Chapter 122, Zhao Zhao's Side Story [VIP]
Chapter Summary: Zhao Zhao is a Little Sun
"Zhao Zhao, Zhao Zhao!"
Xu Lin pushed open the dormitory door, grabbed Cheng Zhaozhao's bed with both hands, and said:
"There's a handsome guy downstairs looking for you."
Xu Ning, who was in the opposite bed, was even more surprised than Cheng Zhaozhao. She exclaimed exaggeratedly, "Wow, Zhaozhao, when did this new situation come about? Why didn't you tell us?"
It's only been a little over a month since the start of the semester, but the four girls in the dorm have already become close friends.
Cheng Zhaozhao, who had been lazing in bed, felt a little depressed after hearing Xu Lin's words. She got out of bed, put on her shoes, and shuffled to the balcony in her slippers, asking as she went:
"Don't even mention it, I didn't even know I had this new situation. Let me see where this handsome guy came from."
Before she could finish saying "handsome guy," Cheng Zhaozhao saw Lin Anxu downstairs.
She slammed the curtains shut with a swift motion, startling both people inside.
Xu Lin: "What's wrong, Zhao Zhao?"
Xu Ning: "Don't you know me, or...?"
Cheng Zhaozhao was practically gritting her teeth, her words filled with resentment: "What handsome guy? You're not talking about the one downstairs, are you?"
"Let me see," Xu Lin said, walking over. Xu Ning followed to join in the fun.
Xu Lin drew back the curtains, saw Lin Anxu, and said, "Yes, that's him. What's wrong, Zhao Zhao? Isn't he a handsome young man?"
"Let me see, let me see." Xu Ning peeked over, then turned back to look at Cheng Zhaozhao, and said, "He's quite handsome."
Cheng Zhaozhao's tone betrayed her undisguised disdain: "Him? Handsome guy? Don't be ridiculous."
She turned and went back into the house to change her clothes. She grabbed a T-shirt and jeans and put them on before heading out.
Xu Ning asked from behind her, "Hey Zhao Zhao, is this all you're dressed for? Don't you even have any makeup on?"
Cheng Zhaozhao: "Makeup? He's not worthy of it!"
She ran downstairs and saw Lin Anxu waiting for her under the tree in front of the dormitory as soon as she stepped out of the door.
He wore a gray jacket, zipped up, revealing a blue and yellow checkered lining underneath. Underneath the jacket was a clean, simple white T-shirt with no large patterns. He wore light-colored jeans.
He stood at the entrance of the girls' dormitory, leaning casually against a tree trunk. For some reason, many girls passing by were indeed looking at him.
Cheng Zhaozhao paused in her steps.
Lin Anxu, who was under the tree, looked up at that moment.
Their eyes met in mid-air, and for some reason, Cheng Zhaozhao felt her heart skip a beat.
Before she could say anything, Lin Anxu waved and called out to her:
"Zhaozhao, come quick, come quick."
Cheng Zhaozhao jogged over.
Lin Anxu said with a grin, "How's it going? Have you had breakfast yet? I brought you a little cake, want some?"
Cheng Zhaozhao looked down.
It was a fairly well-known dessert shop near their school, and it was always packed with people since the start of the semester a month ago. Cheng Zhaozhao had dragged Xu Lin there a few times, and almost every time there was a queue, plus the apple croissant she wanted was always out of stock.
Cheng Zhaozhao looked down at the beautifully packaged desserts in the bag and asked, "What flavor are they?"
Lin Anxu grinned: "Apple croissant, how about it? Want to eat it? I knew you'd like this."
He handed the croissant to Cheng Zhaozhao, stretched, and said, "Hey, why does your school let out for vacation so late?"
With her mouth stuffed full of apple croissants, Cheng Zhaozhao said in a muffled voice, "I don't know. Why don't you go and talk to my principal and ask him to give us a holiday earlier?"
Lin Anxu was the first to get his National Day holiday, and he had been gloating about it for ages. Cheng Zhaozhao wouldn't get her holiday until tomorrow, and since Lin Anxu and his university classmates were planning to take advantage of the fact that other schools weren't on holiday yet, they decided to go to the city where Cheng Zhaozhao lived.
Lin Anxu said, "Chen Nianke seems to have a day off today, but you and Brother Zhao have to wait until tomorrow to have a day off."
Cheng Zhaozhao said shamelessly, "That's how our good universities are."
Lin Anxu nodded: "Yes, yes, everyone knows that Jiangzhou University and Tsinghua University are tied for the top spot in the country."
Cheng Zhaozhao raised her head in satisfaction, acknowledging the praise: "That's right."
Her college entrance exam results weren't particularly good or bad; they were basically the same as usual.
Of the five, Fu Xianyin disappeared without a trace after the college entrance examination, seemingly without even taking it. Of the remaining four, Gu Linzhao unsurprisingly achieved the best score, becoming the provincial top scorer and securing a place at Tsinghua or Huazhong University of Science and Technology. Among the others, Chen Nianke got into a 985 university in central China, Lin Anxu performed exceptionally well and got into a 211 university, while she, although attending Jiangzhou University (also a 211 university), was ranked much lower than the others.
No matter how carefree Cheng Zhaozhao may be, she can genuinely feel this difference in status.
Fortunately, Jiangzhou University's location is quite good, which alleviated some of her negative emotions.
Lin Anxu asked, "Do you have class today?"
Cheng Zhaozhao said, "Classes are over this morning, that's all."
Lin Anxu said, "That's perfect, why don't you show me around?"
Cheng Zhaozhao turned her head and looked at Lin Anxu with some surprise, saying, "Didn't you come with your classmate?"
Lin Anxu said, "I told him I was coming to see you, and that he should go have fun by himself today."
"How about it, show me around? I've never been to Jiangzhou before. How about this, when you go to He'an later, I'll take you there. Isn't that a good deal?"
Cheng Zhaozhao thought for a moment, and since she didn't have any reason to refuse, she said, "Okay, where do you want to go?"
Lin Anxu said, "Let's take a look around your school first, and then... just go wherever you want, it's up to you."
"I decide? If I said I'd sell it to you!"
"Oh my god, I'm so scared!"
"Get lost, Lin Anxu!"
...
Cheng Zhaozhao led Lin Anxu on a few aimless walks around the campus before taking him out of the school.
She spoke in a disjointed manner:
"This milk tea is pretty good."
"This place has delicious fried noodles."
"These dumplings are terrible. My roommate and I have both ordered them, and every single one of them is awful."
Lin Anxu was speechless: "Cheng Zhaozhao, you've been in Jiangzhou for over a month, what have you done besides eat?"
Cheng Zhaozhao rolled her eyes at him: "Why do you care about me? Besides, it's only been a month since school started, and I haven't been in Jiangzhou for very long either, okay?"
After walking for a while, Lin Anxu suddenly spoke up: "Hey, by the way, um, can I ask you something?"
Cheng Zhaozhao didn't notice the unusual tone in his voice and said, "Ask."
Lin Anxu asked, "Are you still in contact with Fu Xianyin?"
Cheng Zhaozhao stopped in her tracks.
Lin Anxu sighed and said, "Didn't she delete all of Zhao Ge's contact information? And then..."
He was interrupted by Cheng Zhaozhao before he could finish speaking.
Her tone was somewhat harsh: "Mine was deleted too, and Nianke's was also deleted. We'll all know about this over the summer."
Lin Anxu said, "Yes, that's true. But..."
He hesitated for a moment, then said, "I don't know if I should tell you."
Why shouldn't it be?
Cheng Zhaozhao asked in return.
Lin Anxu said, "Because... well, I don't know how to say it. It was Brother Zhao who told me, but he didn't specifically say it. He just mentioned it casually, and I just guessed it myself. I didn't dare tell him, so I..."
Cheng Zhaozhao's tone was not good: "Say it if you want to, otherwise don't."
After the college entrance examination, Fu Xianyin's disappearance had a significant impact on each of them.
Cheng Zhaozhao tried every possible way to contact Fu Xianyin: WeChat, phone, QQ, and even NetEase Cloud Music and Weibo. Chen Nianke even registered an Instagram account on an external website in an attempt to find Fu Xianyin.
But they found nothing.
Cheng Zhaozhao didn't know why Fu Xianyin left so silently; she didn't even know where Fu Xianyin went.
She asked Gu Linzhao, but Gu Linzhao only told her that Fu Xianyin should have gone abroad.
But Gu Linzhao didn't say which school he went to or why he left.
Cheng Zhaozhao didn't know if he didn't know or was unwilling to say.
To be honest, she was actually a little angry.
It's not so much that he was angry, but more accurately, he was sulking with Fu Xianyin.
Fu Xianyin was her best friend, and she believed that she felt the same way about Fu Xianyin.
But she deleted her contact information and left without a word, disappearing without a trace.
She was worried that something might have happened to her, and she wanted to comfort her and stay by her side.
But Fu Xianyin severed everything so cleanly and decisively that Cheng Zhaozhao didn't even have a way to find Fu Xianyin.
She turned to Lin Anxu and asked, "Are you going to tell me or not?"
“Tell me about it,” Lin Anxu said. “Brother Zhao told me that Sister Yin seems to have been forced to go abroad by her family, but he didn’t tell me anything else.”
Cheng Zhaozhao said, "Then why did you delete us all? Why did you delete me?"
Lin Anxu sighed and said, "You've really gotten used to a good life. Think about it, what was your sister's mindset and state of mind when she fought against her family, lost, and was sent abroad by them? Under such circumstances, isn't it reasonable for her to want to say goodbye to everything in her past and start a new life?"
"Besides, since her family was willing to send her away, they might be monitoring her to see if she wants to come back, for example, to fight for the family property. If they find out, my life will definitely be even worse."
"Th-that..."
Cheng Zhaozhao felt a lump in her throat. She blinked and tears streamed down her face.
Lin Anxu was startled by her. He searched around but couldn't find any tissues, so he had no choice but to frantically wipe her tears.
"Oh, my dear aunt, why are you crying?"
"I...of course I'm worried about Yinyin! I..."
She stood on the bustling commercial street, no longer caring about anything else, and burst into tears.
"What is she going to do now? She's all alone abroad. Will she have a hard time? Will she be bullied? Can't she just contact me secretly? Can't she even do that secretly? Does she know how worried I am about her?"
She incoherently poured out her worries and resentments, while Lin Anxu kept wiping away her tears. Along the bustling street, many people stopped to watch, but Cheng Zhaozhao ignored them all and just stood there crying.
Lin Anxu seemed to be comforting her, and after seeing her crying incessantly, he appeared to hug her directly.
Cheng Zhaozhao couldn't remember very clearly.
She only remembered that she cried for a long time that night. Lin Anxu took her out to eat and play. She had agreed that she would take Lin Anxu around Jiangzhou, but in the end, it was Lin Anxu who coaxed her to play everywhere.
Downstairs in the dormitory building, Cheng Zhaozhao was still sobbing.
Lin Anxu sighed and said, "Stop crying. You've been crying all night. How can you cry so much?"
Cheng Zhaozhao said, "It's none of your business! I just want to cry!"
After she finished speaking, her lips trembled, and she looked like she was about to cry again, which frightened Lin Anxu. He hurriedly raised his hands, wiping her tears, pinching her cheeks, and rubbing her head.
Standing under the tree, Lin Anxu looked at Cheng Zhaozhao's pitiful expression and sighed deeply, regretting his actions.
"If I had known you would react this way, I shouldn't have told you that."
Upon hearing this, Cheng Zhaozhao immediately frowned: "No! You have to tell me! You have to tell me everything from now on!"
Lin Anxu had no choice but to nod repeatedly, "Tell me, tell me, tell me. I will definitely report any news I learn to Lord Zhao Zhao in detail in the future."
Cheng Zhaozhao was amused by him and stopped crying. She sniffed, raised her chin and said, "That's more like it."
Seeing that the tears had finally stopped, Lin Anxu breathed a sigh of relief. He bent down to look Cheng Zhaozhao in the eye and said, "Don't cry anymore?"
Cheng Zhaozhao turned her head back, about to say something, but her gaze suddenly stopped when it met Lin Anxu's eyes.
The cool moonlight mixed with the streetlights slanted down from the sky.
Cheng Zhaozhao looked at the person in front of her and felt as if her breath had stopped for a moment.
Love is truly a wondrous thing.
Before this moment, Cheng Zhaozhao had never imagined that she would be nervous when facing Lin Anxu.
The two were standing a little too close; Cheng Zhaozhao had never been so close to a boy before.
She could even see her own reflection in Lin Anxu's eyes.
The boy smiled slightly, looking at her with gentle and earnest eyes, a mixture of teasing, indulgence, and something Cheng Zhaozhao herself couldn't quite put her finger on.
She suddenly realized that Lin Anxu seemed to have really become more handsome after going to university.
Setting aside her own prejudices, it seems, perhaps, maybe
He can definitely be considered a handsome young man in a broad sense.
Cheng Zhaozhao's throat tightened, and she subtly averted her gaze, muttering, "I... I didn't cry."
"Okay, you didn't cry." Lin Anxu's tone was gentle. He raised his hand and ruffled Cheng Zhaozhao's hair, saying, "Hurry up and go back, or your dorm will be locked if it gets any later."
Cheng Zhaozhao glanced at her phone and said, "Two minutes left."
Lin Anxu urged her, "Hurry up, hurry up and go upstairs."
Cheng Zhaozhao turned and ran towards the dormitory entrance, but after only a few steps, she suddenly heard someone shout behind her:
"Zhaozhao!"
Cheng Zhaozhao turned her head.
Lin Anxu leaned against the tree and said with a smile, "I bought a ticket to go back to Beichuan on the same train as you. I'll come find you tomorrow at noon."
Cheng Zhaozhao paused, as if she wanted to say something, but Lin Anxu urged her, "We'll talk about it when we get back. You go upstairs first, the door's about to close!"
Cheng Zhaozhao returned to her dormitory right on time.
As soon as Cheng Zhaozhao pushed open the dormitory door, she was greeted by three heads peeking out.
Xu Ning smiled and said, "Zhao Zhao, something's up?"
Cheng Zhaozhao said, "No, there isn't."
“You still won’t admit it,” Xu Ning said. “We all saw it. They were touching each other’s heads and wiping away tears. They were so intimate.”
Cheng Zhaozhao felt her ears burning. She said, "Don't talk nonsense. He's just a high school classmate of mine."
I don't believe it.
I don't believe it.
"I can't believe a thing of the sort."
"Fine, don't believe me then," Cheng Zhaozhao said, averting her gaze. "I'm going to wash up."
She closed the bathroom door and heard the three girls in the dormitory still chattering about her relationship with Lin Anxu:
There's definitely something going on.
"I also think that boy isn't from our school; he probably came specifically to find Zhaozhao."
"The way that boy looked at Zhao Zhao just now, I don't believe it even if you beat me to death."
As Cheng Zhaozhao leaned against the bathroom door, her thoughts drifted outside.
At that time, she couldn't help but think about it too.
She wondered if it was really as they said, whether Lin Anxu had feelings for her, otherwise why would he have traveled all the way to see her and brought back a box of apple croissants.
"And then what happened?"
"And then?" Cheng Zhaozhao raised the corner of her lips and said, "There was no 'and then'."
They returned to Beichuan together and often chatted, but neither of them dared to confess their feelings.
At her most upset, Cheng Zhaozhao even considered making a phone call to ask Lin Anxu what he was really thinking.
But she didn't.
It's hard to say whether she felt this kind of thing should be done by Lin Anxu, or whether she was afraid that she might do something impulsive and have unpredictable consequences.
Cheng Zhaozhao contacted Fu Xianyin in the spring of the following year.
At that time, she had already given up hope. Then one day, a classmate who was taking an open class with her was scrolling through her WeChat Moments. Cheng Zhaozhao was idly flipping through a book on her desk when she glanced at the photo on her phone and suddenly saw a familiar person.
That was Fu Xianyin.
Cheng Zhaozhao sat up almost instantly, grabbed the classmate's arm with her hand, and the action was so big that it even attracted the teacher's attention.
The teacher glanced over and said, "Stop fidgeting."
Cheng Zhaozhao shrank back and saw the classmate whose arm she was holding looking at her with a puzzled expression.
She smiled apologetically and said softly, "Um, I'm sorry, I just saw a photo on your phone, and there's a girl in it who looks a lot like my high school classmate."
"I didn't look at your phone on purpose," she quickly clarified, afraid that others would misunderstand. "I just glanced at it by accident and then I saw it."
Fortunately, this classmate was easy to talk to.
He pointed to the post on WeChat Moments and asked, "This one?"
Cheng Zhaozhao nodded: "Yes, yes, this is it. Can you zoom in so I can take a look at this one?"
The photo was enlarged, and Cheng Zhaozhao could see the people in the photo clearly.
This is a selfie, and it looks like it was taken in a library or a coffee shop.
The girl holding the phone is probably the one who posted this on WeChat Moments. She is wearing a tank top, has exquisite makeup, is holding her phone, her curly hair is blown by the wind, and her smile is bright and flamboyant.
On the other side of the photo was someone she knew all too well.
Fu Xianyin.
She was wearing a loose-fitting hoodie, her long hair casually tied up, and her fingers resting on the keyboard. The photo seemed to be a candid shot; Fu Xianyin didn't even seem to be managing her expression. She merely turned her head and glanced in the direction of the camera, her gaze barely focused.
But it's still beautiful.
The classmate next to her pointed at Fu Xianyin and said, "This one? Your high school classmate?"
Cheng Zhaozhao nodded and said, "Let's add each other on WeChat, and then you can send me this person's WeChat, okay?"
The boy readily agreed.
She quickly sent a friend request, and then asked the boy to send her Fu Xianyin's photo as well.
Immediately afterwards, she sent the photo to Chen Nianke.
Chen Nianke replied almost instantly: [Holy crap, where did you get this photo?]
Cheng Zhaozhao: [The other girl was a friend of the classmate who sat next to me in my general education class. I glanced at her phone and saw it.]
Chen Nianke paused for a few seconds, then said, "[Has Yinyin... lost weight?]"
Cheng Zhaozhao: [It seems so.]
It's really obvious that she's lost weight.
Fu Xianyin has always been on the thinner side, but in this photo she looks frighteningly thin. Her chin is completely sharpened, and the oversized hoodie is so tight that Cheng Zhaozhao feels it can barely stay on her.
For some reason, she suddenly remembered what Lin Anxu had told her before: "Fu Xianyin's life must be pretty bad."
This is more than just bad.
It's absolutely terrible.
Cheng Zhaozhao was still hesitating whether to send the photo to Gu Linzhao, but Chen Nianke rejected the idea as soon as she mentioned it:
My advice is that it's best not to.
[Gu Linzhao can find her himself, but you can't be the one to leak the information to him.]
Zhao Wei accepted Cheng Zhaozhao's friend request that evening.
Almost the instant the friend request was accepted, Cheng Zhaozhao sent out the message she had been preparing all afternoon:
[Here's the thing, I'm Fu Xianyin's high school classmate. I accidentally saw a photo of you and her on a friend's phone. I was wondering if you could tell Fu Xianyin that I'm looking for her?]
I really miss her.
The message "The other party is typing" remained on for a long time before Zhao Weiru finally sent a message:
[I should see her this afternoon. Should I talk to her in person then, and then you guys call her?]
[Okay, okay! Thank you so much! I'll have to trouble you then!]
The call didn't go through until 3 a.m.
Zhao Wei created a group chat for Cheng Zhaozhao and Chen Nianke, and the two of them stayed in the group chat almost non-stop, waiting for messages.
At 3:13, Zhao Weiru sent a message in the group:
[She said yes, is now a convenient time for you?]
The two replied almost instantly: [Convenient!]
The call was answered quickly.
A voice that Cheng Zhaozhao knew all too well rang out from the other end:
"Hello, can you hear me?"
Almost the instant she heard that voice, Cheng Zhaozhao burst into tears.
She couldn't speak for a long time. Just as Fu Xianyin was about to ask if she hadn't heard, she heard Cheng Zhaozhao's voice, trembling with tears:
"You're still willing to answer my calls? I thought you never intended to be friends with me."
There was a few seconds of silence on the other end of the phone, followed by the sound of rustling footsteps.
About ten seconds later, Cheng Zhaozhao heard Fu Xianyin say, "I'm sorry, Zhaozhao, it was my fault."
Cheng Zhaozhao was crying so hard she could hardly breathe. She couldn't speak, she just kept crying.
It was Chen Nianke who spoke first, saying, "Yinyin, how have you been lately?"
“It’s fine,” Fu Xianyin said. She paused, then brought up the matter of leaving without saying goodbye: “What happened before was my fault. It was too sudden of me to just delete their contact information and leave. I’m sorry. At that time, I really didn’t know what to do.”
Chen Nianke asked, "Then would you still be willing to continue being friends with us?"
The other side paused for a long time.
Seemingly surprised by her direct question, Fu Xianyin remained silent for a long time. Just when Chen Nian was expecting a negative answer, she heard Fu Xianyin chuckle softly and say:
"OK."
“But,” she said, “could you do me a favor?”
"The matter you've been asking me about, could you..."
Her voice weakened, though her tone remained gentle, but Chen Nianke felt that Fu Xianyin's shoulders must have slumped.
Fu Xianyin said, "Could you...not tell Gu Linzhao?"
"No way!" Cheng Zhaozhao's voice was still trembling with tears, but she immediately said, "If you don't want us to tell him, we definitely won't tell him."
"Thanks."
Fu Xianyin said.
They chatted for a very long time that day, but it ended with Zhao Weiru's phone running out of battery.
Fu Xianyin told Chen Nianke and Cheng Zhaozhao everything. The amount of information was so overwhelming and shocking that the two were speechless for a long time.
Chen Nianke was relatively good at accepting things, but it took her a long time to recover.
As for Cheng Zhaozhao, she cried all night until dawn before going to sleep with swollen eyes, almost startling Xu Ning, who was getting up early for 8 a.m.
Xu Ning asked cautiously, "You...did you break up with your boyfriend? With that handsome guy from before?"
Cheng Zhaozhao:......
Her voice was still choked with sobs as she mumbled, "Loss my ass! I was never in a relationship with him. How can I lose a relationship?"
Xu Ning was shocked: "You two haven't talked yet?"
Cheng Zhaozhao: "...No."
Xu Ning said, "That shouldn't be the case." She sat down at the table and started putting on makeup, asking as she did so, "Does he usually chat with you?"
Cheng Zhaozhao was very upset and needed something else to distract herself. So she pulled up a chair and sat down next to Xu Ning, saying, "Let's... talk?"
She, Chen Nianke, Lin Anxu, and Gu Linzhao are in a group chat.
In the group chat, Lin Anxu usually posts the most, followed by Chen Nianke, who occasionally posts a few messages, while Gu Linzhao rarely posts.
So basically, it's just her and Lin Anxu talking most of the time.
Lin Anxu speaks in the group almost every day. Logically speaking, it's enough for the two of them to chat in the group.
But sometimes, Lin Anxu would send her messages that he wouldn't send in the group chat.
For example, you could ask her what her holiday plans are, when she's going back to Beichuan, or simply send her an emoji along with a sentence:
[Zhaozhao, how have you been these past few days?]
Cheng Zhaozhao hesitated for a moment, but still told Xu Ning all of this.
Xu Ning slapped his thigh and said, "Then what are you still doubting? I could have explained it in the group chat, so why would I repeat it to you separately? What else could this be but having feelings for you?"
Cheng Zhaozhao said, "But he just wanted to chat with me. We were very good friends in high school, and we often chatted together back then."
Xu Ning said, "But now that he's in college, he's met more people and is still willing to chat with you. What does that mean?"
Cheng Zhaozhao said, "Does that mean he likes chatting with me?"
Xu Ning said, "Remove the last four words."
She pulled Cheng Zhaozhao aside and analyzed a whole bunch of things. Finally, as dawn broke, she rushed off to her 8 AM class, not forgetting to leave Cheng Zhaozhao with a parting remark:
"I promise you, just wait and see, he will absolutely, absolutely, absolutely confess his feelings to you!"
Cheng Zhaozhao waited.
We waited from spring to summer, and from summer to spring again.
Even when she was almost ready to give up, she still hadn't heard the words Xu Ning had said:
He will confess his feelings to you.
On a California beach, Cheng Zhaozhao, wearing a swimsuit, lay with Fu Xianyin.
Fu Xianyin asked her, "So, do you like him now?"
Sunlight enveloped her body; Cheng Zhaozhao wore sunglasses, and the smell of ocean waves filled her nostrils.
She heard herself say, "Maybe I like it. But I don't know."
During high school, Cheng Zhaozhao couldn't help but envy Fu Xianyin and Gu Linzhao.
I envy their relationship, I envy that they like each other, and I envy how others automatically become background figures when they are together.
At that time, Cheng Zhaozhao thought, "I hope I can meet such love in the future."
However, as the years passed and reality shaped her, Cheng Zhaozhao finally understood.
That kind of pure love is rare, extremely rare.
In real life, there are many things to consider when it comes to love.
You need to consider whether it's suitable, how much love, how much affection, and what else is involved.
Do you have to consider whether you'll lose a friend after breaking up, and whether saying those words will really get you the lover you've always dreamed of?
She had resented Lin Anxu before.
Why, even though he clearly had feelings for her, would he refuse to say those words?
She had also struggled and hoped in the dead of night, and finally hid all her worries away little by little with the slowly rising sun.
But a few years later, she started to wonder again. If Lin Anxu had really said those words to her back then, would she have agreed?
Would she risk losing a good friend to start a relationship that she herself doesn't seem so confident about?
Cheng Zhaozhao did not know her answer.
But she knew she wouldn't be able to firmly choose the affirmative answer.
Lin Anxu should be the same.
Actually, there's nothing wrong with that.
Actually, no one was wrong.
It was right for Lin Anxu to talk to her, and it was right for her to have hoped for these things.
They kept silent, tacitly agreeing not to speak, and that wasn't wrong.
Ultimately, perhaps it's just that I don't like it enough.
How much of it is affection, and how much is love?
After measuring and calculating, it's not much.
Then let these faint feelings and love dissipate with time.
Later, after many twists and turns, Fu Xianyin and Gu Linzhao finally got together.
Cheng Zhaozhao cried uncontrollably at the wedding. Through her teary eyes, she saw Lin Anxu, who was standing opposite her as a groomsman in a suit, also raise his hand to wipe his eyes.
I can't quite explain why.
But at that moment, Cheng Zhaozhao suddenly felt that the little affection she had left in her heart was gradually dissipating with the tears that welled up.
She still envies love like Fu Xianyin's, and a small part of her still hopes that such love will one day come to her.
But this time, all I'm hoping for is a relationship.
[Author's Note]
Originally, this chapter should have been considered a side story for the secondary couple, but as I was writing, I realized that it would be more accurate to call it a side story for Zhao Zhao.
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