[There is no reason. I love her, so what if she is not a good person?
If love could be controlled, it would not be love.
I know I love blindly, but I never regret it.
Life is too short. It is not easy to meet someone you love. Even if I am wrong, I still want to be with her.
If possible, let’s grow old together.
—————乣】
My name is 乣, I am eighty-two years old, and I used to be an orc from a mixed tribe.
I have a partner who is very pretty and beautiful and knows a lot of things that they don’t know.
I have a daughter, a beautiful little tiger. She is kind, gentle and knows a lot.
They are the most precious treasures in my life, but unfortunately, I am not with them.
Or rather, they all left me.
My partner did something wrong and was abandoned by the Beast God. I lived with her in a place on the edge of the Ata Forest.
We originally thought that we could stay together until old age, but fate was not on our side. Perhaps it was the mistakes we made that we had to pay the price for.
At that time, I was 42 years old and my daughter was 18 years old, just entering adulthood.
On the day of transformation, my partner, who had been crazy for many years, suddenly appeared in front of me in high spirits and said to me.
"Thank you for your love for me over the years. I'm leaving now. I'm sorry."
I was frozen at that moment. Why did she leave and where was she going?
Then, she turned into a burst of white light and disappeared in front of me.
Orcs bleed but don't cry, but I shed tears.
But that was far from the end. After her partner left, her daughter transformed and looked very much like her partner, both of them were exquisite and beautiful beauties.
However, the first words she said were: "Father, it's time for me to go too. I have to complete my mission."
I watched my daughter walk out of my sight step by step, and I was in a daze.
Why do you want to leave?
Is this a punishment for something I did wrong? But I really don't regret it.
Because I love her, I love her very much, and I can give up everything for her.
Even though she has left me now, I have never regretted it. I just can't figure out one thing and have always wanted to ask her.
Have you ever loved me?
Unfortunately, I never got an answer, and there will be no answer left for me.
I still remember the amazement I felt when I first saw Zi Yue, which occupied my lonely years.
I still remember the feeling of being moved when I heard her say, "I want to be with you," which filled my empty heart.
I believed in her unconditionally and did whatever she said.
He even brought poisonous potatoes to Mie to eat. Although I didn't know about it, it still hurts when I think about it now.
I don't resent others, I just hate myself a little.
If I hadn't gone hunting that day, I wouldn't have met Zi Yue. If I hadn't met Zi Yue, I wouldn't have indulged her in doing those things.
If she had been rescued by other orcs, perhaps she would not have been abandoned by the Beast God and suffered such terrible things.
But I know clearly in my heart that if time could go back again, I would still choose to appear at that time and place to meet the Zi Yue in my heart.
But this time I will stop her, I will hold her hand tightly and tell her that he can hold up the whole world for her and she doesn't have to go to extremes.
However, all this is just my fantasy.
Looking back now, I only feel sorry for one person in my life, and that is Mi.
She was the person I promised to take care of, but she was also the person I killed with my own hands. This will be something I will never be able to let go of in my life.
Now I am just a lonely person. My partner has disappeared and my daughter has left me. I deserve to be abandoned.
Cause and effect, there is a cause before there is an effect.
But I really miss my daughter and partner and want to see them again.
I know that people outside actually hate me, and the story between me and Zi Yue was spread all over during those years.
Even after more than ten years, the pain has not faded away. We have become a negative example for them to use to educate their young.
Although I feel guilty towards my daughter for having such a pair of despised parents, I... can't do anything about it.
All I can do is quietly show up in the tribe my daughter is in.
I didn't dare let them discover my presence, so I could only peek at my daughter from afar. I would be very happy to see that she was doing well.
I originally thought that my daughter would stay in one place all the time, so every time I went there, I would prepare some food for her and secretly put it at her door.
This caused a lot of jokes, and the orcs thought it was a gift from a suitor.
I was afraid that my daughter would not like it or it would cause her trouble, so I didn’t dare to give her so many things. I only gave her a little each time and picked out the things she liked.
Today, as usual, I came to the tribe again and quietly approached the house where my daughter lived, but found that it was empty and there was nothing there.
It was so clean that it looked like no one had ever lived there. I panicked, wondering if my daughter had discovered me and moved to another place.
I leaned weakly against the wall, wondering if I had made my daughter dislike me. I really didn't want to. I just wanted to see her and never disturb her.
"Hey, Yanhua actually left like that. They said they had taught them everything they needed to teach and were going to the next place."
"What a shame! I wanted to pursue her. She's really smart."
"Yes, she taught the witch doctor the different uses of herbs and carefully explained how to combine them for better results. She also taught him how to grow common herbs."
The sound of conversation gradually faded away, and my dead heart came alive. It turned out that my daughter didn't leave because she didn't want to see me.
Next place, where is the next place?
How can my daughter walk alone? It’s so unsafe on the road.
Not caring whether I would be discovered or not, I quickly transformed into a beast and chased after him.
My partner is gone, and as a father, I have nothing to give my daughter except to protect her.
I will leave when she finds a partner. My daughter is different from me. She can live like the sun.
It's like a search I've seen before.
I followed my daughter through many tribes and watched her teach the females how to braid their hair beautifully and make their clothes more beautiful.
Watch her talk to the orcs about hunting techniques, and listen to her plan a regular friendly match between the tribes, with many prey as prizes.
She was really smart and easily resolved the drawbacks of the methods proposed by Zi Yue back then.
And she also knows the limit. She won't overdo it, but she won't make those people feel too relaxed. She always has pressure on her head and temptation coexists with her.
For thirty years, I accompanied my daughter to visit many tribes.
But I never showed up, and I didn't dare let my daughter know because I was afraid.
This is the last tribe on the continent, and also my daughter's last day in this tribe.
From the age of eighteen to now, when she is forty-eight, she has never stopped for anyone for the sake of her mission.
I feel sad, but I have no right to stop it.
Although the lifespan of orcs can reach 120 or 130 years, and I am only in my seventies now, I know that I can't be with my daughter for much longer.
I have a premonition that my daughter will leave after she completes the mission she is supposed to fulfill.
I don’t know if my daughter will come back to see me. I want to see her, even if it’s just secretly.
Taking advantage of the darkness, I avoided the guarding orcs and quietly approached my daughter's house. Just as I was about to enter the yard, the surrounding fire suddenly became brighter and a group of orcs surrounded me.
"We saw you sneaking around outside the tribe a few days ago, old man. We finally caught you today."
"Tell me, what are you going to do in our tribe? What are your plans?"
"Could it be that some small tribe wants to steal our skills?"
At this time, a slightly older voice interrupted: "Hey, this person looks familiar."
After that, more and more orcs appeared, old and young.
I lowered my head and wanted to escape. Such a loud noise would definitely scare my daughter. I couldn't let them know that Yanhua had such a bad father and mother.
But... "幣." When this name was clearly called out, the dusty history was also brought up.
"That's the orc who left with an abandoned *** female."
"It is said that he has harmed innocent females. Why is he not dead yet?"
"There's a saying that if someone abandoned by the Beast God returns to its embrace, the Beast God will feel disgusted. So how could he dare to die?"
"Too."
Listening to those voices that seemed to ring in my ears, my heart did not feel much ripples.
But when he saw his daughter standing outside the crowd, he felt cold all over. Was she really going to face the final judgment?
Ziyue, can I go see you?
"People like this should be despised. We..."
"Father." A cool and sonorous female voice broke all the discussions.
Those present saw the female, whom they revered as a pioneer of wisdom, walk step by step to the orc they had just mocked, smiling heartily and warmly.
"You've finally decided to come out. Are you tired of protecting me for decades?"
When I heard my daughter's voice, I looked up in shock, my eyes became wet, and tears fell for the second time.
I always thought my daughter didn't want to see me or acknowledge me.
After all, my past was so terrible, so...
"Father, do you know that the thing I am most proud of in my life is having a father like you."
"Let's go home. I've done what I need to do. Please let me take care of you from now on."
At that moment, there was only one thought in my mind: it turns out that I still have a home.
···
The history of the continent many years later: There was once an orc who fell in love with someone he shouldn't have, and took away the female abandoned by the Beast God without any regrets, and gave birth to an intelligent pioneer who changed the continent.
The father was worried that his daughter would be viewed differently by others, so he secretly protected and accompanied her for thirty years, and they traveled all over the continent.
Sowing the seeds of love and hope, bringing us a new beginning.
The wise pioneer had already known about her father's company. In the end, she publicly stated that the pride of her life was having such a father.
All the orcs who had mocked the father before lowered their heads in shame at that moment.
Just as the wise pioneer said, that orc is indeed a father worthy of pride.
For nothing else but the love, responsibility and courage he possesses.
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