Chapter 463: Fate plays tricks on me, I missed it after all
Fu Yunqing's words were like a key that suddenly opened Xiyan's dusty memories.
Their first encounter on the streets of Nanzhao, the warmth of his hand as he held hers while writing in the academy, his composure as he played the bow for her at the horse racing track, the way he pursed his lips in the piano room when she hit a wrong note...
Those fragments that were covered by resentment and misunderstanding are now as clear as yesterday.
Her shoulders trembled slightly, and she could no longer hold back her tears, which slid down her cheeks.
It turns out that those fragmented moments were already filled with his unspoken feelings.
She opened her mouth, her voice nasal and as light as a sigh:
"I...I thought he never cared..."
"Silly girl."
Fu Yunqing shook her head. "He just hid his love too deeply, so deeply that he almost forgot how to express it."
Xiyan lowered her head and looked at her slightly trembling hands, feeling a surge of bitterness in her heart.
Nine years of entanglement and nine years of misunderstanding, it turns out that they all stem from the deep affection that they are unwilling to express to each other.
She just stood there by the desk, not even noticing when Fu Yunqing left.
After a while, she looked at the sky outside the window, tears falling silently like beads from a broken string...
Xiyan was immersed in Fu Yunqing's words, with all the past events swirling in her mind, when she suddenly heard a very soft call from her side, as hoarse as window paper torn by the wind:
"Xiyan..."
She was delighted and turned her head suddenly to look - Helian Feng was awake!
He had been in a coma for several days. At this moment, his eyelashes trembled and he slowly opened his eyes.
Xiyan quickly wiped away the tears on her cheeks and stepped forward quickly, with concern in her voice that was hard to conceal:
"Are you awake?"
When their eyes met, Helian Feng's eyes were filled with complex emotions, including pain, sadness, and deep regret.
He looked at Xiyan's slightly haggard face, with faint blue shadows under her eyes. It was obvious that she had put a lot of effort into taking care of him these days.
He raised his hand with difficulty, and gently stroked her cheek with his fingertips, his voice so weak that it sounded like a sigh:
"I... am not dead yet? I can still see you, this must not be a dream."
"You were hit by Xiao Beicheng's Blue Bone-Eroding Sorrow. It was Chu Jin who arrived in time and gave you the antidote, which saved your life." Xiyan held his slightly cold hand and explained softly.
When Helian Feng heard Chu Jin's name, his face was slightly startled, then he nodded, as if remembering something, and asked again: "Where am I now?"
"Ningxin Palace. Zichen Palace caught fire a while ago and is still under repair."
Helian Feng couldn't help coughing a few times and struggled to sit up.
Xiyan quickly took a soft pillow to place behind him, carefully helped him lean against the couch, and poured him a glass of warm water.
Helian Feng took the cup, took a few sips, and his expression eased a little.
He did not ask about the situation in the court. Perhaps in his opinion, with Xiao Nan's decisiveness, it must have been handled long ago.
After a moment of silence, he looked at Xi Yan and asked softly:
"Xiyan, Xiao Nanyan... asked you to take care of me?"
Xiyan nodded slightly.
A wave of bitterness surged in Helian Feng's heart, and he sighed helplessly:
"He's fine."
Then, he seemed to remember something, and said in a heavy tone:
"The bodies of the Queen Mother and Shu'er..."
"They have been temporarily placed in Tamamo Palace. When you feel better, you can personally hold the funeral for them."
A hint of surprise flashed across Helian Feng's eyes:
"Xiao Nanyan, he actually let me deal with him? After all, we..." The words came to his lips, but he couldn't say the word "rebellion" in the end.
"Their identities are still royal family after all. One is the queen mother and the other is a princess. Especially Helian Shu's background, which concerns the reputation of the royal family and has not been made public. It is most appropriate for you to come forward." Xiyan explained.
Helian Feng nodded slightly.
Xi Yan looked at his pale face and whispered:
"Don't you hate me? I personally took Helian Shu's life."
Helian Feng shook his head, his face full of shame:
"Perhaps, the blood flowing in Shu'er's bones is a mixture of Xiao Beicheng's poison and her mother's cruelty. She has tried to kill you time and time again, and it is all her own fault. You are not to blame."
There was a moment of silence between the two of them, and a faint sadness filled the air.
After a moment, Helian Feng looked at Xi Yan and suddenly spoke:
"Just now, I was awake for a while and heard the conversation between you and Fu Yunqing."
Seeing Xiyan's slightly blushing face, he paused, with a hint of relief in his voice:
"Xiao Nanyan... He truly loves you more than I do, and only he can bring you true happiness. And you, in your heart, have always loved him, but I was simply too persistent."
He smiled bitterly and continued:
"But, I really wanted to love you well, wanted you to be my wife, to accompany me to see the vast land. Unfortunately, fate played tricks on us, and we missed each other in the end."
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