[It has been a year since the meeting. During this year, I have seen many beautiful scenery, but in the end, I still think that the scenery around you is the most beautiful.
————Early Sun
Ever since I first saw you in junior high school, that faint feeling has taken up residence in my heart. I don’t know what other people’s secret love feels like, I only know that mine is sweet.
————Xiao Mimi】
On April 28, I met a boy who amazed me. His name was Chuyang.
On April 29, I quietly hid outside the window of his classroom and watched him inside. He was holding a book and talking to a pretty girl sitting next to him. At that moment, I felt a little sad.
On April 30, I met him in the corridor. He was carrying the schoolbag of the girl next to him. I also learned the girl's name that day. She was his childhood sweetheart.
On May 1st, I learned that he was going to apply to Ouran High School, the best school in the entire J City, but the reason was not that, but because his childhood sweetheart liked the cherry blossoms in Ouran.
On May 13, I began to work hard to try to catch up with him in a year.
On June 20th, I knew he passed the exam and he was about to disappear from my sight.
….
On September 1st of the following year, I was successfully accepted by Ouran and became his junior again.
On September 10th, at the beginning of the military training, I met him. He was the president of the student union and was motivating us new students on the stage.
On September 30th, during the military training performance, he passed by me and smiled at me. That smile made me sink deeper and deeper into love.
The third year, on April 28th, I had been secretly in love with him for three whole years, and he was about to leave my life again.
On May 20, I heard from my roommate that many people confessed to him again, but he rejected them as usual, and for the first time he clearly stated that he had someone he liked.
On May 21, I accidentally saw him looking at Qingmei who was walking in front of him in the grove. I knew that he loved her, just like the way I looked at him.
Since then, I have stopped writing a diary because I told myself that I am not qualified for it now.
His childhood sweetheart is very outstanding, very beautiful, and very kind, but I am useless.
So I worked hard and became his junior schoolmate again. I thought that just being able to watch him silently like this would be a kind of happiness.
But I didn’t expect that my senior sister actually found out and confessed to me that I was cheering wildly in my heart at that time.
Then, with the help of my senior, I entered the distribution network circle and got one step closer to him.
My senior once asked me why I didn’t confess my feelings if I liked her.
I said, I was afraid, not of being rejected, but of not even having the chance to look at him like this in the future.
So I chose to remain silent, watching secretly, like a voyeur, living in my own world.
But I never thought of giving up. The radio drama "Deep Love Is Not As Good As Your Love" marked the beginning of the relationship between him and me.
In the drama, he abandoned his girlfriend because of me, and we lived a very sweet life together.
But a drama is just a drama after all, not reality. The intersections between us are indeed increasing, and we have gradually become very good friends.
One day, he stood in front of me and said to me.
"I like you, but I can't be with you for the time being. But I will adapt as soon as possible and let you slowly occupy my heart."
"If you are willing to wait for me, then in a year, I will come back here and give you an answer."
I was smiling at the time, but tears were rolling down my cheeks. I have never regretted waiting all these years. It was only one year. What could I not afford to wait for and what could I not afford to gamble on?
I said, "Okay," then stood on tiptoe, kissed him, and turned to leave.
This year is still April 28th, but it is the eighth year. Today is the day he and I agreed to meet.
I am under the cherry tree, waiting for the person who is coming.
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I thought my life would be just as I imagined, and I would be with my childhood sweetheart forever.
Until two other people appeared between us and they changed Qingmei and me.
We grew up together, but I never knew that Qingmei had a congenital heart disease. I was really confused at that time.
I couldn't help but wonder if it was because of this reason that Qingmei didn't dare to like me or didn't dare to be with me.
Even if I already have feelings for another girl, I can still say I like her.
But I still can't let go of my childhood sweetheart. The habits and likes of more than 20 years cannot be changed or forgotten overnight.
So I set a one-year deadline with that girl. If I could transform this feeling within this year, I would go back to be with her.
I know this is unfair to the girl, but is there fairness in love?
Today is the last day of the year as agreed. I look at the man and woman sitting opposite me, who are the darlings of the world, and smile with relief.
"Axun, seeing you and Young Master Jiang living so comfortably, I'm really jealous."
I teased them with a smile and gave them my sincere blessings.
A Xun had health problems once this year because he ate too much cake. Even though it was sugar-free, it still contained a lot of calories.
Jiang Jingchen was frightened and directly cut off her source of cake, which really made her unhappy for a while.
Looking back on those days, I feel that this kind of life is truly happy.
They are just an ordinary couple. They will get angry when they are unhappy and will never admit it when they do something wrong.
When they are happy, they will give each other gifts, or take each other out for a big meal, and when they are in a good mood, they will do all kinds of whimsical things.
But they are always by each other's side, indulging each other, pampering each other, and protecting each other.
To use A Xun’s words, I am the only one who can bully and mess with my people, how can others do that?
I think I understand what I really want, which is just such a plain but warm companionship and a love that can stand the test of time.
And I have already obtained it without knowing it. How could I not be moved by such a sincere feeling?
The cherry blossoms are falling in profusion under the trees, and the evening light shines through the shadows of the trees, creating a golden yet soft halo that brings peace to the eyes.
The girl in white sitting under the cherry tree with her eyes closed, looking like she is asleep, adds a touch of beauty to this picturesque scene.
I walked in quietly, and those eyes as clear as water opened slowly. When our eyes met, we both smiled.
I said, "Xiaoxiao, long time no see." Everyone calls her Mimi, but I think Xiaoxiao is better, my own Xiaoxiao.
She said, "Senior, I have been waiting for you, waiting to tell you that the taste of secret love is sweet."
They all say that I am bitter and humble, but I don’t believe it. Facts have proved that my secret love is the sweetest honey.
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