Chapter 66 Ambiguity [VIP]
Chapter Summary: Should she confess? Should she tell him that she actually likes him?
Within a week, Fu Xianyin made two round trips across borders.
After finishing her physics exam on Friday, Fu Xianyin rested for one night and returned to China on Saturday.
The TOEFL scores are all out. Fu Xianyin scored 26 in listening, speaking, reading, and writing, 24 in reading, speaking, and writing, and 25 in writing, for a total score of 104.
This was much better than Qin Yi had expected.
After the first phase of learning ended, Qin Yi quickly devised a second phase learning plan for her.
She also registered Fu Xianyin for an exam in mid-January, requiring Fu Xianyin to score 110.
Qin Yi handed the printed report card to Fu Xianyin and said, "You've been studying for so long, let's give you a break this week. You can continue studying next week."
Fu Xianyin asked, "Teacher, can I go back to Beichuan this week?"
Qin Yi laughed and said, "What, is Beijing not as fun as Beichuan?"
Fu Xianyin shook her head: "No, I have a monthly exam at school on December 29th, and I want to go back and review before the exam."
Qin Yi: ……
Seeing that Qin Yi didn't speak, Fu Xianyin continued, "Teacher, our school will have New Year's Day after the monthly exam. I'll come back this weekend and can continue to attend classes next week."
Qin Yi said, "I'm not worried about you in class."
To be honest, apart from the first two days after meeting Fu Xianyin, Qin Yi had never worried about how much effort Fu Xianyin put into her studies.
She said, "I think that since you've already decided to go abroad, there's no need to work so hard at school anymore. You've had a tough month, flying back and forth and studying every day. You finally have some time to rest, so you can take a break."
Fu Xianyin opened her mouth, but ultimately didn't tell Qin Yi the truth.
Qin Yi was a teacher that Shao Yang helped her find, so she couldn't fully trust Qin Yi.
When Shao Yang was mentioned, Fu Xianyin's shoulders slumped.
Fu Dongyuan knew she had finished her exams and was going to talk to her about shares and money.
Shao Yang came to pick her up this afternoon to go back to Beichuan. After Fu Xianyin learned of this, she repeatedly told Shao Yang that she could go back by herself. However, no matter what Fu Dongyuan said, Shao Yang only said one thing: "This is President Fu's idea."
Fu Xianyin couldn't persuade him otherwise, so she had no choice but to do it this way.
At 3 p.m. sharp, Shao Yang arrived at the hotel to pick up Fu Xianyin.
With Shao Yang around, although she would feel more irritable, Fu Xianyin didn't need to worry about trivial things like taking her luggage to the airport.
She didn't stand on ceremony with Shao Yang anymore. Unlike before, she didn't sit in the passenger seat. While Shao Yang was carrying her luggage, Fu Xianyin opened the back door and sat down herself.
Shao Yang glanced at her, closed the car door for her, and then went around to the driver's seat.
On the way to the airport, Fu Xianyin was even looking at some negotiation techniques that her lawyer had told her.
She wasn't actually as at ease as she appeared.
Fu Dongyuan was able to carve out his own niche in the cutthroat business world, and Fu Xianyin had no doubt about her biological father's abilities in these areas.
Fu Dongyuan had lived many more years than her and had more experience.
Fu Xianyin said it was impossible not to feel scared.
Ultimately, she's just a little girl who hasn't even turned eighteen yet.
No matter how bold or cunning she was, she was no match for Fu Dongyuan.
This is also why Fu Xianyin always resists direct contact with Fu Dongyuan.
Because each time made her clearly realize that she never had any initiative in her relationship with Fu Dongyuan.
In every aspect of her life, Fu Dongyuan had the final say.
She has no say in anything.
When Fu Xuanyin walked out of Fu Dongyuan's office, she felt completely exhausted.
She argued her case, and in the end, Fu Dongyuan agreed to give her 6% of the shares, plus $250,000 a year.
This is much less than what she initially asked for, but still much more than what Fu Dongyuan initially planned to give.
In the end, Fu Xianyin felt that she was speaking to Fu Dongyuan entirely through willpower.
As they left the office, Shao Yang offered to walk her home.
Fu Xianyin did not refuse, but said, "Give me five minutes."
She randomly found a quiet corner and plopped down on the ground.
Shao Yang paused for two seconds, then took off his suit jacket and said, "The floor is cold, Miss Fu, perhaps..."
Fu Xianyin shook her head and said, "No need, let me sit for a while."
Shao Yang: ...
He suddenly felt like he was taking care of a child.
But thinking about it this way, it doesn't seem wrong.
Miss Fu is ten years younger than him, so isn't this just like taking care of a child?
After sitting for about ten minutes, Fu Xianyin finally regained some strength. She tried to get up by leaning against the wall, but Shao Yang couldn't bear to see her like that and reached out to help her.
"Thank you," Fu Xianyin said softly.
She stood there for a while, then turned and left.
Shao Yang stared blankly at Fu Xianyin's unsteady back.
If he remembered correctly, Mrs. Fu's level of mental illness had a high probability of being hereditary.
Shao Yang took Fu Xianyin to the hotel, and Fu Xianyin thanked him and went back on her own.
Lying on the hotel bed, Fu Xianyin's mind was filled with confusion.
She had just prepared evidence of Chen Huimei's mistreatment of her for Fu Dongyuan, and had also negotiated the shareholding and financial issues with him. Everything seemed to be progressing as she had hoped, yet Fu Xuanyin felt a lingering unease.
She was worried about the same problem as Shao Yang.
This is a problem she has been forcing herself to ignore, but ultimately she can't avoid mentioning it.
It seems like she's also experiencing mental health issues.
Strangely enough, for so long, Fu Xianyin had been deliberately trying to convince herself to ignore this matter.
But when the day actually came, and she reached this conclusion, Fu Xianyin was actually much more relaxed than she had imagined.
In fact, everything was foreshadowed.
She often experiences uncontrollable hand tremors, heart palpitations, shortness of breath, and even tinnitus and auditory hallucinations, making it difficult to concentrate. Her physical condition is also extremely poor; she becomes breathless after running just a few steps, and she has absolutely no vitality or energy.
Fu Xianyin didn't not want to get better; on the contrary, she hoped to get better more urgently than anyone else.
But she looked it up online and found that at her level, ordinary psychotherapy wouldn't be very effective, and she would most likely need medication.
But those psychotropic drugs made her very dull.
She simply couldn't learn with a brain that had been medicated.
That's why she's running away, using every little piece of evidence to brainwash herself, making herself feel that she's just a little tired and needs some rest, that she doesn't need medication or treatment.
Fu Xianyin lay on the bed and let out a long sigh.
Give yourself another chance.
At least for now, she really needs this brain.
Even if it only works occasionally, even if it only works occasionally.
But that's better than endless sluggishness and clumsiness.
On Monday, Fu Xianyin returned to school.
The seating chart was still the same as before she left, she was still sitting by the podium as a protector, and Gu Linzhao's deskmate was still an empty table.
With sheer willpower and the pressure from her teacher standing at the podium, Fu Xianyin studied for a week.
After spending the past month studying languages, Fu Xianyin has noticed a significant improvement in her English. She can understand reading comprehension almost effortlessly, and there isn't a single word on the entire test paper that she doesn't recognize.
The opposite of English, which is like a fish in water, is chemistry, which is extremely difficult to master.
During this month, she either studied languages or reviewed math and physics for a competition.
As for the rest, such as biology, chemistry, and Chinese, Fu Xianyin didn't study any of them.
Biology is slightly better; although Fu Xianyin's foundation in biology is not good, she still has some basic knowledge.
But chemistry is different.
The first round of review had covered content she didn't understand at all. Whether it was the test papers Hu Weiming gave her or the practice questions in the workbook, Fu Xianyin couldn't understand eight out of ten questions.
On the day of the monthly exam, after finishing the chemistry exam, Fu Xianyin felt a chill in her heart.
She only wrote Chinese in the midterm exam, and didn't finish most of the math. Unsurprisingly, she was scheduled to take the last exam this month.
After all the exams were over, Fu Xianyin could already imagine how badly she had done.
Let alone being among the top students in her grade, she probably wouldn't even score 600 points.
If Chen Huimei knew about this result, she would definitely launch into a barrage of insults and complaints, calling her useless, saying she couldn't do anything right, and that she was inferior to others in every way.
But Chen Huimei will never know.
Or rather, even if she found out, she wouldn't have the chance to scold her anymore.
I should be happy, I should be joyful, I should feel relaxed.
But Fu Xianyin's feelings were inexplicably complicated.
Inside the classroom, Gu Linzhao had already packed his things and was waiting for her.
When Fu Xianyin entered the classroom, she bumped right into Gu Linzhao.
She almost instinctively looked away.
Since they held hands for a while last week at Gu Linzhao's birthday party, this is the first time Fu Xuanyin has contacted Gu Linzhao without any ulterior motives.
This week, she fell far behind in her studies and frequently went to Gu Linzhao to ask questions. She even took her notes and read them while walking after evening self-study.
At this time, Gu Linzhao would hold her hand, either loosely gripping her wrist or gently tugging at her sleeve, to remind her when Fu Xianyin wasn't looking where she was going, so that she wouldn't fall.
The exam is over now, and there won't be any more questions for a while.
As soon as Fu Xianyin and Gu Linzhao got together, she almost instantly thought of everything that had happened last week.
A blush slowly rose to Fu Xianyin's ears. She sensed that Gu Linzhao had stopped a short distance away from her, but she pretended not to notice and silently packed her schoolbag.
"Yinyin!"
Suddenly, the classroom door was pushed open, and Cheng Zhaozhao rushed in, chattering excitedly, "It's vacation time! It's vacation time! What are your plans for this vacation?"
Fu Xianyin said, "I should go to Beijing."
Cheng Zhaozhao's face immediately fell: "Oh, you still have to go? I thought you wouldn't have to go this time since you came back."
Fu Xianyin smiled and said, "I still have some competitions to attend, and I want to improve my TOEFL score. I estimate it will take until at least mid-January."
"Okay, okay." Cheng Zhaozhao pouted and said, "I was thinking of taking you shopping this weekend."
Fu Xianyin thought for a moment and said, "Or I can go on Tuesday. I'll tell the teacher that I'll spend New Year's Day in Beichuan."
Cheng Zhaozhao's eyes lit up instantly: "Really? Yay!"
As they were talking, Fu Xianyin finished packing her schoolbag, slung it over her shoulder, and said, "Nianke went back to sleep again?"
Cheng Zhaozhao said, "What else can she do? After the exam, she just keeps complaining, 'Ugh, I'm so sleepy, I can't take it anymore, I need to go back to sleep.'"
Cheng Zhaozhao imitated Chen Nianke's tone, and Fu Xianyin couldn't help but laugh out loud.
Cheng Zhaozhao stretched and said, "Let's go, Yinyin, let's go back to sleep. Ah, I've been up all week, finally I can sleep!"
Lin Anxu said, "You're talking about Chen Nianke, aren't you the same as her?"
He raised his hand and pushed his nose, chuckled, and said, "Like a pig."
"You're the pig!" Cheng Zhaozhao reached out to hit him: "Lin Anxu, I'll beat you to death!"
The two of them ran out of the classroom while playfully fighting, leaving only Fu Xianyin and Gu Linzhao behind.
A strange awkwardness crept into Fu Xianyin's heart. She cleared her throat and asked, "Then... shall we go too?"
Gu Linzhao raised his chin: "Let's go."
The corridor was dimly lit. Fu Xianyin was carrying her schoolbag, and Gu Linzhao was walking beside her.
The scene was so familiar that Fu Xianyin even vaguely thought that nothing had changed, that it was just an ordinary evening self-study session, and that she would see Gu Linzhao again tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and every day after that.
Gu Linzhao's words shattered Fu Xianyin's illusions.
He asked, "Are you going to stay in Beichuan for the New Year?"
Fu Xianyin said, "What, are you kicking me out?"
Gu Linzhao smiled and said, "How could I dare?"
After he finished speaking, the two fell back into that eerie silence.
Fu Xianyin couldn't understand why holding hands, such an intimate act, should have brought the two of them closer, but instead it created an awkward and unclear situation between her and Gu Linzhao.
It's like the awkwardness of accidentally sleeping with your best friend.
But it wasn't by accident; she truly did have impure feelings for Gu Linzhao.
So, is the problem with Gu Linzhao?
Fu Xianyin didn't dare to think that Gu Linzhao liked her, but she always felt that Gu Linzhao should at least have some affection for her.
Could all of this be due to her own narcissistic tendencies?
In fact, Gu Linzhao only regarded her as his best friend.
But.
Fu Xianyin suddenly recalled Zhang Tong's words:
"They're not sisters. They came all the way from Beijing to Hong Kong just to accompany you to your exam. You call this a crush? Get your facts straight, who's having a crush on whom?"
If we were just friends, would I take time off work to accompany her from Beichuan to Hong Kong Island for her exam? Would I take her to an amusement park to make her happy?
Or perhaps Gu Linzhao simply wanted to warm her hands, and it was she who initiated the intertwining of their fingers, giving the gesture an ambiguous nature. And is Gu Linzhao's current attitude because she didn't clearly explain her intentions?
Fu Xianyin's guess fell on this possibility again.
But if that's the case, what does Gu Linzhao hope for?
Do you hope she will be honest with him and tell him the truth, that she really likes him and that she doesn't want to just be friends with him?
This seems reasonable; they are high school students, and they should respond positively to what they did.
Fu Xianyin was lost in her own daydreams.
Her mind was in turmoil and anxiety when she suddenly heard someone next to her call her name:
"Fu Xianyin".
She looked up suddenly, her gaze falling into Gu Linzhao's clear, spring-like eyes.
He seemed somewhat puzzled, but it wasn't just puzzlement.
In that instant, Fu Xianyin seemed to see a hint of grievance in his eyes.
A fleeting sense of grievance crossed Fu Xianyin's mind, to the point that she wondered if she was blind.
The next second, Fu Xianyin heard Gu Linzhao speak.
His tone was as gentle as ever, yet every word touched Fu Xianyin's heart, blossoming into a tender yellow flower, a small flower that blooms only in early spring.
He said, "Don't you want to talk to me? Why aren't you talking to me?"
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