[Why are people fickle? It’s because they haven’t met the person who can make them not fickle.
How to make yourself less fickle and learn to fall in love with someone.
—————Singh Kram】
As the only Crown Prince of the royal family, I want to have power, money, and good looks.
This is not me being narcissistic, it's the truth.
Because of this, there are so many flowers and plants around me, and there are even more that are eager to curry favor with me and want to become my little brothers.
But the more this happens, the more disdainful I feel.
Maybe it's really that kind of bad nature. I feel that what is given to me is too easy to get, not challenging at all, and therefore I'm not very interested in it.
So I kept switching between pure females and sub-females, and would date them for a while longer if I felt better.
I also know what people outside think of me. It's nothing more than a scumbag and a bastard among males.
But I just can't resist this unreasonable pleasure, as if it was arranged from the beginning, and I can only follow this pattern.
That feeling is terrible. I want to break free, but as soon as the thought arises, it is always shattered.
It won't be long before this emotion disappears completely.
I don’t know what to say. It just feels weird and inexplicable.
Meeting her was an accident. Originally, Xunmi Jones was the one I liked the most, but unfortunately, my health was not good, so I couldn't make a move on her.
After all, she looked like a fragile glass doll, and I was afraid that if I used a little too much force, it would break.
So the appearance of Lola opened up a new path for me.
Although she was a sub-female, her smile was pure and clear, like a snow lotus.
Such a woman gradually attracted me, even though I was used to seeing slutty girls. Her interest even exceeded my concern for Xunmi Jones.
But damn, there comes another twist. The beautiful and enchanting Anne easily makes me feel so beautiful that I want to hold her in my hands.
At that time, whatever she said was what it was, and I basically agreed to whatever the conditions were.
It’s frustrating to say this, because most of the time, I don’t even know why I do what I do.
I met Xunmi Jones by chance and was attracted to her again, which made me less obsessed with Anne.
The situation was the same afterwards. Whenever I met Annie, I would become very, how should I put it, the kind of person who questioned myself.
When I'm with Xunmi Jones or Lola Brenda and Annie, I'll unconsciously pay attention to Lola.
It was so weird that I wondered if I was crazy. Fortunately, I came to my senses soon.
The snow lotus overwhelmed the angel in my heart and the gorgeous rose, becoming a beautiful scene that bloomed independently.
In fact, even at that time, I still didn’t understand what love was.
You could say I just like her and she's pleasing to my eye. Of course, I know I like Lola, otherwise why would I have been with her for more than a year.
That day, I ran into the angel in my heart in the corridor. She no longer smiled, and there was no gentleness in her eyes anymore.
Suddenly, I felt very confused and indescribably lost.
“Why did you let yourself get like this?” I remember asking myself because I really didn’t understand.
She seemed to glance sideways and realized it was me, then she raised her head, looked me straight in the eyes, and said, "You don't understand."
Just three simple words, but they directly deny me, so I naturally won’t be happy.
"How can I understand if you don't tell me? Maybe if you tell me, I will understand."
After all, she was a pure female whom I once loved very much. I still couldn't bear to see her become like this, as if she was just a shell.
How did she answer? Oh, I remember now. After all, that was the only time she spoke so much to herself.
"Even if I tell you, you won't understand, Your Highness Singh. Someone who doesn't know what love is and has never experienced love will never understand what it feels like for two people to be in love."
"I love him. When he disappears, I feel uneasy. No matter how carefully I take care of myself, I still neglect myself because I miss that person."
"For me, being able to fall in love with him and meeting him is the most meaningful thing in my life."
After a pause, she looked at me with deep eyes, but her next words were meaningful.
"Your Highness Singh, you are nothing but a coward. Your love is not precious at all."
"The affection you give is just something you can throw out and take back at will."
"Do you know why Lola doesn't want to go back to the capital with you? It's not just because I want to stay here, but also because of you."
After saying that, she walked away from me and didn't continue.
But I fell into deep silence, because why didn't you tell me directly?
I really wanted to question her from behind, but when I turned around, I found that she had disappeared.
This problem has become a knot in my heart. I think about it all the time and I can't forget it.
Every time I see Lola, I want to ask her why she doesn't want to go back to the capital with me, but looking at her happy smile, I can't bring myself to ask.
The king kept sending orders for them to go back, but that person was reluctant to leave.
I know she is waiting, waiting for that person with little hope to appear, but it has been almost three years, even if he is still alive, she should find him.
Why are you still so foolish as to believe that the other person is still there? Where does your confidence come from? Where does your determination and persistence come from?
Not long after, the man came back. After being missing for three years, he came back.
As they walked down the street, Lola and I stood in the crowd, looking at the two people with mixed feelings.
"Lola, can I ask why you don't want to go back to the capital with me?"
I finally couldn't hold it in any longer and asked the question that had been piling up in my heart and had no answer yet.
But I didn't wait for Lola's answer. She just looked at herself with a bitter expression, then turned and left.
At that moment, her back made me feel my nose was sour and my heart was blocked, which made me feel very uncomfortable.
This feeling is very strange, but it makes people feel alive.
That night, I couldn't sleep. I thought about it all night long, and I finally understood that what Xunmi Jones said was right. Because I don't understand love, because I don't have love, I don't know how to love.
But now I understand that liking someone is not the same as loving them, but it does mean that my heart wants to love them.
I found Lola and said, "Lola, I'm falling in love with you."
You have already walked into my heart without me realizing it, but I never thought about it, so I got confused.
If I can't fall in love with you, then no one else will be able to make me look at you differently. In fact, I have already learned how to love you a long time ago.
It was also at this time that I realized that since I confessed my love to her, my fickleness had never appeared again.
I am very happy now because there is someone I miss so much that I can change myself.
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