Chapter 412: The Fall of the Willow
"Sister, why doesn't our father hug us? We are not praised and cared for by our fathers like other children are?"
"Because, he doesn't seem to love us."
In Chen Guiwu's words, the three of us brothers and sisters are just a part of him that supports this world.
He even hated the three of us, because he knew clearly that Sheng Wu needed the love of the three of us, but did not love him.
When Shengwu went to rescue Qinghuan, I watched my father, who was always as gentle as jade, strangle the three taskers with extraordinary strength and cruel means.
Then, he told me all the truths I had been pursuing all these years. Perhaps it was because he knew he was going to die, so he confessed to me, his puppet, before he died.
He said that the three of us brothers and sisters were created by him, not through human reproduction.
So, his shadow can be seen in all three of us brothers and sisters.
Not only the appearance, but also the personality.
The eldest brother has his calmness and ruthlessness, and can hate that he has not returned home for eight years, and has stayed in the army all the time, and has made an exception and sat on the position of young marshal with his own ability; Qinghuan has his arrogance and fearlessness, bravely lives the way he wants, and dares to disobey his father's orders.
As for me, as the villain he calls me, of course, I have his paranoid, morbid and repressed personality. The more I desire love and attention, the more obsessed I become.
To the extent that I hate Chen Guiwu, but I also have a desire for my family to be together forever.
Since I was a child, I have tried to act coquettishly to my father, wanting him to hug me and play with me, but he always looked at me and then threw me to the housekeeper Zhang Bo.
He would not say any words of praise to us, nor would he blame us. He was like a stranger under our roof, and he only provided us with food, clothing, shelter and transportation.
Big brother and Qinghuan are also relatively calm. Big brother is five years older than us and is like a little adult. He rarely plays with us because he is always learning various things.
Qinghuan is the same age as me and is my twin sister. However, she has been a quiet and quiet person since she was young. She is totally incompatible with my noisy nature and we stop communicating after just a few words.
I thought all families were like this.
It was not until I took little Qinghuan out of the house to play and saw the children being held and pampered by their fathers and the brothers and sisters playing together on the streets that I realized that only the Shen family was like this.
It seems that the family of four is lively, but in fact, there is not much warmth.
At first, I thought that this was my father's personality. He seemed gentle as jade, but in fact he was cold and slow to warm up.
I had never heard anything about our mother. It seemed as if she didn't even exist in the Shen family. I never thought that my father didn't love my mother. If he didn't love her, how could there be three of us siblings? I thought he just didn't want to talk about any sad things.
Later, when we grew up, Qinghuan and I were sent abroad to study. We were only twelve years old at that time. After going abroad, we felt even more isolated and helpless in a foreign country.
We were bullied by other kids and even our food was contaminated.
I was very angry at that time, so I found a way to lure those people to the river and almost drowned them. But they were scared by me and stopped.
I thought my father would care about us after I went abroad, but he didn't send me a single word.
At that time, I realized that my father didn't seem to like the three of us and didn't care at all.
At that time, I thought that he was born with such a cold personality.
Until one day, we heard that the eldest brother and he had a falling out over a woman.
My first reaction was, with a father like this, how could he possibly love someone?
I may seem careless, but that's the protective color I'm used to when I'm abroad. In fact, I'm more meticulous and suspicious than my elder brother and Qinghuan.
After I returned to China, I felt more and more that something was wrong, so I searched everywhere for information about my father and mother, but found nothing. It was as if the three of us siblings had popped out of nowhere.
But it just so happens that the three of us do have some similarities with our father.
Later, I stumbled upon the woman in the painting hanging in my father's room. She was so beautiful, almost unreal. I knew she was the one my father had been dreaming about for years. But if he truly loved her, why would he have given birth to three of them?
I know there is a locked yard in the Shen residence. I tried to break in, but I couldn't get in. It was very strange.
All sorts of strange signs made me have some guesses in my mind.
Until Sheng Wu appeared when he was twenty years old.
The moment she appeared, even though our ages didn't match, I knew from my father and elder brother's reactions that she was the one they liked, the 27-year-old woman eight years ago.
As for why she is 19 now, I think her father will know the truth.
I thought Shengwu's appearance had caused enough chaos, but unexpectedly, Qinghuan fell!
I know Qing Leng's personality best. The fact that Qing Huan is willing to be with her regardless of everything shows that there is something special about this young lady.
I felt at the time that this young lady might attack me.
Sure enough, what happened next confirmed my guess.
But this is not important. What is more important is that it was the first time I saw Sheng Wu, and I felt a different kind of excitement in my heart, just like...
I seemed to have seen her somewhere before, and even had the feeling that I had been attracted to her for hundreds of years.
But I was sure that it was my first time seeing her, so I felt very strange and surprised.
The appearance of the fake Sheng Wu later made me realize that there might be something different in this world, and my father is the key!
I have seen similar concepts of space folding in reverse time and space before, and I roughly guessed the secret of Sheng Wu. However, that fake Sheng Wu was able to know so much and imitate it so closely. This is not something a human can do.
After what happened, I couldn't help but be curious about Shengwu, her purpose, and... what kind of relationship bound Qinghuan and Big Brother, so I took the initiative to go to her.
But Shengwu has no interest in me at all, which makes me feel jealous and lost. Why, why can they all do it, but I can't get her attention.
I tried to get close to her, but she teased me and made me run away. But even so, I still like this feeling, this feeling of being cared for and noticed.
I even accompanied her and deliberately brought out Chen Guiwu, wanting to see his different emotions towards me. Sure enough, he got angry, he hit me directly, and kissed Shengwu.
And I was like a jealous child, deliberately touching Sheng Wu's hand in front of him.
This time, he was beaten again.
This was the first time he hit me, it was very new and subtle.
It turns out that he is not emotionless and incapable of loving, but he only loves Sheng Wu.
Never cared about the three of us.
Sheng Wu went to rescue Qing Huan, and I stayed behind, watching my father deal with the three taskers while blood oozed from the corners of his mouth and his hair gradually turned white.
Then Chen Guiwu kindly told me what I wanted to know most.
Who am I? Why do I have such a strange feeling towards Sheng Wu? And why doesn't he love us, or even hate us?
After listening to everything Chen Guiwu said, I didn't feel the rage and resentment I had imagined, but relief instead. If this is the case, then the father-son love and family warmth that I have always longed for are all gone.
Yes, Chen Guiwu knew from the beginning that Sheng Wu came to capture the three of us. This is the person he has been waiting for for five hundred and twenty-two years. How could he be nice to us?
And my life, I was like a puppet controlled by Chen Guiwu. I returned home early when Sheng Wu was about to arrive, and when Sheng Wu needed to gain my favor, she deliberately pushed me towards her.
So, when I said to Sheng Wu, "Thanks to you, I am a puppet who has been controlled all my life," it was not unfair to her, but I don't hate her.
Because I know that if Sheng Wu hadn't existed, Chen Guiwu might not have been interested in continuing to raise their three derivatives.
I knew that Chen Guiwu was at the end of his life, so I ate the chicken leg with poison in it.
Why do I like to eat chicken legs? It seems that since I was a child, this is the only dish Chen Guiwu has picked for me.
I can't choose how I live, but I can choose how I die.
My feelings towards Sheng Wu are complicated. I can say that I have never been moved by him, but I am derived from Chen Guiwu, and my feelings are influenced by his feelings towards Sheng Wu.
I can say that I was moved, but even I don’t know whether that heartbeat was real or influenced by Chen Guiwu.
Brother, Qinghuan, father, this time... our family is reunited.
In the Shen residence covered with heavy snow, Chen Zheliu, no, it should be Chen Xin, fell asleep in the Shen family he loved so much.
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Chen Zheliu's dark and morbid possessiveness is not only towards Sheng Wu. He is like a madman. The more he desires something, the more he wants to hold on to it. He is greedy for the superficial warmth of the Shen family after Sheng Wu appeared. He admires his elder brother Shen Junsheng and loves his younger sister Shen Qinghuan. He resents but also desires the care of his father Shen Guiwu.
She also longs for the same love that Sheng Wu gives to the other three members of the Shen family.
He is the person most like Chen Guiwu, because he has the repression and struggle that Chen Guiwu has been waiting for for five hundred and twenty-two years. He wants to break free from the constraints, but is trapped in these longing emotions.
Shen Guiwu is trapped in this world, and Shen Zheliu is trapped in the Shen family.
Fortunately, the world collapsed in the end and everyone was freed.
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Some may feel that the character of Chen Zheliu receives too little attention. Indeed, his world is largely unconquered by Awu. Let me explain why other perspectives aren't mentioned in the story. First, Chen Guiwu realized that his cultivation and lifespan could no longer sustain this world. He also sensed the deaths of Shen Qinghuan and Shen Junsheng. Therefore, when Shen Zheliu finally met Shengwu, he forcibly interfered with his fate, using the power he created to indirectly express Shen Zheliu's full affection for Shengwu, thus completing Shengwu's mission. This is also why Chen Guiwu's extra story states that the peak of Shen Zheliu's affection reflects his love for Shengwu, not the peak of his love. Therefore, Chen Zheliu's final moment was uncertain: was it his own heartbeat or Chen Guiwu's? Second, Shengwu had already guessed the relationship between Shen Zheliu and the other two and Shen Guiwu. She knew this ending would happen based on Shen Zheliu's inexplicable affection for her, and she was certain that Shen Guiwu loved her. So, in keeping with Sheng Wu's lazy, effortless, profit-seeking nature, knowing she'd ultimately gain something for nothing, she simply didn't pursue Chen Zheliu. This also served as a point of regret and irony for Chen Zheliu: an uncontrollable life, the love and attention she longed for but could not obtain.
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