"Don't worry, I'll go check on the situation."
Yongqi looked at the anxious Xiaoyanzi, then at Benjamin sitting in the heavy rain, sighed, and began to comfort Xiaoyanzi.
Then he turned to look at Ertai and began to speak.
"Ertai, give me the umbrella you're holding."
"Give."
Yongqi took the umbrella from Ertai's hand and stepped out of the pavilion again.
"What are you doing sitting here? Why don't you go find shelter from the rain?"
Yongqi walked up to Benjamin and tilted the umbrella in his hand toward Benjamin.
"I'm waiting for the rain to stop. This sudden downpour comes and goes quickly. Once the rain stops, there will be a rainbow. I'm waiting for that rainbow. Don't worry about me."
Benjamin listened to Yongqi's words, looked up at the oil-paper umbrella above his head, met Yongqi's worried gaze, and spoke softly.
"Okay, you go wait for your rainbow, I'll leave the umbrella with you."
Seeing that Benjamin was in a bad mood, Yongqi didn't insist that he go back with him and handed the umbrella to Benjamin.
"No need, I'm already soaked anyway, we foreigners aren't afraid of getting wet."
Benjamin shook his head and refused.
"I'm sorry, Benjamin, we didn't mean it, please don't take it to heart."
Upon hearing Benjamin mention "foreign devils," and seeing the dejection and defeat in Benjamin's eyes, and reflecting on Benjamin's strange behavior over the past few days, Yongqi finally understood why Benjamin was acting so strangely.
A look of apology and guilt flashed across his eyes as he began to apologize.
"It's okay. I've always been an oddball among you, I should be used to it by now, right? You go back first, I want to be alone for a while."
Seeing the guilt in Yongqi's eyes, Benjamin slowly shook his head.
He was an outcast among them from the start, and he knew long ago that not everyone could accept him. But when he actually faced that rejection, he still felt terrible inside.
He's feeling a little unwell right now; he hasn't quite adjusted yet.
Give him some time, let him adjust.
...
"good--
I'm so sorry.
At that moment, Yongqi didn't know how to comfort Benjamin. He nodded, agreed, apologized softly, then bent down and forcefully shoved the umbrella into Benjamin's hand.
He turned and left.
"Yongqi, I'm giving up... You must treat her well."
Watching the departing figures, then looking at the umbrella that had been forcibly shoved into his hand, and then at the dark clouds beginning to disperse in the sky, he felt as if the dark clouds in his heart had also been cleared away.
Benjamin paused for a moment, then spoke loudly.
He'd thought it over, and he was giving up.
He shouldn't force something he knows is impossible; some things are destined from the beginning.
Even if he met Xiao Yanzi first.
Their identities and their cultural differences destined this to be a losing battle he could not win.
Knowing full well that he couldn't win, and that she had better options waiting for her, why didn't he try to let go?
Why trap yourself in this situation? You're hurting yourself and those who care about you.
During this period, because of my deep understanding and involvement with Shufangzhai, many things have been subtly changed.
Whether inside the palace or outside the palace now.
Since everyone spends most of their time together chatting and joking, and Xiao Yanzi is also clingy, there aren't many opportunities for Xiao Yanzi and Benjamin to be alone together, unlike in the original series.
Xiao Yanzi spent more time with Yongqi, so Benjamin wasn't deeply involved.
The moment I finished speaking...
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