a return to the authentic and pure "childhood" stage.
"Divine Comedy" represents the "superman" stage of the goal.
"KWON JI YONG" is not just an album, but also a journey of Kwon Ji Yong shedding his superstar aura and pursuing his true self, a transformation from an idol symbol to a real individual.
The original tracklist of the album sequentially depicted Nietzsche's description of the spirit's journey from burden to resistance, then back to purity, and finally to self-transcendence. ①
Now Kwon Ji-yong has changed the song order. Although he hasn't changed the album's concept, it's become sharper.
Originally intended as an intro, "Super Star" was meant to be a gentle beginning, transitioning from a "camel" to a "lion."
This song not only reminisces about the "camel" period when he was an idol "bearing heavy burdens," but also depicts the loneliness, objectification, and alienation felt under the spotlight of a superstar. "G-Dragon" is a "superman" symbol created by society and the market, and he carries the enormous expectations and pressure that come with this symbol.
At the same time, Kwon Ji-yong, like a "lion," criticizes with a sense of irony and alienation, examining the identity of this "superstar."
Super Star introduced the "lion," Middle Fingers-Up transformed into the "lion," and Bullshit is a continuation and complete explosion of the "lion" spirit.
"KWON JI YONG" was the last album he released before enlisting in the military, and it is also a summary and outlook on his music career and professional journey.
Kwon Ji-yong's idol career has always been different from traditional idols, with a rebellious spirit. "Lion" is a true reflection of Kwon Ji-yong's music and his more than ten-year professional career.
Since it's a transitional song, how could "Bullshit," which best represents the "lion" spirit of his first half of his music and career, not be the lead single?
Kwon Ji-yong was unwilling to accept that the song couldn't be the title track, so he simply changed the song order.
The album opens with the provocative and defiant "Middle Fingers-Up," setting the tone for the album.
Then, with "Bullshit," he continued to deepen the negation and criticism, sweeping across the surrounding "Bullshit" with anger, contempt, and disdain, and with the toughness of a "lion," he completely cleared out falsehood, hypocrisy, and all disgusting things.
After making room for newcomers, he calmed down and turned to deep reflection in "Super Star," revealing the burden and loneliness he carried under the "G-Dragon" symbol.
Then, emotions returned to their true nature. In "Untitled (2012)," all labels, anger, and glamour were torn away, leaving only a naked, vulnerable, and sincere "Kwon Ji-yong" himself.
With simple piano melodies and sincere lyrics, it expresses longing for what is lost and the most primal emotions, shedding all armor and pretense, and returning to the pure "childhood" stage after seeing through everything.
Finally, in "Divine Comedy (Divina media)," he looks back on the first half of his life, accepts all his experiences, both good and bad, and completes his spiritual journey through hell and purgatory to finally arrive in heaven.
He is no longer a defined superstar, but a "superman" who "rides the waves of life" and faces everything in life with a strong will to live, a positive and creative attitude, and ultimately lives out the most fulfilling and powerful version of himself, achieving self-transcendence and mastering his own destiny.
By the end of May, Kwon Ji-yong's album and concert were almost ready.
Waiji received information that TAP's situation would be exposed in June, so in May, they announced that Kwon Ji-yong would hold a solo concert and release an album in June.
June 1, 2017.
South Korean police have officially informed the media that Tapo is under investigation for allegedly violating the Drug Control Act.
The incident triggered a large number of negative reports, and Waiji Entertainment's stock price fell that day, wiping out 180 million RMB in just one day.
South Korean netizens and the public strongly condemned Tap's behavior, deeming it unforgivable and questioning whether other members of the group had similar issues.
In an instant, both WYSIWYG and BIGBANG were caught in a media storm.
On June 3, BigBang held a concert in Japan. On that day, Kwon Ji-yong, as the leader, apologized to the fans on behalf of the group and promised that such a thing would never happen again.
"Will I lose you too?" After the concert, back at the hotel, Kwon Ji-yong suddenly hugged An Ru-feng and asked, somewhat distraught.
"No, absolutely not." An Rufeng hugged Quan Zhilong tightly, patting his back.
He was so thin that Anru Feng could even feel the protrusions of every vertebra on his spine.
"Really?"
"real!"
Kwon Ji-yong looked up and gazed at An Yeo-feng.
His voice was hoarse and his tone was light, like beads falling from a broken string.
Will you come... to find me?
"Would I believe you?"
"Will we...hate each other?"
"What if we... miss out?"
"you……"
Will you love me again?
Will I be a part of your world?
He thought he could lead Bigbang to success forever, but now he doesn't know what the future holds for Bigbang.
He lost everything he could have controlled.
What can be done if he can't control it?
Seeing the almost desperate look on his face, An Rufeng hugged him tightly and said firmly, "Let's have a child!"
Kwon Ji-yong was taken aback upon hearing this, then firmly shook his head.
How could you do this?
If he didn't exist in her world, wouldn't she become a single mother?
That's enough.
"Don't worry, I just have a vague feeling that the group will have some shortcomings." Kwon Ji-yong gently stroked the corner of her eye.
He said softly, "You know I can't not marry you. Just tell me if you want to leave, I want to marry you."
"I just don't want to have any regrets."
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Author's Note: *A summary of Nietzsche's philosophical thought.
①This is a made-up album track order; it's for the sake of the story, so please don't mind it. [pity]
[Cat paw] The flag failed; there should still be one or two more chapters before it ends! [Pity]
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