[You never know whether you will fall in love with someone you hate, dislike or have no connection with in the future, just like I will never know whether I will fall in love with you.
—————Emperor of Heaven】
I have existed since the beginning of the world, but I have long forgotten how long that has been.
Because it has been so long, so long that I have lost track of time.
Every day is very dull, just like the usual, with no ups or downs, but it doesn’t make me feel boring, just a little uninteresting.
Until they appeared, more and more powerful people, I felt threatened.
I know clearly that they can't surpass me, and even if they do, it won't affect me at all, but I'm still afraid.
This is probably what other people’s children are like.
Father God once told me that I was His most perfect child and that He had given me great responsibility.
However, gradually, his children grew like mushrooms after a rain, and each of them was very outstanding, so outstanding that I had to face them.
I want to become stronger, very strong, so that Father God will know that I will always be the best.
So I practiced very hard and tried every possible way to improve my abilities.
During this time, I met two people, both of whom were hurt by me.
Even now, I still remember what she looked like when I first saw her.
Dressed in red, she looked as passionate as fire, and her fair and delicate features seemed to be the product of a painter's meticulous craftsmanship.
A bright red Lycoris radiata on the forehead is very dazzling, and under the slender eyebrows, the pair of black and deep eyes are shining with charming colors.
It is like the most beautiful star in the sky, tempting those who desire beauty to touch it.
Beautiful lip shape, with bold nobility and elegance.
She just stood there quietly, the slowly flowing Sansheng River became her embellishment, and the swaying red flowers behind her became her foil.
She frowned, as if she was in deep thought, with a hint of sadness.
My feet moved uncontrollably forward, I introduced myself to her, and on impulse, I told her I wanted to marry her.
Now thinking about it, the encounter at that moment was really too beautiful, which made me lose my mind and soul.
From then on, he became addicted to the scroll she had created and could not extricate himself.
When I found out that she was the guiding flower I was looking for, and that Zhuque had a special relationship with her, I was furious.
To be honest, I don’t know what I was angry about. Was it because she rejected me, or because I knew about her relationship with Suzaku?
Or maybe it's both, but the latter is more important.
Forcing her to marry me was the first wrong thing I did.
Even though I knew she didn't like me, I still used threats and force to achieve my goal, just to satisfy the sudden emotion that came to my mind.
Although I succeeded in the end and she sat next to me, it was only that time.
When Suzaku appeared at the ceremony, I personally threw her into Chaos, and Suzaku jumped down with her.
I stood there for a full ten years, thinking about the same question for ten years: why?
Even at that time I didn't know her name. My emotions caused the power to shake, and I could only choose to sleep.
In Mi Yan, she is the second person I feel sorry for. With her help, I was able to become the cornerstone of the Three Thousand Worlds, utilize the power of the world, and practice well.
Time passed by minute by minute, and at that time I thought the two people were dead.
But unexpectedly, not only did they not die, they also loved each other so deeply.
Thousands of years have passed, and everything remains the same.
And it suddenly dawned on me at that moment that my previous plundering and domineering behavior was only because I had already fallen in love with her.
What a ridiculous yet obvious answer, I thought.
Unwilling to give up, he supported me and followed me all the way. I couldn't intervene, but I still wanted to follow.
The result of following is that you get deeper and deeper into it, and finally cannot extricate yourself.
When he heard her crying, he subconsciously stopped, just wanting to make sure if she was safe, without caring about his own situation at all.
Do you regret it?
No.
It's just a pity that I couldn't get her.
Even if I could do it again, I would make the same choice, because it is true love.
"Father God, thank you, but I feel that if I continue to look at them like this, my heart will ache even more."
I raised my head, and I, who had become nothingness, stared at the equally nothingness of the Father God, and murmured.
"My child, your fruit has fallen, but someone has given it new life."
The kind voice floated into my ears, but it only made me feel heavy and sad.
This is why I don’t want to live. I just took that silly girl Mi Yan away with me.
It is indeed the saying, cause and effect, where there is a cause there is an effect, and it was also sown by my own hands.
I gently blew away the mist in front of my eyes and looked down. I had no physical body, but I felt something hot sliding down from the corner of my eyes.
In the barren desert, a woman wearing a black robe and covering her face was walking slowly.
In her arms she held a flowerpot with a small tree in it.
I can clearly see that there is a thumb-sized fruit on the tree. It is shriveled and silent, but it still stubbornly exudes a little vitality.
Why.
Mi Yan, who was about to take a step forward, stopped and then became ecstatic.
"Emperor of Heaven, Emperor of Heaven, is that you? Is that you?"
She didn't hear wrongly, that little sigh was from the person in her heart.
But where are you? I can't find you.
Can you please come out? Is it inconvenient for you now? It doesn’t matter. I will wait, no matter how long it takes.
Mi Yan said this in her heart, but she didn't dare to speak out loud, because she was afraid that the Emperor of Heaven would hear her and would refuse to see her.
She didn't ask for much, she just wanted to be with him, nothing more.
After waiting for a long time and making sure that the sound would not be heard again, she lowered her head and crystal tears fell one by one into the flowerpot in her arms.
I was so sad that I didn't notice the tree inside moved, but the movement was very small.
Wiping away her tears, Mi Yan embarked on her journey again.
This life is very long, long enough for me to slowly look for you and plant the cause and effect tree that belongs to us.
The figure gradually walked away, and a small cloud quietly appeared above her head, shielding her from the scorching sun.
Sometimes living is really more painful than death, just like now, how can there be such stupid people?
I have been asking myself this question in my heart, but no matter what, I can't get the answer.
"Father God, although living is more painful for me than death, I am willing to live."
At least I want to be with her until the moment she gives up.
I feel sorry for her, but not in love with her. My heart still belongs to that person.
People cannot make mistakes. This is absolutely true.
Because sooner or later, you will return it.
Perhaps I will be able to be free when the new Lord of the Symbiosis of Heaven and Earth appears, or perhaps I will never be able to wait.
But at this moment, I still want to thank that person, thank her for teaching me what love is.
And there is Mi Yan, she made me understand that there are many kinds of love.
Under the vast sky, can I still be saved?
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