Lin Yang continued to describe how he felt at that time.
"I dare not tell you, I even feel that I may have accidentally cheated on Yu Yang while swimming."
Later, Dr. Mo told me, and I was relieved. I hadn't let Yu Yang down.
Yu Yang came back and admitted it. I was furious that he wouldn't tell me the truth, and I cursed him out. But I knew he loved me, and he was afraid... [Yu's mother is not Lin Yang's mother; they are unrelated. I just don't know how to name people.]
Even after being flushed down the sewer by his mother (even though it wasn't intentional), Yu Yang was still very scared, afraid that he would be abandoned if he were discovered.
He was selfish; he wanted Lin Yang to be with him, and he wanted to... keep it a secret for as long as possible.
It's okay, she loves him and feels his love, so it's alright.
If she doesn't feel it and only feels deceived, then there's a connection. She would kick Yu Yang to the curb without hesitation and take the baby back to her parents' home.
Because of love, you can feel his love.
"I...have regained my memories."
Looking inside, Yu's mother's eyes were full of worry. "But I'm still afraid to face it. I'm not afraid of my son, I'm afraid to think about the day I personally flushed my son down the drain. I almost killed my son."
Because of this, I particularly blame his father, and I also blame myself.
If I had been braver back then, if he had told me the truth then, I wouldn't have treated my child like that.
What kind of person am I? How terrible am I to do something like this to my own son? I can't accept it. I really can't accept it.
Yu's mother hates herself... she hates herself for hurting Yu Yang, for hurting her own child.
When she finally realized what she had done, she couldn't believe her eyes. Looking at the dying little fish, she broke down...
She lost that memory after that, only knowing that her child was very weak after birth, and that Yu Zhe went to work, as he needed to protect the country and was always in the team.
"I forgot about those things later."
All I remember is that Yu Yang was in poor health, and my cheap husband was often away from home. His monthly salary arrived on time, so I didn't need to worry about money. I just needed to take good care of Yu Yang and be a full-time mom.
During holidays, you'll receive red envelopes and messages.
I told myself that this was fine.
Many couples are like this; they don't need feelings for each other. As long as the money is sent back and they know they need to support the family, she doesn't care.
Even if she doesn't come back, she can still do what she likes, which is great.
As Yu Yang grows up, I develop an intense aversion to fish. I forbid Yu Yang from going into the water. Perhaps subconsciously, I still remember those things.
Just now, when I saw that fish, and the instant I saw Yu Yang, I remembered him.
Yangyang, I thought you didn't know... I thought no one could understand how I felt.
Suddenly realizing her child was gone and only a fish remained, she instinctively thought her child was missing and instinctively washed away the fish.
Then came Yu Zhe's deathly pale face; he had transformed into a fish before her eyes and brought Yu Yang back...
It was only then that she realized what she had done... she had killed her own child...
She thought no one would understand such a breakdown.
Even Yu Zhe couldn't understand it. He probably wanted her to forget, to live a good life, but what she needed wasn't to forget, but to understand...
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