Chapter 70: All the answers in the end are love
The coffee table in front of him shook slightly. Gu Weiyi pushed over a cup of hot tea and then sat on the other side of the sofa.
Li Wenjing still didn't look up at him, "I was wondering why you came."
"I missed you so much."
"You woke up without even telling me? You came here so suddenly, can you come and go as you please? Where are you going in a couple of days, France or Africa?"
"Because I don't want to disappoint you again," his voice trailed off. "The attending doctor said I woke up once last year. They called you and you came... but I fainted again. They said you were very sad at the time... And this time, when I first woke up, I couldn't remember a thing, and I couldn't move my hands and feet. It took me six months of rehabilitation to slowly get better. At first, I couldn't even eat or go to the bathroom. I had to have others take care of me for everything, big and small. I'm really sorry. I don't want you to see me in such a mess, let alone burden you. I also need time to prepare myself to face you."
He paused, "You look pretty good. Did you have a good vacation? Wait...are there any 'friends' coming over?"
"How do you know?"
"The neighbor grandma said you got a boyfriend. He's tall, handsome, and kind-hearted. He took the initiative to help her find a dog."
Li Wenjing picked up the hot tea on the coffee table, which burned her fingers. The pain soon turned into a numbness after the burning, making her sure that this was not a dream.
She took off her coat, her movements slowed down and she said slowly, "It's a good thing you're recovering. But I'm very angry now. I called you so many times, but you didn't reply. It made me feel like an idiot."
"I'm sorry, I heard your message. To be honest, I'm scared. You said... you, you have your own life, and I've been thinking about what you meant. I also know that a girl's youth is precious, and I can't ask you to wait for me for so many years. I'm afraid that if I come to see you, I will disturb you. What should I do if you are with someone else? Will you be too embarrassed to handle it?"
She covered the side of her face that was facing him and said, "Yes, I have my own life too. I'm getting married, and I... I'm pregnant."
He was silent for a long moment, then a pale, bony hand grabbed the lighter from the coffee table. When he spoke again, his voice trembled, "Just quit smoking. It's bad for your health...it's bad for you and the baby."
She raised her eyes again, only to see a slender figure stretching to her feet, pulling her to her feet. The entire room seemed to tremble as he pulled her toward him. She felt as if she had split into two: one frantically screaming in her heart, "Don't go! Don't go! I love you!" The other, clenched firmly on her feet, weighing her down, said coldly, "Go! He's always like this. He comes when he wants and leaves when he wants. He's the one who makes you so miserable!"
The last glimmer of sunset shone on his light blue shirt, embellishing his luminous hair. He paused at the doorway, turning back, their tearful eyes meeting. The swaying of the house suddenly stopped, and in the blink of an eye, he was before her, his lips pressing against hers without a word, tightly pressed together. Her blood boiled, and after several choking gasps, his pale cheeks finally took on a flush of color. She smiled at him, and at the same time, she began to cry.
His fingers, trembling slightly, stroked the necklace around her neck and touched her mouth. "No matter what happened between you and me, I just thought you were quarreling with me. I was selfish and morally corrupt, and I stole someone else's lover. Even if God punishes me to hell, I have to tell you - I love you. I can't give up on you. I can survive just to come back to find you."
Her tears flowed down his palm and onto the back of his hand. She looked up at him but immediately turned away. "You came here so suddenly that I didn't dare look at you, afraid you were fake and I was dreaming. How did you become so thin now? And ugly, so ugly that I almost couldn't recognize you. How did you get through these years in the hospital? Was it very hard?"
"Actually, I only remembered you last month. I mean I remembered you completely, not just fragmented pieces, but everything about you. I can finally confirm that this woman who has been in my mind is the reason I am alive. As soon as I think of you, I will come to England to find you." His eyes were burning, and he rested on her pupils. "I was in a dream. At first, I was with my parents, but then I don't know how we got separated. Everything was white, and it was a white house, and I couldn't get out. Sometimes I could hear other people talking, a woman's voice, not my mother, but I couldn't remember who it was. I was very sleepy, but I tried my best to remember you. If I couldn't remember you, I couldn't sleep... I kept walking, thinking about you, and only when I finally remembered you could I see you again. This time, I won't leave again."
"Good news, you don't have to go to hell. I'm single now."
After saying that, she threw herself on him with a grin. His thin body couldn't support her, and they both fell onto the sofa. He put his hands on her waist, and suddenly his cheeks tensed. "Be careful, there's a baby."
"I was just kidding..."
He laughed, put his hand into his pants and began to feel the skin inside. Li Wenjing tried to pinch his mouth, but he dodged with a smile, "I know, I was just kidding."
She unbuttoned his shirt and took off her own. He was so thin that he was just a bag of bones, his skin so pale it seemed almost translucent, the pale purple veins visible beneath. He was like a dried-up flower bud, only its shape remaining. His body still felt unfamiliar to her. She lifted herself off him and lay beside him, hugging him, reacquainting herself with every inch of his skin with kisses and caresses.
"You are still as healthy and beautiful as ever, and even sexier than before." His hands slid across her breasts, and the touch brought a soft gasp, "But I..."
She grabbed his hair and pressed him towards her, as if to press him into her body, "Don't worry, now that you're back, everything will be fine! I love you, not only when you were well before, but also now..."
Their eyelashes touched, and she said, "I've figured it all out. It doesn't matter who I'm with. Besides happiness, intimate relationships also have negative aspects like insecurity and discomfort. Even if I were with someone else...take Captain Lu for example, he's a good guy, but we have different ideas, and his family situation is complicated. He'd still make me uncomfortable. If I want to continue dating him, I can't just want happiness without the pain he'd cause me, and you..."
She smiled and said, "Whether it's pain or happiness, what you bring to me is the most unforgettable. Only you can make me accept that pain."
"Because I am also accepting your pain. I can accept whatever happens to you."
Their lips pressed together again, and they kissed for who knows how long before the ringing of a cell phone interrupted their tenderness. He reached for the phone and whispered, "Sorry, I don't need it anymore." Then he hung up and threw the phone on the farthest sofa.
"What's up?"
He laughed sheepishly, his ears turning red. "I rented a Ferrari and it will be delivered today. Do you remember Pretty Woman? We watched it together. I wanted to have a ceremony like in the movies and even prepared rings. I didn't expect you to come back early, so I ended up not being able to prepare anything except cleaning."
"Why not?" Her eyes lit up and she made a move to get up. "Get up, let's go for a ride now."
As soon as she stood up, he pulled her into his arms and asked, "Do you think it's appropriate to talk about this now?"
"What?"
"I just...sort of proposed."
"That's too casual."
"Okay, I'll call him and tell him he needs the car. I'll drive it. Will you let me go?"
The next second she hooked her arms around his neck, "Of course you can't leave! I have a lot to say, words I've been saving for years. First, I only want you. Second, we're starting over, and you have to pay me back everything you owe me. Finally, I won't agree to you until I'm satisfied."
"That makes sense. I thought so too." He kissed her hand until it became moist.
When she looked into his eyes, the previous questions finally had answers. He was still the one who stayed by her side. Even if there would inevitably be quarrels and trivial family matters in the future, having a heart that accepted and understood each other was enough to keep going.
Gu Weiyi moved in, still struggling with physical incoordination during his rehabilitation. He often spent time in his study practicing to regain his mental strength, but she felt he needed to recover physically first. From time to time, they would have a few arguments, like when she complained that he'd broken a dish while cooking, and he'd get so annoyed that he'd find an excuse to go out and buy new dishes.
After he left, Li Wenjing went to sweep the study. The robot vacuum accidentally knocked over a pile of notebooks. The notebooks fell apart, revealing not diaries but pages of Chinese and French words and short sentences written repeatedly day after day. The handwriting, initially crooked and twisted, gradually became clearer, restoring his original beautiful handwriting.
"Hello. My name is Gu Weiyi."
"I am fine, thank you."
"It's a nice day today."
"Don't cry."
"I'm here."
"Li Wenjing."
"like."
"I love you."
"wait for me."
In his chaotic memory, among countless words like "pain", "fear" and "forget", her name and the simplest word - "love" appeared repeatedly.
She burst into tears in the afternoon sun. It turned out that during those years when she thought she was alone, he had used all his strength, trapped in the prison of time. Even as his memory crumbled, he wrote about her over and over again, defying his powerless body. All the sorrow and joy, separation and reunion, pain and happiness... In the end, when time revealed all the answers, every page was filled with love.
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