Long time no see, my darlings! After a year, I've finally finished writing this story and am posting the whole thing here.
Tong Su's story is truly the longest and most bumpy one that Chang'an wrote.
During this period, many things happened. Chang'an went from a college student who wanted to be a full-time writer to the torment of the contrast between ideals and reality, to graduation, to exam preparation, to starting a job, to becoming a wage slave beaten down by society... The hardships and struggles he experienced were a mixed bag of emotions that are hard to describe.
Last year, I was overjoyed to pass the job exam and start working, thinking that I could continue to write peacefully from nine to five, just like in college. However, real life hit me like a ton of bricks, leaving me completely stunned.
I woke up at six in the morning and went to bed at one in the morning. I didn't have a lunch break. As a new employee, I was unfamiliar with all kinds of work and had to learn and become familiar with everything. I encountered one difficulty and setback after another. For several months, I secretly cried at home every night. Tears would fall whenever I closed my eyes. I had nightmares every night and lost more than ten pounds. I looked up how to write a resignation letter, but my family forced me to quit. The strict requirements of my superiors at work forced us new employees to struggle with all our might...
I was completely devastated during the Chinese New Year holiday. It felt like I was split into two: the passionate, bright, and expressive me who loved to write, dream, and chat, and the timid, withdrawn, and depressed me who was now running away. We were two completely different people. When I looked at my past, I felt only alienation. Gradually, I became afraid to look at QQ and WeChat. Even a small red notification felt like a work order from my boss… All I could think about was escaping. I was afraid to go online, afraid to see all my old friends and acquaintances. When I finally mustered the courage to try logging into QQ, I realized I had even forgotten my password…
At the time, I felt relieved, but I was immediately overwhelmed by guilt. I didn't know how to face everyone. I couldn't even write on the keyboard. When I saw the software app, I was filled with fear. I uninstalled the software like a clown trying to escape, as if I were hiding in my den, where I would never see the sky again and no one would come looking for me.
Fortunately, things took a turn for the better after the New Year.
I received a call from Xian Yue. Looking at the address on the caller ID, I had a strange feeling this call was from her. I answered, and sure enough, it was her. She immediately burst into tears, and I cried too. She asked why I hadn't spoken for so long, whether I was alright, that she had nightmares, and that she was worried about me… I cried too, trying to comfort her, but I couldn't admit it. I was a cowardly runaway. I didn't know how I could face those who loved me so much after putting off this book for so many years… What touched me was that she never blamed me, only worried and comforted me. Later, we talked all night. Since I still hadn't recovered my QQ password, I added her on WeChat and reconnected with You Lan. I learned that while I was running away, You Lan had also gotten married (secretly, I saw her picture, she's so beautiful, hahaha!). They told me everyone was still thinking of me, still waiting for me. A wave of shame overwhelmed me, but at the same time, it felt like I had endless courage, allowing me to face everything that had happened.
I started to lift my head again and look at the world.
Then I found that my workplace seemed to have finally become more lenient, and the workload and requirements had been reduced a lot. I was finally able to catch my breath. Although I still faced many challenges, the pressure was not so great. I started to take out my keyboard and write at least a hundred words, no matter if I worked until 11 pm or 12 am.
As I write, it feels like I've escaped the world of corporate slaves and returned to the dazzling and vibrant days of my university days, to that summer when I first met you all. Cicadas chirped outside the window, a can of cola was still bubbling on the table, and the keyboard clattered as I typed, weaving that magnificent world.
Tong Su came to an end after many ups and downs.
The esports page underwent three major revisions, during which I was filled with sighs. Those who know Chang'an know that I used to be a loyal KPL fan. I worked hard to earn money and write articles in order to save up to go to offline tournaments to watch my idols and my favorite teams play. But—QAQ I saw a house collapse over there, so I went to see what was going on, only to find that it was my house that collapsed! My favorite players will probably never play again, and my favorite teams have scattered like stars in the sky, never to compete on the same stage again. Coupled with the blow from work, Chang'an didn't log into King of Glory for a whole month.
The original outline for Tong Su's story was to explore all ten worlds in the side stories, but due to various reasons, she will probably have to say goodbye to us for now. The rest of the story will likely be gradually told in the sequel to A Dang.
Chang'an's next plan is to focus on finishing writing "A Dang" and then posting it all online.
As for the new story, I do have an idea, but it doesn't quite fit the current popular style of QQ Reading, so I need to discuss it with the editor. Plus, I'm still very busy with work in Chang'an, so it's not easy to go online anytime soon. I'll keep the release date a secret for now! (?′?‵?)
At 9:13 AM on August 18, 2018, Tongsu peeked out, tilted her head, raised her eyebrows, and said hello.
On May 24, 2021, at 22:17, Tong Su, holding Crown Prince Xi's hand, turned around, smiled, waved, and said goodbye.
Dedicated to all those who love Chang'an —
It's hard to go back to the summer when we first met, but perhaps we can meet again in a new summer.
I will always be here, cherishing the old dreams, hoping to see you again.
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