Chapter 46
Gu Zijin replied with an ellipsis, turned around and fell on the desk laughing.
He knew with his toes that Shen Yuqing was probably defeated by something Xia Ruirui said.
But he was a little curious about who Shen Gou's imaginary enemy was this time.
Gu Zijin glanced at the photo and found that the man looked familiar, but after so many years, he couldn't remember who he was.
It wasn't until he stared at his face for several seconds that he suddenly remembered.
Isn't this Shen Gou's imaginary rival in high school - Ji Chuyao!
That very showy man.
But speaking of show-offs, Shen Yuqing took a green train all night for someone to beat up the man who bullied Xia Ruirui.
Actually, he is more showy, even more so.
Gu Zijin glanced at the message that Shen Yuqing had just sent - [Who looks more abstinent, me or the man on the second right?]
If someone else sent him this kind of message, he would definitely not reply.
But Shen Gou sent it, and Gu Zijin still replied.
【you. 】
I thought the topic ended here, but who knew that some show-off would post another one.
[Who is better looking, me or him? ]
【……】
Gu Zijin was upset, he really wanted to complain.
But when he thought that someone might think Xia Ruirui didn't love him, he started to get angry again.
So he held back and complained back to him.
【you. 】
Gu Zijin waited for a while and didn't receive any more messages. Then he breathed a sigh of relief and tiptoed back to the bedroom.
Looking at Shen Qingli, who was sleeping in a sprawling manner and occupying the entire bed, the corners of his mouth rose uncontrollably.
Suddenly I understand Shen Gou.
He remembered that one year when he was in school, he was worried that Shen Qingli might not like him anymore.
Maybe men in love will occasionally lack confidence.
Gu Zijin lay down on the bed gently. He didn't want to wake up Shen Qingli, but Shen Qingli turned over and hugged him.
She was half asleep and felt his presence, sobbing and calling out "baby".
Gu Zijin's smile deepened. He patted her back without saying a word and fell asleep due to her sleepiness.
*
On the other side, Shen Yuqing looked at Gu Zijin's reply, but didn't believe it. He was still struggling with what Xia Ruirui had just said.
After Xia Ruirui said that she had suffered from depression, he immediately thought of her abnormal behavior in her senior year of high school.
She was a little abnormal in her senior year of high school. It was clearly free time, and she used to love free time the most. But before the college entrance examination, she acted out of character and just stayed quietly.
At that time, he thought she was in a bad mood because she didn't do well in the exam and her grades dropped.
Now that I think about it, she must have been suffering from depression at that time, which is why she had no interest in anything.
After learning that Xia Ruirui distanced herself from him not because she hated him, but because she was mentally ill, Shen Yuqing's mood did not improve.
He felt like a big bastard, he knew nothing about her pain and even hated her.
Even knowing that Xia Ruirui liked Ji Chuyao very much, he felt much more relieved.
If being with Ji Chuyao can make her happy, he will sincerely bless her.
I just simply don’t want to bless Ji Chuyao.
He and Xia Ruirui had never been in a relationship, so the ex she was talking about couldn't be him.
In addition, on the day of the teacher appreciation banquet, he saw Ji Chuyao walking towards Xia Ruirui, and he was clearly about to confess his love to her.
As for Xia Ruirui's feeling that Ji Chuyao looked very ascetic, Shen Yuqing found it a little ridiculous.
Ji Chuyao looks like a fox in estrus, emitting his hormones all the time.
She would think that he looked ascetic, which was simply the case that beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
Thinking that Xia Ruirui liked him to the point where she couldn't tell right from wrong, he felt uncomfortable in his heart.
Shen Yuqing stared at the game interface in a daze.
Because he was worried that Xia Ruirui wouldn't be able to find him after she came online, he had been playing the game since she went offline yesterday.
Even when he was eating, he kept the tablet in his hand and watched it while eating, for fear of missing her when she came online.
In fact, he hadn't played this game for many years. He clicked on this game yesterday by chance, but he didn't expect that she was online too.
The reason he played this game was because of her.
Later I stopped playing because she stopped playing...
*
The summer of 2016 was hotter than previous summers.
Shen Yuqing worked as a bricklayer at a construction site for two months and finally earned enough money for his freshman year tuition.
At that time, he had just received the admission letter from Xijing University, but the first thing he did was not to open his letter.
Instead, he took his ID card to an Internet cafe and checked the official website of Beiyi University.
There were a lot of new students at Beiyi University that year, and Shen Yuqing searched for a long time before he saw Xia Ruirui's name on the last few pages.
The joy on his face the moment he saw her name was genuine.
Although he was devastated by her rejection at that time, he still cared about her in his heart.
He was afraid that she would be sad because she didn't get into the university she wanted to go to, and he didn't want her to be sad.
Since Xia Ruirui was admitted to the university she wanted to go to, even though they were not in the same university... she seemed to dislike him a little.
But Shen Yuqing was still sincerely happy for her.
He thought about persuading himself to let it go, but found that he really couldn't do it.
He fell in love with Xia Ruirui earlier than he thought, and this feeling was deeper than he imagined.
After Xijing University started, he learned from Shen Qingli that Xia Ruirui was addicted to playing games.
He knew her account number, but he didn’t add her as Shen Yuqing.
He didn't dare, and was afraid that she would hate him even more.
He could accept that Xia Ruirui didn't like him, but he couldn't accept her dislike for him.
For a long time, she was his meaning of life and his motivation to get up.
Call him cowardly or spineless, he just couldn't accept her dislike.
Shen Yuqing would secretly check Xia Ruirui's game account every day to see who she played games with.
Did you win or lose? Did you stay up late?
He knew why her game ID was Beautiful Wolf, and he knew she had watched a movie.
I also know that Xia Ruirui shed tears because of the friendship between the wolf and the boy in that movie.
Shen Yuqing has been quietly following her Weibo and also has her Douban account.
He knew that she didn't like posting her selfies on Weibo, and he also knew that she went to the bookstore and played badminton once a week.
He knows everything.
He reads every Weibo post by Xia Ruirui and every movie review she posts on Douban.
He watched all the movies she had seen, trying to get a glimpse into her life through them.
But because he was worried about being discovered, he has always been very cautious and left almost no trace on social media.
He originally wanted to be a complete bystander, continuing to feel her joys and sorrows in the dark like a rat in a gutter.
But one day, his emotions flared up so badly that he impulsively registered a gaming account.
The game id is called Lone Wolf.
After adding Xia Ruirui as his gaming friend, he has been disguising himself as a stranger online.
When she accepted his game friend request, he was so happy that he couldn't sleep all night.
He tried to pretend to be a sensible stranger and lurked in her friend list.
The only thing he did was to send Xia Ruirui a team application when she came online.
It just so happened that she agreed to all of them.
During those two years, the meaning of his life became playing games with Xia Ruirui.
The first thing he did when he woke up every morning was to check if she was online.
But later, for some reason, she seemed not to want to play games with him anymore.
Shen Yuqing didn't understand. He had obviously been very cautious and didn't reveal any flaws. He never used the microphone and even deliberately changed the order of his words.
But she logged into the game less and less frequently.
He didn't dare ask her why she wasn't online anymore, for fear of her disgusted look.
Just like the cold look she gave him at the teacher appreciation banquet that day that kept him at a distance.
I was also afraid of hearing Xia Ruirui say that she was in love with Ji Chuyao and that it was an excuse for her to maintain boundaries with him.
He watched as the frequency with which she logged into the game went from daily to three times a week, and then to once a week.
Finally, it is once a month and once a year.
He watched her walk away, but he didn't even have the right to keep her... until that phone call many years later.
He called Shen Qingli originally to ask her about the contract, but her voice came from the other end of the phone.
They hadn't seen each other for six years, but she was still so heartless that the first thing she said to him was: "Guess who I am."
The funny thing was, he recognized her the moment she opened her mouth.
It was a long-lost feeling of familiarity, but also a sharp tug of emotions.
Just five words brought him back to the afternoon when they first met in the first year of high school.
Shen Yuqing didn't know how to describe the emotional ups and downs that phone call that day had caused him.
He seemed to have turned back into the self-deprecating boy in his senior year of high school. He was enveloped in immense joy, but on the other side of that joy was endless helplessness and panic.
In the end, he hung up the phone, and only he knew the turmoil he was going through in his heart.
After hanging up the phone, he was left with heart palpitations that lasted for several days.
He thought that after this reunion with her, he could finally be with her.
But I didn't expect Xia Ruirui to be as hot and cold as before, or even worse.
She said she was thinking about her ex. When Shen Yuqing heard this, he wanted to ask her if she had thought about him, Shen Yuqing, over the years.
In the two thousand days and nights that they had not seen each other, had she ever thought of him once?
Did she ever like him, even for a moment?
But Shen Yuqing didn't dare to ask any of these questions, for fear of pushing people further away.
Even if he could only keep in touch with her as an online friend, he would be satisfied.
He has never been a greedy person, that's enough.
*
In the next few days, the two of them played games day and night.
Xia Ruirui didn't know whether she was addicted to the Internet or something was wrong with her brain.
Every time she plays games with this gaming tycoon, she feels extremely familiar with him.
Although the pattern of the games they played a few years ago was that she would fall to the ground, then he would help her up, and then they would fall to the ground again.
But what made her feel more familiar than this familiar one-way rescue mode was his voice.
Or rather, the sound of his breathing.
This gaming teammate whom she had never met always gave her the illusion that he was Shen Yuqing.
When he encounters a tough enemy, his breathing will fluctuate greatly. Although the sound is not very obvious, it can make people feel his changing emotions.
It's like taking small, deep breaths.
He never lost his temper and was rarely impatient.
But when she fell to the ground frequently, he would sigh helplessly.
But it is also different from the sighs of others. It is a very special breathing sound, which suddenly accelerates and then becomes smooth after calming down.
Xia Ruirui had only seen this kind of emotional regulation in one person, and that was Shen Yuqing, a freshman in high school...
At that time, he had not yet fallen in love with her, and he exuded a cold and aloof aura, but he had to endure her "offense".
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