[Some things can only be understood after experiencing them.
Little did I know that it was already too late when I understood it at that time.
I only regret that if I had recognized it earlier, would it be a different color now?
—————Ge Qianqian】
It has been ten years since the model competition, and I have been in this world for eleven years.
I lived in a daze for the first year, but I still didn’t think I was paranoid at that time.
Maybe if it were someone else, they might not be as rational as I am.
Reading novels is my biggest hobby. I read during class, after class, and before going to bed.
The first time I saw a character with the same name as myself, I pursued her with an unknown love and some expectations, but her ending and result made me feel sad, angry, and even furious.
I think people who like to read novels often put themselves into the shoes of a character in the text and appreciate the character's experiences from her perspective.
Naturally, I am no exception.
After becoming Ge Qianqian, I experienced more deeply the feeling of powerlessness when there is someone around you who is better than you in every way, and you can't turn things around no matter how hard you try.
Plus, knowing the plot, I chose to snatch everything that belonged to her.
No, I should say that when I saw this book, I was jealous of its heroine.
Now, the hatred and jealousy have doubled, but I can't control it, and I don't want to control it.
Whenever I attend an event with her, people always talk about how great Wen Xunmi is and how outstanding she is.
That’s fine, but you still have to follow up with a sentence: you still have a long way to go, you need to learn more from Wen Xunmi.
Or, just cherish the fact that you have such a good mentor and friend.
I am like Wen Xunmi's little follower, little tail, little shadow, and I never get a straight look from him.
It will not be mentioned by anyone on their own initiative, and every time it is mentioned, it is just used as a stepping stone for Wen Xunmi.
I don’t know if others can understand this feeling, but I feel unfair.
I was jealous and madly unwilling.
They only see that I am not as good as Wen Xunmi, but why don’t they see that I am better than many other people.
Why do you only compare me with Wen Xunmi? Why don’t you compare me with a few people who are not as good as me?
Why should I always be the object of ridicule while Wen Xunmi always stands at the top?
At that time, I didn’t understand why. I just thought that if Wen Xunmi lost everything, I would be the focus of everyone’s attention.
The thought of revenge that already existed in my heart began to expand and invade, slowly making me take the first step.
She seduced her boyfriend, Bi He, who is also the protagonist of this book.
I liked the other person very much when I read the article, perhaps because I was looking at it from the perspective of the female supporting character Ge Qianqian.
The hero is very kind to the heroine, loving, doting and gentle to her, and Ge Qianqian also likes him cautiously.
But now that Ge Qianqian has become me, I won’t be so stupid as to think that I am not as good as Wen Xunmi and not worthy of Bi He.
I grabbed it without hesitation. It was really sweet, so sweet that it made me feel dizzy.
I tried every possible way to coax him into joining me in plotting against Wen Xunmi, and the first step was successful.
She obviously shouldn't be able to get up, but who knew that she was lucky enough to turn the situation around and become the victim instead.
It was because of this incident that I completely saw through Bi He's character.
He is irritable, philandering, chauvinistic, and likes to beat women.
Many times I couldn’t help but wonder whether the male protagonist who was so gentle and considerate to the female protagonist was actually the same person.
Or is it that because I am not the heroine, I am destined not to be liked by the hero?
There are more and more factors of dissatisfaction, and more and more anger and irritability.
Just when my sanity was about to collapse, I met him, the person I was willing to love for the rest of my life.
Even though I lost my legs for him, as a model, I understand what losing my legs means, but I have never regretted it.
Just because he deserves it.
He will quietly accompany me and make me happy when I am frustrated.
He will stand firmly by my side when I am despised and hated by everyone.
She used her connections everywhere and even knelt in front of his parents, begging them to help put pressure on the organizers not to disqualify her from the competition.
He would also secretly help me threaten the organizers when I was fantasizing about getting first place.
After being rejected, I still felt that I was incapable of helping her.
When Bi He was driving towards me madly, he would push himself away without hesitation and use his flesh and blood to block it for me.
How can I not love a man like this? How can I not try my best to be with him?
I was almost in despair at that time. Seeing that he was about to be hit by a car, I rolled and crawled up from the ground and tried to rush over.
It’s a very short distance, but it feels like the sea and sky are separating us, and we can’t reach it for a long time.
It was Wen Xunmi and their car that knocked Bi He's car away in time, saving his life.
At that moment, my legs went weak and I fell to my knees on the ground, tears streaming down my face.
How glad I am that I didn't try to scheme against Wen Xunmi everywhere.
I am so grateful, grateful that she didn't turn a blind eye to what happened just now because of what I did in the past.
I felt even more ashamed, and I understood why Wen Xunmi was the protagonist and everyone's darling back then.
Because there is always something about her that you like very much, something you want to pursue and want to get close to.
It was just that she was blinded by jealousy and unwillingness at the beginning, so she couldn't see anything.
Bi He was sent to prison, and Wen Xunmi and her husband went abroad, embarking on another stage of life that belonged to her.
And I also returned to the screen, and I still wanted to prove to the world that even if I am not as good as Wen Xunmi, I am still excellent.
I experienced a lot in those four years, and when I was about to go international, a turning point occurred.
Bi He was released from prison. Unable to find Wen Xunxue for revenge, he chose to attack Yu Chen.
The moment I hugged Yuchen, I smiled: "Yuchen, in this life, I can finally do something for you."
I thought I was going to die. Maybe it’s true what they say, the harm will last for thousands of years.
Only his legs were crushed and broken, completely useless, but everything else was fine.
When I opened my eyes again, I knew it was time to leave that flashy circle.
People should not do wrong things, because they will have to pay for it in the end.
No matter how much time has passed, the debt is still owed and will be collected sooner or later.
Wen Xunmi, I'm sorry, but I'm still jealous of you, but this jealousy is no longer mixed with any colored factors.
"Why are you blowing in the wind again? What if you catch a cold?" Xie Yuchen walked into the garden, gently picked up the person and walked inside.
No matter how time changes, it can never change the love between us.
Yuchen, thank you for loving me.
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