My name is Qin Yun, and I am the emperor's third son. My mother was the apple of my father's eye. Everyone could feel how much my father loved my mother.
However, the Empress Dowager's health was not good, and the imperial physicians' repeated treatments were ineffective.
After my mother gave birth to me, her health deteriorated further. But she often told me that the thing she regretted least was choosing to give birth to me.
She said I was her sun, the best thing she ever did in her life.
I once heard from my nanny that my mother's parents didn't actually love her, and that the person who should have entered the palace back then was not her, but her older sister.
However, her older sister had a sweetheart, and once she entered the palace, it was like entering a deep sea. Even if she didn't have a sweetheart, her older sister was unwilling to enter the palace. So her parents made her enter the palace in her sister's place.
Moreover, my mother used to be in good health, but the maids in my maternal grandfather's mansion felt that my mother was not favored, so they cut back on my mother's charcoal during the cold winter days at the end of the year, which almost caused my mother to freeze to death. Fortunately, it was eventually discovered.
Although her mother hadn't frozen to death, she had fallen ill and her health wasn't as good as before. The servants dared not mistreat her anymore, but she was never favored by her parents.
When I first heard about this, I was so ignorant and confused that I asked my mother, "Why don't you hate them? Don't you feel any resentment towards them?"
At that time, his mother gently held him in her arms: "It's not that I don't dislike them, but that I don't hate them because hatred causes a person pain. I'm letting them go because I also want to let myself go, so I don't live in the pain of hatred. Besides, no matter what, they raised me, which is why I'm so grown up."
When they asked her to enter the palace as a condition for repaying them, the Imperial Concubine knew that she would no longer owe them anything.
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Perhaps it was the influence of my mother during my childhood, but I didn't hate my father. I knew he resented me, and I also knew he just loved my mother too much, so I hated him even less, because my mother was truly a very good person.
However, after my mother passed away, I went to another concubine's palace. Although the concubine did not treat me harshly, she was not kind to me either.
She wanted to use me to win the emperor's favor, but she didn't know that the emperor didn't want to see me again, because seeing me would remind him of his mother.
I lived in a loveless environment, surrounded by palace maids and nannies who treated me coldly but dared not do anything to me. All that remained was endless schoolwork.
Just when I felt extremely tired, just when I wanted to leave with my mother, I met a very cute little girl.
The little girl's eyes were red, as if she had been crying. She said she had gone to the palace with her mistress, and she only wanted to get her mistress a cloak, but she got lost.
I told the little girl exactly where the banquet was. The little girl's face immediately lit up with joy. She pulled several pieces of candy from her pocket and placed them in his hand. "Thank you, brother. Don't be sad. These are candies Miss gave me; I'll give them all to you."
"You've given it all to me, so what are you going to do with it?"
The little girl still had a happy smile on her face: "It's okay, I'll still get it. Even if Miss doesn't give it to me, I can earn money to buy it if I want it. Besides, my Miss is so kind, she'll give it to me again."
Will everything that is lost be regained?
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Yes, more than a decade later, looking at the woman lying next to me, he felt that warmth of having family again once more.
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