Chapter 30 All are her memories, all are her past



Liu Ruoxue took Xu Fengwu back to her home, put a tub of hot water in it, and asked Xu Fengwu to take a hot bath, at least to ensure that he would not catch a cold. Then Liu Ruoxue asked Xu Fengwu for Xu Yihan's cell phone number, called Xu Yihan to identify herself, told her about Xu Fengwu's situation, and told her that Xu Fengwu might not be able to come back tonight.

There was a barely perceptible sigh from the other end of the phone, and then the voice thanked Liu Ruoxue.

Soon Xu Fengwu, wrapped in a bath towel, walked out of the bathroom. Seeing this, Liu Ruoxue handed her Xia Ruoming's pajamas and hair dryer.

"This is my daughter's pajamas. It may be a little big for you, but make do with it. We don't have any other clothes." Liu Ruoxue brought Xu Fengwu to Xia Ruoming's bedroom and said to her, "Go dry your hair first. The socket is on the left side of the desk. Ruoming won't be back today, so you can sleep here without worry. It's okay. Her quilt cover and pillowcase were just changed recently, and the quilt has just been washed, so there is no smell."

"Thank you, Aunt Liu...I don't mind." Xu Fengwu replied in a low voice.

"Wouldn't it be too formal to say thank you? You and Ruoming are so close. When you come here, I will treat you as my own daughter. Wait a minute, I'll make you a cup of hot buckwheat tea. It's good for your health. Be careful not to catch a cold when you're wandering around outside in such a cold rainy day." Liu Ruoxue touched Xu Fengwu's head, smiled lovingly, then walked out of the bedroom to pour her some water.

Xu Fengwu just bit his lip and didn't dare to answer. If Liu Ruoxue knew about his current relationship with Xia Ruoming, would she still care about him so much?

"Leave your phone number to Auntie. If something like this happens again, just come over directly." Liu Ruoxue put the bitter buckwheat tea brewed with boiling water on the desk. "If you feel uncomfortable, be sure to tell Auntie. Auntie will get you medicine. If you need anything, just tell me directly. Just treat this as your own home, Xiao Xu."

"Thank you, Auntie..." Although Liu Ruoxue told her not to be so polite, she couldn't really not thank her.

Holding a cup of warm buckwheat tea, Xu Fengwu sat on Xia Ruoming's bed. There was a faint scent of jasmine in the room, which was her favorite smell. Xia Ruoming once imagined that she would go home with him one day, so the wall-mounted incense in the room was always filled with her favorite jasmine incense.

Xia Ruoming's room is not very big, and it seems even more crowded with the addition of two upright bookshelves. There are many single volumes of cute comics on the bookshelves, the Taiwanese version of "The Vampire Girl Next Door" and "Yuru Yuri", and a separate layer is used to store each month's "ic Yuri". The other bookshelf is filled with hardcover copies of some social mystery novels, most of which are novels by Keigo Higashino, such as "Detective Galileo".

Various Houbunsha comics peripherals were scattered around the room, and hanging on the head of the bed was a string of purple wind chimes.

Xu Fengwu remembered the string of wind chimes because it was one of the few return gifts she gave to Xia Ruoming. It seemed to be a gift from a department store. She had no use for it so she just gave it to Xia Ruoming. Xia Ruoming was happy for several days at that time.

Xia Ruoming treated this ordinary wind chime as a treasure and hung it on the head of her bed for several years, keeping it as good as new with no dust ever appearing on it.

In the corner of the windowsill were placed the flowers that Xia Ruoming grew herself, as well as some withered failed flower arrangements. There were some clumsy paintings on the pink and purple curtains, recording her immature fantasies about Xu Fengwu.

There were many notebooks on the desk, most of which were short stories written by Xia Ruoming herself. Of course, the heroines in them were all Xu Fengwu. After her rebirth, she did not have time to throw these things away. When she was in the second year of high school, there was a drama performance. Xia Ruoming even wrote a script specifically for Xu Fengwu. As a result, Xu Fengwu ridiculed her and asked her if it was disgusting that she fantasized about herself every day.

Xia Ruoming is clearly not here, but it seems like she is everywhere.

Xu Fengwu tried hard to hold back her tears. She could cry when she was alone, but she didn't want to do that now. Liu Ruoxue was still here, and it was clearly her own fault. Crying here would make Liu Ruoxue worry.

There was also a tin can in a glass box on the bookshelf. Xu Fengwu took it down and took a look. It seemed to contain a Budweiser Black Gold series beer can. There was also a piece of paper on the back of the glass box with a portrait of a young girl sketched in pencil. Although it was very sloppy, Xu Fengwu still recognized that it was himself.

There was a sentence written at the bottom: "Farewell, our white moonlight, and our dreams of youth. No matter how sentimental the stars are, they can't light up the world of the moon. The cold wind under the moon that night has blown away my fantasy. Let the past be buried in memories. The dream has ended. Our story ends here. From now on, I am me, not anyone's Xia Ruoming, and I don't live for anyone."

A broken heart emoji was drawn in red next to it.

These words were filled with literary connotations of youthful pain, but they pierced Xu Fengwu's heart like a knife.

Xia Ruoming woke up from her dream, but Xu Fengwu was trapped in the dream called the past and could never get out of it.

On the rooftop under the moon, Xu Fengwu knew very well what Xia Ruoming was writing. It was the night when Xia Ruoming confessed her love to him, and the words he said deeply hurt her.

Xu Fengwu only felt his eyes blurred, breathing difficult, and endless sadness and pain surged in his heart.

Because of her broken heart, Xia Ruoming decided to give up on her and wake up from the beautiful dream that only had a happy ending in fantasy.

I don’t know what Xia Ruoming went through that night, but after that night, Xia Ruoming’s attitude towards her changed fundamentally.

With tears all over her face, Xu Fengwu buried her face in the pillow and cried softly, but she felt as if she was hit by something hard.

She reached under her pillow and found a small metal box.

When I saw this box, memories of Xia Ruoming came to my mind again.

Xu Fengwu knew what was in the box because she had an identical box that contained a Tiffany rose gold necklace.

She just didn't know why Xia Ruoming bought one for herself.

Xu Fengwu carefully opened the metal box, which contained a star necklace and a small note with the words that Xia Ruoming dared not say.

"This is a paired necklace. The stars always accompany the moon. Maybe I am just one of the many stars in your night sky, but you will always be my moon and my only one. I feel happy just by your side."

The note also recorded how much money Xia Ruoming saved for the necklace every day. She was so busy with her part-time job that she had almost no time to rest.

The beautiful handwriting was like needles piercing Xu Fengwu's heart.


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