"Where is the child..." It took him a long time to find his voice, which trembled uncontrollably.
"The child is gone." Gu Fanyan lowered her face. "I'm sorry, I didn't protect it."
"That night I had a terrible stomachache, it was raining heavily, my car broke down, and I couldn't get a taxi... I was running alone in the rain..."
Her voice gradually choked with emotion. Every time she recalled what happened that night, it felt like her heart was being cut by a knife...
Lin Zhibai snapped back to his senses and immediately reached out to pull her into his arms tenderly.
He understood why she had suddenly gone abroad at that time.
She is pregnant.
However, both sets of parents strongly opposed their relationship at the time.
She went abroad to secretly hide away and give birth to that child.
"Don't say anymore," he said, holding her tightly, his heart filled with self-reproach. "I understand, I understand everything..."
"It's my fault. I failed to protect you and the child."
As she spoke, Gu Fanyan felt a cool sensation run down her neck.
She was stunned for a moment before she realized that these were his tears.
He must have felt heartbroken too.
How could she have ever thought that he didn't care?
If she had told him this sooner, perhaps they wouldn't have hurt each other for so long.
“Lin Zhibai,” she straightened up and held his face in her hands, “it’s been a long time since then, let’s forget about it.”
"Sister Fanyan, punish me." He grabbed her hand and pressed it tightly against his cheek: "Punishing me will make me feel better."
Gu Fanyan shook her head: "Do you think I'm telling you this to punish you?"
"There's something I've always wanted to tell you, but every time I get to the point, I just don't have the courage."
Gu Fanyan took a deep breath. "But we can't delay any longer today."
"Don't say it!" Lin Zhibai pressed his finger to her lips. "No matter what you want to say, don't say it."
"All I want is for you to marry me, all I want is for you to be with me, I don't care about anything else."
His tone was firm, but his handsome eyes were filled with helplessness.
In all his life, nothing had ever made him feel "absolutely necessary," except for her.
He would defy the whole world if he could have her.
“Lin Zhibai…” Gu Fanyan couldn’t help but shed tears, like a shooting star streaking across the winter night sky, poignant and desperate.
It was as if even his embrace couldn't warm the cold.
There was nothing he could do but hold her tighter.
In the end, she couldn't bring herself to say what she had originally intended to say.
That night, she fell asleep in his arms.
The two huddled together, like two heartbroken people seeking warmth.
As dawn approached, she woke up first and looked up to see his sharply defined face.
Unlike Lu Dongjue, he was not sharp and ruthless. He was gentle and kind to everyone. Only after spending a long time with him did you realize that he was warm on the outside but cold on the inside.
Very few people can truly get into his heart.
Once someone enters his heart, it's hard to erase them from his memory.
At this moment, however, his brow was furrowed, and there were newly sprouted bluish stubble on his chin.
Even when she's sound asleep, she's still worried; it must be because she's worried about her.
She quietly stepped out of his embrace, picked up her phone, and found that he had sent her a message.
I sent it last night; she should have been asleep by then.
No matter what happens, I'll be here for you.
A smile involuntarily appeared on Gu Fanyan's lips, but then she turned her mouth down and tears welled up in her eyes.
He probably wants to spend the rest of his life making up for the hurt she suffered.
She decided that she should still say what needed to be said last night.
So she picked up her phone and sent him a message.
She walked out of the community gate. It was a little after six in the morning, and there were already quite a few pedestrians coming and going on the road.
She stood at the gate for a while, her mind blank, not knowing where she should go.
After thinking for a moment, she called Yun Suiwan.
"Wanwan, I'm sorry to bother you so early."
“It’s not bothering me at all,” Yun Suiwan replied immediately. “I’ve been waiting for your call.”
"Why were you waiting for my call?" Gu Fanyan asked after they met.
“I guess you told Lin Zhibai about that.” Yun Suiwan pursed her lips, her eyes filled with pity: “Sister Fanyan, I’ve been hoping you would tell me, so that you could be freed from your pain.”
“I can’t get rid of it,” Gu Fanyan said with a bitter smile, “I won’t be able to have children anymore.”
Yun Suiwan's hand holding the coffee cup trembled, spilling coffee onto her hand. She didn't bother wiping it away, her eyes filled with panic: "How could this happen! You were so young back then, even if... it wouldn't be this bad!"
“Not back then,” Gu Fanyan shook her head gently, “Do you remember the night Murong Mo fell into the sea? I jumped into the sea to look for him.”
Yun Suiwan remembers it very clearly.
At that moment, Sheng Xin was talking to her, but she was a step too slow; otherwise, she could have stopped Gu Fanyan from jumping into the sea.
After Gu Fanyan jumped into the sea, she remained motionless for a long time, which frightened everyone.
"Later, I was hospitalized because of the cold and rested for a long time," Gu Fanyan continued. "Later, the doctor told me that because of the abnormal miscarriage before, I had some sequelae. This time, I stayed in the sea for too long and damaged my body. It will be difficult for me to get pregnant again in the future."
Yun Suiwan closed her eyes tightly, feeling the anger surging through her body.
She wanted to kill Sheng Xin!
If it weren't for Sheng Xin, she could have easily stopped Gu Fanyan!
This will never happen!
"Don't be angry," Gu Fanyan said. "Sheng Xin is now pregnant with a child she doesn't want at all. I don't know if that counts as punishment."
Yun Suiwan gritted her teeth: "So, I still have to make sure she gives birth to this child and let her experience what it's like to be a single mother!"
Although the child was innocent, Yun Suiwan didn't want to think too much about it.
Gu Fanyan didn't speak. She understood that Yun Suiwan was only angry for a moment.
After a moment, Yun Suiwan calmed down slightly and asked, "Does Lin Zhibai know about this?"
Gu Fanyan nodded. Before leaving the apartment, she sent him a message on her phone about this.
"You told him!" Yun Suiwan exclaimed in surprise, her concern for her growing. "Aren't you two planning to get married?"
"I told him because I'm getting ready to get married."
Yun Suiwan was taken aback; she couldn't say for sure whether Gu Fanyan's action was right or wrong.
However, Lin Zhibai's reaction next will be very important.
Yun Suiwan really wanted to call Lin Zhibai to test his reaction.
But she could only be an observer of such a private matter.
When necessary, you should pretend you know nothing.
Just then, Gu Fanyan's phone rang.
She glanced at it, and her expression immediately changed.
It was Lin Zhibai who called.
Yun Suiwan's heart was also in suspense.
He saw the message, didn't he?
What will he say?
She was worried for Gu Fanyan.
Gu Fanyan was also a little nervous, but she had to face it eventually, so she gritted her teeth and answered the phone.
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