Chapter 65
Shen Yuqing knew that Xia Ruirui had come.
He thought she wouldn't come.
Xia Ruirui always liked to escape, especially at critical moments. Every time he took a step closer to her, she would take a step back.
When he saw that she didn't come to see him, he thought she would retreat this time too.
In fact, this time he wanted her to step back. He didn't want her to see him in such a mess, unable to take care of himself.
But my concern for her still outweighs my self-esteem.
Shen Yuqing turned towards Xia Ruirui and asked calmly, "Are you hurt?"
He did not ask her why she had not come to see him in the morning, because the question was meaningless and he was afraid to hear the answer.
Therefore, he just asked her if she was injured. He had already known the answer from Gu Zijin, but he still asked despite knowing the answer.
The moment she heard his voice, Xia Ruirui's emotions, which had originally adjusted themselves, became unstable again.
She suppressed the sourness in her nose and shook her head.
After shaking her head, she realized that he couldn't see her. She felt suffocated and uncomfortable: "No, it's just some superficial injuries."
Shen Yuqing couldn't see her expression, but he felt bitter when he heard her voice, as if he was just trying to find something to say: "Why are you here?"
As soon as he asked this question, he suddenly recalled the day he met Xia Ruirui again in the hospital.
At that time, she was going to have a hemorrhoid surgery. He listened to Gu Zijin's instigation and thought that something was wrong with Xia Ruirui, so he brought flowers to visit her.
He stayed to take care of her, but she asked when he would leave.
Now that I think about it, Xia Ruirui didn't necessarily welcome him at the time. She was just embarrassed and felt that he had seen her in such a miserable state.
Now he has nothing to say and is just making small talk out of embarrassment.
Across from her, Xia Ruirui held back her tears and deliberately made a joke, "I was afraid you missed me too much, so I came here."
It is true that I miss her and wonder if she is okay, but it is also true that I don’t want her to see me now.
Shen Yuqing chuckled, feeling that fate was truly ironic.
When he tried hard to ask Xia Ruirui for love, she always avoided him. Now that she loves him, he wants to escape.
He was extremely confused at first. He didn't understand why Xia Ruirui pushed him away again and again when she obviously liked him.
Now that he was in such a dire situation, all the confusion he had been having for so many years was resolved, as if everything had suddenly become clear.
What he considered to be just depression was, for Xia Ruirui, a disease that could potentially drag her down.
Because I feel that I am not good enough, I am afraid, fearful and inferior. Although I really like the other person, I also sincerely hope that the other person can have a better choice.
When he could have put himself in her shoes, he was about to push her away with his own hands.
When Xia Ruirui loved him the most.
Shen Yuqing changed his mind and comforted himself that it was fine this way. At least he would be Xia Ruirui's white moonlight and she would be remembered forever.
Even if they will never meet again in the future.
Shen Yuqing felt that this was a good decision for both of them. At least he absolutely could not bear to be in such an embarrassing state in front of her.
He can do this in front of anyone except Xia Ruirui, because he loves her.
As if he had made some kind of decision on his own, Shen Yuqing looked at her with his voice: "Xia Ruirui, let's break up."
"Go find someone better. At least someone who is visible." He just said this to himself in his heart.
Xia Ruirui ignored his unilateral breakup, holding back her tears and pretending not to hear it.
But she didn't expect that the person who had always indulged her would actually start to force her: "If you don't agree, I will go on a hunger strike."
When he said this, he was extremely shocked. He didn't expect that he would be so willful.
Xia Ruirui still ignored him, but Shen Yuqing really started a hunger strike.
She fed his lunch to his mouth, but he never opened it. Even when she forced it in, he spit it out.
With blood in his mouth.
There was food vomited by Shen Yuqing everywhere. It should have been a disgusting scene, but Xia Ruirui only felt sorry for him.
Her heart ached so much that she couldn't breathe, it felt like she was being torn apart, even more painful than when she rejected Shen Yuqing at the teacher's appreciation banquet.
She begged him to eat, but he remained silent.
Xia Ruirui completely broke down, put the food aside, hugged him and kissed him like crazy.
However, Shen Yuqing did not resist at all until she kissed his tears that slipped from the gauze, and Xia Ruirui was completely desperate.
She hugged him tightly, her voice choked and trembling slightly: "Shen Yuqing, the doctor said that you had surgery on your eyes and you can't shed tears."
She hugged him and kissed away his tears very gently, but his tears continued to flow silently.
Xia Ruirui helplessly pressed her cheek against his. Their cheeks touched, and their tears mixed together, making it impossible to tell whose tears they were.
Are lovers more intimate when they are in perfect harmony, or are they more intimate when they shed tears while revealing their vulnerability to each other?
Xia Ruirui didn't know the answer either, but when she saw Shen Yuqing's exposed vulnerability, her heart ached to the extreme.
She gently held Shen Yuqing's cheek with her hands, and even wanted to take out her heart and tell him how she felt.
However, he poured a basin of cold water with ice cubes on her: "Xia Ruirui, I don't like you anymore."
She knew that what he said was against his will, but she still burst into tears.
At this moment, she seemed to understand how much of an asshole she was at that time. She had clearly decided to take those 99 steps towards him, but he backed down at the last minute.
Shen Yuqing, this coward!
She scolded in her heart, but she couldn't help but think deeply, was Shen Yuqing as sad as she is now?
Did her avoidance cause him pain and torture countless times?
Xia Ruirui wiped away her own tears, and also wiped away Shen Yuqing’s tears.
She knew that Shen Yuqing was so stubborn that even nine bulls couldn't pull him back, so she finally compromised.
“Chen Yuqing, after you finish this bowl of rice, we will break up.”
“…”
He said nothing more and took the food she handed over.
He fumbled for the spoon and ate slowly.
He had clearly only half a bowl of rice left because of his efforts, but he still took a long time to finish it.
Xia Ruirui silently looked at Shen Yuqing who was holding the empty spoon and still mechanically holding it in his mouth. She felt that her heart was torn apart by the person in front of her.
She couldn't bear to watch any longer, so she said "I'm leaving" and ran out.
After she left, Shen Yuqing walked to the window, feeling the wind blowing on his face. He hesitated for a moment and wanted to jump down.
Thinking of Xia Ruirui's depression, he gave up the idea.
"She will be sad." He murmured, already a little numb.
*
After leaving the hospital, Xia Ruirui did not go home immediately, but went to a law firm.
The police said that Zhang Ye had been arrested and the court had accepted the case as a criminal case.
But things became difficult when the suspect presented evidence of mental disorder.
After Xia Ruirui knew about it, she found a lawyer and went to the law firm to discuss the case.
The lawyer said that he had met the suspect and read the medical records he provided, which were indeed true.
"Our current approach is to prove that the suspect committed the crime when he was mentally competent, so that he can be held criminally responsible."
The lawyer was very calm and poured Xia Ruirui a glass of warm water.
Hearing this, Xia Ruirui frowned: "What will the verdict be if this cannot be proven?"
Lawyer Huang propped up his glasses with his index finger. "According to past practice, he would likely be placed under the care of a guardian or sent to a psychiatric hospital for treatment."
Xia Ruirui was so angry that her eyes turned red. After calming down, she exchanged a few words and left the office.
After leaving the office, she still did not go home, but took the high-speed train to Xijing.
It was already evening when I took a taxi from Xijing Station to Shen Yuqing's house.
Shen Yuqing's hospitalization was not just for a week or two. He needed to stay in the hospital until the stitches were removed.
But he didn't have any change of clothes. Although he had two sets of clothes at Beiyi, someone still needed to go there.
Xia Ruirui stood in front of Shen Yuqing's apartment, looking at the combination lock on his house, and couldn't help but feel a pang of pain in her nose.
The password to his house is 0218, her birthday.
She knew it the last time she sent him home drunk.
At that time, I thought he was seriously ill, but now I think she is seriously ill.
If she had known this day would come, she would never have pushed him away again and again. However, there is no such thing as "if" in this world, and there is no such thing as knowing it earlier.
Xia Ruirui took off her shoes and went straight to the bedroom. She originally came just to get some of his clothes, but changed her mind when she passed by his study.
She wanted to get a glimpse into his past; she wanted to know what he had been through during the years they hadn't been in touch.
However, she was completely stunned as soon as she entered the study, as if she was getting to know someone all over again.
There were several trophies on the upper shelf of the bookshelf, which seemed to be medals he won in e-sports competitions.
But what shocked her was not those things, but a transparent display cabinet in the middle of the bookshelf.
The glass outside the display cabinet is shiny, and even the inside is spotless. It can be seen that the owner attaches great importance to it.
But in such a large display cabinet, there were only a handful of things, and they all seemed to be related to Xia Ruirui.
She was surprised at first, and then a little amused.
She opened the glass and picked up one of the Polaroid photos to look at it carefully. It seemed to be a photo of her and Shen Yuqing in a western restaurant.
It seems like it happened half a year ago, yet it also seems like it happened just yesterday.
At that time, because of a joke between her and the nurse, saying that Shen Yuqing liked men, the entertainment reporters who were squatting in the hospital believed it to be true and it became a hot topic.
She still remembered the title at that time, which seemed to be——
"Lone Wolf" meets a beautiful woman in the hospital late at night. Is she a male friend or the white moonlight in his heart?
Xia Ruirui only found out about this after Shen Qingli reminded her. She bought some snacks and went to his house to apologize, but he asked her to treat him to a meal.
They made the appointment at this restaurant, and this Polaroid photo was taken by the waiter at that time.
She found it a little funny, put the Polaroid camera back, and picked up the card with cat stickers on both sides.
It had been so long that she couldn't quite recognize what it was.
It wasn't until one side of the card fell off due to loss of stickiness and she looked at Shen Yuqing's student number on it that she realized that this was his meal card from high school.
I didn't expect that Shen Yuqing, who has such a cold personality, is actually quite boring and would even put a cat-patterned sticker on his meal card.
She thought she was the only one who liked to use stickers, but this surprised her.
In addition to the Polaroid photo, there is also a photo of her and Shen Yuqing in high school.
It seemed to be taken in winter. He still had the same sour face as always, but she was smiling brightly.
Xia Ruirui looked at the laminated photo and said to herself with some emotion: "I have been beautiful since I was a child."
She was about to close the glass door when she saw a wooden box behind it...
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