Bei Menlin had no idea what Yi Mu was talking about. It was clearly him who had seduced him first...
Yi Mu tilted his head back and drank the wine in his cup in one gulp.
He stood up, but his legs felt weak, and he almost fell.
Bei Menlin stood still, his feet seemingly glued to the ground, unable to move an inch.
Yi Mu picked up another glass of wine and held it in front of Bei Menlin.
"Drink this glass of wine, and it will be the end between us."
Bei Menlin remained motionless, like a wooden figure.
Yi Mu lowered his head and gently took his hand.
Bei Menlin felt that the hand holding his was very cold.
He remembered that Yimu was most afraid of the cold.
Yi Mu handed the wine glass to Bei Menlin, whose breathing had become long and heavy at some point.
"We have a saying that relationships require mutual effort; you love me, then I will love you. Also, lovers need to trust each other to go the distance."
Yi Mu swallowed hard, his eyelids feeling heavy.
“When you brought He Feng back, I chose to believe that you hadn’t betrayed our relationship. I chased after the caravan all the way to the north, abandoning my subjects and people, just to wake you up.”
Bei Menlin clenched his fist, his nails digging deep into his palm.
"I only ask you to listen to one explanation, but you won't listen."
Yi Mu chuckled softly, "Fine, don't listen then. I'm tired too." He was so tired that he didn't even have the strength to speak.
It was clearly you, Xi Junyan, who seduced me first.
I fell off a cliff and died while trying to escape Guan Shengye.
In the third world, I met Guan Shengye in his middle age, and Zong Ao, who vowed to protect me to the death. I, without any backbone, was moved.
I became a vampire, and then I met you, Xiang Cong. We've lived together for over a thousand years.
When I met you, Xie Tuoyu, you insisted on being with me despite your grandmother's objections.
At that time, I thought that no matter what world I go to, I must find you as soon as possible.
Ye Jianglin, you protected me the most. That's when I fell completely in love with you. I didn't care about your identity or who you were. I just loved you.
But you, Zeng Guangzhao, hurt me the most, so much so that I forgot everything.
I thought that as long as you could like me, I would be willing to keep traveling through this universe, because birth, aging, sickness and death have no meaning to me. One day, I will meet you.
But I never considered the possibility that you might not love me.
If the one I love doesn't love me, what's the point of me traveling through time?
Since that world, I have started trying to block out my memories.
But there's no way around it. Falling in love with you again is such a simple thing. Once you fall in love, you'll remember everything from before.
I love Suo Yanghe, I love Hu Tiantan, and I also love you Beimen Lin.
But you, Bei Menlin, hurt me even more than Zeng Guangzhao.
Why? Why am I the only one with memories? Why can't you remember every little thing that happened between us?
I'm not afraid of loving you more, I'm just afraid that you don't love me at all.
Love is reciprocal. If it's just me giving all the time, I'll get tired, and one day I'll be so exhausted that I won't want to take another step forward.
I will always be Yimu, while you are one of countless others, one without any past memories.
My mind is filled with too many memories, both sweet and burdensome.
That's enough. I can't bear the weight of ten lifetimes of love anymore.
Yi Mu lifted up Bei Menlin's hand that was holding the wine glass and personally told him to drink the wine.
Then, he turned around and slowly walked out of the room, step by step.
In Bei Menlin's world, sunlight fell inch by inch, and ice once again swept over him, freezing his heart.
He was unable to move from beginning to end.
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