Wang Cuihua was truly disappointed; she had given everything for this daughter.
My daughter is so immature. She used to want to study science, like computer science, but I stopped her. What's the point of a girl studying science?
For liberal arts graduates, becoming a teacher or a civil servant is an excellent career choice.
I argued with her for a long time back then, and it took her a long time to finally get her daughter under control.
I thought she would listen to me and go to a local university, but unexpectedly, she chose to go to a university in another city, and even her major wasn't one she liked.
This made Wang Cuihua very unhappy, but there was nothing she could do.
It's always harder to discipline a daughter when she's not around.
She thought that she must bring it back after graduating from university.
Then we can discipline her properly. She's her mother, how could she possibly harm her?
Marry someone from nearby, so she can help take care of the children and help her manage them in the future. Wouldn't that be better?
Having a relaxed job and being able to visit them often—that's what a good daughter should do.
No matter how capable a woman is, in the end she still has to get married, have children, and take care of her family.
They treat her so well; everyone in the family and among her friends knows that.
To prevent her from having a second child, we sold our big house and bought a smaller one for her.
She even quit her job to take care of her daughter.
Leng Yuanyao could see the disappointment in her mother's eyes, just like every time before.
"Mom, I didn't want to lie to you either."
Does her mother love her? Yes!
She was well aware of this, but her love was truly too repressed.
My mother always wants to control my life and everything about me.
What I like to eat is up to my mother. If she says something is nutritious, then I have to like it.
What clothes she wears is decided by her mother. All her clothes are bought by her mother and are all expressions of her mother's love, but she doesn't like them.
Even in high school, her mother still picked her up and dropped her off, which everyone envied. But she knew that her mother wanted to control all of her time.
Perhaps it was a form of rebellion; she didn't want to live like this forever.
She didn't like this kind of life.
She knows herself well. If she were to marry someone she met through a blind date, she knows what her future would be like. She doesn't want that!
She didn't want her future to be completely controlled by her mother.
"Mom, I have my own dreams, I have a job I like, and I have my own hobbies. None of what you're talking about are what I want."
Why am I doing this? It's because I'm afraid you'll tell me I took it back.
"Mom, I'm all grown up now, I'm begging you, can't you let me choose my own life?"
She truly didn't know if she would be happy with Ziqian in the future.
But at least, she had imagined what their wedding would be like, and they had planned their future together.
The blind date might come from a well-off family, making the mother very satisfied. But if she's picky about him, won't he be picky about her too?
If there's no affection between you, how can you live together as a couple?
But what can you really tell from a few days of blind dates?
What if someone comes from a wealthy family but has poor character? What if they assault someone?
These are things that mothers don't consider; she just wants her to be obedient.
"You never think about what I like or what I care about; all you think about is what you want me to do."
I feel like you're doing this for my own good, that I should be grateful to you, that you've given me everything, but none of that is what I want.
Mom, the life you wanted back then wasn't the life I wanted.
I'm too cowardly to explain things clearly to you, so I can only use this method to force you to agree.
I didn't discuss it with Ziqian; it was just a decision I made in that instant.
I think if I get pregnant, you'll have to agree, right?
But I didn't expect you all to be so excited.
Leng Yuanyao had never told Nie Ziqian any of this, because she was afraid that if she did, Ziqian would no longer want to be with her.
Actually, if I said it, no one would believe me, and no one would understand.
Some might even say that she's an ingrate.
Her mother takes care of her every need, including eating, drinking, and toileting, and even buys her clothes and pays for her tuition. How is that not good?
But none of those were what she liked.
She doesn't like eating those things; they make her feel nauseous and want to vomit.
She didn't want those clothes; she didn't like that style.
Those are not what she wants.
She was like a puppet on a string.
She had to do whatever her mother told her to do, and she also had to smile and say, "Mom, I love you."
How fake is it?
She's just selfish.
She's an ingrate.
She just doesn't like it.
Her preferences were of no importance to her mother.
She was simply forced to live the life her mother wanted.
"The school you want me to go to is your dream school."
The food you cooked for me was to your liking.
The clothes you bought me are the ones you used to want to wear.
Even the blind date you introduced me to was probably the one you were hoping for.
You see, you don't actually love me. You just want me to live the life you want.
Finally, Leng Yuanyao revealed her thoughts.
"I know that saying this hurts you, makes everyone think I'm selfish, and makes everyone think I'm an ingrate."
I really can't hold back anymore. Every day in the past, all the time in the past, was given to me by you. You wanted me to be that kind of child.
I cannot have my own hobbies, I cannot have my own dreams.
You said you love me.
Look, just one sentence: "You love me."
One sentence: You've sacrificed so much for me.
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